posted August 19, 2008 02:32 PM            

Lavlee, your words touched my heart again. Thank you for allowing me to know more about you. It feels so good to relate to someone who understands. I sent my girl 26T a quote to let her know how I feel about her earlier this week, and just experiencing the deep support of all of you girls this week brings it to my mind again right now.

~quote from Sex and the City

Thanks for letting me experience true support. A lifetime with only guys as friends misses out on this deep understanding and peace. I hope I can do the same for all of you and if you ever need me and I don't seem to be paying attention, please come give me a nudge.
In fact... I created a "Coffee Shop" in Yellow Wax and the Ants (long time ago, I'll find it and Bump it later) so we can all hang out and chat girlfriend style any time.

posted August 19, 2008 09:34 PM            

I loved your Prayer, Mel
Have printed it out and posted it so I can wake up and see it every morning and before I go to bed at night -- in hopes that a fun yet deep relationship will hove into sight on my horizon sometime soon.....

posted August 20, 2008 11:23 PM            

You go be busy, (busy bee?) and be creative and happy. I have a busy weekend up ahead and then a busy few days printing out and reading syllabi after that... (meaning the first few days of classes) but we "have a lifetime of love ahead of us my darling!" she said with a flourish...
Just don't stand me up, right? lol

posted August 21, 2008 12:13 AM            

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oh pout *sigh* so much emotion lately... I guess I'm getting the pipes fixed.

Wheels, mmmm so romantic. Yes, the fear. And as a favorite author (M. Williamson) says... it doesn't come saying Hey There! It's your self-loathing! It comes masquerading as your rational, logical self.

And this Cap moon, Cap Ascendant person (me!) has an extra hard time differentiating between the rational logical ascendant (which can be the "Mask" and the defensive self) and the warm and psychic moon that is also ruled by Old Man Saturn in my conglomeration of personalities and aspects.

From a movie I've strongly identified with for almost a decade... she's a Cap and he's a Scorp at heart. This isn't my favorite scene, but I'll save that one for my Saturday Night thread instead of taking over your whole Wonderful World. Mozzarella is very good, btw...

Jack Nicholson to Diane Keaton (his conversation is just there... I preceded everything she says with the "~" symbol):

Now I'm convinced that
what I think about you is right.

You're a tower of strength.

(she starts to think and opens her mouth to speak)

Try not to rate my answer.

~ I'm sorry, okay? I'm sorry, but...

You know what you're like?

You're like one of those great portraits
you see over a fireplace.

Words have been invented
to describe women like you.

~Such as?

Flinty.

And...

...impervious.

~ So you think I'm inhuman?

No.

I think you're formidable.

~ Cold, distant, like I'm frozen
in some painting?

Not at all.

But I do think you use your strength
to separate yourself from everyone.

But it's thrilling when
your defenses are down...

...and you're not isolated.

That, I believe, is your winning combo.
Killer combo, actually.

~ You know, I can't decide if, God,
do you hate me?

~ Or if you're the only person
who ever really got me.

posted August 21, 2008 12:21 AM            

Candles?

Romantic.

~I'm sorry, I...

For what?

~I just kissed you, and I...

No, honey.

I kissed you.

~I know that one was me.

Try not to keep score.

Soft lips.

~I'm so glad they still work.

~I haven't used them for kissing
in such a long time.

~More like for, you know,
wearing lipstick and whistling and...

{more kissing}

Well, well. Now look who's
got something that works.

~You didn't even take any Viagra...

Kiss me before you make it go away.

~This could be world-class interesting.

Having any doubts?

~Yes.

Me too.

~But so far...

~...the kissing is spectacular.

~I'm not grading you,
~I'm just mentioning it. Like...

~Like, brilliant.

{moved to the bed}

I can't get past your damn turtleneck.

~Cut it off. Please.

~Please!

~Cut it off.

~Please.

Aren't you full of surprises?

~Yeah.

Yeah.

~Yes.

You're beautiful.

Open your eyes so I know
you hear me.

posted August 21, 2008 12:07 PM            

Ok, dream symbolism of fireworks...

Fireworks http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary/f2.htm

To see fireworks in your dream, symbolizes enthusiasm, creativity, and talent. It may also indicate that you are showing off and making a spectacle of yourself.

LOL

One said 'explosive romance', one said "fears" as in of what might happen... the common theme seems to be "Emotional Outbursts" since that was mentioned in 3 or more that I checked.

posted August 23, 2008 06:51 PM            

How is your friend hanging in there?

posted August 27, 2008 11:28 PM            

I don't hear a fire truck

I don't have THAT kind of insurance

I'm melting

and classes started this week
and I REALLY need some sleep

please forgive any and all posts I have failed to respond to...
I'm still thinking of you all,
just too blah to post right now.

posted September 03, 2008 11:17 PM            

I'm very happy for you. It sounds soooo nice.
The thing with my Scorp is on hold as I haven't been feeling very social lately... if you hadn't noticed but (here comes your astrology lesson/jargon for the day) since more than one planet is transiting through Libra, I (a Libra, with Venus also in Libra when I was born) have felt more social even though I am drop dead tired most of the time since this new semester started. He said he misses me so that is nice. I've had more "flow" issues hehe, only with the car and hoses instead of pipes, but I lost a whole tank of gas etc etc crazy stuff in my life lately... and there IS more... I don't want to complain, just want to give you the update since you are so sweet to me and I appear to be "ignoring" requests for updates lately because I just don't have anything fun to say!!! I might just copy/paste this into the Saturday thread to avoid composing another "update".

posted September 09, 2008 02:46 PM            

Cap n Sag... did I just see you on another thread? My Air sign mind loses things but your screenname seems so familiar! I think I must have "talked" to you a couple days ago or read one of your threads...
Anyway, I would love to check out your synastry chart if you have posted it somewhere. Not that I am an interpreter... but I love to see charts of relationships that work for the long term.

posted September 09, 2008 02:49 PM            

or

(^heehee, those who've seen it understand these two scenes *wink *wink)

And I have this new Taurus friend who probably isn't the one for me but who seems like he would be an excellent friend and we connect well etc and he is cute... and this young Pisces guy who wants to chat from this dating site... and I haven't had the time or energy to even talk to this guy yet though he is really attractive (his interests and manner not just looks) and would also be a fun "romance"...

so, I don't know.

It's like I want this all consuming passionate love...

but frankly, I just don't have the time.

Or maybe...

it's not him

posted September 25, 2008 12:26 AM              

.. well- you just might find- his heart in your hands too!
go for it mel- go! and let go! if you spent your energies being nervous and full of expectations- you just might find.. that you missed the best parts of the ride!
do yourS-Elf a favor and him one too... just enjoy the ride and dont let something as simple as numbers and age matter!!
wish ya the best!!
i've recently met a (lil younger) man myself... and i just know we are meant to have a long and beautiful bright future! we are perfect for each other and im glad for once the age difference is of absolutely no concern to me.
and i'm learning to let go of all the bumpy "but what if.." thoughts too! its been very liberating! my spirit is flying high now!
love,
~Chelle
just enjoy EVERY moment, Mel!!
(or ya might end up looking back in that rear-view mirror asking yourself "what if i had...")

posted September 25, 2008 10:59 PM            

Oh yeah, I KNOW that look (the second picture of scarlett).

But remember, she woke up grinning and giggling when she thought about the night BEFORE.

posted November 25, 2008 10:59 PM            

Epilogue

The nail in this coffin was a phone call in the middle of the night (or morning) from the Libra friend of his... calling me drunk from the bar we had all been to that night. He called and said something about being drunk and not wanting to drive and I was asleep while trying to understand who it was and what was going on. I think his drunken mind was hoping I was going to tell him he could stumble over here and pass out on my couch but my daughter was home and there was not a chance in hades that was going to happen. So, I was trying to ask him if he had tried to call Scorpio/Mr. Yucky (kidding kidding, he's ok, but not really feeling the "Yummy" if you know what I mean) for a ride and the line was dead. So, I had to turn on the light and *69 the guy and then he didn't answer so I left a message hoping he wasn't pulled over or dead and that he could sleep in his truck in front of my house if he really had to. I worried about him for quite a while and waited for him to call back and finally went to sleep because I had to take my daughter to school in the morning etc and he never called back.
I realized when I woke up that he had my phone number in his phone. Just as I thought. So, I didn't trust J anymore and even though he called or wrote a time or so after that saying his friend told him about calling me or whatever and how drunk the friend was etc, apologizing for that happening... yadda yadda, that was it other than the "friend" email I sent to let him know I wasn't mad etc.

I actually totally forgot about this guy.
How unbelievable is that? I was just saying the other day that I hadn't had a kiss in about a year, and not one that counted in almost 5... but this guy was at the end of summer so only a half year instead of a whole year. And this guy was a lot of kissing.

I just read this entire thread again. The Vertex information is freaky accurate. And it was satisfying to read that I knew I couldn't trust the "excuse". And that I "Knew" about the age and maturity level, though I tried to block it and follow emotional response. Reinforces my faith in my intuition. ♥