posted August 06, 2023 11:43 PM            

I don't think she knows what has happened to her (maybe her doctor does). I might know more tomorrow. I've had some home healthcare people come through and hopefully I'll get some support. I forget how many weeks my mother's insurance will cover their help, but it might only be through September. My mom says she feels tired.

I hope to get to your question tomorrow.

posted August 07, 2023 06:58 PM            

I will be graduating a online buisness/e-commerce college course in October. Despite the crushed soul, I have no choice but to keep going (because I have bills to pay) but it’s almost impossible to focus.

Then yes, I should be starting a new career in the field. I am worried about the long term. Depression really has me in a chokehold right now, it is the reason why I keep losing my jobs for the past 3 years. I have two months late rent as of right now. What if it just goes the same as last year and the year before and after four months I quit because it’s too difficult or get fired because of poor work ethic due to depression/adhd? What if I am not able to pay rent in time and I have to find some place else to live? That would be the worst thing that could happen right now as I really love this new place I moved in last year…

I am all alone, I have tried to reach out in so many ways to doctors, friends, family, but no one believes or understands what I’m going through. It’s like on a spiritual level and impossible to be truly understood & if I try to explain it with words… everything gets worst. They never believe that I can function with the severity of the symptoms I try to describe. They always downplay it and it makes me feel worst.

It’s like those aggressive, soul-crushing ruminating thoughts of shame, sadness & loneliness, and these moods that attack me multiple times a day… I feel so weak & to top it there is A LOT of brain fog and fatigue due to the sustained mental stress and non-reparative sleep.

posted August 07, 2023 06:59 PM            

I will be graduating a online buisness/e-commerce college course in October. Despite the crushed soul, I have no choice but to keep going (because I have bills to pay) but it’s almost impossible to focus.

Then yes, I should be starting a new career in the field. I am worried about the long term. Depression really has me in a chokehold right now, it is the reason why I keep losing my jobs for the past 3 years. I have two months late rent as of right now. What if it just goes the same as last year and the year before and after four months I quit because it’s too difficult or get fired because of poor work ethic due to depression/adhd? What if I am not able to pay rent in time and I have to find some place else to live? That would be the worst thing that could happen right now as I really love this new place I moved in last year…

I am all alone, I have tried to reach out in so many ways to doctors, friends, family, but no one believes or understands what I’m going through. It’s like on a spiritual level and impossible to be truly understood & if I try to explain it with words… everything gets worst. They never believe that I can function with the severity of the symptoms I try to describe. They always downplay it and it makes me feel worst.

It’s like those aggressive, soul-crushing ruminating thoughts of shame, sadness & loneliness, and these moods that attack me multiple times a day… I feel so weak & to top it there is A LOT of brain fog and fatigue due to the sustained mental stress and non-reparative sleep.

posted August 07, 2023 11:16 PM            

Sorry again for the delay. Your reading about my mom is spot on..found out today that she is going to need a lot more assistance..she ate her breakfast on her own, but after that she needed me to basically feed her..that's the nurturing you saw..

I should be able to get to your reading tomorrow morning as I'll be able to get some other things done, since my mom will be getting up later..need to wait for the occupational therapy person to arrive and assist me. Hoping to find ways of doing what I need to do without injuring myself..when I don't have others to help me. I made sure I had my breakfast this morning and can see where my nurturing could get left out..thank you again for that. x

posted August 08, 2023 08:41 AM            

Thank you again for the positive energy!
I started a routine this morning, so that should help. Hoping to have a home health aide scheduled for a while, so I can finish up a few things before one of my siblings bails (temporary help is okay for them, but not for the long haul). Also, I'll be able to drop my mom off at the other one's home when I need to (hopefully).

My question is, will R get an opportunity for a career change this month - August to early September?

king of wands (rev)
9 of cups (rev)
king of swords
4 of coins
hermit
page of cups (rev)

It seems like R needs to look at how they are approaching what they want in life. There will be someone to offer ideas, but R may not be a risk taker. R may also have someone talk with him like a counselor, but this all may end up just be a distraction away from actually getting somewhere with what he needs to do. I pulled a couple of clarifiers and got 7 of swords (rev) and temperance (rev). Does R have trouble getting along with others at times? It's as though they don't understand why it happens. I pulled another clarifier and got 8 of cups, which is showing that R will discontinue his efforts in this regard and look for something better.

I'll be away for the next week..lots of people coming to help with my mom..pup feeling neglected, so I'm trying a new routine to help with that..I should be back on by next Friday..maybe sooner..

posted August 13, 2023 10:39 PM            

I have some feedback. I did hear from my friend J yesterday and yes she was just busy and what you also read makes sense about her thoughts.

Also, I have more questions for you: How will my mother's (E) appointment go on the 25th? The doctor wanted to talk about my mother's care going forward. He didn't mention to me what he had in mind. She has improved somewhat physically, but it's up and down (her energy/strength) and there does seem to be something that may not change like you read for her health. It's like she doesn't think as quickly as she used to..delayed reaction to questions or instructions.

Will I have a home health aide to help me with my mother's care in the coming weeks? What's odd is that I had all these people coming over--nurse, etc. and now I haven't heard from any of them nor any health aide.

My ESP also picked up that the camera person passed on to my siblings me saying to my mom today: you're getting better and maybe soon you won't need H to help you. He came over this evening and first asked..are you getting better today? It's like he can't wait to stop helping.

Last question: In what ways will N try to harrass me in the next three months? I think I already foiled a couple of plots over the last few days.

Thank you so much!

I hope all is going well for you.

posted August 18, 2023 01:27 AM            

I hope your home plastering work went well and is now done.

Today my mother's doctor put in a referral for her to go to hospice care. You are right about me doing gardening this year as I hadn't thought I would have any extra time to do that and take care of my mom and pupper, too. The timing for my mom has been good for my pupper as she is having a hard time with the lack of social time she has had over the last month. I think the nurturing you are seeing is me feeding her while visiting, but also me eating well. I just need to not overdo working on things around the house and forgetting to take care of me.

I also wanted to change my question(s)..

Will the 4th party intervene regarding N in the next three months?

After my mother passes, how will things go with selling her home?

Will I change residences in the next four months?

posted August 18, 2023 10:29 AM            

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Originally posted by Springtimeflower:
Hi Fruity,

I hope your home plastering work went well and is now done.

Today my mother's doctor put in a referral for her to go to hospice care. You are right about me doing gardening this year as I hadn't thought I would have any extra time to do that and take care of my mom and pupper, too. The timing for my mom has been good for my pupper as she is having a hard time with the lack of social time she has had over the last month. I think the nurturing you are seeing is me feeding her while visiting, but also me eating well. I just need to not overdo working on things around the house and forgetting to take care of me.

I also wanted to change my question(s)..

Will the 4th party intervene regarding N in the next three months?

After my mother passes, how will things go with selling her home?

Will I change residences in the next four months?

Thank you again Fruity X
Spring

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Hi Spring,

So sorry for the delay and thank you again for your patience!
My plastering did go well I'm really pleased with it! Now onto decorating!

Really sorry to hear about your mum, how are you feeling with it all? Glad to hear youre taking care of yourself though.

Ok here are your readings:

1) 6W, Page S, Page P
Hmm.. this looks like a watch and wait type of approach to me. The first thing I thought was "letting N dig their own grave". I get the impression the 4th party is going to passively allow N to do what they do which will show them up for who they really are. I'm getting here as well that N will say something that will make everyone else re evaluate the plan going forwards. It might be that the intervention necessary is different from what you might expect.

2) Lovers, 8C, 10S

I think selling the house is going to be tricky - someone here such as a family member will have a hard time letting go of the house. I think potential buyers will be a pain in the arse as well. There will be massive expectations and price negotiations. But it will sell, I can see that happening. It just might feel like another burden on your shoulders whilst it goes through the motions.

3) 5P, King P, Knight P

posted August 18, 2023 07:38 PM            

temperance (rev)
knight of coins
10 of swords (rev)
3 of cups (rev)
page of swords (rev)
high priestess (rev)

This will need some patience on your part to make it happen. Either you or another person will help to conclude the task of getting it started. There should be some improvements then in getting it started. There will be delays as well and someone you thought was on board..you'll find that they really weren't or you may work yourself so hard that it may make you ill. There are things that you still need to learn (more in depth)..and also how it will unfold in the future.

how will it be received?

10 of wands
8 of cups
6 of swords
king of coins
knight of coins
king of swords (rev)
clarifiers: 4 of wands, queen of cups (rev), 6 of wands

You will find that it is a lot of work (burden?) or undertaking. You may stop and tweak or change it in some way..which will make you anxious..then you will be traveling..after that things should get better with it and you may get some help from a person who is experienced with these shows..you'll get it done..there is one person, who may give you trouble..interesting how the cards speak more about continuing your efforts..seems people will talk about it socially..not sure what your topics will be about, but some may not look at it favorably..in the end it will be successful..and people around you will see you as having the abilities to produce this show..

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I picked up N telling one of the 3rd parties "I'm not crazy." Maybe one of the 3rd parties alerted her to what the original plan for her was..she doesn't like rules and has no problem breaking them either..so maybe she breaks a law..

That makes sense about the house..the market is changing again..

Yes on my home search..it will be interesting..but the house that I had before fits with the one you read for me earlier and it popped up and I had never noticed it before even though I had driven by it many times.

I delayed the hospice choice for my mom..they won't have anything that will really help me..I think about how it went with my dad years ago..I can see my self getting exhausted..but it's probably a combination of caring for my mom and pupper as well as getting things ready to move one day...

posted August 19, 2023 04:11 AM            

Thanks so much for your reading! Funny that you mentioned travel... My idea is to present a show around travel and different countries and I was hoping to play music from different countries too. When I pitched the idea last week as a chat, the boss said he liked the sound of it and to send an email with a summary, which I did last night.

As there will be foreign languages involved and so on, I hope it won't alienate people or find it boring but I have said I'm going to maintain a contemporary feel as well...

Sounds like you have a lot on your plate and I can only sympathise... These things tend to happen all at once don't they.

Do you have any more questions? I should be more regular and present this week- last week was a bit mental that's all.

posted August 19, 2023 04:52 PM            

will R get the job with the estate agents?

7 of wands (rev)
9 of wands (rev)
judgment
3 of swords
6 of cups
3 of cups (rev)

Maybe subconsciously R doubts that he will get this position as well. There will be delays..lots of them, and then he will be disappointed. The cards are saying that he needs to make peace with the past..maybe him not having good luck with applying for these jobs. Too many barriers/obstacles to overcome. Maybe R isn't looking for the right job.

Thank you. It has been busy for me, but what's interesting is that on at least two occasions..while grocery shopping...after putting my groceries into the car, one woman (another customer walked right over) offered to take my shopping cart back with her on the way into the store..on another occasion I had started walking from the car to the store and then forgot my eye glasses..she offered me a quarter to put in the shopping cart so I could use it..she thought I needed to go back to the car to get the quarter..I've had other people trying to help me as well..this started happening over the last month..

My question is: How will things go with taking care of my mother over the next four weeks?

posted August 21, 2023 03:02 PM            

King of P, 2C, knight P

I think it will go well, though you'll be wanting some help at some point. Is it possible your mother will pay you for taking care of her or something like that? I see an exchange of resources.

I think the bond with your mother will strengthen as a result of taking care of her and she may confide in you about something. I do feel she may give you something though and I see you re evaluating your relationship with her.
I think it'll go ok given the circumstances, I don't see much drama here.

R has done his interview - he didnt get the job unfortunately.

Could I also ask what CB thinks of me at the moment?

Will R ever be able to change his career?

posted August 22, 2023 07:45 PM            

Sorry for the delay. I should be back tomorrow morning..had all the home health care here at once today..one is dropping off and one will come once a week after this week and other one is now once every other week...learn something interesting from the nurse today and it seemed to put my mom at ease.. thinking anxiety may be causing some of her issues..and in turn is affecting her energy through a health problem making it worse..

posted August 23, 2023 09:39 PM            

Sorry that I need to put this off again. I have been speeding up some of the reorganizing of the home stuff to accommodate my mom's walker (for her exercising, since it's too hot to go outside) and extra cleaning..should be able to keep up again and do your reading(s) starting tomorrow afternoon.

posted August 24, 2023 03:22 PM            

5 of coins
ace of wands (rev)
king of coins (rev)
3 of swords
page of coins (rev)
king of swords

CB seems confused about your relationship and wanted to make plans (not sure if the two of you were going to meet up for something), but uncertain whether they should or not and then changed their mind. There may have been someone around them that had been influencing them not to make plans with you. They may have been disappointed in your last interaction with them and/or see you as someone who isn't realistic in your thinking about things (money?). The last card is showing that they see you as someone who is proficient in what you do and are determined to achieve your goals. Also, they think you are someone who is able to analyze things and have lots of good ideas and ways of doing things.

Will R ever be able to change his career?

10 of wands (rev)
page of wands
4 of wands
lovers (rev)
strength (rev)
death

Seems like R meets with people who aren't always who they seem to be or don't really say what they are thinking (subterfuge). That looks to be in the past and soon someone will reach out to them and then R can rest from all these interviews, so yes, eventually he will be able to change his career. He needs to work on his faith..so what he hopes for will actually happen otherwise the frustration will continue and make him feel like he can't do it. The last card is showing a transformation happening for him. There's a new moon in Virgo coming on September 14..and some of the info on it talks about people getting their stuff together..Virgo..service to others, health, and work are some of the areas related to virgo..

I picked up some energies last night.

Will N or any of the people in her community try to cause trouble for me in the next four weeks?

It's been tiring these last few days..taking a break today..

Thank you Fruity! x

posted August 28, 2023 03:25 PM            

Sorry again, thank you for waiting.

I got Fool, 8S, 10S

I think N will influence some trouble coming your way in the nest four weeks but I don't think it will be as damaging as you are imagining. I don't think it'll put you in a good place mentally, but objectively, she will not do anything to harm you. I am seeing here that you might overreact to something or overthink it. The fool is silly, not serious, spontaneous energy so whatever she throws at you will not stick.

Can I ask, what is happening with the dynamic between me and my mother?

posted August 30, 2023 08:29 AM            

Sorry for the delay. We just had a hurricane pass by and wanted to give you some feedback. You had said that a building that meant something to the people here could get damaged..yes, the capitol building is right where it made landfall a few minutes ago..no news reports just yet on what has happened, but thinking with it being a Cat 3 or 4 and the building being older you're reading will be very accurate.

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Can I ask, what is happening with the dynamic between me and my mother?

6 of wands (wanted to come out)
page of coins
magician
death
judgment
emperor
fool (rev)

I think you will have some good news on something you have been discussing with her. Have you suggested something to her or have been talking about-- learning/education/schooling? There may be some new beginnings in reference to your mom. Improvements may be coming in your relationship with her. Is there a male or man around her or in the past that is influencing some changes in her? I pulled some clarifiers: 2 of cups (rev) and queen of cups (rev). She may just be indecisive about things now and seem unreliable.

Hope all goes okay with you and your mom.

Will the 4th party intervene with N before my mother, E, passes? My ESP picked up them giving her 3 choices. I also had hoped to have some peaceful, quality time with my mom before she passes.

Thank you. That makes sense with N influencing others. The home healthcare is winding down now. Next week is their last week and my mother is now in between the care that is available to her..not yet ready for hospice. The energy drops she has at times can be significant, too. This also makes sense with you seeing me exhausted by November, but I'm now looking at making changes to my sleep schedule and only doing so much each day.

posted September 02, 2023 12:23 PM            

I'm glad to hear you're ok re the hurricane. How long do they last for where you are? I've not experienced one so am a little ignorant on them I have to say. I hope it hasn't done too much damage to you where you are though

Will the 4th party intervene with N before my mother, E, passes?

2S, 2W, Fool

Yes, they will intervene but my feeling is there won't be any obvious 1:1 action or discussion. A decision that no one can go back from will be made behind N's back which will undoubtedly cause friction with other people involved. Perhaps someone feels whatever is decided is too harsh or something like that. People will bicker about N without N knowing. She seems to be the fool here, naive. But I also see the Fool as you freeing yourself from this situation even if it continues. I get the sense it'll devolve into something else that you don't want to deal with.

The other thing that came to mind that the decision made could well be to leave N alone which would also cause friction with those who feel there needs to be an intervention.

Let me know if you have other questions! I will be hopping back on every other day or so if that's ok, September is going to be busy unfortunately but I will still be around. I'm just struggling to get back on every night that's all, sorry Spring..

If you're still around for exchanging then please could I ask

- Will R get a job in project management soon?

posted September 04, 2023 01:08 PM            

I'm okay with the every other day or so on responding to my posts. I know you are busy. I can relate as well.

I should have feedback for you on the "it's not what you think it will be" in reference to N as I've been picking up some stuff over the last couple of days.

I should be back soon with more feedback and your reading.

Thank you also for your patience.

posted September 05, 2023 10:13 PM            

My internet has been down. Doing this on my phone.

Knight of wands came out

8 of coins (rev)
Devil (rev)
10 of wands
Lovers
3 of wands
4 of coins (rev)

Seems like he will make changes and doing some traveling in his efforts. He will see that the way he has been approaching this isn't working and then will understand what is needed. He may also feel that he has been working too hard (spinning his wheels so to speak). He may have two choices, but he has what it takes to do the work. More obstacles may come..pulled clarifiers: 8 if swords (rev) and king of wands..and more hard work, but there is someone that will help him in his efforts..could be an employer..

Hope he is able to get a job in that area, but it seems hard to break into.

I'm thinking that nothing will happen with N until the latter part of January..the symbology of the planets and the aspects to her chart make sense with what I picked up this past week..could be that the punishment is challenged..hence them leaving her alone in the end..I remember you reading earlier that nothing would change with them any time soon, too, so next year also makes sense.

My next q:. Will H continue to help me with our mom in the evening or will he drop off before the end of January?

Thank you Fruity!

I'll try to get back sooner..HHC people are dropping off..had to switch off with my pupper's grooming..picked up the not nice people figuring out where I had been taking her..so now I'll need to take her somewhere else. The groomer was a big help, too...at least the grass has grown in over most of the bare spots in my mom's yard.

Hope your radio program preparations are going well.