posted January 05, 2006 12:33 AM         

Me: Person in Question:

Sun-Cancer Sun-Cancer
Asc-Sagittarius Asc-Sagittarius
Moon-Cancer Moon-Aquarius
Mercury-Gemini Mercury-Virgo
Venus-Leo Venus-Leo
Mars-Leo Mars-Leo
Jupiter-Gemini Jupiter-Gemini
Saturn-Capricorn Saturn-Capricorn
Uranus-Capricorn Uranus-Capricorn
Neptune-Capricorn Neptune-Capricorn
Pluto-Scorpio Pluto-Scorpio

the person I compared with myself is my best friend Gabriel. We have known eachother since the age of three. We've been best friends since 5 years. We were not buddies at first because I didn't want to be friends-but the person in question was always there by my side asking me to be their best friend anyway, no matter how rude I was.

The person in question is a guy named Gabriel.

My name is Annie, but up till last minute my intended name was Gabriel (the feminine pronuciation)

HIs due date was the 7th of July, 1989

My due date was the 7th of July, 1989

Instead I was born on the 3rd and he the 20th.

We have not lived in the same town for 6 years, and we have never had the need to communicate to stay "in tune". Over the course of 4 years we probably talked twice. But our lives have run strikingly similar. Every thing that ever happens to me has happened to him in almost the exact same way down to the same day.

Just last summer I spent a week with him and it was the most joyous, fufilling experience of my life. We were both so happy just to 'be', and everyone was happy to see us together again, because we always used to sit together and just 'be' and talk and connect in an inexpicable way. Those close to us call us twin-souls.

He has dark brown hair and brown eyes. My hair is blonde and I have blue eyes.

I love Gabe with all my soul...

But here is the catch: There is nothing sexual about our relationship. He is bisexual and we have never kissed or anything like that. But physically we have always been close...ever since we were little we always were very close physically, extremely affectionate, but never sexual at all.

So what is our relationship? I have no longing to be close to him in any other way that I am now. But when we're together it is the most rare and special thing.

Is Gabe my soulmate and we are just not meant to have the relationships of lovers in this life? Or is it that we are just in the same spirit group and nothing more?

I have a deep desire to find my soulmate and have a loving relationship with them. But if Gabe is my soulmate then I can accept that and wait for another lifetime, because it is clear that this life is not intended for that.

ANother interesting thing: Gabe has had problems with his sexuality, but I haven't. the noteworthy thing however is that I identify more with the male psyche than the female (though I have 100% feminine now and enjoying it and very attracted to men). Could it be that our genders were reversed in a last life?

Thank you for reading this. I hope you can appreciate the personal meaning of this post, and if you can offer some suggestions

posted January 05, 2006 04:54 PM         

It is so nice to post here! After making this post last night I went to sleep and had a dream that I got to see Gabe and it was the nicest dream anyone could have hoped for. I think just the act of getting to communicate these types of things with other people is positively lovely. Thanks!

posted January 08, 2006 04:13 PM         

At 16, you are possibly less 'conditioned' than most, so u enjoy things for what they are. And its lovely.

Its a shame because I feel many people could easily enjoy the intimacy that you share with Gabriel, but it never gets a chance to blossom because it is drowned out by too much thought.