posted February 27, 2007 03:56 PM            

Listen to your own words:

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i feel like hes my destiny and it makes me sick

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i fear him but i cant disconnect like you said

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posted February 27, 2007 04:00 PM              

YOU ARE MAJORLY DELUDING YOURSELF.

you want astrology? here's the astrology

u have moon opposition neptune natally. DELUSION. you have venus in 12th trining neptune. DELUSION. you even have NN opp neptune. MORE DELUSION. this is the worst manifestation of neptune possible.

your venus in particular ( in LEO in 12th, trine neptune) is a sucker for romance....it thrives on mushy words, big promises and make believe.

however, the good thing about delusion is that once you do realize how far removed from reality it is, u can snap out of it quite easily. once u know tht u have these tendencies, u can guard yourself against them.

so please do yourself a favor. seek some counselling. i dont think u r in a good place right now. otherwise u wud hv been able to see just how deep in the mess u are.

posted February 27, 2007 04:09 PM              

1. "we both fel in love over the internet in a matter of 10 days"

2. "now im in love with a guy whos killed 2 poeple and im going overseas to be with him"

3. "ve developed some weird sexual obsession with this guy"

4. "i thinkim going out of my mind but i like it"

5. "its like hes haunting me and scaring me"

6. " feel attached to him and i went to school with him 13 years ago. feel attached to him and i went to school with him 13 years ago"

7. " but i was in love wheni found out and i know its wrong but just dont know what to do"

8. "I believe that i might snap out of it wheni go overseas because i suffer from anxiety attacks so maybe hell freak me out."

9. "I think i only want him sexually"

10. "i just sit on the phone and listen and get lost for words and i fear him but i cant disconnect like you said."

11. "i feel like hes my destiny and it makes me sick."

posted February 27, 2007 04:15 PM              

i understand that your feelings r pulverising. u can't control them. dont control them. but please do one thing. wait

wait for this storm to pass. he's not going away anywhr, neither are you. if he really loves you, he will wait. and you DO want him to atleast love u as much as u love him? right?

whtever u want to do, can wait. take the test of time.

someone gave me very good advice once. and that is, 'When you are confused about what to do, do NOTHING.' it might rip u apart, but it will not kill you. u will survive.

and that said, once again, please seek help. please go to your mum. take the support of your family members. and friends. talk about it. it helps. (u hv a gemini moon like me, and believe me, talking can do wonders).

posted February 27, 2007 04:21 PM              

i think tht pluto on your IC, and opposing your moon, is urging u to learn how to deal with your emotions better. yes it is giving u a very difficult test, but it wants u to transform the way u handle your emotions.

i also think u subconsciously realize all this. and i really believe that u can do it. u have it in you. even the astrology says it. u have pluto trine moon natally. u can transform your emotions.

hang in there girl. and come vent it all on this forum if u dont hv any support around u (of course if u can get it from friends/family tht wud be much better). u can make it thru these neptunian fogs, thanks to pluto.

ILWL

*edit*

i would suggest that you take a good hard look at your self. your inner workings, so to say. (remember, IC stands not just for home, but also for your innermost part of personality. and u hv pluto there right now.)

posted February 27, 2007 04:34 PM              

say something....i'd really really like to help u, only if you'd let me.

posted February 27, 2007 04:38 PM              

dont think like that belgz...no u r not doing anything 'wrong'....thts not wht i meant. i'm sorry if i hurt you.

yes i know u want to be with him. but for your own good, (and safety), could you wait ?

love
ILWL

posted February 27, 2007 04:43 PM              

but dear, two messed up people cant help each other, trust me. wait a little. get yourself sorted out. (and u can do it, i know!!). perhaps then u cud help him better. wht do u say ???

posted February 27, 2007 04:49 PM              

darling u r only 23....i am QUITE SURE that there is someone out there custom made *just* for you. AND you will meet him one day. trust me on that one. dont get disheartened.

every person we meet teaches us something about ourselves. like may be your first bf taught u tht fun is important to u. (and how cud it not be, u r a moon in gemini like me!!). and may be this guy taught u tht romance and intensity is equally imp!! may be when u have learnt all tht is really important for a good relationship, you will meet tht mr right u r looking for. hv u ever considered the possiblity, tht without knowing wht u reeeally want, u may not even recognize him, and he might be lurking somewhr quite close to you ??? may be a best friend who u never thought cud be 'the one' ??

posted February 27, 2007 05:10 PM              

It will give you the much-needed detachment for this situation. Do it SEVERAL TIMES if you need to.

posted February 27, 2007 05:59 PM            

A package that's labeled "Normal" always contains "Normal"?? He looks good so he must BE good, is that it?? He talks romantic so he must BE romantic, right??

Perhaps you should read this thread about Emotional Vampires..... http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum10/HTML/001973.html

There are psychic vampires in this world whose joy and aim is to suck your feelings and your energy out of you for their benefit. They are manipulators of the highest degree.
When they find out you're unhappy and restless they will do whatever they need to in order to capture your attention and affection. They are manipulators of the highest degree.
And almost all of them look "Normal" and have very good verbal skills. They will say whatever they have to in order to keep you happy (in the beginning). Once they've got you in their clutches it will be very difficult for you to break free.

Here's a sample description:
"Not just annoying people, but darkly seductive. Emotional Vampires draw you in with charm, beauty, talent, and pulse pounding excitement. Then they drain you – not of blood but of every last drop of emotional energy.
You know them – Sexy, but unreliable lovers, drama queens who use emotions like Afghan Rebels use Kalishnikovs, jealous spouses, demanding parents, manipulative coworkers, and bosses with gigantic egos, who are so small everywhere else.
It’s almost supernatural how quickly Emotional Vampires can get you to trust them, then, just as quickly, get under your skin and drain you dry. It’s downright scary how quickly they can trick you into letting them come back and do it again."

posted February 27, 2007 08:49 PM              

he is attractive no doubt, but so r zillions of men. thousands in sydney itself. and out of those a good chance tht 50% wud be intense and romantic.

posted February 27, 2007 09:56 PM              

you r a normal person. thr r many here on LL who r facing the same problems as you.