posted October 21, 2014 10:54 AM            

That is cool about Circe. Another strong female energy. I read your other post on the asteroid forum. I'm sorry you've had such a ****** time of things. You really have been to the dark side. I'm very impressed with how you are using these experiences in such a benificial way. You are very brave! I'm very interested in this connection with the fil. Can't wait to see the charts. Do you think he feels some attraction to you?

My husband is an atheist too. He isn't into any of this stuff. For example, i use a crystal pendulum to balance my chakras sometimes. I'm teaching my kids about crystals, too, they love them, especially the pendulum and think it is great fun. We talk about energy and stuff. My husband will come up and say I'm just making it move with my hand and it's all in my head. In the last two years I have become very spiritual and he hasn't changed at all. I'm pretty much living in 4D and his is in 3D. It just isn't working. I used to be so thankful for him and tell everyone how luck I was to have and I still am to a certain extent but our vibrations just don't match anymore. We can't connect and sometimes it is difficult just to be around him. Plus after meeting my TF, I became aware of all this stuff that was missing with my husband. There is no passion, never was. I settled for material security over passion. And we have a very successful life together in a material sense and that is going to be difficult to give up but give it up I shall when the time is right because I can't live without passion anymore. Or a soul connection. Like you I want to merge with someone completely. I want to be able to be the real me, which I am not presently. How could I be, my husband would just make fun of me probably. I am interested in tantra. That will NEVER happen with him.

I was talking with a very wise man recently, who was explaining that relationships like this when one person is awake and the other isn't, if we try and stay and tough it out, it will just slowly crush our soul. I can see that being true. Maybe this is where our BML comes in. We can be Eve and stay or we can take control of our power and decide to manifest the life that we want. On our terms. Your right, our thoughts do manifest our reality. You think I am only helping you but i get so much benefit and insight from writing out my feelings like this sometime. Usually when I am helping someone I am really helping myself by exploring my own thoughts better. Does that make sense?

posted October 22, 2014 11:43 AM            

they are both conjunction with my Asc. in Scorpio, and Moon Pluto conjuction in Libra.

Squaring my 29 degree Capricorn Mars by 0 degrees.

posted October 22, 2014 07:52 PM            

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Originally posted by astrolady83:
I have Lilith in 0 Degree scorpio, conuncting my Juno in 0 Degree scorpio.

they are both conjunction with my Asc. in Scorpio, and Moon Pluto conjuction in Libra.

Squaring my 29 degree Capricorn Mars by 0 degrees.

Would like some insights please. Thanks!

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Astrolady,

I'm thinking BML (you are using BML?) on the ASC would give you a lot of sexy appeal, especially on the Libra/Scorpio cusp.

Pluto cj Moon in the 12th house...do you enjoy crisis'? You look for intense emotional interaction. You need a lot of alone time. The Moon can represent our mothers, how was your relationship with Mom? You are probably intuitive.

Having Pluto/Moon square Mars is a difficult placement IMO. How do you feel about it? You have a lot of drive but also a lot of anger. Do you have trouble expressing anger and emotions with Moon/Pluto in the 12th House? There is a strong survival instinct in you.

I think Juno being there means you are looking for a strong partner that really helps you explore and push your boundries, especially on a sexual level.

There is a partial solar eclipse tomorrow at 0 degrees Scorpio. Are you feeling this? Let me know if anything happens.