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yungang_grotto | Needing support Things are good... talking things out. but Uranian issues have cropped up again for examination. I had a dream that i was yellin at him aboutthe girl he was in love with. I merely told him about the dream and it has really affected him... he's so sensitive. So we're crying this morning and he knows i love him and don't want to hurt him and calls me darlin but he's sick to his stomach and just all this inner turmoil over loving multiple people. But our relationship is growing more solid and I'm more sure than ever that it's developing in a truly healthy way. So maybe we'll get through this matter. Still it affects us. I am thinking aspects in any chart are important in large part because of how corresponding transits wind up affecting them. They respond dynamically, in the ever-present present... So in our case Mars is part of an incomplete star of David (completed by my Venus in Libra/his Valentine and Ascendant (wide) in Gemini, and controvertially, the vertex.. anyway, when aspected by conjunction, Mars in this chart also involves a lot of flow and positivity, including a trine to chart ruler Uranus. So that could be alright. Hoping so. Planning to post the chart with transits asap.. Thanks for any support you can lend |
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yungang_grotto | You'll notice perhaps that t.Juno has recently crossed our composite midheaven and we have now become more visible and known as a couple in our circles, for better or for worse! It's a "thing" now, as one person put it, when interrogating me... lol... sigh. He's very secretive but not unable to rise to publicity and fame when he feels good about things. 11th house Sun and Moon in Aries after all. It's the Saturn in Scorpio that gets him. But it's all good. We're good. It's noteworthy too that lovely conjunctions to our composite Sun/Mercury or Venus automatically square Pluto and the Nodes. Our good times are intensely transformative... we don't get one without the other.. |
yungang_grotto | Huh. Transiting Eros is conjunct Pluto right now. I'm always turbo Plutonian so I'm a terrible barometer. Anybody feeling this conjuction right now? |
llewsacm | Hey girl! You talked it out and that's what matters most. Any relationship where you can have open communication AND the feelings to go behind it are truly amazing. Your plutonian nature should appreciate that! 😊 Maybe the full moon running through your 7th has something to do with it as well? This moon is asking us to open our eyes and GO! It wants us to get motivated to do what we know we need to do, whatever that is. Here in your 7th, it could be prompting you both to work towards those 7th house qualities. Perhaps this is helping you both open up to the sore spots and start healing? Plus, you've got a shload of planets that are being triggered by that Pluto transit. My take is you are evolving as a couple and with Pluto moving into your 12, its gonna bring out a deeper layer. Btw...i did see the eros/pluto conjunction. All I can say about that is I have spring fever baby!!!! Lol! |
yungang_grotto | Ohhh sh** i didn't even see Pluto on the cusp of the 12th. Daaamn. Thanks! Means a lot to have fresh eyes on this ol thang |
yungang_grotto | Yes.. Pluto is going to be activating our Moon-Uranus midpoint... kinda speaks to the dream forcing my deepest darkest ugliest subconscious dross into the limelight of our emotional experience (if we go by John Sandbach on the matter: http://john-sandbach.blogspot.ca/2010/11/planets-activating-moonuranus-midpoint.html?m=1 ) He is taking this dream to be the 'truth'--a huge theme for us is sussing out the truth (composite Veritas EXACT on his North Node, and exactly parallel his NN too.. he has Veritas conjunct ascendant natally and we have Veritas=Sun/Moon midpoint double whammy in the synastry...) Mm.. Anyway I'm uncomfortable, needless to say, with his knowing my most shameful psychological backwaters! But it's probably important and ultimately beneficial to share them--in a loving way. I just never want to hurt himand i feel like even telling him i yelled at him in a dream is like hurting him! I don't want him to think that anger is my main deepest emotion regarding him and her because it's not. It's there though i guess. i feel like i need to keep the door open for him to go to her if he wants to and paradoxically this keeps him faithful to me... it's complicated i guess.. Jupiter/Uranus conjunct near his descendant and Jupiter ruler thereof after all. The thing is that I also know a lot of his deep secrets and things he's never told anyone and which haunted him his whole adult life... so really we are in this one together.. likely we both will indeed heal from exposing these wounds and vulnerabilities and unsavoury things. I must be unconpronisingly honest and unafraid. And remember to be kind. No fear where there's real love right? |
yungang_grotto | T. NEPTUNE is square his Jupiter/Uranus and our composite Juno... he's also just very susceptible to Neptune stuff.. it's on his South Node and square his Moon. My Saturn is there on his Neptune and I feel like geeently telling him to please please snap out of it and that it was only a dream. Sigh. Just gotta do it with tact. Pussyfooting too much won't help anything |
Faith | Aw, what a beautiful thread, yungang. Don't feel bad! quote: i need to keep the door open for him to go to her if he wants to and paradoxically this keeps him faithful to me... it's complicated i guess..
I know the feeling, I've been there, and it's not paradoxical to me...it just makes it hard...because how do you ever leave someone who loves you so much, they would let you go on to someone else?? I was the loving-and-letting-go one before. But...after a few years...I basically had to let myself go, out of that bond. But every situation is unique. As for the dream, sorry it upset him...12H Mercury opposing 6H Venus...the whole, open, universal 12H truth impinging on perfectionist, helper 6H Venus' ability to cope with it all? I haven't seen you mention tr Scorpio Mars on composite Lilith which feels like a major part of this. quote: No fear where there's real love right?
I don't know but ----> |
yungang_grotto | Thanks for your understanding and wisdom, Faith! The keeping the door open thing i wasn't sure would make sense to anyone... it's this thing i do where i trust people to protect myself.. kind of another thing.. hoping that if i show trust folks will be trustworthy. I think i need to learn to discern where that's warranted though because it leaves me vulnerable. He's here now and has apologized for this morning and said he loves me for who i am and thanks me for being real.. being me. . And i remember the bliss of real understanding.. he understands it was just a dream (i keep needing to remind myself not to underestimate him!)--it's all so very complicated though and he is very permeable emotionally so things just get in there and he needs time to sort it out (who doesn't?)... Indeed, tMars on Lilith could have something to do with something! I think he is in fact capable of a long term deep commitment but it needs time to build. He's mature in this way... he is loyal to this other friend because she and he have been developing their bond for 2 years plus.. Our relationship is beginning under the auspices (??) of t.Saturn conjunct his descendant which I figure in our case is a positive sign. Patience is a virtue right? |
yungang_grotto | TLilith just crossed over my Venus as well. |
yungang_grotto | Told him this morning about the transit and how worse things could happen! Lol... if this is what volatility and explosiveness look like for us we are doing pretty good |