posted June 06, 2005 05:52 PM         

And also, you asked about making life easier to type? Well, one idea I recently had is voice recognition. Have you heard of this? Well, you can dictate into a microphone on a tape player or somthing, and then play it back to a voice recog program that will trascribe the voice into text. I was seriously thinking about a while back bedcause I used to talk myself to sleep on theories all the time, and I was thinking of publiching the thoughts or maybe just putting them on a web sites or something. Not that anyone would read them, but you know, I think it's good to get this things off your chest. Also feels good to think you're not holding any secrets - that it's all out there even if no ones aware of it. Did the tree make a sound? Resoundingly yes! The vibrations were at least felt by Mother Earth.

posted June 09, 2005 07:13 PM         

PS.marycarmenvidal....Have you heard of Spiritism..or Allan Kardec?

posted June 10, 2005 04:16 PM         

At last I read the whole thread!!! It’s a long thread… The first time I posted here I only read the first page as I didn’t have much time… If it’s long to read… it must be endless to reply!!! I must confess I’m impatient to get your insights… But don’t you worry, I’ll patiently wait… There are many of us… And of course you have a life!!!

I have been thinking about this for a while now… I always have had intriguing dreams but those few I recalled in my previous post only happened in the past year… The theme is recurrent… That man I keep seeing… Something inside me tells me I’m only ready now to know about him… I feel that I must find him… I was living abroad when this started to happen and I know it was a call back… I wasn’t ready for it before, I’m sure of that… Maybe I`m now… I didn’t know before, but now I somehow think I know him, the incarnate one, but I’m scared to believe it just in case I’m wrong… I don’t want to get self-deluded so I’m a bit cagey and esceptical with myself…

It’s always that long blond wavy hair, those eyes… As for me, in all of them I’m fair skinned, blue-eyed, blond… The same as I am now… I only saw my face in the one I was looking into a mirror… I recognised myself as being me but I do not know if it was exactly my face today, I didn’t think of it… It was just me…

I have read of others remembering having the opposite sex… But I’m always a female as fas as I have remembered or think I have remembered…

More intriguing facts:

I’m fascinated with Celtic culture. I have always been. Those intertwined designs recall something buried in me, I feel magnetically attracted to them since I’m very young. I have jewelry and even clothes with these patterns. Druids always fascinated me: not native american or african chamans, not witches, not wizards, not egyptian priests… Druids… Scottland and Ireland call me powerfully… I naturally good with plants and natural healing strongly appeal to me…

I’m terrified of driving. Any chance of having had a fatal car accident in the past? I have never had a bad experience with cars in this life, I have never known anyone who has had a serious one (fingers crossed!!!). I have been trying to face that terror for almost two years now… It never crossed my mind before I actually started to take driving lessons… I started to panic when the day of getting behind the weel approached… And even now I haven’t gone over it… I haven’t managed to face the driving test yet not even once… I’m doing it for the first time in a few weeks and I’m already panicking… I know I drive well, I control the car, I’m cautious… I’m definitely a safe driver… But I can’t help to paralise when a I sense I could crash, normally because another driver is driving dangerously… Madrid is not an easy place to drive around, believe me… I get blocked, terrified for a few seconds… I’d love to know why, to be able to understand… I have been trying for so long to get the confidence… It’s such a torture… I absolutely hate it… But it’s a life skill that will be useful one day… Could it be some kind of precognition as if I know I will have a fatal accident?

posted June 10, 2005 05:04 PM         

Ok...the car accident...do you get flashes of one...or only feelings? It may be the past or precog...tell me more.

Ok..you said;Quote:
I’m fascinated with Celtic culture. I have always been. Those intertwined designs recall something buried in me, I feel magnetically attracted to them since I’m very young. I have jewelry and even clothes with these patterns. Druids always fascinated me: not native american or african chamans, not witches, not wizards, not egyptian priests… Druids… Scottland and Ireland call me powerfully… I naturally good with plants and natural healing strongly appeal to me"

Keep looking into all this...especially meditate on any symbols that draw you to them...it will trigger your memory if it is time.

Then you said;Quote:
The theme is recurrent… That man I keep seeing… Something inside me tells me I’m only ready now to know about him… I feel that I must find him… I was living abroad when this started to happen and I know it was a call back"

Very interesting...you seem to be getting both precog and past life/lives! When I was 14 years old I dreamt and had visions of the man I met when I was 42 years old...and the house we now live in...he is my 3rd. husband now, and we live in the house I "saw"....and get this.....He was not even born yet or conceived when I first "saw" him and this house! We both kept drawings and poems, and even though I am 15 years older...our drawings and poems and alot of other things...our favorite songs, etc. are either exactly alike or very very very close!
When it is time...I assure you...it will happen...but you have to be able to recognize it when it comes. That can mean walking away from your life as it is, and into a whole new way of living. Most people are afraid to take that step. But you will know if he is meant to be in your life.

posted June 10, 2005 05:14 PM         

Ok...You do remember...now keep looking at what you "saw, felt" etc. The memories are there. Remember too..this is only one of your lives...

posted June 10, 2005 05:31 PM         

Fayte, you said
"I really do get tired...but not from the psychic/channeling and so forth....IT is the everyday living and the body stuff that gives me trouble...not the psychic"

You are not kidding - it's weird how most of the hard to handle aspects of being human isn't so much the invisible forces but the everyday living and maintaining the body we were given - which sometimes tempt attention (wow, i'm reminded of jesus confrontation with satan). how do YOU cope - i keep thinking that sometimes, that maybe going into seclusion from the hustle and bustle of everyday living or something would help but i can't see how that's possible with the invisible forces who have no concept of time - what would you recommend or do you do? do you sometimes you had a break from the invisible forces as well and if so, have you achieved that ability to break from them? How? I keep trying to remember counting and stuff but..........

posted June 10, 2005 05:49 PM         

Yeah that part is easy..and I do not watch TV..just movies once in awhile...no cable and my friends are also "hermits".

But then this you said;quote:
but i can't see how that's possible with the invisible forces who have no concept of time -

That has been a problem, but after a particulary long session...(I will find that post) we had to make them aware of my physical needs...they get so excited to tell their stories and talk to someone who hears etc. them...they forget the body stuff...not really their fault...just an oversight...but we talk to them when ever it is important, even in the middle of the night. But usually it is just like being in a big house with other people in different rooms just talking to each other...and to me. They have always been there and always are. Of course as time passes...the groups have changed...new friends come,,,old ones are reborn...it is really much the same as our incarnate lives..the connections and the comings and goings.

Which also leads to your last Quote:
what would you recommend or do you do? do you sometimes you had a break from the invisible forces as well and if so, have you achieved that ability to break from them? How? I keep trying to remember counting and stuff but..........

Just ask them to let you rest...they will hear you...then say out loud.."sheilds up..closing channels"...it works for me!

posted June 11, 2005 10:22 AM         

I’m so excited about this… I somehow inside me I know you are right… There is more to what we see with our eyes… I sense the truth below the surface pulsing inside me. I don’t think I have any special gift as you have… But it happens I’m a bit more sensitive than the average… I sense pulses in the hidden layers of reality, call it intuition or whatever… All my life I have felt a kind of path… It’s not scary or invasive as you described yours to be at first, maybe because it is not as powerful… It’s a kind of weird certainty…

I’m learning Astrology, Numerology and now Tarot trying to bring my unconcious wisdom to the concious level, to channel the energy. I used to think I was some kind of witch, an untrained one that just needed to wake up… Now I think I’m just like any other person, just a little bit more aware because maybe the”layer” between my conscious and unconscious worlds is thinner…

Since I’m a teenager I used to feel my future without knowing it… I loved writing stories… I had one in mind I even started to write… I was about 15… The main character was me… At first I thought it was the way I could express my desire of being something different, so natural in teenagers… There you had the poor young girl, shy and sensitive, ignored by the world and the boy she loved more than her own life…In a confortable and predictable little world she hated where he was popular and easily succeeded. But something terrible happens and he is brutally taken away. The perfect equilibrium, the trap, is broken and she is forced to grow.

And then it tells the story of her struggle to become the woman she is, when she fights hard, grows brave, goes and saves him but then he ungratefully abandons her out of cowardice. They get brutally separated by destiny. She grows powerful, a pure-minded and gifted warrior, a conquerer of worlds, while he sinks remembering her, becoming the shadow of what he was. A blow of fate wants her to fall in his hands after years. It’s difficult at first. She is so powerful but at the same time unhappy and bitter against him. But his love makes her back in the middle of the war, a war where she is a great general and he belongs to the resistence. They fight together to end the war killing the evil who tricked him away and turned her into a militar fortress. And they come back to that little world that was home, destroyed by war that flourishes and blooms after they are back together. She conquered home and the man she always loved becoming the woman she is.

That was just a fantasy… But it became a bit scary when the metaphor started to translate into reality… Even secondary characters fit to a certain extent… I never got to write it fully, just a few chapters, only until she goes after him to rescue him and her journey starts… But I did some drawings before things started to happen… I wanted to believe it wouldn’t fit after all, that it was just coincidence, that I just had a powerful imagination… But it is still happening… I believe I just fell back in his hands… And it’s being difficult. Something tells me he is the lion…

If you are interested enough my real life story is here: http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum10/HTML/001362.html
What you said about your husband and the house you live in is amazing… And that similarity thing… Does he have your gift as well? This man and I are also startlingly similar having grown completely apart and with such a different life experiences…

Changing subjects… You recommend me to meditate on the Celtic thing… I have never done meditation and I don’t have a clue of how to do it… But I can tell you something else… This is one of the patterns that attracts me more…

It was the first one… It triggered my fascination… I saw it in an esoteric shop when I was a teenager and had to get it… There was many others but this one drew me powerfully, just this one… I still wear it. It’s funny it is a symbol for Belenos, God of Light, the Sun God… It is a talisman to increase magical powers and divination skills according to the description in the cover…

No, I don’t get flashes of any car accident… only that sheer irrational terror… How can I know it it is something in my past or in my future?

posted June 11, 2005 11:31 AM         

=====You ARE more of a sensitive than you give yourself credit for...your entire reply here makes that VERY clear to me....you are a true searcher with an open heart and an active 3rd. eye. You appear to also understand as I do..that these things do come if we are patient..or as you said next...and I will then explain...
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It’s not scary or invasive as you described yours to be at first,
=======Well..I am in the habit of daring God and the Universe...and also when I hear that certain voice whisper(and it does!...like in the movie "Meet Joe Black") "ARE YOU READY?"...well I usually say YES! The "Terror and the Ecstasy" are not bad things..but oh my how they do poke holes in our comfort zones...shift our paradigms...and once one HAS crossed that threshold..well, a word of warning...if you are NOT ready...DO NOT try to go there...for there is NO TURNING BACK! Things become more "Big Picture" and it takes much effort to feel human...to feel innocence and wonder of little things...but I do, having come full circle from each outward and inward spiral...back to my inner child, and God within...to appreciate the little things in a whole soul encompassing way that may seem trite to those who have only paid attention to this so called reality. Watching a flower bloom..I mean sitting for hours, until it does that amazing twitch and shudder..most people miss this perfect moment of unfolding...or watching a seashell dissolve in vinegar...or working my rough sided brass singing bowl smooth, wearing out the wooden stick as I do so...finding new tones and then I await the surreal haunting sweetnesses that come forth, as I work it slowly, than fast, again slowly, then moving my fingers on it's now warmed surface to carress the pitches of song from it...and then it begins to "talk" to me. Crickets, cicadas, frogs...such sounds have for me now more intensities and secret depths than before. I hope I am making sense. I avoid such things as television..it is not needed.

Ok..then you said;quote:
maybe because it is not as powerful… It’s a kind of weird certainty…

======Oh my! Steelrose! That IS POWERFUL! Do not expect "Hollywood" or "movie like" displays and manifestations of your gifts! That can happen, but it is rare. And are you sure you could go about your regular life if it all was more pervasive? I know...because for me the struggle is to keep a balance..to walk between worlds..yet to never be fully separated from my awareness of the entire tapestry...so I must actively work at being in the nows of this realty..and the appreciation of the little and precious things Earth has to offer, is one way I keep my humanity intact. Even love making has become a spiritual, and yes, a Tantric thing..where the physical is only a vehicle by which God and all Creation can be "touched". Unlike my rapacious sexual/physical explorations during the !1960s and 70s. Everything is alive! Even that which is not corporeal...it is all alive and living, pulsing with a great symphony of the cosmic music...so intricate and wonderful...even so that the terrors do find way to eurekas and epiphanies and ecstasy to understanding and awe inspiring knowingness!

Ok...I am rambling...but there is so much I want to share and help others to find for themselves...and you ARE well on your way to your own...you do not have to go any farther or deeper than feels/senses right to YOU, for YOU...when you are ready...as you HAVE SEEN...these things just fall into place at the right time and in the ways you are ready to understand...and explore them.

posted June 11, 2005 12:27 PM         

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Now I think I’m just like any other person, just a little bit more aware because maybe the”layer” between my conscious and unconscious worlds is thinner…

You do appear to also be a "walker between worlds"...but it takes time and practice to bring oneself to seeing the worlds in not so dreamlike a way...but you are doing fine...one does not have to be into it full immersion to aquire or to have aquired awareness!

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Since I’m a teenager I used to feel my future without knowing it

YES! that is a true awareness! And you doubt that you have gifts? You ARE GIFTED!

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I wanted to believe it wouldn’t fit after all, that it was just coincidence, that I just had a powerful imagination… But it is still happening

Oh yes! It is often the things we "feel" that "way" that tell us we ARE on the RIGHT TRACK! It may feel unnerving, strange and even impossible, but when one feels/senses, and knows what you have described so very well...then it is probably the truth, answers coming through. Wonderful! I am very happy for you!

Quote:If you are interested enough my real life story is here.....
I will read it as soon as I finish this reply!

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You recommend me to meditate on the Celtic thing… I have never done meditation and I don’t have a clue of how to do it… But I can tell you something else… This is one of the patterns that attracts me more…

To meditate is not that difficult...people so often think they have to get all comfortable and dress correctly, get into a "position", light a candle, or a special candle and all sorts of really unnessessary rituals to just meditate...music etc. But it can be done as simply as stroking the talisman as you just sit, even for a few moments/seconds, and simply day dream, hum, free associate..let thoughts, pictures just fall into your mind...it is that simple! I will discuss that more on another new topic starter if you would like.

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What you said about your husband and the house you live in is amazing… And that similarity thing… Does he have your gift as well?

Yes he does..but he is better at translating and helping me through my "sessions" as we work on things....he is empathic..very much so.

OK! Now this is very important...
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No, I don’t get flashes of any car accident… only that sheer irrational terror… How can I know it it is something in my past or in my future?

Please do not be afraid! But you are, I feel, getting real vibes of a future "possibility"...NOT A PROBABILTY! IT DOES NOT NEED TO HAPPEN! I can not see this "accident"...and you have only the "irrational terror". That is why you have taken the driving lessons...
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I’m terrified of driving. Any chance of having had a fatal car accident in the past? I have never had a bad experience with cars in this life, I have never known anyone who has had a serious one (fingers crossed!!!). I have been trying to face that terror for almost two years now… It never crossed my mind before I actually started to take driving lessons… I started to panic when the day of getting behind the weel approached… And even now I haven’t gone over it… I haven’t managed to face the driving test yet not even once… I’m doing it for the first time in a few weeks and I’m already panicking…

You MUST become a confident, not just a careful driver. This I feel is a warning for you, to help you avoid an accident! Yes..it is the other drivers you must be aware of...but not get so caught up in watching that you cause an accident! Another thing...if you get the feeling that you should not drive at any given time...then do not! If you must...then wear your seatbelt and also say a little summons or prayer..such as.." I will reach my destination and again return home safely...so be it!".
Also...do you believe in omens? If you feel you should turn right, but you really wanted to go left, and needed to... then follow the sense of what feels like "the should, not what you want!" You could also pull off and wait for the sense of the something wrong, or the conflict/confusion, to pass....but it might not. You have to take your desires and wants out of the equation at these times. Also do you ever get warnings from animals? I often have had/get, ravens or crows, in flocks,... come out of nowhere and block my way...when I am driving!
Only to discover that a person was killed in the exact area I would have been at had they not stopped me. This has happened many times! It is rather unnerving because I know that someone is going to die...and I have been spared...again.
I also want to caution you...that you may be getting vibes to ensure your safety further..to avoid developing ANY bad driving habits...such as eating, drinking, cell phoning, etc. while driving. When you drive...concentrate on your driving and awareness of your enviroment...do NOT try to multi-task while driving! NEVER! Do you hear what I am saying?!?
My maiden name means "to give warning" and Faye can mean "Fate", so I am warning you...but as long as you listen to your vibes...you willl be safe!

One more thing...be careful at sunrise and sunset....those sense to be the most dangerous times...but you are an aware person...I do not see an accident...but that does not mean it is impossible. I made the error of reading for a friend...he asked if he was going to grow very old...I said yes..I see you very much aged in the far future....well, guess what this fool went and did? He took my reading as an absolute, and begain to drive when tired, to speed, like 90mph. in 55mph. zones...and in general had become a road menace! He calls me just a screaming and swearing.."YOU ALMOST GOT ME KILLED!" HUH????????? ME??????? Well I told him he was a flipping freaking fool...that a reading is a probability/when it comes to lifespan..but he could mess that up and kill himself! He thought he was given a free ride, so to speak, to be an ass, just because I told him I "saw" him as aged in the future, his future!!! I also had tried to call him because I had a dream that he got hurt badly...but his answering machine was not turned on..(which was VERY unusual)...and then he called me...right AFTER, he almost got killed! So it seems that, we both had lessons to learn...he NEEDED a REAL SCARE! And I needed to be alot more careful with my readings...and to be very clear on what it/I meant to say.

posted June 11, 2005 12:40 PM         

I really appreaciate your words… They are not just wise, they are poetry… And yes, you are right yet again, personal growth is like the blooming of a flower… It happens slowly at a steady pace when you water the ground and the season is right… I’ll keep investigating… These things just come to you but you need to be awake…

Don’t worry… Keep answering other people… I’ll patiently wait for my turn. I understand how frustrating must be for the dozen of other knowflakes waiting and waiting while you answer newcomers…I’ll welcome anything you can tell me… In the meantime, I’ll post anything I remember or find interesting that I think it can add value to your search…

Take care, darling…

posted June 11, 2005 09:33 PM         

Just a quick reply… It’s past 3am here and I need my bed!!! But I need to say thank you first…

Above all, for the accident think… I really was getting terrified thinking that terror was just a warning for me not to drive… A future accident was a posibility that was almost obsessing me… I know I need to be careful… Because yes, I do get so scared of others behaviour that I stop paying attention to what I do… When someone drives dangerously around me I get paralised for a couple of seconds and then I put myself in danger because I lose control of the situation… I need to control the terror and have confidence in myself… That’s the only reason why I keep trying…

I don’t know what happened… I didn’t see your second reply when I posted my previous one… Damn computers!!!

I believe I have got warnings from animals… But not related to life threatening situations… When I was living abroad, for a few months I had the impression that the blackbirds were watching over me… I know it sounds weird… I’m a little bit embarrassed talking about this… Somehow I felt they were checking on me… They stared at me through the windows for long seconds, crossed my path in the very early morning when I used to walk on my own to the station… One even gently brushed my arm with his wing when he passed me by flying in my direction… Too close to be casual, especially having felt that strange attention for a while…

P.S. – You had to be a Scorp… You felt a Scorp… You stroke me as one... I also have my flashes!!! Wise and penetrating… Intuitive… Fiercely devoted… Raw energy… Those intense dissertations about dark and light, good and evil… You had to be a Scorp… Scorps and me always have had a fine atunnement… We know where the other comes from, we naturally understand our respective philosophies… I’m a Virgo with a heavy Neptunian influence…

posted June 11, 2005 10:45 PM         

If you get a chance,
I would be honored.

posted June 12, 2005 06:30 PM         

I had an interesting experience this morning that I wanted to share with you. There is no need for you to do anything with it, but since you've posted this topic and the ideas have entered my mind, certain things have happened and it's exciting.

This morning I was sitting with my boyfriend. First off, I want to say that he is not a big believer in anything at all spiritually. At this point in his life it doesn't seem to be a priority.

Anyway, we were sitting there very quietly, enjoying the silence, enjoying one another's nearness, then suddenly I realized that my mind had drifted in a very strange way... I had been "daydreaming" but was unaware of it until the "daydream" ended. I "was" a Mexican woman, sitting with my lover, just as I was in real life. The odd thing is that I don't remember slipping into this daydream, I don't recall any shift in consciousness. It probably lasted no more than two minutes. It was simply as if I had left for a moment without warning and then I was back.

So I looked at him and he was absorbed in the silence and I asked him, "Are you thinking about Mexico?" Kind of a weird question coming out of the blue. He was stunned! He was thinking about Mexico and he described to me a house that he was going through in his mind. He hadn't even realized he was thinking about it until I interrupted him. He doesn't normally do things like this, but at that moment, we both seemd to be transported to the same place.

I thought of you right away, and this thread. I just wanted to share it with you. I hadn't ever exerienced anything quite like this and neither had he. It was strange, but very cool!

Thanks for making me more aware. Maybe something is opening up here!