posted March 29, 2015 09:01 AM            

1. What I need/want from him sexually
2. What our sexual relationship means/represents to me
3. What he needs/wants from me sexually
4. What our sexual relationship means/represents to him
5. My insecurities
6. His insecurities
7. What turns me on most about him
8. What turns him on most about me
9. What I can do to enhance our connection
10. What he can do to enhance our connection
11. The sexual energy we create together
12. Our future together sexually

posted March 29, 2015 09:51 AM            

2. What our sexual relationship means/represents to me
4 of Cups Fish
A dream in both cases! 

3. What he needs/wants from me sexually
6 of swords Stars
To elope with you, hope and completion, a dream too. Something secret, under the stars.

4. What our sexual relationship means/represents to him
9 of Swords Snake
A lot of regret here. The other woman. Something very seductive and sexy. A temptation.

5. My insecurities
8 of Cups House
Fear of being abandoned, fear of loss and separation. Him being committed.

6. His insecurities
6 of Swords Cross
General fear and insecurity here. He’s afraid of what he wants above, of wanting you.

7. What turns me on most about him
5 of Wands Letter
You are very turned on by him, this is a very strong turn on card. You like his firey nature. But also his way with words and a message from him would make your heart melt.

8. What turns him on most about me
8 of wands House
Haha message here as well, communication (don’t take it the wrong way). very turned on about you as well. You passionate nature. Your body.

9. What I can do to enhance our connection
Hermit House
Take the separation positively, use it as a source of light. Create a stable situation for yourself.

10. What he can do to enhance our connection
8 of Wands Tree
Communication, messages. Waiting for the right moment. Antagonistic cards, very interesting.

11. The sexual energy we create together
Knight of Wands House
Very passionate, but stable and endurant. This knight is going Home, so feeling home for both of you.

12. Our future together sexually

Moon Rider

First idea, uncertain at this point. Moon is a mystery card, however very deep in terms of sexuality, attraction, instincts, psychic connections, things developing under the surface. But the future looks positive or at least some clear developments will happen with the Rider, a very sexual card.

And a dedication for you, Tgem
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qgq0oesMZUI

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I seem to have loved you in numberless forms...

posted March 29, 2015 10:02 AM            

yes, or it could mean everything, or making me feel like a woman, right?

2. What our sexual relationship means/represents to me
Anchor-something stable, long-term and safe/comfortable

something i definitely want, I agree

3. What he needs/wants from me sexually
Rider-energy, a feeling of newness, flirting

to get it on hahahahahaha

4. What our sexual relationship means/represents to him
Flowers- something beautiful and happy

nice!

5. My insecurities
Ring- that he won't commit to you? An endless cycle with no progression forward?

the second yes...spot on!

6. His insecurities
Tower- that he can't perform sexually as well as he'd like to..maybe he has trouble "going the distance"??!!

I think you got it right, he's insecure about everything, Sun sq Saturn

7. What turns me on most about him
Child- the newness of it, something refreshing, maybe he likes to experiment with new techniques?

he has purity

8. What turns him on most about me
Man- do you have a lot of male energy? I think he likes that you can take on the dominant masculine role at times..

I wonder if this means: "making him feel like a man?"

9. What I can do to enhance our connection
Roads- this is obviously about making a choice..is there something specific you need to do to make this happen that you are unsure about?

Yep

10. What he can do to enhance our connection
Fox-he need to think outside the box, be unconventional and clever

Also, repair some mistakes (Fox is being described as mistakes too)

11. The sexual energy we create together
Coffin-very transforming, a union of souls, not just bodies

Great! hahahahaha we're in the Coffin lol at least it means bed All or nothing, I suppose

12. Our future together sexually
Tree- growing slowly but long term ❤️❤️

I love the Tree!

posted March 29, 2015 10:37 AM            

So do you think here this means he regrets the feelings he has for me or what he felt for me? Or do you think he regrets how things ended between us? I could use some clarity on this..

"9. What I can do to enhance our connection
Hermit House
Take the separation positively, use it as a source of light. Create a stable situation for yourself."

posted March 29, 2015 11:04 AM            

I'm afraid for the first the situation is like this:

(I specifically asked for positive cards to reflect a yes answer, despite it not being what you wish, maybe)

Is the regret and sorrow ( 9 of sw) resulted from getting involved with Tgem and let himself be tempted?

Rider Cross Book Woman Anchor
I think it's yes, because his wife found out and it caused a lot of problems and sorrow with her (Cross Woman), but also sorrow for you and everyone else involved.

Is the regret and sorrow because he couldn't continue his rel. with Tgem?

posted March 29, 2015 11:54 PM            

1.) What quality is So-&-So attracted to (in general, not in you)?
KNIGHT of WANDS

He loves the thrill of the chase.. perhaps women who seem to not want a commitment.. a woman who is sexy and seems as if she doesn't want a serious relationship. also someone traveled and cultured.

2.) How does So-&-So view me physically?
EIGHT of SWORDS

I feel maybe he feels trapped in something here.. I feel he really likes you but feels like your unreachable to him here for some reason. I don't see weight being an issue here..

(hmm, I lost a lot of weight, does that figure in here?)

3.) How does So-&-So view my personality?
SUN

Really likes it! Very warm, gifted, jovial, a joy to be around.

4.) What would So-&-So think of being on a date with me?*
TEN of PENTACLES

I sense he feels like you could be as close as family in a way. He would see it as comforting.

5.) Advice on how to be most attractive to So-&-So?
NINE of SWORDS

posted March 30, 2015 04:31 AM            

thanks for your input.

"He loves the thrill of the chase.. perhaps women who seem to not want a commitment.. "
I can see that.

He`s quite a flirtatious guy, or actually he is very communicative, and his Mercury in Sag means he just can`t shut up, and one word leads to the other, and often it becomes a little, well, sexual.
At least that is what I noticed on the concerts I visited. I have no clue how he is when I am not there, but I doubt he would be different.
Though it feels like his communications with the crowd have taken on an even more sexual tone in the last months, though, hmm, actually thinking about it, it was usually fired into my direction. lol
Might be just a coincidence, or not. Who knows?

But I have changed a little, while I used to be completely startled and feeling like squirming about that, cause I just don`t see myself as possible receiving end of this kind of attention (as superficial as it may be) and I was getting all defensive and closed up, I am much more relaxed about it nowadays.
It`s just a game, a bit of a "You may look, but you must not touch" kinda game.
We are clearly out of reach for each other, and the game is fun, well at least as long as he is on stage and I am relatively safe in the audience. lol
I am getting a bit hmm, startled though, and in retreating mode, when he gets off stage and gets too close in proximity.
Not that I don`t like it. But well, as long as he`s on stage, that is totally okay, cause we can pretend it is just part of the show and nothing else.
There are simply lines in the real life off stage that must not be crossed.

"a woman who is sexy and seems as if she doesn't want a serious relationship. also someone traveled and cultured."
Well, I don´t know about sexy, but I`ve been a lot more confident and comfortable in my body and personality than I was for many years, and I think I must come across as rather independent, also showing up for most shows on my own.
Well, if noone really wants to see a musical show as often as I do, and I really want to see it, I only have the choice to sit at home or go there on my own, so usually I pick the second option. I am aware though that this makes me stick out a little.

But I guess it must be my Sagittareius/1st house emphasis and Draco Sun, Mercury and Venus in Aries in me.

"I feel maybe he feels trapped in something here.. I feel he really likes you but feels like your unreachable to him here for some reason. "
Yes, that is totally true. We are unreachable to each other.

I was just wondering about that card here at the location of how he sees me physically. Maybe I misunderstood the meaning of the question though.

"I don't see weight being an issue here.."
I actually don´t think it is a problematic issue. But, well he`s known me (or seen me) with almost 50-60 kilos more than I am now, and he noticed and appreciated the change. I am pretty sure about that, THAT was a look (or actually several ones) not even I could misinterprete or downplay.

But well, doesn`t change the fact of unavailability.
And the chemistry that is between us, unless i am totally mistaken, makes it a little difficult to base that interconnection on a purely performer-fan-ground. I am not really well equipped to play "fan" anyway. I mean, I even told him last time I didn`t want an autograph, cause what would I do with it anyway? (well I could analyse his signature graphologically. ).

"Really likes it! Very warm, gifted, jovial, a joy to be around."
I liked that very much!
And it is such a change. When I asked a similiar question before, about how he sees me, I was usually coming up as HIGHPRIESTESS or in worse cases Queen of Swords. lol
It seems I seem more open to him nowadays.

"I sense he feels like you could be as close as family in a way. He would see it as comforting."
I can see that as well. I have probably mentioned it before but as a child I spent a lot of time in his hometown, cause my great grandmother was living nearby, and getting there, is always like coming home to me. Plus from what he shares, our family structures seem to be nearly identical, or very similiar.
Even his mom has the same x-ray Scorpio-stare my own mom has (no clue if his mother isa Scorpio, but mine is).
And I`ve been on the receiving end of that x-ray-stare of his mother more than once, which was quite startling.
I mean what reason did she have to x-ray me like that?
I am just some woman in the audience, right?

"Cause him pain in anyway you can. "
LOL
Well maybe I am a nightmare to HIM.
It certainly seems like lately I am more on the teasing end.

I suppose though the painful thing here possibly is the messed up timing. It`s just not possible for us to be anything more than performer and audience. And well I am not unaffected by other men`s charm either, and unlike him, I am "free as a bird" and can do and look whereever I want.

posted March 30, 2015 04:37 AM            

quote:

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Originally posted by LeeLoo2014:
Naughty Ceri! And you seemed such a good girl....

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See how Mr Sag ruined me?

posted March 30, 2015 08:07 AM            

quote:

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
Play with me.
Lighten my mood.

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hmmm...