posted November 06, 2005 03:09 PM         

I'm feeling happy thoughts
about times before
when you adored me
it's a lovely feeling

did you know
that Atlantis has already been discovered
on the ocean floor, just as Edgar Cayce had said it would be
the government knows

Dear Heart
will you spend some time'
healing Mother Earth with me
can you hug her and hold her
and bring peace
in her heart

posted November 06, 2005 04:17 PM         

OK, gotta go

posted November 06, 2005 07:11 PM         

so, my conclusion to tools, I was much too harsh, for if they are mastered
with the Truth
Knowledge and Wisdom
then they work with the Divine

the problem is, how many Masters are using the tools, and who are fools
hehe see

posted November 07, 2005 11:16 AM         

The Sun, you are to me
I, the Moon to you
for every man
and women
we are
stars

posted November 07, 2005 11:21 AM         

as I said this should be fun
they are playing tricks

posted November 07, 2005 01:44 PM         

hehe

posted November 07, 2005 08:26 PM         

If ever you are feeling like you're tired
And all your struggles uphill leave you headed downhill
If you realize your wildest dreams can hurt you
And your appetite for pain has drinken its fill

I ask of you a very simple question
Did you think for one minute that you are alone
And is your suffering a privilege you share only
Or did you think that everybody else feels completely at home

Just wait
Just wait
Just wait
And it will come

If you think I've given up on you you're crazy
And if you think I don't love you well then you're just wrong
In time you might take to feeling better
Time is the beauty of the road being long

I know that now you feel no consolation
But maybe if I told you and informed you out loud
I say this without fear of hesitation
I can honestly tell you that you make me proud

Just wait
Just wait
Just wait
And it will come

If anything I might have just said has helped you
If anything I might have just said helped you just carry on
Your rise uphill may no longer seem a struggle
And your appetite for pain may all but be gone

I hope for you and cannot stop hoping
Until that smile has once again returned to your face
There's no such thing as a failure who keeps trying
Coasting to the bottom is the only disgrace

posted November 08, 2005 01:26 AM         

the Pleiades, the central point of the Universe
the black hole the door
to the heavens

the Celestial Nile
no more denial
this is in our memories
it's amazing
I'll have to draw it

10 but 9 = 19 = 10
this is the all
the requires
pure balance

I'm holding you
and being
Love,
me

oh, and a big kiss
I Love YOu
Ggodnight

posted November 08, 2005 11:36 AM         

Well, I really had an inclination, to go into Astrology today, course here
but I can't get into the actual topics
everything happens for a reason
and it only makes me want to learn more
so thirst is good

top of Giza, starstone, enveloped in gold
pryamid cap
circle at point-top
allows Sun in, Light goes out
in 4 directions
5 the one from the sky

pryamid base to base
5 sides + 5 sides = 10
1 base NOW = 9
9 life force energy + 1 sun = 10
the end the beginning
this 10 requires perfect pure balance
or KaBang

this is knowledge-wisdom
we must be very careful
coming into balance
is Truth

Darling, kiss on the cheek
and a I love YOu
I'm with you
BOO

posted November 08, 2005 12:33 PM         

Blavatsky
Circle and Cross

The Secret Doctrine teaches us that everything in the universe, as well as the universe itself, is formed (created) during its periodical manifestations--by accelerated MOTION set into activity by the BREATH of the ever-to-be-known power (unknown to present mankind, at any rate) within the phenomenal world. The spirit of Life and Immortality was everywhere symbolized by a circle: hence the serpent biting its tail, represents the circle of Wisdom in infinity; as does the astronomical cross--the cross within the circle, and the globe, with two wings added to it, which then become the sacred Scarabaeus of the Egyptians, its very name being suggestive of the secret idea attached to it. For the Scarabaeus is called in Egypt (in the papyri) Khopirron and Khopri
from the verb Khopron "to become" and has thus been made a synbol and an emblem of human life and of the successive becomings of man, through the varioous peregrinations and metempsychoses (reincarnations) of the liberated Soul. this mystical symbol shows plainly that the Egyptians believed in reincarnation and the successive lives and existences of the Immortal entity. Being, however, an esoteric doctrine, revealed only during the mysteries by the priest-hierophants and the King-Initiates to the candidates, it was kept secret. the incorporeal intelligences )the Planetary Spirits, or Creative Powers) were always represented under the form of circles. In the primitive philosophy of the Hierophants these invisible circles were the prototypic causes and builders of all heavenly orbs, which were their invisible bodies or coverings, and of which they were the souls. It was certainly a universal teaching in antiquity.
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I'm finding, no matter how much I read, or how many times I've read it
the answers are coming from within, and the basic theme
this is all very simple
we have completely complicated it
break it down to it's simplest form
that is why the begger can ascend,
you can be the smartest person on this earth
but, you may not have room left
for the simplest form and anwers

posted November 08, 2005 11:49 PM         

where is that cap, that globe?
who took it?
it's a mystery
for you and me
and he and she
and they and them
to ascend the
ladder of knowledge
wisdom and truth

It's so cold here
I envision your arms
wrapped around me
and I breathe you
in my prince, ah,
heaven

I can live on this
for now

but, wow, can you imagine
to meet face to face
I should think
I may faint, my heart
will beat so fast
yet slow, then it
will beat with yours
I shall have to hold onto to
you tightly, to make sure
you are real, and to feel
you, against me
I think perhaps then
I shall kiss you deeply
yes, we must meet alone
hehe, I think we will
be floating, can I
be your ball and chain
I'm laughing, yeh
the old ball and chain
what a saying, well in this case
it keep us on the ground

posted November 09, 2005 12:58 AM         

My girls are going to NH for the real Thanksgiving in NH, with my mom,
I shall be alone for 4 days
whatever will I do?

I haven't had time alone like that in years
I can't go, no one to watch my dog that weekend, I won't be alone

wish you could come and visit me
ooh, I would be thankful
hehe

Alright, I'm tired, got to hit the sack
another odd saying

I Love YOu with all my heart
kiss kiss
Ggodnight

posted November 09, 2005 10:50 AM         

the very last thing you said
that very last time we spoke on the phone
across the measureless miles
from New York to California
was..
"thank you for loving me"

and I answered lightly
not too brightly

"you're welcome"

how dense can I be?
why didn't I say
"thank you for loveing me"?

is that what you silently needed to hear?
you've always had a secret fear
I didn't value or cherish..or appreciate enough

your gift of love

but..don't you remember that gentle December
when I was delivered into the cradle of your arms?
my first newborn cry
was "thank you, oh! thank you for loving me"

no one ever really did
until you

and now you are gone
because I forgot to thank you

for the miracle
of loving me

Je Reviendrai

love is not always
doing what brings pleasure

love is also
doing whay is good for someone
whatever the cost
at the moment

sometimes, it's leaving
..for a while

and the love is shown then
in the pain given

posted November 09, 2005 11:18 AM         

I guess I am amazed, by what people do
and say, and I scartch my head
and say, "what the _uck, are you blind, have you heard anything I've said?"

It seems rather pointless, yet there is always a point, a thorn, a dagger to stab you in the heart
karma, sucks, you get what you gave
ouch, so fais maile, don't know if I spelled that right, and don't give a flying _uck either
I'm entitled to get upset, and work through this rage that goes on in my head
better than being dead, and I won't concede to that, I'm shooting for the stars, you can come, or you can stay, it's up to you
you're way
I meant to ask, are you happy?
is this the way, you want?
Do you feel good?
about what you do and say?
Are you living your dream?

posted November 09, 2005 11:36 AM         

I let the door down
and left it open

your walls are so high
and deep, never to be penetrated
unless by Uranus, hehe
change and disruption
clearing for the new

those walls
big balls
we all fall
down

posted November 09, 2005 11:40 AM         

love to you sweetie!!

posted November 09, 2005 12:24 PM         

No one in particular, everyone in general
what a dilemna
an enema is needed
hehe
we're all full of **** !

Enigma, I like those
yahoo!