posted July 28, 2011 05:01 AM            

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Originally posted by Dervish:
I had a spiritual vision when I was 15 as I was on the verge of suicide (and I was being held down to be kept from doing it). Very short & sweet it was like I "woke up" and I was flying through a gigantic virgin forest where the trees were even bigger than redwoods, and it was so REAL even the sense of motion (and there was a wordless song and then I realized I was the one singing), and I came to a tree larger than all the others that I knew was "Yggdrasil" and it took me to Freya who Sang and I understood her wordless song who told me I had to remain strong and let my steel be tempered, that I had to help against the coming Ragnarok.
And then I came to back in the real world of illusion. I didn't know what to think of it but I no longer wanted to off myself and I did feel better (not happy, I'd just lost my best friend).

While it's easy to come up with "rational explanations" for why I had this experience, I did find out later that many others had similar experiences & messages since at least the 70s, so I'd apparently tapped into (or it tapped into me) something from the Collective Unconscious, or what many before me called "a wind through the World Tree."

But while this affected me (and saved my life!) I didn't actually become spiritual in any sense, it was more of a mystifying experience.

When I was 16 I got close to someone in the occult and learned a little of magic but this turned out bad (the person into it that is) and I had to escape, but I seemed to randomly encounter 2 who changed my life around. (Btw, I was a runaway at this time far from home. I'd been a runaway when I had a vision of Freya, too.) One was a priestess of the Dianic Wiccan tradition (the other a more general neopagan more into the occult and self-development) and through them I gained a spiritual perspective on life (btw, the Wiccan had books by Linda Goodman which is how I discovered her).

I became a literal pagan for a few years before drifting back into agnosticism. My family didn't get to react because I wasn't with them.

But just before I turned 22 I visited my granny and I shared with her about Freya and all the other stuff, and after telling her of Sessrumnir, and how cool that heaven was, I asked if she'd visit me from her heaven since I didn't think pagans were welcome in her
heaven. And I loved her response:

"They're both the same place. You'll see your trappings and I'll see mine, but we'll still be together and love each other."

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