hi everyone! i'm new to the forum and i have a little doubt.this is the synastry between me and my ex boyfriend: https://www.astro.com/cgi/chart.cgi?showgif&lang=e&gif=astro_61gw_anonymous_anonymous.28613.80955.png&res=100
i would really like to know what he feels or felt for me.... if he was attracted to me even though the only aspect that his Venus makes with me is a conjunction with my mars, and his Venus makes parallel to my sun but with an orb of 1°49' (too wide)
so, this means that he didn't really love and appreciate me as a woman? he was only interested in sex?
the first stage of our relationship for me was amazing... he has often let me know that he misses me (he is also very very very very proud) but I have doubted his words and I feel that he only seeks me for sex
i focus on this because i really was obsessed with him and i'm still in love, but my self love comes first
we have hot aspects: venus-mars dw, his mars on my ascendant and sun-mars dw
also his pluto is parallel my ascendant and my pluto parallel his mars, + his venus on my sun (too wide) also my venus on his sun but with a tighter orb (Parallels)
this relationship has really marked me and i feel that I'll love him forever, but my pride is very strong, and my obsession is growing everyday.
Davison (just in case):
https://www.astro.com/cgi/chart.cgi?showgif&lang=e&gif=astro_64gw_anonymous_anonymous.28213.80958.png&res=100
thank you in advance
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