posted January 09, 2007 07:02 AM            

I missed your update and I'm sorry.

As long as you're feeling better, that's the main thing...but what was that doctor? "Double depression"?! I'm not talking about what you might have, but the diagnosis sounds simply ludicrous. One cannot have both major depressive disorder and dysthymia simultaneously. One either is diagnosed with major depressive disorder, or dysthymia. If one has met the diagnositic criteria of one of them, one definitely cannot possibly meet those of the other.

posted January 09, 2007 11:38 AM              

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Mood Disorders
Double Depression
Double depression is an expression used to define a condition in people who experience long-term mild-to-moderate depression (dysthymia) and eventually progress to having episodes of major depression superimposed on the dysthymia. Almost always experiencing depressed mood, these individuals cycle between the mild-to-moderate lows of dysthymia and the deep lows of major depression.

To be diagnosed as having double depression, a person must have experienced at least two years of mild-to-moderate depression-thus qualifying for the dysthymia diagnosis-prior to the onset of major depression episodes.

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Most of the time when people talk of “depression,” they mean “major depression.” Major depression is generally severe, and fairly brief in duration—lasting perhaps weeks or months. In major depression, mood drops markedly, and is usually accompanied by poor sleep, loss of appetite, weight loss, hopelessness, and often with suicidal ideas. In contrast, DD is not as severe on a day-to-day basis, and it lasts for years (even decades) rather than weeks or months.

Many times, people who present for treatment of depression actually have “double depression.” That is, they have a longstanding problem of chronic low-grade depression, but now they are also in a state of major depression. It is important to try to tell if a person has double depression—since if they are treated and simply return to their usual chronically depressed state, they have not really gotten well!

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posted January 09, 2007 12:54 PM              

Maybe not rely on those diagnosis too much hey girl...

Only we know deep down how we feel...how can anyone else possibly feel our feelings

I understand that "lost" feeling....finding yer way...its very difficult...at times.

Hey it gets better as we get older...!!

I am happier in myself now than I ever was...

When I was 18 I went to see a shrink and he told me I was "normal". I went to see him to be told I was mad, cos I thought I was...

He told me I was very sensitive...

What a blessing and a curse that can be.....

posted January 09, 2007 03:59 PM              

do you have any hobbies? i tend to obsess over my hobbies with much more happiness than i do with anything else, it helps cope with any depressing thoughts. and i mean obsess. in a way, sometimes i believe that makes me cold and nerdy to others but i can't live without living out one of my hobbies. also, i rather work to death than to socialize to death (even with my own family).

i have saturn transitting my 12th/1st house as well and from what i read - during this type of transit, for the most part, those being affected will discard any people or situations in their life that are no longer useful and come out much stronger. i'm having a horrible time trying to go to sleep - for someone who has to have all lights out to sleep and have it be completely silent, it's really difficult lately and i've been really spacey when i'm awake - i'm completely drawn into here or there. lately, i'm noticing it and see-sawing - eventually it'll blend, i know it will for myself and i know it will for you.

when i was younger, i tried to committ suicide but was too in love with life - i suppose that with my sun in the 5th house (ever the sad clown) - i chose to do a "slow death" - try to sh*t to death by drinking an overabundance of mineral oil (i didn't want to puke to death). I didn't want to slit my wrist, swallow pills or anything of that nature, i was too afraid but I didn't feel like i could ever get use to being "here" - sometimes i wished i could sleep forever, like i was much more fun or i had a better time when i was asleep than when i was awake. finally, i said, you know what, i like being me (i don't wish to be someone else and i will do this until i can't do it no more) and i embrace that - there is nothing anyone can say to me that i haven't said of myself and nothing can be said to me that is any worse than what i've said to myself. eventually, you'll find your way. I know it.

posted February 20, 2007 02:32 AM              

first off for my final up date...
my sleeping was really bad so I was given the sleep medication, Rozerem... that worked really well and I'm starting to feel human again
I won't be feeling the full effects of the effexor until around the begining of next month but as things are I'm feeling a lot better... although I'm still having problems eating and have lost another 10 pounds......
I am simply amazed at how well the medication is working... like 50% of my depression is gone and 95% of my suicidal feelings are gone...poof like magic...

ummmmmm... on a different note...this will be my last post....
I don't have many... if any places I can go with out having someone's religious dogma pushed down my throat and this was my one safe haven.... in the last few months I've been thinking about leaving the forum because of the way lotus has been acting.... I had been feeling more and more uncomfortable and then well.... I kind of snapped
and well with this last blow out...sigh...just the weirdness of the accusation of being evil and doing black magic, there's no way I'm going to be comfortable with her around....

I clearly see there is no getting through to her and seeing as I can't get away from people like this in the real world I can at least do it here...so... I want to thank all of you sooooo much for all your support and caring..... it means a lot to me you all are great! I'm not going to be posting here again so on the off chance any one does want to get in touch with me my email is at the end of my signature...

Bye all

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and then the lord said let there be crazy people, and he saw that it was.......oh crap..........this is not good.........ummmm...cough,cough I didn't do this.. ummmm Luna whats wrong with you, why'd you make these people crazy
Luna: WHAT?!? your not going to pin this on me!
God: cough cough and then the lord dubbed the crazy people Lunatics
Luna: WHAT?!?!!!! don't name them after me!
Luna: and why are you talking about yourself in the third person
God: God can do what ever he wants to do, Muahahahahah
Luna: I hate you....sigh...I'm never going to live this down