posted November 22, 2020 07:24 AM            

the lessons may have been strongly felt by him, more intensity. Fear or feeling of maybe like *this will be a normal with her. (The bumpy lesson pts) In which what was the bad lesson is done, maybe not, Yet he doesn't know and your connection might be smooth were you to had picked back up where you left off. Lesson already behind. Maybe.

A last thought. You could get a reading from the other readers with your synastries, to have more clarification. I think Todd was fantastic though. But please, once you're home if J doesn't respond or show interest, don't put energy in him because if he chooses to drop a wonderful opportunity with you - even if only friends, Divine will have your 'right *someone* already lined up’. Don't block your happiness.
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Coming from someone who went 11 years with her first love in her life but an extra 10 of him monopolizing her heart + mind after, she couldn't truly let new love in. It was not fair to those between my years of him/my actual marriage. That was my only reason to mention the cord cutting before but you should give him a final chance - it would be heartbreaking if you didn't and he finally come around and ran to you but you had closed yourself off to him. However there needs to be a point where he doesn't anymore need a revolving door offered in your heart to that capacity, anymore.
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In my case my ex fiance abused our psychic connection, which was strong itself. But I had the cord cut in a previous yr *2017 I believe). It was only this year , where the veil has been thin, that he tore my block on him. His two relatives who crossed over during our time together have been involved. I suspect his brining them to me. My P abilities have grown this yr too. - being from each others childhood deepens strings and to them I was his wife already.
I studied his chart, he has profound psychic abilities, from birth as a single individual - but together we were well paired. Just because two people share that, does not give one a right to abuse it. Or to abuse the feelings of the other.
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Look inward for what you need to bring you happiness and heal with or without him. You need YOU as your most powerful love until your heart is wholy available -to move fwd. If he's your Soulmate I don't believe he'll be able to avoid YOU much longer. 2020 has been bringing people back to where they belong.in Matters OF the heart, He'll be missing you every bit as much as you do- if he is allowing his heart to speak to him.

posted November 22, 2020 07:54 PM            

  I think everything atp is up to you two & fate. How it should resolve or renew. With Soulmate status, have you read or seen any info on them? http://youtu.be/FMsg4v5RCvc
I hope her examples help.

posted November 23, 2020 12:49 PM            

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Originally posted by LibraGirl92:
Will give that a look when I get home tonight funny enough I asked my cards what do I need to know about my relationship J and received:
the devil fell out of the deck straight away
Judgement
9 of Pentacles
Ace of Pentacles
The Hierophant
10 of wands
I have noticed both Judgment and The Hierophant have came out when asking about us.
Oh and p.s I did your reading in the exchange thread😊❤️

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Hi hun. Those cards won't always be about that. If you are concentrating on the 9th connections (soulmate) or potentials, in the Q, then that might be most significant but not always. gotta have a bit of heaothy scepticism too.
The cards are better when assigning then to ppl. imo.

posted November 23, 2020 07:15 PM            

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Originally posted by ChildofVenus:
Do you offer readings on Etsy?

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posted November 23, 2020 08:13 PM            

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So I took a listen to what she had to say and I went to her website and honestly, it is a lot to take in but that feeling in my heart never went away but I am doing the best I can.
I think my heart misses that connection I had with him regardless of the hurt that was caused on both parties and even before I even knew anything about twin flames or soulmates I Felt it deep in my heart he was the one for me but then again who's to say I am blocking myself from actually being loved by one person who may not be it at all and it was all a delusion in my head. Sorry, I am going down that road of being in my head again with negativity and I am really trying to stop that and the anxiety.
All I want is to get him out of my mind but it's like the heart tells the mind no don't let her forget him it makes me feel like a delusional girl who couldn't move on from a break up all these years if some ordinary person saw this.
Every night I ask God to show me is he the one show me the connection but I don't think he is ready to show me until I Possibly go home.
But you were right if it turns out he isn't interested or anything I do plan to not shut but seal that door so that way I never open that doorway to him or let him come back.
I finally got my self-love book by Akal Pritam today and The Light Seer's Tarot deck (another one to add to my growing collection ) http://www.amazon.com/Self-Love-Finding-Peace-Happiness/dp/1925682595
(At the mind, body, spirit expo I forgot to mention I bought the oracle cards as well!)
But it is time to learn to love me again which I have neglected for too long <3
Sorry for the little rant I didn't get to go to counselling today which was a bit of mix up and is scheduled for next Monday so I just needed to vent but thankfully I reiki in two days she is the only one that knows about me and J's situation regarding the energy of sort she was the first that said a little prayer to release the cord but obviously it didn't work <3

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Sorry I totally had this one slip by. I think I responed to the second one so forgot this one, I'm sorry. ♡

posted November 23, 2020 08:24 PM            

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Like LibraGirl92, I'm not reading elsewhere. idk who you asked ChildofVenus.

posted November 24, 2020 07:34 PM            

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Thank you, Moon. I guess you can say for sure I love too hard. I guess with him not reacting I mean heck we were quite young so maybe who knows this time around when we may see one another/speak to one another things may be different I mean we are both adults now almost 30 who knows what this will bring maybe with this healing and things I may be able to teach him a thing or two. I honestly believe we both made an impact in our lives, unfortunately, there was a lot of pain between us but if he can learn to forgive then maybe we can start a new. I think I realised with that judgement card following me with him it is as though it could be calling out for forgiveness maybe not just on his part but on my part but I feel with my message I did my part so now it is time for him to make that step. He shouldn't be afraid but maybe that is a lesson he needs to learn to overcome....fear

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LibraGirl92, In these times with all the planetary alignments, so many of us are reflecting on what might have been. Also there's so many of us that don't feel we truly resolved our heart stories, things left unsaid, undone.

posted November 25, 2020 06:04 PM            

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My reiki session went good. We went through all of the chakras and she had me describe what colour I saw with them and what I was feeling
Root-Red I felt anger
Sacral-White sadness
Solar Plexus-Orange no emotion
Heart-Yellow I felt pain/ tightness
Throat-Blue I felt as though it was loosely tight had a bit of a grip but with the writing, I have been doing it is like the grip was loosing
The one behind the head-Black I felt confusion, doubt, fear had a feeling of congestion in my sinus area
Crown-Purple
But she feels like I am starting to feel open and that I am finding myself again transforming.
I told her about you helping me with showing me the frequencies for chakra healing and all.
I described how I would have images of myself in underwater trying to reach for the surface but couldn't but then eventually I made it to the surface.
at the end we had a talk about my connection with J and that I told her I have given it to God as I can't believe that for 10 years I still have this connection and I keep asking God to show me what this connection is but I feel as though I won't know until I go home. She asked me to describe this connection like did what did I see about it and I said it's like a silvery-white cord and I told her that when I tried to do the meditation for cord-cutting that it didn't work and the times I tried I cried. I told her about how when I went to bed that I saw his face crying and just felt sadness and fear. I did tell her about the message I wrote to him in September but still have not heard from him.
Lastly, I told her about writing the messages and putting them under my pillow and the one I wrote recently:
In my dreams show me the connection.
Do not be afraid
If we are not let us both be free
If we are then let us embrace as one
She thought it was good that I let God take it from here and handle this connection.
I need to try and stop myself from overthinking it and just remind myself that I have let God handle it and that he will see to it.
She asked me where did I mostly feel this connection and I pointed to my heart.
When I got home I felt this wave of sadness just wash over me.
I know slowly I am changing inside and I know that God is pulling me to go back home.
oh and about that I received an email from my travel agent that the service from Christchurch to Sydney was cancelled so pretty much I have had to get my refund and make a new booking so going home on the 21st of January isn't happening so now I have to wait several weeks for the refund and then make a new booking by *sigh*

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I feel so bad for you hun but you know something? J might have had anything happen to delay his response. Even being stubborn in his alliwance of himself 'to respond '. Divine could still be in the works at reuniting you AND this postponement to get home could give J the extra time, were it to to happen, as you've wanted but Divine could also test you. To follow thru in putting yourself first. ♡ of Jess before any other. You'll be your best version of you when you do this and so much more desired by anyone, even J!

posted November 27, 2020 05:35 PM            

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Thanks, hun I guess I love really deeply, after all, I do have venus-conjunct Pluto in Scorpio (I am a Scorpio venus) I think I have been doing okay. and we will see what December and the new year have to bring.
I remember I said it his own free will and I just have to remember that everything is free will <3
Whatever it may be between me and him I am going to keep being the best I can be and keep going with life whether he is in my life or not <3

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How was your Thanksgiving? ♡

^ The intensity in your Venus with Pluto, I doubt you can tame your feelings easily. Powerful emotions. You have been doing wonderful with your'self growth', healing.
You're a true alchemist.
A lot of people this year have been highly
emotional in America. It is always something. Depending on where you're from, home may be very different than you remember it - once back.

Any new info on a flight coming home?

posted November 30, 2020 11:59 AM            

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Unfortunately I am currently awaiting my refund from my original flight in order to book a new on I aiming for January but could possibly February.
Yes I feel that with my Venus-Pluto when I love I love deeply I believe that depth was felt with J as I have it Natally conjunct and with our synastry my Venus conjunct his Pluto so which made it stronger for me not sure about him tho.
I’m hoping eventually he reads my message but I am starting to get in the mindset that “he may have things going on with his life that is preventing him from responding so he will get to it when he can so just keep focusing on yourself”
But I am moving forward and soon enough mentally and spiritually I will be whole. I am slowly coming out of the darkness I was in for so many years❤️

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LibraGirl92, been a bit worried for you, everything ok there. Because of News I heard re NZ. I hope you are at peace until you get home. Wnich may it be soon .

Re J, have you wondered if anyone could have intercepted his message from you? I wondered if you sent it sealed via actual snail mail to your uncle? Maybe have it hand delivered by him?
idk, worst case is he got it and is just not reacting ~ yet butif there's any possible way his msg frm you was lost, deleted by another or whatever , a last try can't hurt, can it?
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I'm taking a few days away from readings and or cyber chatter. lol I'll pop in from tine to time to see if you respond. Sending you all the best, safe wishes.

posted November 30, 2020 06:08 PM            

Regards to NZ, That's why I'm trying yo avoid so much internet chatter. I saw headlines in which I never read the articles, stating there was unrest. Idk could be propaganda. I'm glad you're well.