posted February 06, 2015 08:42 AM            

I got the date wrong btw, it was the year before 2006. Funny thing is that I was being haunted by a sense of a male energy around me. Usually when coming out of a meditation, but that "presence" would linger and drive me nuts. I did not know the guy whose presence I felt or remembered, the recognition was just out of reach. I mean I felt like I could almost TOUCH the recognition, but nope.
I even described him to my friend in mails, as quite tall, and blondish (darkblondish, lightbrownish hair), and the energy as exuberant, very very sunny, smiling-laughing energy, so to speak.
This was in may 2006, would haunt me for WEEKS, possibly leading into the sequence of the Glastonbury-dreams (the 2nd set), and then on 3rd june 2006 was this open air, where I saw P for the first time, and him me, even if he might not remember that. lol
And well honestly I just wanted to run away.

But at least then the "haunting" stopped.

As for the last portion of the dream/vision, in 2012, yes that was 4 years after we first talked, one year after he approached me first during a show, and half a year after I had decided to never see him again and just stay away.

It was also during the time he must have broken up with his longterm girlfriend, and it was just a few weeks after he was publishing (well singing) the song I mentioned.

For me, well I had decided to not see him again, so I was thinking of a trip somewhere else, to the Externsteine in Germany. It is said to be an esoteric place, and in a way it was. But apart from all of that, during the time being there I suddenly got so depressed and sad and ultimately feeling I HAD to see him that summer.
I think I tried to fight that feeling for some days, before giving in, packing my bags and getting my bum home again, and trying to order tickets for the open air musical in august (Marie Antoinette it was), figuring that he would not recognize me, but that at least I could see him on stage.

I did not have much hope for me getting hands on a ticket, because it was already july, and those musicals are always sold out in advance, and hotelrooms are usually sold out, too, half a year before or so, as it is such a small village, and the festival is so popular.
Nevertheless I was lucky and got my hands on a ticket for one day at least (12th augst) and a hotelroom, even if just for one or two nights.

The seat was even in 2nd row or so I think.
And well, I do remember the first time he came on stage, it was during a mass-dance-scene, and when he saw me he actually swang around a second time, almost to make sure I was really there. I gues he DID see me then.

I also remember the love duet he had with the one who was playing Marie Antoinette, for it was staged such, that he was made to look into my direction, and well of course I would think I was being delusional, if it had not been for the elderly lady sitting beside me, who started getting restless and looking from him to me and back again, and just looking quite surprised or curious. I guess she noticed him looking too.

posted February 06, 2015 10:14 AM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
Thank you. I think it makes a lot of sense. Also I could see myself in the 3 of cups as well as the 9 of wands, it seems to describe the extremes of my behaviour lately (though well maybe it is more 3 of cups vs 4 of cups).

I don`t think he is in a relationship though. But of course you can never really know.

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Then the woman is you, Ceri

posted February 06, 2015 05:10 PM            

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Originally posted by tgem:
Since we are all evaluating dreams here, could someone look into this dream I had. It was the most recent dream of Cusp that had a really strong impact on me. Could someone pull some cards and see what this dream was telling me? Could it have been a premonition? It was just sooooo strange. I'd be really interested in seeing what the cards say.
Thx
http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum15/HTML/003477.html

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wow tgem

I got Page of Swords 5 of Cups Knight of Wands

both your advices! and energy cards right now!

how weird!

I think he's the one in the middle, the mystery man; notice however the 3 golden cups are empty on the ground.

I think the dream is trying to tell you, I mean he is trying to encourage you to pick up the cups and give birth to the new you. *young girl pregnant, Empress. In fact, you are the figure in the card: I think he's giving you his support so that you cross the bridge now.

posted February 07, 2015 07:11 AM            

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Originally posted by tgem:
Hmmm..this is interesting. I wouldn't have looked at it that way. I'm surprised the 5 of cups came up in the spread given the dream was more about celebration.

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I see what you mean, but in my experience with dreams, mine and other's, one dreams of babies and pregnant women when it faces a transition leading to a new you. You are both the child and the pregnant woman in this kind of dreams because in a way you're giving birth to yourself. This kind of dreams is a symbol for your psyche going through a subtle transformation, it's a way for your mind to cope with change and newness, until the person is willing to fully accept it. For example my cousin who is going through a separation and possibly divorce has been dreaming of babies and various pregnant women in her entourage for almost a year, one of them was her age (47, so a bit unfit for pregnancy) and this shows that woman is actually her. This is a classic dream we studied in school and as it happens, it does happen in real life.

I think if this man is a benevolent spirit for you, it makes sense for him to come in your dream and encourage you to cross the bridge. 5 of Cups is the only straightforward bridge card in RW. Cusp is giving you the 3 cups (tablets) as a way to signify some sort of "graduation" (no wonder the pregnant girl was in gradschool). It's a positive omen and encouragement that you can do it, you can pick up the spilled cups and move on, cross the bridge. the future is only across the bridge. cusp and Cups rhyme, BTW, and if I remember correctly, I did pull 3 cups between you. 5 of cups is about crossing that bridge, moving on.

Moving on doesn't mean forever moving on from someone or something. Sometimes we need to move from a person or situation in order to reunite. With one of my great loves, I first needed to move on from him for us to reunite and fulfill our love and it happened afterwards, when we were both ready for it. I think this spread is very important because it contains both your advice cards.

Of course change is a celebration. Here (in your dream) it also signifies celebrating graduation.

I pulled Ace of Cups for what happens to you on the other side of the bridge

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posted February 07, 2015 07:29 AM            

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Originally posted by LeeLoo2014:
Then the woman is you, Ceri

P>S. I thought it was that guy who had a gf.

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Well, there are quite some new players in front of my nose, aren`t they?

No, there is this actor from a small theatre group, with whom we want to cooperate (school-theatre), that is the one with the girlfriend.

And then there`s this new colleague, who is teaching music at our school (just 2 days the week), who is actually a trained opera singer, and I think, he works parttime at school, parttime at his singing career.
That is the one I was meaning.
I donīt know anything about a girlfriend though.
Over the last months we`ve had some nice "group-sessions", meaning, that a few teachers were just sitting around in the teacher`s room, during a break, and I donīt know, just chatting a little, and having fun, at least I remember vaguely a lot of laughing and then suddenly 2 hours had passed. lol

He`s definitely closer to other colleagues than me, because he has more to do with them (teaching same classes and these things), and probably he can`t figure me out as little as I can figure him out.
But he`s a soothing influence somehow.

For example on thursday, after the cancellation of the concert, which really saddened me, when I came into the teacher`s room, he (among others of course) was sitting there, with his guitar and just playing some notes, not a real song, jsut I donīt know improvising, a little playing, a little singing, but it just felt nice. So I got a bit of a concert after all. LOL

Actually another teacher came into the room after I did, and he changed the melody and rhythm of his improvisation more to a bit of a stakkato, almost march-like feel; and it was the difference that made me even aware what a sweet and soft melody he had been playing before. lol

I donīt think he`s really interested in me (or me in him), as we are mostly dealing with other people, but I just notice how carefully he seems to listen whenever I share something (about myself) with other people.
Last week I was pretty muc just talking to that other colleague, and somehow the talk led to me telling her that I should have listened more often to the first impression, that little voice I have in the back of my head, when meeting people for the first time, in the past. Cause usually, even though I silenced it, it was right in the end, and not listening led to some of the more raw disappointments in people and being let down.

It was just a bit of a chat, and not THAT personal I thought - everyone has that experience, right? - but the way he was listening to it so carefully, made me suddenly feel as if I had shared something VERY personal, and had not even been aware of it. lol

But for the rare occasions we got into a longer talk (usually with a third person as catalyst), he just seemed so very attentive. I guess that is just who he is though.

posted February 07, 2015 07:43 AM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
Well, there are quite some new players in front of my nose, aren`t they?

No, there is this actor from a small theatre group, with whom we want to cooperate (school-theatre), that is the one with the girlfriend.

And then there`s this new colleague, who is teaching music at our school (just 2 days the week), who is actually a trained opera singer, and I think, he works parttime at school, parttime at his singing career.
That is the one I was meaning.
I donīt know anything about a girlfriend though.
Over the last months we`ve had some nice "group-sessions", meaning, that a few teachers were just sitting around in the teacher`s room, during a break, and I donīt know, just chatting a little, and having fun, at least I remember vaguely a lot of laughing and then suddenly 2 hours had passed. lol

He`s definitely closer to other colleagues than me, because he has more to do with them (teaching same classes and these things), and probably he can`t figure me out as little as I can figure him out.
But he`s a soothing influence somehow.

For example on thursday, after the cancellation of the concert, which really saddened me, when I came into the teacher`s room, he (among others of course) was sitting there, with his guitar and just playing some notes, not a real song, jsut I donīt know improvising, a little playing, a little singing, but it just felt nice. So I got a bit of a concert after all. LOL

Actually another teacher came into the room after I did, and he changed the melody and rhythm of his improvisation more to a bit of a stakkato, almost march-like feel; and it was the difference that made me even aware what a sweet and soft melody he had been playing before. lol

I donīt think he`s really interested in me (or me in him), as we are mostly dealing with other people, but I just notice how carefully he seems to listen whenever I share something (about myself) with other people.
Last week I was pretty muc just talking to that other colleague, and somehow the talk led to me telling her that I should have listened more often to the first impression, that little voice I have in the back of my head, when meeting people for the first time, in the past. Cause usually, even though I silenced it, it was right in the end, and not listening led to some of the more raw disappointments in people and being let down.

It was just a bit of a chat, and not THAT personal I thought - everyone has that experience, right? - but the way he was listening to it so carefully, made me suddenly feel as if I had shared something VERY personal, and had not even been aware of it. lol

But for the rare occasions we got into a longer talk (usually with a third person as catalyst), he just seemed so very attentive. I guess that is just who he is though.

Neverthless, he is cute and nice, and probably just passing through. lol

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The description of the King of Cups How nice! is he the cute Spaniard?

posted February 07, 2015 07:51 AM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
Yes.

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I very much liked his energy for you I hope you "hook up"

posted February 07, 2015 07:57 AM            

But for now I just like the energy he brings to our teacher-team.
Plus he is doing "Les Miserables" with the chorus (well him and his colleague share the job) - I suppose a few songs only - but I LOVE Les Mis.

posted February 07, 2015 09:53 AM            

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Originally posted by LeeLoo2014:
I see what you mean, but in my experience with dreams, mine and other's, one dreams of babies and pregnant women when it faces a transition leading to a new you. You are both the child and the pregnant woman in this kind of dreams because in a way you're giving birth to yourself. This kind of dreams is a symbol for your psyche going through a subtle transformation, it's a way for your mind to cope with change and newness, until the person is willing to fully accept it. For example my cousin who is going through a separation and possibly divorce has been dreaming of babies and various pregnant women in her entourage for almost a year, one of them was her age (47, so a bit unfit for pregnancy) and this shows that woman is actually her. This is a classic dream we studied in school and as it happens, it does happen in real life.

I think if this man is a benevolent spirit for you, it makes sense for him to come in your dream and encourage you to cross the bridge. 5 of Cups is the only straightforward bridge card in RW. Cusp is giving you the 3 cups (tablets) as a way to signify some sort of "graduation" (no wonder the pregnant girl was in gradschool). It's a positive omen and encouragement that you can do it, you can pick up the spilled cups and move on, cross the bridge. the future is only across the bridge. cusp and Cups rhyme, BTW, and if I remember correctly, I did pull 3 cups between you. 5 of cups is about crossing that bridge, moving on.

Moving on doesn't mean forever moving on from someone or something. Sometimes we need to move from a person or situation in order to reunite. With one of my great loves, I first needed to move on from him for us to reunite and fulfill our love and it happened afterwards, when we were both ready for it. I think this spread is very important because it contains both your advice cards.

Of course change is a celebration. Here (in your dream) it also signifies celebrating graduation.

I pulled Ace of Cups for what happens to you on the other side of the bridge

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posted February 07, 2015 02:50 PM            

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Originally posted by LeeLoo2014:
Tgem, your week end

Mountain Birds Tree Clouds Letter
Moon on Tree

I think you may have some news about your ex. Possibly the weather will change. you're still experiencing some delays, maybe delayed news, messages. There is success growing in the background, and emotional healing: Moon Tree. But I do see a not so pleasant conversation however. Scythe on letter: an unexpected message is also possible. But I got Stars + Anchor as cutting cards, good developments in the background, especially in career matters.

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posted February 07, 2015 04:19 PM            

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Originally posted by tgem:
Just wanted to give you an update on this: today I received a delayed email (mountain-letter) about an job interview I had. I was really unsure about the outcome after the interview I had (birds-clouds.) Turns out I didn't get the job (anchor and scythe as clarifies) but I believe it was probably a blessing in disguise since I took another opportunity that will bring some money in (stars) and be a lot more emotionally fulfilling (tree-moon.)

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wow...I'm sorry about the bad news, but I'm glad to see it was for the best. You described the spread perfectly!

posted March 25, 2015 12:35 PM            

OK, let's bring the mummy back!

I have 2 questions.

Tell me what R. thinks of my body in the sacred dance photo I sent him (hehehe don't ask!)

Also, I just read this silly article (not entirely, but still - I see this as quite malleable oh well) that everyone has an ideal physical type - am I his ideal woman type (physically) and in what way (what do the cards describe)?

I am ready to draw, who has questions? Athene, you are welcome to join the exchange.

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posted March 25, 2015 02:25 PM            

I think he has been celibate a long time and he is really spiritual and I don't know how he views masturbation I thought he may see it as impure but I feel that he gets really aroused when he remote views me and has to do it. Is this true?

posted March 25, 2015 02:33 PM            

Knight of Pentacles
Seven of Cups
Four of Pentacles
Moon

He felt like he should take his time observing what you showed him and wanted to fantasize with what he saw for a bit. Seeing you made him feel like he wants you for himself and nobody else can have you. He then proceeded to feel confused of what you arouse in him like he can't really see the wood for the trees.

posted March 25, 2015 03:08 PM            

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Originally posted by athenegoddess:
What did R think of your Body?

Knight of Pentacles
Seven of Cups
Four of Pentacles
Moon

He felt like he should take his time observing what you showed him and wanted to fantasize with what he saw for a bit. Seeing you made him feel like he wants you for himself and nobody else can have you. He then proceeded to feel confused of what you arouse in him like he can't really see the wood for the trees.

Sry I can't really give a picture of physical details. This is what I felt from the cards.

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WOW! What an awesome spread, thank you! You said confusion because of the Moon card? I wouldn't see it like this in the context, more like a very instinctual, primal reaction, making you howl at the Moon lol something arousing deep mating instincts, and it suits his Scorpio Moon very well (which is the same with Moon in Tarot).

For your question, Athene, yes, he does it, secretly lol and it is strong, but he sees you both as friend or wife material, and as the seductress, the hot woman.

I got House Dog Snake Tower.

Snake is a phallic card in Leno, and so is the Tower. Tower also shows doing things secretly, when alone. Snake is also the seductress of Leno, the dark, alluring, sexually arousing lady, the temptation

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posted March 25, 2015 03:24 PM            

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Originally posted by tgem:
I got one
What's D's favorite part of my body?
I'll be back with yours..

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That is one interesting question, Tgem!

All right, I got

8 of Pentacles

The first thing I see here is him liking your hands and legs (hands as focus of this card, but also the exposed leg). However, this card stands for someone physically fit, in general, well groomed - it also means attention to finishing details, great finishing details. So this tells me he considers you fit and likes your body in general, perhaps also the way you dress, the details you use in dressing up, and some "finishing details" such as the "extremities".

This has been confirmed with Leno, where I got Ship (liking your body in general, the "vessel" and Rider, which governs the legs But also a card for being physically fit - so he likes your body type overall, with a focus on hands and legs.

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