posted November 09, 2005 02:24 PM         

it this how you want to appear to me?
you want your cake
and you want to eat it too!
heads will roll for this
the queen is dead
for a minute it was quite queer
to be severed in that way
I highly, do not recommend it

you could just simply state your situation
you are not being fair
Ma and Pa, said so

for when you practice to deceive
oh what tangled webs you are weaving
not a pretty pattern
Saturn
bad boy

remember Saturn can be a very very stern teacher, I guess depending on your level of enlightenment

you can chosse to learn the lesson humbly, with the acceptance of your faults
or, we can do it the hard way
pain and agony
as I've said, it's your choice
your ball game
get your balls

posted November 09, 2005 03:31 PM         

Everybody's Fool

Perfect by nature
Icons of self indulgence
Just what we all need
More lies about a world that

Never was and never will be
have you no shame? Don't you see me?
You know you've got everybody fooled

Look here she comes now
Bow down and stare in wonder
Oh how we love you
No flaws when you're pretending
But now I know she

Never was and never will be
You don't know how you've betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled

Without the mask, where will you hide?
Can't find yourself lost in a lie

I know the truth now
I know who you are
And I (don't) love you anymore

It never was and never will be
You don't know how you've betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled

It never was and never will be
You're not real and you can't save me
Somehow now you're everybody's fool

My Immortal

I'm so tired of being here
Supressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time (cannot) erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you atill have
All of me

You use to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind
Your face it haunts me
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

Surrender

Is this real enough for you
You were so confused
Now that you've decide to stay
We'll remain together

You can't abandon me
You belong to me

Breathe in and take my life in you
No longer myself only you
There's no escaping me, my love
Surrender

Darling, there's no sensse in running
You know I will find you
Everything is perfect now
We can live forever

You can't abandon me
You belong to me

posted November 09, 2005 05:33 PM         

But what you are doing is wrong, not fair, how dare, you play me that way
twisted, splintered lies
amused NO, no muse in that

shattered hopes cascade
down my cheeks, it is you who is weak
for I deal and Feel the pain
night and day
day and night
I endure our cries
tortured souls
different roles
reverse the poles
you fools
it's so simple
unite twins alike
brothers and sisters
in the light

posted November 09, 2005 11:08 PM         

Beware, be aware
care to dare to share
your Love and Light
Be amused, don't be a muse
otherwise, you may become confused

I have been so sad today
oh yes and very angry,
bows head down

I ask what can I do, please tell me
what you require from me
to prove that I am real
I know you feel me deeply
looking at me, knowing
deep down inside, that everything
in your life is about all of this
sweet sacred bliss
what's amiss
darkness, is all around
clouding your vision
Set is winning
I, never give up

up up and away

posted November 10, 2005 12:41 AM         

I'm so tired, no one can see
that the enemy is you and me
no one wants anyone to get ahead
so when you trust you are dead

posted November 10, 2005 12:47 PM         

I got a msg on my cell phone...It was a call from Brian that I had saved from a month ago.. exactly a month! I guess it was a reminder to either save or delete it!! It was sweet him wanting to talk to me before he went to the mountains... anyhoo so i call carly to tell her how weird it was.. I was telling her how much I missed him and that its getting harder but that I have to be strong cause he has to miss me... well right after I said that I looked up and we BRian and I drove right past eachother!!!! It was so weird...do you think that was meant to be that way?

posted November 11, 2005 12:09 AM         

So, why am I so sad, and feeling
so much pain and misery
a price to pay, to get in touch
with the Universe
I feel it's pain, in every living cell
life, souls, energies
crying out to me
I here you, I acknowledge you
I send forth my Love and Light

I will have to learn how to deal with
this, is it a curse?
re-verse the poles they say
reach your twin
live without sin

Speak the truth, that is presented
make mistakes along the way
you are human
show them, through your humble actions
get angry, show them you mean business
A flippin Paradox
when you open Pandora's Box
your out, there in
looking out to see what you see
I say
you must step out of the box
break down your big walls
so you can see forever

the lessons, Earth and Man disasters
shall become worse
unless a drastic tide of brotherly and sisterly Love happens
we are the narraters
we are divine
we, each one of us, as important as the other
A SOUL GOVERNMENT
for each and every one
in equality
we are very strong, we are one
One with GOD

posted November 11, 2005 09:54 AM         

Petron brought up THE CORNERSTONE in global unity, our pyramid riddle
ONE TONE STONE
TEN SHE HE HRNS TO ONE
CONE CORE
STEER TONES
O CREST REST SOON
STERN TREE ROOTS
SON SCORNER(S)
NORTH E S
SHE ON CREST
HE THE SON

ONE TONE

balance

posted November 11, 2005 01:07 PM         

you have 2 snake O's with and I in each
the Z is a snake a backwards S
so Isis and Osiris is there
on the binding you have

IMAGE 10
HAMPTON ROADS

10 is the key

it's funny I spent my life in NH, and every summer we rented a cottage at Hampton Beach
I walked all over those roads in my life
looking for the other half of me
I really thought I would find you there
I even moved to Seabrook Beach to try again
But you weren't there
than to the highest elevations East of the Rockies, Bethlehem, NH, and you weren't there either
you were here all along
GONG
this is the world of Illusion

posted November 11, 2005 06:20 PM         

please oh please
talk to me

or not, I'm getting use to your
walls, I shall sing a song
and knock them down

posted November 11, 2005 11:10 PM         

tangled webs
dark shadows
in and out and around
who is your friend
who is your foe?

All I know
is that I love you
like I have never loved
any other, I'm broken
not complete

wrap a blue ribbon in my hair
tie it in a bow
nice and neat

I know you hear me calling
I connect, however brief
a ripple in time
a kiss on your cheek

yeh, it was me
and Oh, how we have loved
so intensely, and pureness of heart

yeh, yeh, we are never apart
but you know what
I need a real hug and love
the kind I can wrap my arms around
and feel like a clown

posted November 11, 2005 11:51 PM         

when all you ever had to do
was go within
are you lost?
Confused?
not amused?

I understand, I feel the same
they told me it wouldn't be easy
that amnesia, is deep seated
be cause of the pain

will you please take
my hand, and let me help
you, to the promised land

I will not fail you
I will keep my promise

I SEE tomorrow
and I am with you there
so, why are you so scared
darkness, is very strong
a caramel song, thick and gooey
getting stuck in your teeth

then what, it melts away
another day, that you and I
could have been together

posted November 12, 2005 12:44 AM         

yes, we are late
but fate is in our hands
I have no demands, But
LOVE

My motives are pure
my thoughts clear
please come near

I have secret, psst
you are being played the FOOL
not by me, hehe

what ever keeps you from love and light
is dark and hate
and deep seated jealousy
the green is everywhere

rearing it's ugly head at me
Medusa like, sss
serpent hissing
sisters deceiving
where is the LOVE

I hold the Truth
that can't take that away
you betray, and so do you
my love

why?
have you forsaken me
not protected me
how your dagger
touches and peirces my heart
to release two drops
that fall, one into the other
to be one

You see, Dear Heart
they are showing me
what's going on
and frankly, I am...

in shock, of what has been said
behind my back
your cyber head
all a big game of cheat
and deceit
shame on all of you who play
in that secret wonderland
you thought was so secret
the serpent is hissing
all about it

and I forgive you
and I love you

and I cry

Ggodnight

posted November 12, 2005 01:36 PM         

continue
your illusioned banter
the answers are so simple
you can't see them
because of your hidden agendas
motives od self preservation
you think
wrong, God is Truth

and has been all along
they like that I sing their song
GONG
they say I have opened many eyes
to them, and they are pleased
we can succeed, in the Light
of LOVE