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posted September 09, 2022 12:46 AM            

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I shared on of them in another topic.

I was walking into a department store. As I was walking in I was saying "black and red, black and red, black and red"

Anthony Hopkins/Hannibal Lector was walking out of the store. I wake up as my husband comes in the door after his night shift. It kind of made me think is Anthony/Hannibal coming in? I love that movie and actor but it sort of creeped me out and confused me for a few seconds.

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posted September 09, 2022 12:51 AM            

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My other dream. A pretty girl was really coming on to me, at my parents house.

She was alternative. Kind of like a pastel white dressed raver goth.
Platinum blonde, pink highlights. Some small elaborate braids in her hair. We were laying on the couch together. I told her I'm not bisexual , I just like to cuddle. Then she tried making out with me but I was not receptive back.

After that one I took it as a sign that it was time to stop sleeping in. LOL

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posted September 09, 2022 11:36 AM            

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Wow!

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posted September 12, 2022 07:01 AM            

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I wonder about the connection you've done between Hannibal and your husband. It is both a scary character and a favorite one for you. Does your husband evoke in you conflicting emotions? And what do you think about this 'red and black' thing? These colors are cool and can be connected with a horror movie. Do you think there is something more to it?

The dream about the girl you cuddled with - she could be an aspect of yourself, as even in the dream you're not bisexual. Does she remind you of anyone, any character, whether fictional or real? It sounds like you could feel pretty close to her, as you were willing to cuddle with her, and we don't normally cuddle with just anyone, perhaps even in a dream.
The dream about the girl also brings out the subject of sex in an extraordinary way. Cuddling is not sex, but it is intimacy. Did the girl make you feel desirable, even though you were not into her in that way?

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posted September 14, 2022 04:56 PM            

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"Does your husband evoke in you conflicting emotions?"
Yes. lol

Me chanting "black and red" was definitely creepy. When I go shopping for clothes I usually look for specific colors. But I don't know what I was going into that store for. It was definitely creepy. My husband has never made me think about Hannibal lector before. lol We both do like the movies though.
One time met a friend's uncle who looked like him. I enjoyed sitting by him and talking to him.

About the girl I do kind of wonder that. It's no one I know in real life, or anyone I recognize. Though I have known people seen people with her style. There is only one girl who I've cuddled with in real life.
Oddly after that dream I decided it's time to stop sleeping in. And I had a FB notification from a friend who is bisexual.

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posted September 14, 2022 05:16 PM            

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I have another. I almost considered posting a new topic. It was the night of the Pisces full moon or whatever.

The therapist noticed how my husband's sexual abuse trauma is really blocking him from expressing himself. I told the therapist how I feel like he just shuts down and it's hard to have an adult conversation about spicing up our sex life.

Well I had a dream that we were in the hotel room. We use hand cuffs sometimes, more for me than him. Well as we getting into it, a maintenance guy comes in. We are like oh sorry and we go into another room. We go in the hall we both have part of the hand cuff around our wrists and into a different room.

Well we go into this other room, we did not know that there was a man in the room. He had a cloth white mask on his face. He made an appearance.

I think it's also important to mention that my husband was sexually abused by a male who is probably middle aged by now like the men in the dream.

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posted September 17, 2022 11:11 AM            

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It seems like the new dream is expressing what you already consciously know - the your husband's past abuse interferes with your sex life.

Maybe you dreaming of Hannibal is bringing out the predator aspect your husband is dealing with when it comes to sex, because of the sexual abuse he suffered. Sometimes the victim is integrating the attack, and so something of the one that attacked them, into their psyche. That by no means saying that the victim equals the aggressor. It only implies the impression imprinted on the psyche of the one that was attacked.

Perhaps your mind tries to spice things sexually by having this lesbian girl hit on you, even though you were not into her. Maybe you're looking for out of the ordinary when it comes to sex, because you feel a certain hunger in that regard.

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posted September 22, 2022 06:12 PM            

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I know exactly what you mean.
Yes we have known each other for 7 years. "The itch" is very real.

I am also having a Mars square Uranus transit. When it does retrograde I will have a break.

I also have Uranus and Neptune in the 8th house. Chiron is squaring my Neptune right now, and the NN is trining it.

Husband has Chiron in the 7th house right now. I think the true healing will start when Chiron goes into his 8th house.

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posted September 22, 2022 07:06 PM            

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I had a dream that I was like in a church library or something. It was all brownish with library books. But then they were also doing like a haunted fun house. I was up there alone there was like a drop shoot slide. I decided nope. Then I saw another stairway to the haunted fun house. Nope. Then I walk toward this back area. The closet doors start to open by themselves. Nope I'm walking out of here. And then a smaller closet door closes on my black cape so I feel stuck. Then my body raises up the the ceiling and I don't know how to get down.

That's all I remember.

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posted September 22, 2022 07:14 PM            

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I had another dream.

I was showing my husband affection. Then there is this other guy looking at us. (Not sure if it matters but he was a bit chubby and looked like he had Hispanic decent, and kind of had a beard and dark hair)
I tell the guy something like making other people uncomfortable is more important than not working on my marriage.

Something along those lines. I don't remember exactly what I said since I had this one days ago.

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posted September 25, 2022 09:11 PM            

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The church - could it have represented your matrimony? Perhaps the library signified your investigation into your relationship. Turning the church into a fun house - you might be a little worried or intimidated by what might pop up from whatever surprises your husband, or your marriage, might have in store for you. Flying to the ceiling could be a natural phenomenon of your astral travel, and it might also point to your ability to surf above the problems, though I understand your issue at that point was that you did not know how to come down. Perhaps it may also signify not being in good rapport with reality.

In the second dream you publicly demonstrate affection to your husband, in an effort to work on your marriage, while being stared. Maybe it means you're willing to be somewhat uncomfortable and let a third party, like a therapist, into your connection, if that could prove helpful.

And yes, Chiron transiting his 8th house could prove impactful, though maybe in a more hidden way. Right now it's in his 7th house, "out in the open".

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posted September 26, 2022 08:57 PM            

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^The church could represent that. We have been putting a lot of work in. We both went to church as kids but are not religious today.

Yes we are in therapy. Though the focus is back on just my husband for the time being. Oh and my husband had to reschedule his therapy sessions 3 times with his work schedule constantly changing, and then his therapist forgot, and then I had a breakdown.

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posted September 27, 2022 09:34 AM            

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Sexual abuse is a very delicate issue, surely it has affected greatly both your husband and yourself. I hope therapy is beneficial, despite the therapist being forgetful...

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posted October 28, 2022 01:41 AM            

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Originally posted by Ayelet:
Sexual abuse is a very delicate issue, surely it has affected greatly both your husband and yourself. I hope therapy is beneficial, despite the therapist being forgetful...

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Thank you very much!!

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posted October 28, 2022 01:48 AM            

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I kind of think the bisexual dream was kind of a warning to me. Just the fact that I woke up to a comment from my bi friend. Like yeah I like hanging out with her, she's pretty, we almost seem telepathic.

But me having sex with a woman. I just don't see it. Certain women I can be more affectionate with.

She is so cool. I saw her a few weeks ago. I was feeling very venerable WITH EVERYONE. So I was kind of paranoid that she was interested in me like that. But also she is a very sexually open person. She is 17 years older than me. Into BDSM, something I want to get more into. Fun to talk to.

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posted January 06, 2023 11:43 PM            

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Also I have a hunch that we are both "male twins" in female form.

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posted January 19, 2023 07:58 AM            

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Have those dreams subsided now?

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posted January 26, 2023 01:00 AM            

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Originally posted by Randall:
Have those dreams subsided now?

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Yes, but in real life I have been getting a lot of attention, and making friends with bi women.

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