posted May 10, 2006 12:51 PM         

im staring into nothingness ,God help me.
i cant find a way out of this, less then mediocracy
im so heavy, yet so unseen
like a piza, inside i lean
and i look for help in another dimension
for a moment, a pause, in brief suspension
im asking for strength
to carry my hopes
maintain my footing on slippery slopes
my bed premade
i want to enjoy its feel
is that out of reach ,to demanding ,unreal?
there is no one,is that fair play?
to have silence to turn to comfort my pain
thoughts bred alone in my heart
as a wilted flower feels itself torn apart
where is the latter rain Lord?
Gods and Goddesses implored, ignored adored?
its like water water everywhere but notta drop to drink
and im on the brink
beginning to sink
hello hello is there anybody out there?
just type a heart if you can hear me
reading words makes me hope that some one is near me
and understands
dont comment on these soiled hands
cause i know , i see it
dirty, calleused(sp?)fingers bit
is there a Tara to make up for that
does anyone frankly give a damn
do you care who i am
or am i lost in a sea of millions unoticed
im the girl behind the woman,the lotus
im the one who wears glasses ,side swipes hair for space
is that good taste, half faced ,disgraced
if i cant live freely
i will die ,just to be me
and they call THAT insanity
but everyones f***** up
it just sometimes runneth over in my cup
would you like a sip of me
i can lace it up with some tea
ill spread a blanket and we'll pretend
that you're my imaginary friend
proper, proper, its not right
to let you know this as i type
perfect etiquitte spits in a napkin
so we can act like it didnt happen
ladies dont sh** dont fart dont lie
in the same way that grown men dont cry
gendered walls hold us in
tarzaned women & janes of men
*sighs*
ill hafta polish this up later when i have more inside then anger............