posted December 04, 2017 10:48 PM            

I guess it is finally Time for me to read Gooberz.

posted March 01, 2018 03:36 PM            

Last night I asked him for reassuring words of love (this is a challenge and a gift coming from Taurus man) and he said that others were just an obstacle on his way to me. That he had to get through those relationships to make it to me. I began to soak in those precious and valuable and not oft spoken words.... Luxuriating in the peace his soul brought to mine.... And then he added, "You are the prize." I threw my arms around him him and said, "You are surely MY prize."

I asked him later that night if he thought I was sexy in high school. He said, without missing a beat, "You were the hottest thing on the planet!" My heart sang with joy and he practically growled, "You STILL are."
And the rest you'll have to read in my memoirs or future romance book. Lol

posted March 19, 2018 10:26 AM            

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Originally posted by Healing Mystic Melody:
I also want to say that I finally purchased a lovely hardback of Gooberz. I read just the first few pages so far, maybe right before things turned around. I think I did get the Linda magic I asked for in my post last page.

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posted September 05, 2018 09:59 AM            

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Originally posted by Healing Mystic Melody:
I stopped. Life is so hard.

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posted November 26, 2018 07:26 AM            

It was a Taurus man who drove me crazy, or mostly crazy (before my sister completed it all).

My dad drove my mother crazy at times - she divorced him, because he moved us away from a place we were happy, back to a place where she'd been miserable- when I was small. He can be stable in ways, but we've had our issues over the past year or so, which I won't go into. I haven't been talking about much at all.

posted September 03, 2019 04:25 PM            

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Originally posted by Aubyanne:
I can see the problem, Margym0o.

That's a really powerful 6H emphasis with your MOON-SATURN being one of the strongest influences. VENUS-SUN is a very beneficial aspect, but not necessarily romantic. However ... it IS opposite 8H MARS. So the potential IS there, even if the 6H MOON-SATURN may be dominating.

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Why is it significant? My crush (who definitely likes me back) & I, have a 3'Moon-Saturn conjunction in our synastry! Been in love for 6 years, haha. We just can't be together at the moment, due to the 10+ year age difference. Since age differences matter less and less, as eac year passes by, hopefully the love between us develops further next decade

posted January 14, 2020 12:31 PM            

He read that and knew I was moving on and releasing him and suddenly, without the pressure of feeling like I needed him to be this or that or my entire world or husband or my eternal soul mate or whatever and dealing with all of his fears of whether he was good enough for me or if he could give me the "talking" and "words" and communication I needed, he had a chance to feel his own feelings. He felt his love for me but knew he had screwed things up. He stopped doing his best to distract himself with work, tv, video games, talking to his work buddies about investments etc and started to think and feel.

He was looking out at the full moon and thinking of me constantly. He reached out a few times with little texts about tv shows I might like or other inconsequential bits and it would upset and infuriate me. I would tell the young Capricorn and then go into a painful emotional tailspin asking why he was tormenting me when he hadn't texted me first for almost a month (though I would call and text him every few days when I couldn't stand the pain anymore) and now he was texting me these stupid inane comments about television?!? Why couldn't he leave me alone and let me get on with my life?! What a jerk, I thought. What a selfish jerk.

Meanwhile (in the movie or book cut to his room and perspective) he was trying to reach out and test my mood and thoughts about him and feeling all of his emotions and missing me and suddenly feeling jealous and upset that I was seeing someone else. He was driving twenty miles to drive by my house and see Capricorn's car here and then driving on dying inside. But all I got was "tv show you would like" texts that irritated me and gave Capricorn an excuse to comfort me. (Capricorn's sun was exactly on my moon and he is a writer so he had all the words my Taurus didn't have at the time to comfort and console.)

One night a day or two later I was arguing with Capricorn (he wasn't what I wanted, just a similar enough vibe to my Taurus to give me the comfort I wanted from Taurus when Taurus was absent) I went inside to check my phone and there was a message from Taurus saying he was outside looking at the moon and it would always make him think of me... his moon girl. I called him, but he had sent the message hours ago and had already melted down emotionally due to my lack of reply and then drove by my house and saw the other guy's car. I asked him what he meant by the text and begged him to talk to me but he was cold and defensive. I broke up with the Capricorn and told him we weren't right for each other and then went to my room and lay in bed crying. I tried to reach out again to Taurus, but he was closed off in his own pain, and I finally called Capricorn back and told him to come to me. I invited him into my bed, intent on purging Taurus from my mind and heart forever. It was a wrong and uncomfortable physical meeting that lacked the fire and passion and deep intimacy and truth of my relationship with Taurus. We stayed up all night talking instead and went outside the next morning. I had taken up smoking weeks ago when Taurus left and we were in the garage talking while I smoked cigarette after cigarette. I heard a car up front and then footsteps on my deck and knocking. I went around the side of the garage to see who was at the door, a deep part of me knowing who was there, but some of me thinking I would see a salesman. It was my Taurus. This moment in time is seared into my memory. It was one of those moments in your life that has an intense quality that makes it a defining moment in a movie. The crescendo scene. I walked up to the porch as he was getting ready to descend the stairs to leave. Capricorn coming around the side of the garage. Taurus sees me, then sees Capricorn, his face crumbles, his tall strong body sags in weakness. "Taurus, meet Capricorn, Capricorn meet Taurus," I say in a "Here is YOUR creation, Taurus, how do you like it? It is what it is now, isn't it?" tone of voice and demeanor.

"What do you want?" I say with cruelty, stoic and righteous defensiveness, with a tiny imperceptible longing for the right words to come from Taurus' heart and mouth.

"I just wanted to talk to you," he says on the verge of tears.

posted January 14, 2020 01:00 PM            

Meanwhile, off in the distance solar system, Pluto dances merrily back and forth across our natal moons.

posted January 14, 2020 01:39 PM            

He never used to cry. I had only seen tears, tiny barely there tears, twice before in all of our years of knowing each other. He cries all of the time now. Tears of joy, tears of pain, tears of understanding.

I think this is part Uranus moving into Taurus and the lighting bolt of new understanding hitting Taurus. God in motion.

I talked to Capricorn. I had told him from the start that if my Taurus ever came back, with a ring and a sincere desire to marry me, it would be a hard offer to refuse. I had to talk to Taurus, and Capricorn knew what was going on. Taurus was there in a couple hours as promised and we sat on my bed and talked. I told him exactly what happened the night before immediately. It was a stab to his heart, but he took responsibility for it. He knew he created it. He knew I had told him every step of the way what was going on with this other man and he had said and done nothing other than wishing me well and telling me to move on. I told him how angry I was about it and how I had cut off my feelings for him as per his instructions and choosing. We talked for hours, held each other, he asked to kiss me, he shared all of his feelings, we cried, we went to eat Chinese food, we parted though he didn't want to, and I kept my heart hardened and was planning to go on with my life and allow him to "date" me, while still being free to date others if that felt right for me.

That night I had a karaoke date already planned with Capricorn and we went out and sang and I drank a few beers and then we sat and had a conversation where it was revealed to me that I would just be learning the same lessons with Capricorn that I had been with Taurus, only without as much depth of understanding and love. I told Cap I didn't think it was right that I was sitting there with him while Taurus was sitting alone at home and I broke up completely with him and went to Taurus. I pulled into his driveway, called him and asked if he wanted to talk. He desperately begged, YES!!, and told me he would get dressed and drive the twenty miles to me right now. I told him I was in his driveway and he burst out the door in his undershirt pulling on his jeans before I had it all of the way out of my mouth. He ran to my window crying and went inside and sat on his bed. I told him I didn't feel comfortable there and he said he would drive me home in my car and stay with me if I allowed it. We got home and he pulled out his class ring and his mother's engagement ring and said that's all he had to give me at this moment but went on his knees and begged me to marry him. I refused and told him I didn't want my engagement to be under these circumstances and he said he would wait until my ring came in.

You see, he had already called my father and daughter earlier that day and asked their permission to marry me. He had ordered the ring. Palladium gold with moonstone and diamonds like I had requested months before. He had fallen to his knees and truly prayed to God for the first time and discovered that I had taught him True Love and he was feeling it fully for the first time. The Power of Love/God had filled him and he Knew he could have all the conversations about his true feelings with me that had been so difficult before. He was filled with Love and Light and Grace. He poured out love words and feelings and was able to explain so many feelings he had in the past during our troubling times and explore what they meant. We've pretty much been talking about everything non-stop for the past year and a half and healing each other.

It has been a hard road for me. He took me to a cabin in Wisconsin a month later because our rings were supposed to arrive by that date but they were late. So he took me to another cabin up north when they did arrive and proposed. He is fully and completely devoted to me and our life on all levels and has been since that time. We were married in August of 2019. It was a beautiful and magical ceremony in nature with our closest family members. His friend from work did the ceremony exactly as we chose in a place that meant a lot to us and held many beautiful memories from the Great Eclipse years before.

I see my wedding photos and I am fatter than I have ever been in my life. It was not picture perfect. All of the past pain of my entire life is evident as a true representation of what I have been through the last almost half a century. I am not the young beautiful healthy maiden he fell in love with in gym class over thirty years ago. I am not the innocent and spunky girl who thought I would do something huge to change the world. But, if I brought the best man I have ever known in life to a true understanding of God/Love and the meaning of life (as he reminds me over and over that I have done for him) then I guess I DID do something huge and everything I learned has a great and deep meaning. I may not reach the masses with my writing and art and heart... many of you stopped reading or have skipped over this entire thread.

But I succeeded in bringing my soul mate to the Light. I made my "twin soul" ReMemBer and isn't that why The Universe led me to Linda Goodman/Astrology and psychology and mysticism and spirituality in the first place?

I Believe it IS.

posted January 14, 2020 02:11 PM            

please remember there is only one who is RIGHT.

I know that isn't a popular opinion according to popular psychology.... if we are healthy we can make relationships work with anyone "compatible", right? And so many circumstances in relationships are "not healthy" according to current views...

but a wise quote I read once said that you can follow your brain or follow your heart, but the heart is a better ride.

I'm not saying your obsession is the one.

I'm saying your obsession might be CLOSE to The One.
He/She might have so many vibrational signatures that are almost exactly what you are truly looking for in this lifetime. That you are longing for those signatures because that is what you have been searching for deep in your soul. I see clearly the nearly identical energies in the men I had the greatest "crushes" unrequited love obsessions of my life. The musicians I was in love with as young woman who I followed and watched every show just to be close to their Mars or Sun in Taurus, their Mercury or moon in Gemini (my Taurus with moon in Capricorn and AC in Virgo has his Mars in Gemini), the Capricorn angel who was sent to me who felt similar to my true love's moon conjunct mine in Capricorn...

all of these Souls are here to help you while you grow enough to be strong enough to do the Real Work it takes looking at your darkest soul pain and working through it with your true partner for life.

I worked in an old age home for many years doing activities for the elderly, singing for and with them and leading game activities (Bingo/Wheel of Fortune puzzles) and one year at Valentine's Day I was given the privilege of interviewing the couples who had been together for over fifty years and were still together. It seemed the man always knew at first sight. But maybe they all had a greater feminine energy and the feminine energy knows at first sight. Do you have someone in your life that fell in love with you but you overlooked because you didn't feel that instant spark of passion? Are you chasing those sparks and overlooking the one that has always stayed near to you in the hopes that one day you might truly SEE him or her?

I don't have all of the answers, but a lot has certainly been revealed to me.

And forget that stuff about perfect love stories and no one messing up or making mistakes. We weren't even done with our honeymoon, had only been back less than a day and had our phones off to finish our last two days alone... and I discovered a message from his mother that they police were trying to reach him due to a horrific family tragedy. We had to deal with the greatest pain either of us had every experienced while technically still on our honeymoon. We have just recently recovered. Closer and loving each other more than either of us even imagined is possible.

Love is messy. Life is messy. Growth is messy. That's what Pluto has taught me. And Pluto doesn't teach with rainbows and unicorns. But it is also said that seeds are planted in darkness and covered in **** and that's they only way the most beautiful trees and flowers can grow. Babies are born covered in blood and guts. And people who truly pray to See and Understand the Truth are divinely Taught through whatever means are necessary. God/Universe doesn't care if it hurts. They say the Initiation is Light flowing through and then the Bite of a snake. I'm here to say that is true. And it is a long and winding road and you don't always see clearly, but that is the magic and beauty of it. And it might look like a complete mess to those who don't know the full Truth of what is happening for you (and who can ever fully understand except you, God, and your other half?).