posted July 25, 2009 08:51 AM         

mysticmelody: great my soul groups are filled with weird people! ;-) i definitely have learned a lot about not seeing things in black and white. it's odd because i have very conservative values and i am a very conservative person. but i live this way only for me. most everyone i have met outside of my home live in the opposite spectrum of me.

however, i do find now i have reached my tolerance levels. i am seeing that i don't want to become too close to people who take way too much work or whose moral standards are not as high as mine. it's like i'm closing my door on these folks, and i need to focus on the friends i hold in high regard and not have to accomodate.

posted July 29, 2009 11:07 PM         

when you say: It's possible that the lesson is for you to realize that these aren't your people after all...

it really fits the bill here for me. so lately some bad things have happened to me. some rude, rude awakenings. but they also coincided with my previous feelings of maybe certain people aren't for me. yes we can get along and we can have great moments together but in reality, it's only because i stomach a lot of their negatives or quirks in order for us to get along and i'm drained and resentful.

i don't filter a lot and that may be my problem, but this problem seems to only have arisen now that i'm an adult rather than when i was a kid. but that may be due to the fact that the odd folks i hung around with when i was a kid, we all have very similar backgrounds and we are more similar as people. here, there are just differences all around and i have to accept that i can't bridge that deficit.