posted March 28, 2013 12:44 PM            

The spaceship was very huge and roomy … the interior resembled that of the Star Trek ships … people could walk around normally and there was no problem with lack of gravity.

The ship was headed to the Sun. I asked how we would know we’ve arrived on the Sun. One man smiled and said, “You’ll know.” Inwardly I thought, “Duh, the heat and blinding light of course.”

But surprisingly there was no extra heat or blinding light, as one would expect to feel approaching and landing on the Sun. The ship docked smoothly, just like the way it had taken off.

On the Sun we arrived at a place that appeared like a massive structure, housing all the knowledge possible under the Sun, lol. It was the biggest convention center I’d ever seen, with rooms galore … filled with people milling around talking, listening to lectures, and rooms filled with brochures and books on every topic imaginable.

I woke up from this dream feeling satisfied with a good feeling … as though I’d really made a trip to the “world’s library”, and returned … filled with knowledge.

iQ, What do you think this dream signifies?
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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted March 28, 2013 12:51 PM            

One night I realized that I hadn’t been paying attention to Kundalini symptoms. So I apologized to the Goddess for my preoccupation, asked if She was still around, and hoped She hadn’t abandoned me.

Unbelievably … no sooner had I formulated these thoughts, than I felt a ramped up heat in both ears, and felt a strong whoosh of hot air coming out from both ears. This was a first, as I’d never before felt this much heat in both ears at the same time. It lasted for about 10 mins, and then the heat and whooshing gradually lessened before things returned to normal.

I knew that this was the Goddess’s immediate response to my question and wasn’t worried at all. I now think of Her as a close friend and confidante, One who’s always there, ready to listen and respond. I also think of Her as a protective Mother who understands my innermost thoughts and feelings. It gives me a feeling of reassurance.

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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted March 28, 2013 01:01 PM            

Among other things she had enclosed a 4 x 7 laminated picture of Baby Krishna, in which He looks to be about two years old. I immediately fell in love with the adorable picture.

That night I asked Goddess Parvati to give me a dream of Baby Krishna. A few days later I asked the Goddess if She wanted to give me a message and, if so, would She please let me know what the message was.

Some days later (about 2 weeks after I’d received the picture of Baby Krishna), I had a dream in which I saw myself in a house with people who seemed to be distant members of my extended family. There were little children running around the house, playing.

I was playing with one little girl, in particular, chasing her as she hid behind the furniture. After catching her I scooped her up in my arms (she was no more than 2 years old), and hugged and kissed her, and nuzzled her. She let out a squeal and laughed, her dimpled cheeks showing she was enjoying the fun.

Then, all of a sudden, she asked in an older sort of way, “Is this lovin’?” “Yes,” I said smiling. “I’m hugging and kissing you because you are adorable, and so yes, I’m loving you.” She then said in a completely adult voice, pronouncing each word carefully, “This is step one.”

I looked at her puzzled, while she wiggled in my arms, wanting to be put back down on the floor. As soon as I did so, she ran away wanting me to chase her again.

I ran after her saying again and again, “What is step two? What is step two?” When I caught up with her, she looked up at me smiling serenely. Only it wasn’t her at all.

She had turned into a beautiful little boy and the boy was Baby Krishna (the one from my picture), who said in an adult voice, “Step two is to be Love,” emphasizing the word “be.” I immediately understood this to mean that I needed to become Love, i.e., identify completely with love.

When I woke up I thanked Goddess Parvati for fulfilling my two requests of wanting to dream about Baby Krishna and also for Her to give me a message. I realized She had combined Her answer to both requests in one dream.

For the first time I also realized how the Goddess is speaking to me directly by taking different forms … as a little girl and then appearing as Baby Krishna. I’m beginning to get the sense that She is in every form … man, woman, or child … masculine or feminine … it is all She.

Another first … is my feeling and glimmer of comprehension that She is not a separate entity, but actually a part of me.

I’ve known theoretically that God is within each one of us, but never really “felt” it or understood it through an actual experience before.

And with each experience I feel Her drawing me closer to Her, my trust increasing, and coinciding with a greater degree of self-surrender to Her. Of course I absolutely love and revere Her gentleness toward me in Her revelations and teachings, by keeping everything at a pace I can handle.

Since this incident, I’ve begun to think of the Goddess as Mother. I’ve also checked natal asteroid placements for Baby Krishna (Balakrishnan) along with some others, and discovered an interesting pattern that I may start a thread on (in Asteroids forum) to get your opinion.

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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted March 28, 2013 01:10 PM            

But I’ve recently understood (through revelations during prayer) that the lessons in maturity Saturn tries to teach us can be best understood through acceptance of our own karmic obligations toward others.

In other words, if we have debts to repay to others from our past in this life or previous lives, then it is important to accept the repayment of such debts (painful though they may be) with an open heart.

What makes these repayments easier is if, during the period of repayment, we can somehow devote all our actions to God rather than to a particular person or situation … because then we can lessen our expectation from a particular situation while increasing our expectation from God … for liberation from the debts. I think this is what it means to not be connected to the fruit of our actions.

I also feel that once Saturn is done accepting our repayments, we come out at the other end with a greater understanding of what it means to love with maturity and wisdom. For this we need to be grateful to Saturn because, without him, we would be lost.

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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted March 28, 2013 01:20 PM            

I told Her that I “knew” my TF and I had been together in many past lives and wanted a confirmation of my “knowingness.” I requested that She show me any past life She felt I needed to see, and learn from, at the moment … information that I could handle as She was the best judge of what I could handle at my current level of growth.

A few days later, I had an early morning dream in which I saw my TF and myself, clearly at another time.

We were deeply in love, but couldn’t be together because he was married to someone else. Not surprisingly (given all his natal Vedic asteroids), in that life he was Indian (I saw his parents dressed in Indian clothes). I too was Indian (also not surprising given asteroids in my own chart). But his wife was Caucasian.

He had two small children … an older son (about 4 years) and a younger daughter (about 2 years). I saw that his son in that life is actually his brother in his current life. iQ, Is this possible? I saw that his daughter in that life took after his parents in that life and looked Indian, while his son took after his mother.

I saw that their marriage was not happy and I was at the crossroads of having to make a decision about what I should do.

I felt myself think and feel that I didn’t have the heart to come in the way of the sacredness of their marriage bond, and made a decision to let go. Then I felt the acute pain and deep sadness of letting go of my love for him in that life.

I woke up with that sadness still clinging to me and couldn’t speak about the dream with anyone for a few days.

I prayed earnestly to Mother to forgive me (and him) if we did something wrong in that life … even though I didn’t get the feeling we did … other than falling in love … a love that was never actualized either as a relationship or an affair.

This is my first “conscious” recall of a past life, i.e., by the grace of Goddess Parvati after my request.

iQ, I’d love to get your feedback and thoughts on this latest series of experiences.

Overall, what do you think of the Kundalini flow?
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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted March 29, 2013 05:16 AM            

I am not sure about the sulfur smell though.
That is a 50-50, it can even be a demonic entity who tried to "steal" excess energy from your Aura. To demons, Kundalini Rich people look like how bursting wallets of cash look to a pickpocket. It is wise to complete Psychic Shielding before you begin any communication work with goddess energy.

posted March 30, 2013 09:40 AM            

Last week I again smelled sulfur ... twice. But it was not while communicating with the Goddess (although She's in the back of my mind pretty much always).

I smelled it during the evening both times ... once when I was standing in the kitchen going through my mail (nothing was being cooked), and once again when I was working at my computer by an open window.

So my focus was more on mundane matters rather than prayer. Both times the smell was not as strong or as consistent as the first time, but it was distinct enough. Both times it did not last as long as the first time (early January incident).

I find this very puzzling as, in the past, I've frequently smelled perfumed flowers even when there were no flowers around. And I know that floral perfume smell is connected with Kundalini symptoms.

It is possible that since January, as my Kundalini flow has increased (?), I’ve become more susceptible to “energy pickpockets,” and so it would make sense to shield myself, except that I don’t know how. What should I visualize or do?

Thank you, iQ.

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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted March 30, 2013 10:27 AM            

It is battery powered and is built into the wall near the stairs. The batteries in this gauge died about a year or so ago, and I didn’t bother to replace them, as I have other battery operated portable gauges which display the temperature inside as well as outside the house.

But a few weeks ago, as I was coming up the stairs, I glanced at the gauge in the wall and thought that it would be nice to have it working so I could readily read the temperature in the lower level, instead of having to bring down one of the portable gauges. [I have spare batteries but I’ve just been lazy about unscrewing the gauge from the wall to replace the batteries].

Anyway, I mentally shrugged and thought, oh well. But a couple of days after I had the above-mentioned thought, as I was going up the stairs I happened to glance at the gauge and voila! It was working! It showed the complete display of temperature, time of day etc.

And about 3 weeks later it is still working even though the display screen had been blank for about a year.

Is this sort of thing common with increased Kundalini flow? If so, I think it’s kinda cool

In the past, I've had DVD players turn on by themselves while I've distractedly been watching TV.

Once I was going through a very difficult time in my Fellowship (which was very high stress), and I kept meaning to watch this DVD by an inspirational speaker that I like, hoping to de-stress.

But I would keep getting distracted because there was so much I had to do. I even put the particular DVD in, but would end up just having the TV on in the background while I worked on something else.

This happened 5 times, and for 5 evenings in a row, the DVD player turned on by itself! I finally got the message and took the time to sit down and watch it. After this the DVD player did not turn on by itself.

Strange but true!

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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted March 31, 2013 11:52 PM              

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Originally posted by Linda Jones:
~ Through my own experience, Kundalini feels like a powerful electric current. Would you know if there’s any hypothesis (or actual research) on quantifying the charge in kundalini? I wonder if it’s powerful enough to equal the energy output of several nuclear reactors. I tried searching it and couldn’t find anything.

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Originally posted by Linda Jones:

~ Are the kriya movements during kundalini activation, in any way related to the Dance of Shiva?

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Originally posted by Linda Jones:

~ You mentioned that right now you don’t feel ready for 100% Crown Chakra activation. Once you feel you’re ready for it, would you be willing to receive Shaktipat (for anyone else reading this thread, Shaktipat is the gift of full Kundalini awakening one can receive from a Self-Realized Guru) from an enlightened Guru? Or do you think that will not be necessary? Also would you trust yourself to receive long distance Shaktipat, or would you prefer to physically be in the presence of the Guru during full awakening? I’m wondering about the efficacy of kundalini activation from a distance even though theoretically it seems very likely, given the nature of the subject.

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~ Do you think that kundalini awakening can also happen in those of mixed DNA like reptilian for example, or those races that do not have the best interests of the human race?

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You mention hearing drums a lot.. People hear the drum of Siva for the path of Jnana or the flute of Krishna for the path of bhakti. I heard the flute .

Alchemically or in tantric Hinduism, elements like sulfur and mercury are supposed to have a deeper shared meaning. I am not aware specifically of sulfur having a tradition in Hinduism, but I would assume as much. They relate to the ida and pingala and shushumna and attaining enlightenment or the philosopher's stone. Wikipedia defines it's alchemical significance as the omnipresent spirit of life

For grounding I also duct taped my hands in the gyan mudra, or stuffed grounding rocks in my hands and socks. There are David Wolfe grounding pads and sheets, and they seem to work for me, but my kundalini has calmed down significantly. Always wearing something grounding like sandalwood or hematite will help too. At times I just got desperate and prayed to remain grounded non-stop (works too). Just some alternate advice from someone who used to blow out light bulbs .

posted April 08, 2013 05:55 PM            

Good to know that smelling sulfur may not be so negative. But I think it also may not, in general, hurt to do psychic shielding as iQ suggested. Still looking for the best way for psychic shielding, as I’ve never done it before. I’ve only always relied on prayer and monitoring of my thoughts to do the protection.

About the drumbeat … yes, I hear the sound every day in my left ear (occasionally in the right ear), regardless of what I’m doing. Sometimes the sound is louder than at other times. I’ve noticed that I hear it more whenever I’m quiet or introspective, or in conversation with God.

Thank you for telling me that the drumbeat sound is associated with Shiva. After I read your post, I found out that Shiva is shown with a small drum called dumroo (I think).

But I’ve also heard the flute, which I’ve written about on page 1 of this thread. So I guess a combination of Jnana (knowledge) and Bhakti (devotional love for God?) should work. I think I have more Bhakti than Jnana, to be honest.

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Yes, I’m beginning to see that. Even prior to the past life recall I’ve mentioned above, I had no confidence that I would be able to handle information from my past lives. So I was very hesitant and am still afraid. I think the worst pain comes from knowing and seeing the hurt one may have caused others.

But there are benefits too, to having an increased or higher perspective. One begins to live much more consciously than ever before in order to take care of future Karma and willingly pay debts from past Karma. At least this is what I think and feel so far. I’m sure my perspective will continue to change as I learn more.

LOL at your blowing out light bulbs.

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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted April 08, 2013 06:01 PM            

For some time now I’ve been feeling a tingling in my scalp during prayer. Usually the tingling begins at the top of my head and then travels downward in a wave-like fashion right down to my feet.

On April 5, about a few minutes into my prayer (even before the scalp tingling started), I felt a sharp burning sensation in the tip of my right index finger. Then I felt the entire index finger heat up and felt electrical darts of current deep inside … up and down the whole finger. The feeling was tolerable and did not cause any pain or anything. It also felt like my whole finger had swollen up.

In comparison, my entire left hand as well as the remaining fingers and thumb of my right hand were a bit chilled to the touch (as they usually are during winter, spring, and fall seasons … unless I am, or have just finished doing intense cardio).

I then felt wave after wave of the skin on my entire body tingle … each time beginning at the scalp.

At the same time I felt the blood rush to my face (I’ve never felt my face heat up during prayer). And I could feel my pulse beating at my fingertips.

Then I felt warm blood actually flowing downward in my legs. It felt like my whole body temperature had risen, somewhat … although not as much as the index finger which remained astonishingly hot.

Then, also for the first time, I felt a separate tingling and crawling in the center of my forehead as though my forehead had come alive in the center. In the past I’ve only felt a knot-like pressure in the center.

I stayed in this state for the majority of my 2.5-hour (extended) prayer session. Everything began to normalize in about the last half hour, so that by the time I stopped praying, I felt (at least physiologically), as I’d felt pre-prayer.

iQ, is it possible for a single body part like a finger to swell up and then have the swelling subside after a period of time?
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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted April 08, 2013 06:06 PM            

Practically all of 2012 was the worst year for my allergies affecting my respiratory system. Starting in Jan/Feb 2012, my attacks got progressively worse and were so frequent that I was taking, on average, anywhere from 2 to 6 pills per day (maximum allowed dose is 6 pills in 24 hours).

I was very distressed as some days it was difficult for my brain to function at normal capacity with the amount of sedative in my system. [With a natal Gemini Mercury, it was killing me to have a less-than fully alert brain].

If I did any vacuuming at home or yard work outside, I had to always wear a facemask to minimize allergen intake. I seemed to have become hypersensitive to everything that was present in the air I breathed … indoors or outdoors.

Then sometime in December 2102, I began to bring my focus and intent, during prayer as well as during conversations with Goddess Parvati … on being completely cured from my allergies. Included in my intent was an inner confidence that I would soon be healed from this bother, since I had brought it to the Goddess’s attention.

As my confidence and communication in the Goddess grew in the following months, so did the power in my intent to be healed.

I first noticed a period of about 10 days in December when I didn’t need to take any pills. Then In January 2013, I went for 2 weeks without medication. In February and March I’ve taken only 2 pills on 2 separate occasions, after 3 weeks and 4 weeks respectively.

So far, medication intake has been reduced from 2 to 6 pills per day; to I pill in 3-4 weeks … without any other parameter changing in my lifestyle.

In the coming months, as I grow closer in my relationship with Shakti, I’m confident of a full cure, i.e., not having to take allergy medicine ever again.

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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted April 08, 2013 06:42 PM            

A few months after I met my TF, among many dreams I had about him (and still do), there were two in which I saw snakes.

In the first dream I saw a somewhat large snake with its head upright (dunno what kind of snake it was).

About two weeks after this dream I had another, more extensive dream … and this is the one I’m seeking an answer to—

I saw myself traveling by bus, which had other passengers also. At one point the bus stops and the door opens. A man dressed in loose fitting, white clothes (could be Indian, not sure), enters the bus. He’s holding a rattlesnake in his hands (somehow I know it’s a rattlesnake). He begins to show the snake to the passengers by holding it out … one hand at the snake’s head/neck and his other hand on the body of the snake. The other passengers make ooh sounds. I continue sitting quietly in my seat watching all this. Then the man turns to me and brings the snake closer to my face for me to look at it. When I look at the snake I realize that the snake is my TF. At the same time the snake bites me at the base of my throat. I think to my self, “Oh my gosh! That’s—“ (insert TF’s name) “who just bit me.” Then I notice that there’s no bleeding, no evidence of the bite (even though I distinctly felt the bite), and also that I didn’t feel any pain or fear. The man holding the snake just continues to look at me silently. The dream ends. When I awakened I remember thinking, “Wow, I was not scared even one bit about the snake.”

Other than this I’ve never seen snakes, either in my dreams or in real life … at least none that I recall.

Prior to having these 2 dreams, my Mom had commented on my relationship with my TF, by metaphorically likening it to two cobras mating. At that time, I had no idea about Kundalini (had only heard the term without understanding it’s meaning), or twin flames (hadn’t even heard about the concept), and neither had my Mom (though I think she knew more about Kundalini than I did). So it’s interesting that she made this observation.

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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted April 08, 2013 06:47 PM            

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If, even in a dream, one who practices Siddha Yoga is bitten by a snake, that, too, is a sure sign of liberation. But in meditation it is particularly auspicious.

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It is after reading this quote that I was reminded of my dreams. Elsewhere I’ve read that seeing snakes in dreams is related to Kundalini awakening. So the first dream could indicate my Kundalini awakening symptoms.

However, what does it mean when the man you’re involved with, and think is your TF, is the snake that bites you in the dream?

I think the bus journey is probably symbolic of my life’s journey … a slow awakening, since it’s a bus and not a 747, or a Concorde, LOL. [Heck, it’s not even a train].

But does the rest of the dream mean that the one I think is my TF, is really so?

I’m aware that we may still have Karma that needs to be worked out before we can unite with full awareness of each other, but I wonder if the dream was meant as a clue that he is my TF?

CONTINUED (next post)--
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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted April 08, 2013 06:59 PM            

Shortly before being reminded of the snake dreams, I’d by chance, discovered the following in the composite with my TF—

When I use his birthplace as the reference place to calculate the composite (because that is where we met and also where the relationship has been unfolding), the composite Ascendant is at 13 Ari 21, the sabian for which is … A serpent coiling near a Man and Woman. From what I understand this symbolism is a possible representation of twin flames?

Becoming more curious and with an inner feeling that … aside from the Asc/Desc axis, the composite nodal axis (which is in the 1st/7th hse, at a 6 degree conjunction to the Asc/Desc axis), would somehow also be linked in some way … I looked to see if there was an asteroid called serpent.

[Composite SN is at 19 Ari … so 6 degrees conjunct the Asc at 13 Ari].

I found Serpe conjunct the composite South Node, along with Ganesha, asteroid Moons, and Rudra (or Lord Shiva who is depicted wearing snakes around His neck and Moon in His hair).

These are the placements in the composite—

Asc—13 Ari 21
Moon (planet)—12 Ari 17
South Node—19 Ari 38
Ganesha—19 Ari 48
Rudra—20 Ari 36
Moons (asteroid)—21 Ari 29
Serpe—21 Ari 48

[In my natal I have (planet) Moon conjunct Rudra.

In synastry, my Moon/Rudra are conjunct his SN/Moons (asteroid).

His natal Rudra is conjunct my SN and widely conjunct my asteroid Moons (4 degrees).

In the composite, the asteroid Moons/SN conjunction alone, I think, indicates our past emotional involvement that I’ve seen in my past life recall (above). Planet Moon at 12 Ari is at a wide conjunction to the SN (7 degrees).

I’m now wondering whether the composite Asc at 13 Ari 21, conjunct Moon at 12 Ari … and SN at 19 Ari, conjunct asteroid Serpe in 1st hse (along with Rudra/Moons/Ganesha), as well as my snake dream … are all clues that he is my TF?

I would really, really appreciate your insight and analysis on this. Thank you so much for your time and patience.
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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted April 09, 2013 12:04 PM            

Again, thank you so very much.

In our First Meeting chart-->

(1) Serpe is in the 8th house (Tau)-->
Trine Shiva in Vir, 12th hse (1 deg)
Exactly sextile asteroid Moons in Cancer, 10th hse
Conjunct my natal Moon/Rudra/his SN and
Sextile his natal Asc (less than 2 degrees)

(2) Kaali is at 29 Cap 17, in 5th hse-->
The degree of Light or Dark siders?

Kaali is exactly opposite Mercury in cancer. Ceri and I have researched Kaali/Merc aspects in synastry to possibly be connected with Kundalini awakening symptoms. Meaning, Merc/Kaali aspects possibly serve as a trigger for Kundalini symptoms.

(3) Shiva is in 12th hse, Vir-->
Exactly conjunct my natal Shiva and his natal Desc.

(4) Asc is at 21 Vir 32-->
Sabian-- A ROYAL COAT OF ARMS ENRICHED WITH PRECIOUS STONES. Keywords—Nobility, Raja Yoga

First Meeting Asc is exactly conjunct my natal NN and trine his natal SN (4 deg)

(5) SN is at 28 Vir 51-->
Sabian-- A SEEKER AFTER OCCULT KNOWLEDGE IS READING AN ANCIENT SCROLL WHICH ILLUMINES HIS MIND. Keywords—Root Knowledge

First meeting SN is conjunct first meeting Asc by 7 deg ... similar to composite in which SN is conjunct Asc by 6 deg.

(6) Desc at 21 Pis 32-->
Sabian--> A PROPHET CARRYING TABLETS OF THE NEW LAW IS WALKING DOWN THE SLOPES OF MOUNT SINAI. Keywords—revealed knowledge, divine revelation. Reference to Moses coming down the mountain with tablets.

(7) NN at 28 Pis 51-->
Sabian-- LIGHT BREAKING INTO MANY COLORS THROUGH A PRISM. Keywords—Unity, Multi-Unity, Relationship between the One and the Many.

(8) BML at 23 Vir 31, is conjunct Asc (2 deg)-->
Sabian-- MARY AND HER LITTLE LAMB. Keyword—Innocence. Key message-- the individual whose innocence is fixed upon spiritual realization should genuinely radiate INNOCENCE. Jesus entreats his disciples to be like “little children.”

BML is also associated with Kundalini awakening.

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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted April 13, 2013 07:20 AM            

The first meeting chart Asteroids point to an Elite "Naga" Past Life together. The 13 Aries is the degree of Tantra because of the Sabian Symbol. It also represents the creation of the Human Species using part Reptilian DNA, which is why Kundalini Yoga is common in the current way to Reptilians and to Humans.

posted April 21, 2013 01:02 AM            

Basically, the woman in the story was being pressured by her family to get married since she had crossed the “marriageable age.” She kept refusing and family pressure kept increasing. Finally she said that she would marry only one man and none other. When asked who this man was and how she knew him, she told them she knew him from “before,” a past life in which both of them had been cobras, and that they had both died together by falling into a well while mating. Obviously not believing her, the family wanted to meet this man. She took them to where he lived and pointed him out. The family spoke to the man who corroborated her story that he also remembered he’d been a cobra and this woman had been his mate. Long story short, I think they were allowed to be together. But their story caught so much attention that a filmmaker decided to make a movie out of it.

Also my Mom's comment seems to be eerily right on ... in light of your interp.
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I did a quick search of Naga (meaning cobra) and found that they were known for their wisdom, protection, and fertility.

Is it possible for my TF and I to have been together as Nagas in Ancient India prior to lifelines in Egypt?

I have a natal Osiris/ Horus conjunction in the 12th hse, which has been interpreted to mean a life of nobility in ancient Egypt. My TF and I also seem to have been connected to the Essenes in connection with Jesus, in addition to being High Priest and Priestess in yet another lifetime (all astrological determinations). So Naga Yogi lifetime in Ancient India would pre-date Egypt and the Essenes?
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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted April 21, 2013 01:23 AM            

I see myself sleeping on the floor in my prayer room. Even before I’m fully awake, I sense someone else’s presence. I open my eyes and see a woman dusting the room. I recognize her immediately as the customer service person from the grocery store I frequent (in real life). I’ve only spoken to her 2-3 times before (in real life). I wonder why she’s dusting the room as I clean it myself every day.

Unaware that I’m beginning to awaken, she stops dusting, and leans in closer to look at the picture of Shiva/Parvati that I keep in the room. She stares at it for a while and then turns around to look at me.

Seeing that I’m awake, she sits down on the floor next to me saying, “Where did you get these pictures?” “From India,” I say. “My Indian friends brought them for me.”

With a very serious expression she asks, “How have your Kundalini awakening symptoms changed you?”

“Been reading my thread, have you?” I say. “Oh yes!” She says emphatically.

“Well,” I smile, “For one, I’m not crushin’ on guys anymore.” (It was weird thing to say as I’ve had maybe only one crush as a teenager). She doesn’t smile, waiting for me to tell her more.

Then I say more seriously, “I’ve become more serious just in the last few months. And deep within me, I feel there’s a fundamental change … beyond seriousness … so that I know I’ll never go back to being the person I was before. Something has happened to me, and I can’t fully explain it. It’s like my priorities have shifted away from the material, 3D world, more than ever before. I’m beginning to feel a weird disconnect from everyday life. I’m afraid because I’m uncertain about being able to find a balance between my physical “other-world” realities.”

The dream continues into another sequence where I see this woman with another, older woman (also from the same store in real life). In real life I’ve seen them interact and feel that they really like each other. The dream continues into what could have been a past life glimpse of both of them where they knew each other in a past lifetime. They are in film shoot and the director calls out, “Take 420.” I don’t fully understand the symbolism of the number, but it could be that these two women have known each other for 420 lifetimes … each lifetime representing a “role” being played. The dream ends.

I wake up feeling the fear I had in the dream … of not being able to fully balance my two worlds and feeling somewhat disconnected from my 3D life. What’s worse is that I don’t know if it’s “normal” to feel this way, and whether the disconnect will increase in future.

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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted April 21, 2013 01:38 AM            

I had a very important revelation, after I read members’ responses to a thread I began in Asteroids—
http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum28/HTML/001804.html

When I had the revelation, the truth just clicked instantly and the enormity of it (for me) made me break down and cry because everything that has happened between my TF and I, finally makes absolute sense.

For the first time I realized that meeting my TF had triggered a massive Kundalini response in both of us, which lasted for an extended period of 15 months. It was the connection of being bitten at the throat with the significance of throat chakra and Kundalini activation that hit home.

At that time neither of us knew what was happening to us … just that it was no ordinary “force” … it was definitely beyond love, at least as we tended to understand love (I now realize the significance of being bitten at the throat in my dream … the throat chakra being higher than the heart chakra) … and it swept us into an avalanche of emotions, which were as intense as they were pure and selfless.

Most notable was the absence of ego. It was like the “melding” or “merging” (his words) of two into one. He repeatedly said that “this” was bigger than both of us … that the “pull” he felt toward me pretty much consumed him, and that it was not the “real” reality he was used to. It was the same for me. We were both afraid of the sheer intensity of it all.

Yet, we both know that neither would have been affected by anything less than a force of this magnitude because … he … well, because he’s hard headed, had never been in love, and didn’t really have time for it (his explanations); and me because … love had to be a spiritually transforming experience. Nothing less would do … this is something I’ve known ever since I was 9 or 10 … at first subconsciously, then consciously but nebulously as a teenager, and then more clearly as an adult.

I believe this is why the Universe chose to hit us both hard, at the same time, with a force that was beyond our control. I also know that if he could have, my TF would have preferred to control the force, rather than be swept by it. Ironically, it was not his to control … only to handle without fear.

During the 15-month period, everything we experienced in relation to the other seemed out of the ordinary. Words cannot convey the import of the extended experience.

My snake dreams happened 3-4 months after meeting him (when my Kundalini had already been activated, as well as his).

I now regret that, when we met, I didn’t know about Kundalini awakening and its symptoms (I only found that out through iQ after starting this thread). Had I known what was happening, I’d have explained things to him, and maybe we’d have been less afraid?

This is why I’d now like to make sure I understand everything that is happening and don’t want to be left in the dark about anything related to Kundalini Shakti.

My recent revelation now prompts me to realize that my first meeting chart is even more important than I’d originally thought. I’m very sure that we both experienced an extended Kundalini response. iQ, is this possible in your opinion?

What I’d now like to know is if, astrologically speaking, our First Meeting chart reflects such an extended response. For this I’d like to post the complete First meeting chart and its similarities to our composite.

iQ, once I’m able to put it together, would you mind looking at it and doing the determination? Thank you!

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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted April 21, 2013 01:45 AM            

Before doing my prayers, I’d idly wondered how it would feel to actually be aware of my Kundalini Shakti rising up from its coiled position.

Then when I was doing my prayer, I felt a sharp, slightly painful, dart of electric current move up in my back, starting at waist level and stopping (or disappearing) under the neck region. It was a quick dart … slightly to the right of my spine. As it went up I felt a bit of warmth, especially when it seemed to stop under the neck.

More than anything it was the painful jab of current that I was aware of … and the feeling lingered, a bit uncomfortably, so that I had to move my back a bit, in order to alleviate the sharpness of the pain.

Later that day I felt the same shooting electric current 3 more times, each time in the same way (to the right of my spine). The discomfort I felt each time finally got to me, so that night I asked the Goddess to make it stop, saying I’ve understood how it feels. After that I’ve not felt it again so far.

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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted April 21, 2013 01:51 AM            

iQ, here’s another remarkable experience.

I was standing on the main level at home, facing the entrance, preparing to head out to get some flowers before beginning my prayers.

[There’s a bush at the bottom of the driveway, which blooms every April. For about 2-3 weeks it seems to come ablaze in the bright April sunshine with small, delicate, yellow flowers … the flowers are so bright and so many that the bush looks like it’s on fire. I’ve been offering the yellow flowers to my Shiva/Parvati idol (given to me by my Indian friends) every day].

Back to me standing on the main level.

Suddenly, out of the blue, I heard music coming from my prayer room, which is one level below the main level. I stood absolutely still and heard the gentle tinkle of bells along with the flowing sound of the flute. It lasted only for a few seconds and stopped.

I ran downstairs to my prayer room. Everything was quiet. Then I looked out the windows to see if there was anyone playing music. Aside from neighbor’s cars parked on the street, no one was about. All windows (double paned) were shut in my home.

And then I remembered! That morning I had woken up thinking about what Baccha had written in her post (page 2 of this thread) about Gopi Krishna walking 6 miles regularly. My heart had gone out to young Krishna as I imagined him among his cows playing his flute and trying to sort his Kundalini Shakti.

I’ve no idea what triggered my hearing his flute and the cowbells later that same day. All I can say is … how wonderfully and mysteriously unexplainable all this is! Even though this sound (cowbells and flute) seems to be associated with Krishna, I’m assuming it is still nada, the sound of the Universe?
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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.