posted August 03, 2015 03:43 PM            

during the fan meeting
Hermit, 5 of Cups, 8 of Pentacles
WTF? Are you sure you will be there? This is very contrasting. He'd either avoid you or/and be rather melancholic and quiet around you and more professional than you'd like him to or he'd feel sad and lonely because of your absence and being there would feel like work and he probably wouldn't stay for long (my 8oP shows a man walking away).

posted August 03, 2015 04:49 PM            

I hope that ****** spread won't come true Even if you go there and what I descirbed happens more or less, I suppose it would have something to do with the concert. Maybe he'd feel embarrassed for some reason. Perhaps that gig would make him feel too...exposed in terms of his feelings for you.

posted August 03, 2015 07:00 PM            

quote:

---

I have the hunch, his wife might be there

---

I focused and during shuffling 3 cards placed next to each other jumped out
Ace of Pentacles, Empress, Queen of Cups
Awww if it's true. I'm gonna do it properly though.

7 of Wands, 5 of Chalices, Temperance
Umm...I think he misses you, can get quite depressed because of you and probably feels defeated. My 7 of Swords has a wounded knight holding a white flag. Poor Temperance, she wants to unite so much.

Btw, I realized at first I was thinking "what he currently feels for you. Then it was "what he is currently feeling for you. Could make a difference. First set could be about what you mean to him in general and another one his recent state of mind in relation to you.

posted August 03, 2015 07:18 PM            

"
Ace of Pentacles, Empress, Queen of Cups
Awww if it's true. I'm gonna do it properly though."
That would be nice, if he generally feels that for me.

Interestingly I sometimes come up as the Queen of Cups (if I am not the Highpriestess), at least when I am more open en emotionally expressive.
I do think though he finds me attractive. Not sure how much, but it is pretty clear he likes looking at me.
Hey, I have doubted my gut instinct abut that for a long time, but it just, it simply becomes ridiculous to continue with denying the obvious. He would not look at me (and I am not talking about a fleeing one either. lol) nor show up so close to me that we nearly bump into each other (on th elast concert he actually managed to do that), if he thought I was insufferable. He probably would also not approach me during his shows, or react to something I did among 2000 other people, if he was completely oblivious of me.

But that`s quite the problem isnīt it?
lol
And there I was 2 years ago thinking the greatest heartbreak or trouble would be if he dislikes me.
I was wrong. It`s worse knowing he does like me, but it`s just not enough, and not the right time. knowing we wasted so much time, until it was too late.

Or I am dead wrong and all that attention is really a sign of dislike and disinterest.

"7 of Wands, 5 of Chalices, Temperance"
Inteeresting, the 5 of cups keeps coming up, in my own spreads too. But I thought it was reflecting me, missing him.
I mean we shared a really nice moment or actually several ones, but it`s been almost 2 weeks ago. It`s in the past now.

Anyway, the 7 of wands. fighting against those feelings. I`ve been there, done that.
But the truth is, somewhere along the way I must have given up that fight. I can`t do it anymore. He has to fight it for both of us.

"My 7 of Swords has a wounded knight holding a white flag."
I can relate to that.
BTW wands or swords?

Interestingly he is very often playing a knight, and often a wounded one, yes.

posted August 04, 2015 05:58 AM            

And yes, I suppose you are right. Well at least I feel morally shady, and we did not even do anything.