posted November 28, 2005 01:50 PM         

I was thinking bought this thread last night and I have a question for ya ... if a person has a fear of something, do you believe it would relate to a past life experience?

I havea big fear of water! Not like showers, baths or drinking water. But swimming, open water. I went thru swimming lessons as a child with a HUGE group of kids. I was the only one who didnt pass the class, cause i was scared of the water. I panic. Especially if my head goes under water. My BF and I were playing in an indoor pool and he splash me and went to jump on me, and like take me under water - when i just freaked. he told me he'd never seen anyone freak out like that before. I literally thought i was dying, well drowning. Just being in the water my breathing gets shallow, like its hard for me to breathe.

posted November 28, 2005 04:12 PM         

What scares me most!?!?! I would have to say ... open water, rivers, lakes, oceans etc ... but i still have a major fear in swimming indoors, just not a strong as outdoors. Maybe because theres a lifegaurd on duty while indoors?? i'm not really sure. either way ... i've say its around equal feelings for both. if anything, one just a tad more than the other.

scary in this lifetime ... not that i know of ... well, during the end of my swimming lessons we were to jump off the low dive ... in which i couldnt and i climbed back down off the ladder and refused to jump. Second time aroudn the instructor cornered me up on the board and picked me up and threw me off .... with a lifegaurd below to grab me ... i still paniced. But i had the fear of water prior to that event so not sure what to make of that.

Otherwise ... i've never seen anything scary or known anyone, personally to drown.

OMG - i just thought of something to add to this water deal ... ice skating ... i get very nervous and worried skating on lakes. Especially cause you know, you can hear the loud cracks with your wieght added to the ice ... and see the cracks in the ice although i may not fall thru cause its like so many feet thick (as i've been told) but it still freaks me out. I stay close to the edge of the lakes and wont skate into the middle areas.

posted November 28, 2005 05:24 PM         

But for the most part ... its being in Water. Thats the most scariest for me is actually being in it.

Rivers, kinda ... my dad is a big rafter of the rivers - although again i have a life vest and feel comfort from that. But i do still, to a point have some fear there and imagine the worst.

Streams/ravines ... sorta, but not really ... here's one for ya ... i was snow-machining (mobiling) with an ex boyfriend at an area called Turnagain Pass here in AK ... theres many streams that run thru that area and with the amount of snow that falls in that area, many of those streams are insulated due to the amount of snow, that they do not freeze. Well, we had taken off diagonally from the parking lot and i dont know what happened, but our balance was thrown off and we ended up down in this ravine. I immediately closed my eyes as we started to go down. Upon opening them, all i saw was white. I thought for sure, i was buried under the snow. I felt my BF and looked down and i saw him, then rolled over and saw the sky, but with walls of snow at least, at least 16-18 feet high. We were definitely down in a hole. I went to stand up to help get the machine out, the front of it was in a hole of water - so i KNEW we were right ontop of a stream and had punched thru. By this time my mind is racing with all sorts of "what if" thoughts. So i tried to stand up and when i did, my left foot went straight thru the ice, and ket going, right up to my crotch (eww, i hate that label but couldnt think of another term - lol) anyhow, with all my weight transferred to that foot that just fell thru the ice, i began to fall in , panicking and everything, screaming at my friend, by this time, the only thing that was above the ice and water was my whole right leg and right arm and head, my body was going under. Just in time, he grabbed my hand and pulled me up to safety. It took me at least a 1/2 hour to calm down to where i knew what i was doing. After that #1) I refused to go back to that area riding ... but ontop of that I refused to go snowmaching period. I literally thought i was dead. So ... thats my fear of streams ... but otherwise ... say it was summer time and i was in a stream, no i wouldnt have a problem, being as a stream is not that deep. (although this one happened to be with a thick layer of ice over the top)I was proly 18 or 19 when that particular accident happened.

Tidal water - yes! wading in it? no. going deep, like up to my mid chest, yes! Again, i see my self floating away with the current. I was Corpus Christi Texas one summer and attempted to go in the ocean ... again, only to my chest or i would being to panic and my breathing would get shallow. Same with Lake Michigan in WI - same experience. (there too i almost fell in during winter months, slide right off the edge, barely hanging on when my cousin pulled me up and over the ice that had formed around the edge of the lake - 14yrs old at that time)

Still lakes/ponds - yes!! whether it be summer or winter and im skating on top. Again though ... its not so much the sight as it is being in it ... unless of course im on the ice.

Air/temp - not that i know of ... something i havent looked for i guess ... but something i will definitely pay attention to the next time.

Ya know someone asked me about the movie Titanic, how i reacted to seeing that ... and honestly - i cant remember. I know i cried and cried and cried, being the emotional person i am.( i can cry at just about anything) But i cant recall my reactions to the ship going down. I mean , yeah i was scared ... with alot of movies i can picture myself there and question myself as to "what i would do in those situations" ... i think i would have to watch it again and take notes of how i feel. The movie that got the most reaction outta me that i cant think of is ... Open Water ... where that couple goes scuba diving and get left out in the middle of the ocean to die among the sharks... literally sent chills straight to my spine. As if i was there.

Thanks Fayte!! i'm glad i got to thinking about this last night ... opened new doors.

one more thing ... when i attempt swimming ( i say attempt cause i still dont really know how) its almost as if i have no coordination of my feet. I tried a friends flippers once (indoor) and was able to swim like i was born in the water. But with out them, its like my reactions between brain, feet, movement is not quick enough and i sick ... or panic and sink.

Thanks agian Fayte - its appreciated!!

posted November 28, 2005 06:30 PM         

Boy, this sure seems to be so. I was only about 13 when a psychic saw me standing in a cotton field. For me this made total sense, I summed it up to perhaps being a slave, I literally hated southern accents, for absolutely no reason what-so-ever. Recently a psychic told me that I was a female Plantation owner?

Happy to report that southern drawls no longer sicken me, lol.....I can remember simply cringing when I heard that accent.

posted December 01, 2005 09:33 PM         

When I first saw my husband, it was one of those "I've known you before" moments. Such a deep pull to get to know this person better, and a deep connection.

goatgirl