posted October 13, 2005 07:44 PM         

yes been to all those places mentioned, 45 minutes from Rangely Maine.
Lived tight on the beach in Seabrook, walk off the porch into the beach sand, Heaven
White Mountains, beautiful to but so cold, like here
great talking with you

posted October 13, 2005 11:07 PM         

love bug, I can't shack this feeling
that i got, like things are going to change
big time, will you please
talk to me
Please, with sugar on top
I keep praying
and they say to relax
but I can't
what do i do?

posted October 14, 2005 01:34 AM         

things play over and over in my mind's
eye, am I still to be scorned and mourned?
Have I paid my debts in full, as of yet?
torments and tortures endured
i beg you, pull me from here...

Sibylline Oracles
Crown of the world, sweet Wood, salvation's horn,
Rearing its beauty, shall for man be born;
O Wood, that saints adore, and sinners scorn!
So from twelve fountains shall its light be poured;
Staff of the Shepard, a victorious sword.

I'm worried about the
before part to this
please help me

posted October 14, 2005 03:18 PM         

Magical and Philosophical Precepts

144. Direct not your mind to the vast sufaces of the earth; for the Plant of Truth grows not upon the ground. Nor measure the motions of the Sun, collecting rules, for he is carded by the Eternal Will of the Father, and not for your ssake alone. dismiss the impetuous course of the Moon, for she moves always by the power of necessity. The progression of the Stars was not generated for your ssake. The wide aerial flight of birds gives no ture knowledge nor the dissection of the entrails of victims; they are all mere toys, the basis of mercenary fraud: flee from these if you would enter the sacred paradise of piety, where Virtue, Wisdom, and Equity are assembled.

145. Stoop not down unto the Darkly-Splendid World; wherein continually lies a faithless Depth, and Hades wrapped in clouds, delighting in unintelligible images, preciptous, winding, a black ever-rolling Abyss; ever espousing a Body unluminous, formless and void.

146. Stoop not down, for a precipice lies beneath the earth, reached by descending Ladder which has Seven Steps, and therein is established the Throne of an evil and fatal force.

147. Stay not on the Precipice with the dross of Matter, for there is a place for your Image in a realm ever splendid.

148. Invoke not the visible Image of the Soul of Nature.

149. Look not upon Nature, for her name is fatal.

150. It becomes you not to behold them before your body is initiated, since by always alluring they seduce the souls from the sacred mysteries.

151. Bring her not forth, lest in departing she retain something.

152. Defile not the Spirit, nor deepen a superficies.

153. Enlarge not your Destiny.

154. Not hurling, according to the Oracle, a transcendent foot towards piety.

155. Change not the barbarous Names of Evocation for there are sacred Names in every language which are given by God, having in the Sacred Rites a Power Ineffable.

156. Go not forth when the Lictor passes by.
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must go look up Lictor, not in my dictionary
anyone know what it means???

posted October 14, 2005 03:47 PM         

158. The conception of the glowing Fire has the first rank, for the mortal who approaches that Fire shall have Light from God; and unto the persevering mortal the Blessed Immortals are swift.

159. The Gods exhort us to understand the radiating form of Light.

160. It becomes you to hasten unto the Light, and to the Rays of the Father, from whom sent unto you a Soul imbued with much Mind.

161. Seek Paradise.

162. Learn the Intelligible for it subsists beyond the Mind.

163. There is a certain Intelligible One whom it becomes you to understand with the Flower of Mind.

164. But the Paternal Mind accepts not the aspiration of the soul until she has passed out of her oblivious state, and pronounces the Word; regaining the Memory of the pure paternal Symbol.

165. Unto some He gives the ability to receive the Knowledge nof Light; and others, even when asleep, he makes fruitful from His own strength.

166. It is not proper to understand that the Intelligible One with vehemence, but with the extended flame of far reaching Mind, measuring all things except that Intelligible. But it is requisite to understand this; for if you inclined your Mind you will understand it, not earnestly; but it is becoming to bring with you a pure and enquiring sense, to extend the void mind of your Soul to the Intelligible, that you may learn the Intelligible, because it subsists beyond Mind.

167. You wilt not comprehend it, as when understanding some common thing.

168. You who understand, know the Super-mundane Paternal Depth

169. Things Divine are not attainable by mortals who understand the body alone, but only by those who stripped of their garments arrive at the summit.

170. Having put on the completely armed-vigor of resounding Light, with triple strength fortifying the Soul and the Mind, He must put into the Mind the various Symbols, and not walk dispersedly on the empyrean path, but with concentration.

171. For being furnished with every kind of Armor, and armed, he is similar to the Goddess.

172. Explore the River of the Soul, whence, or in waht order you have come: so that although you have become a servant to the body, you may again rise to the Order from which you descended, joining works to sacred reason.

173. Every way unto the emanicipated Soul extend the rays of Fire.

174. Let the immortal depth of your Soul lead you, but earnestly raise your eyes upwards.

posted October 14, 2005 06:12 PM         

176. If you extend the Fiery Mind to the work of piety, you will preserve the fluxible body

177. The telestic life through Divine Fire removes all the stains, together with everthing of a foreign and irrational nature, which the spirit of the Soul has attracted from generation, as we are taught by the Oracle to believe.

178. The Oracles of the Gods declare, that through prifying ceremonies, not the Soul only, but bodies themselves become worthy of receiving much assistance and health, for, say they, "the mortal vestment of coarse Matter will by these means be purified." And this, the Gods, in an exhortatory manner, announce to the moat holy of Theurgists.

179. We should flee, according to the Oracle, the multitude of men going in a herd.

180. Who knows himself, knows all things in himself.
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so what do think so far, pretty interesting
stuff, wouldn't you say???

Dear Heart
I love You

posted October 14, 2005 06:41 PM         

182. But these are mysteries which I evolve in the profound Abyss of the Mind.

183. As the Oracle thereforth says: God is never so turned away from man, and never so much sends him new paths, as when he makes ascent to divine speculations or works in a confused or disordered manner, and as it adds, with unhallowed lips, or unwashed feet. For of those who are thus negligent, the progress is imperfect, the impulses are vain, and the paths are dark.

184. Not knowing that every God is good, you are fruitlessly vigilant.

185. Theurgists fall not so as to be ranked among the herd that are in subjection to Fate.

186. The number nine is divine, receives its completion from three triads, and attains the summits of theology, according to the Chldaic philosophy as Prophyry informs us.

187. In the left side of Hecate is a fountain of Virtue, which remains entirely within her, not sending forth its virginity.

188. And the earth bewailed them, even unto their children.

189. The Furies are the Constrainers of Men.

190. Lest being baptized to the Furies of the Earth, and to the necessities of nature (as some one of the Gods say), you should perish.
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posted October 14, 2005 06:43 PM         

tell Daf "happy birthday!!" for me wouldjya?

posted October 14, 2005 07:00 PM         

Ok back to Zoroaster

191. Nature persuades us that there are pure Daemons, and that evil germs of Matter may alike become useful and good.

192. For three days and no longer need you sacrifice.

193. So therefore first the Priest who governs the works of Fire, must sprinkle with the Water of the loud-resounding Sea.

194. Labour you around the Strophalas of Hecate.

195. When you shall see a Terrestrial Daemon approaching, Cry aloud! And sacrifice the stone Mnizourin.
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posted October 14, 2005 07:21 PM         

in darker bigger writing
197. From the Cavities of the Earth leap forth the terrestrial Dog-faced demons, showing no true sign unto mortal man.

198. A similar Fire flashingly extending through the rushings of Air, or a Fire formless whence comes the Image of a voice, or even a flashing Light abounding, revolving, whirling forth, crying aloud. Also there is the vision of the fire-flashing Courser of Light, or also a Child borne aloft on the shoulders of the Celestial Steed, fiery, or clothed with gold, or naked, or shooting with the bow shafts of Light, and standing on the shoulders of the horse; then if your meditation prolongs itself, you shall unite all these Synbols into the Form of a Lion.

in darker bigger words
199. When you shall behold that holy formless Fire shining flasingly through the depths of the Universe: Hear you the Voice of Fire.
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phew, so what do you think of all that
sounds like we still have things to get
in order
many things to happen before all this
some have started
anywho
just wanted to share

posted October 14, 2005 09:29 PM         

You see, I'd really like to talk
about all kinds if crazy things
amazing stuff, really
that I can't do here

won't you please, connect with me
in normal human fashion, no distraction
just revelations, of the past, which is
the present, which is the future
and back again

tuity fruity
I'm giving you a big
smoochie, I Love Lucy

posted October 15, 2005 01:46 AM         

you see, I'm waiting...

to see and know...

if you understand...

posted October 15, 2005 01:14 PM         

Actually, I'm walking away now
to get a cup of coffee...

I'm back, yes I drink coffee
i or 2 cups per day, or none
it goes either way, depending
on my mood

it's cold and raining here
I want Mr. Golden Sun to come out
there's been enough rain
for my dreary soul, that has
been rejuvenated, exhilirated
to contemplation, of how and
when, I can really hold you
in my arms???

posted October 15, 2005 02:22 PM         

I saw the threatening of the Shining Sun
Among the stars, and in the lightning flash
The dire wrath of the Moon; the stars travailed
With battle; and God gave them up to fight.
For long fire-flames rebeleed against the Sun;
Lucifer treading upon Leo's back
Began the fight; and the Moon's double horn
Changed its shape; Capricorn smote Taurus's neck;
And Taurus took away from Capricorn
Returning day. Orion would no more
Abide his yoke; the lot of Gemini
Did Virgo change in Aries; no more shone
The Pleiads; Draco disavowed his zone;
Down into Leo's girdle Pisces went.
Cancer remained not, for he feared Orion;
Scorpio down on dire Leo backwards moved;
And from the Sun's flame Sirius slipped away;
And the strength of the mighty Shining One
Aquarius kindled. Uranus himself
Was roused, until he shook the warring ones;
And being incensed he hurled them down on earth.
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The Sibylline Oracles
BY Milton S. Terry
Copyright by
Eaton & Mains,
1899

posted October 15, 2005 11:42 PM         

sweetness, I long to hold
you in my arms, it's been so such
a very long time, don't you think?
Yes, Time is an illusion
and we're never apart
I know I know I know
Apollo was a long story
but well worth reading
making lots of sense
still computing

My dear Heart
I Love YOU
with all my
SOUL

posted October 16, 2005 12:40 PM         

I Image us all whole
souls united, under God

hehe
when I started school
and we would say the
"Pledge of Allegiance"
I would say "UnderdoG"
I Love that cartoon
and I believed
it really was UnderdoG

memories, I'm laughing
whoa, and I loved
his super energy pill
in that magic ring
seeds from long ago

oh darling
I'm feeling disconnected
could you re-connect
me please

posted October 17, 2005 12:47 AM         

a tigger is a wonderful thing
I should say
for I like the way he bounces
from here to there
but does he ever
get anywhere?

I love you more
than words could ever show
I would die for you
just to show
you, how much, I really
truly
love you, my missing piece
to PEACE

TEARS TEARS TEARS