posted April 04, 2021 06:25 PM
Hi Graham, I was wondering if you could help me come up with a story to explain the energy of a connection I have/give me feedback?
I do not myself believe in past lives, but see it as a tool or language for making sense of the energy between people...
In that vein, yesterday I read that Mars square composite nodes could reflect a past life where there was an inappropriate sexual connection
In our synastry, these are the aspects I’m wondering about:
- my North Node in Capricorn conjunct his true Lilith & SN
In our composite,
- Jupiter conjunct North Node
- Mars/Mercury/Neptune conjunction, square Jupiter/NN
- Mars/Mercury/Neptune conjunct my NN & his SN
- composite NN square our natal nodes/his true Lilith
- composite NN in Libra, SN in Aries
From this, I feel that this story could match:
He was my mentor in a religious setting, maybe training me to be an advocate for women who couldn’t speak for themselves & I fell in love with him because I admired his knowledge & understanding but he ended up feeling guilty for us getting involved sexually because he felt he’d abused his power & diminished the work he was training me for, whereas it was empowering for me for us to get involved with each other & a conscious decision on my part ...
our lessons now could be to learn to see each other as equal partners; learn to depend on each other slowly & holistically, not making any hasty decisions to get entangled with each other; for me to value my own self-resilience & not put him on a pedestal; & for him not to see himself as overresponsible for me