posted February 19, 2024 11:04 AM            

How did they treat you?

Do they take action, and follow through on their word?

How was their Mercury sign, aspect, and house placement?

posted February 20, 2024 03:26 AM            

How am I in relationships?

A hopeless romantic and serial monogamist.
I’m falling in and out of relationships constantly.
Relationships happen to me.
I’m a ‘0 to 100 and 100 to 0’ -type of person.
I feel so intensely when I have a crush on someone … only to eventually ghost them, just a few months later. I’m not malicious when doing that and usually reach out again after some time..

I’m aware of all of this and try to control my impulses but it’s not always possible.

I feel like in this lifetime, I’m just meant to experience many different people and types of relationships. It’s like I’m just learning, what human interaction actually means! It’s like I have to experience the whole spectrum and variety to finally be able to settle.

I’ve been quite judgmental towards myself in the past.. feeling ashamed of my fickle nature, always downplaying the actual number of relationships and sexual partners I’ve had. The way I am in relationships is not something that’s particularly tolerated in society, especially for a woman. As a man you can get away with it. As a woman, having had multiple partners, even in an open society, is not considered that ideal! Even a promiscuous man would prefer a girlfriend, who’s less experienced than him. It’s fine, when you’ve had 3-5 boyfriends until the age of 30. But when you’ve had more than 10 ... as a woman, you’re supposed to better not disclose too much about it.

But I’m at a point now in my life, where I accept and embrace this part of myself, instead of judging.

My Sun and Venus are luckily, aspected positively. I don’t have trauma concerning both signs and all my sexual experiences have been fun, enlightening and mostly beneficial… and also quite dramatic, but I like it this way.

I strive for a serious relationship, it’s something I idealize a lot.. this larger than life, soulmate type of love.. I long for it so badly and have been trying to find this in every previous relationship so far, but this fantasy always escapes me. My longest relationship so far only lasted 4 1/2 yrs and I was really forcing it until I couldn’t anymore and had to break free. I’m addicted to being in love, the initial stages, but after that I honestly don’t know how people manage to stay together. I feel trapped as soon as the initial feeling of infatuation fades.

I still hope to one day find my person. With my NN in 7th house/Taurus this actually might be part of my destiny.
I’m also a sensitive person. So wanting a genuine companion, I can share my inner life with, is part of my nature, I think.. I hope I won’t be too old, until I meet them.

Hope this helped.

posted February 20, 2024 12:21 PM            

And that general directness continues into any relationships I have. Which I do feel my Mars & Venus in Aries is responsible for.