posted March 10, 2014 04:48 PM            

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Originally posted by Twirl:
Lol, you have all body cards for what he wants.... Clear to me... Death can be a very sexual card as it comes with a certain type of release.

@Ceri: Just read yours... That queen of wands is always a fiery, noticable one.

Are you sure the temperature drops? Maybe you should read on that. Then again, I'm sure you looked lovely & dashing in that, so maybe it has to do with that. Like what LC wrote.

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So he wants sex? lol...ok that's fair.

posted March 19, 2014 12:23 AM            

So my boy toy...we were texting and then I sent a semi-mushy one, so I asked how it made him feel.

10 of dics- Star- 9 of swords

We had sort of made plans but they weren't solid because he would be busy, so I'm wondering if the 9 is because of feeling guilty? It's a weird combination this one..the 10 is like this stable long term foundation, the star is like hope for the future of the foundation and then the 9 is like fear, anxiety, maybe over my small show of affection? not sure...

posted April 12, 2014 05:26 AM            

how did it turn out?
Did he say Yes to the invitation?

posted April 12, 2014 05:29 AM            

Ace of Cups - 3 of cups - 8 of cups

Since we are 3 women going there, I thought, that it might rather relate to our interconnection this afternoon, and that I had not asked the real question.

So I did again and asked how the photos of me would turn out, how I wuold look on them.

Moon - Empress - King of Wands.

posted April 12, 2014 11:40 PM            

For your cards I'm not sure, I almost feel like you won't be a focus in the photographs, but I'm not sure.

So because of a few readings and a friend I've been told I would be in a relationship in May. So I asked my cards if I would have a bf by the end of May and got

10 of discs- 6 of cups- Emperor

posted April 14, 2014 03:24 PM            

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Originally posted by littlecloud:
Sounds about right for the Emperor, although I'm still skeptical and unsure who this is. I think the 10 and Emperor indicated someone I've known for a while? A couple of years at least? They're both time-lapsing steady cards, to me at least.

Would it be possible to post the pics at all? For some reason I have difficulty reading the King of Rods.

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6 of cups would hint at that, too, someone from your past.

I can`t read the King of Rods either.
The photograph just sent some thumbnails (64!!!!), and I can pick five photos from there, and well, of course I am still massively overweight, but still it IS a change. Almost 45 kilos less than 16 months ago. I actually feel pretty embarassed NOW how I used to look and had deserted myself.

I mean just look at how fat my legs still look! (though luckily not as fat as I feared. lol)

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posted April 15, 2014 01:10 PM            

I can relate to this and I would not expect you to become something you are not

As for the posing I can see how it was uncomfortable and yes, usually that shows up in the face and posture of someone who is not a model and not used to having to fake comfort.

posted April 18, 2014 03:32 AM            

- daily pennies - will earn some real ones now -

posted April 18, 2014 06:54 AM            

thank you.

And wise words, resonate much with me.

The thing is I feel very comfortable and amazing as where I am now. I feel very "Me", if that makes sense. Maybe for the first time in a long time I feel like the external really matches my internal sides, even if still a little cautious at times.

However at the same time, while I am content and at peace with myself now, I am also continuing that way. But it is not so much that there is a goal, that is dangling in front of my nose like a carot. I don´t know, I naturaly want to lose some more weight, but it is not *compulsive* or something like that; so I am a work in progress some´how, and yet at the same time I am pretty great just the way I am now.
Which is a rather new feeling for me. lol
But I feel really alright about myself, on a corelevel. And was quite surprised at how nice the pictures looked.

posted April 24, 2014 04:17 PM            

I asked about this one pair of calvin klein shoes, if I should keep them, if they would be a good investment

5 of discs- 6 of cups- 10 of discs

The 10 says yes as do the 6 (comforting/happy) but the 5 I'm thinking is speaking of money issues? For me this card always represents faith, it sucks now, but have faith that things will get better.

posted April 25, 2014 05:46 AM            

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Originally posted by littlecloud:
I've been a bit on a shopping spree lately, returning things, buying things...a bit much even for me.

I asked about this one pair of calvin klein shoes, if I should keep them, if they would be a good investment

5 of discs- 6 of cups- 10 of discs

The 10 says yes as do the 6 (comforting/happy) but the 5 I'm thinking is speaking of money issues? For me this card always represents faith, it sucks now, but have faith that things will get better.

What do you guys think?

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posted May 01, 2014 04:15 AM            

Today though I feel that Beltane-feeling quite strongly, and wanted to have an overview on - after the 10 of swords experience in my back- in which direction my life (romantic/ social/ relational) is heading now, how it is going on for me after that now.
For today`s card I got Temperance, which is very fitting.

However for that spread for the future starting now, I got

Ace of Wands - Fool - 2 of cups

posted May 02, 2014 03:11 AM            

You are lovely!and I agree I love the dress too..hmm I can feel the reservedness in your photos..

posted May 03, 2014 06:03 AM            

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Ummm yea it does!!! That's like super falling heads over heals in love!!! It may very well be that some commitment takes place. (and the Fool showed up again!)

Not sure what the 10 of swords bit was and I'm sorry it happened now Maybe I need to revise how I read a CC. If you feel up to it, share the experience with us, sometimes it helps. Other than that I think your approach to the situation seems great. Not very many people can take it as gracefully as you.

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I don`t know about gracefully, it`s not really like I have a choice. It is what it is. And it isn`t a surprise.
Seems the one I was so heavily crushing on, has gotten married recently and is expecting a child with his wife.

It`s not like we ever were together, not like this is really a surprise (maybe the timing, but that was a question of `when`rather than `if`). It`s not like I could say I didn`t know, didn`t anticipate it.
It`s not like I didn`t know the way THIS was headed for me, but you know how it is, sometimes the heart just wants what it wants, and you refuse to listen to your own reasoning and walk right into some kind of emotional underworld with your eyes wide open.
(one of the things my Venus-Pluto-natal-theme seems to push me into now and then).

But yeah as I said, it didn`t come as a surprise, though of course it still feels like an emotional shock. And it probably needs to feel that way.

Of course it is painful, very much so. Maybe it is unreasonable, maybe irrational, maybe I could have spared me this if I had walked away (emotionally) from this much earlier.
But in a way I needed him to push me where I needed to go, like a catalyst if you so want.

Well, of course it sounds like I am overdramatizing, and maybe I am (but my Saturn in Cancer in 8th house and Cappy Venus square Pluto and fixed Moon in fixed house just has real difficulties in letting go, even if it is just a thought, dream, idea, or feeling. Moving on easily is something for mutable Venus and Moon I suppose, but not for me, though eventually I have to and I always do).

What I think where the problem really is is hat I have allowed this nice fantasy or even that initial real spark (which Is till believe was there) become a dream, then a hope and maybe almost a semi-expectation.
Letting go of a dream or mindset inside, is not that easy.

Also, I do still like him, he is a great performer, and it is always a joy seeing him perform, I just have to adjust my perspective and not make more of it than it really is. C `est tout.

Which is the process I have been going through for the last days, hence my silence.

In a way it feels liberating to me, and even in relation to him, cause that confusion is gone now, and I can take back my projections and see (and appreciate him) for what and who he is.
nice guy, good performer, and most obviously not mine.

Well, it did feel like a 10 of swords experience. But I also read that this is a stage-card, painting things even blacker than they actually are. Drama-queen-card.

Anyway, but as much as I of course liked the spread I had for where I am heading now, of course right now I am still in the temperance-mode.

And no, please no emotional commitment, I am kinda disinterested in getting emotionally stuck on someone.

Well, I would like a little bit joy and a spark in my life for a change, but keep the comitment away from me, FAR away. Just spark of life, energy, happiness and joy, that`s all I want for now. And a new adventure. LOL

I was thinking that the Fool between Ace of wands and 2 of cups would take care of that, keeping commitment a bit away. Well I like all three cards. The spark of a newbeginning in the Ace and the Fool as well as the emotional openness (and hopefully mutuality for once) in the 2 of cups.
But could be a friendship, too, or just basically meaning emotional openness, which I find is important now for me. To keep an open heart despite the recent disappointment or rather dis-illusion.
Which would be a new path to tread on for me, to neither fall back into a dream-world nor to close my heart.
THAT would be a big step into a "new me" for me.
Accept reality and nevertheless move on with openness.

Let`s see if I maange to do it this time. But I am quite hopeful.