posted April 29, 2013 01:59 PM              

Kundalini can be activated by intense feelings of love and stress. I also found it valuable to look at asteroid kaali in my chart, and particularly transits to my natal kaali and saturn, which happen to be squared in mine indicating a harsh awakening. The kaali aphelion is conjunct my natal kaali, so it spends forever there. You can gauge the intensity and plan for it based off monitoring its transit. Shakti can accumulate rapidly if you don't ground it properly. I did not notice it flaring up as much when it transited my luminaries, uranus, or ascendant, but that could be due to my natal square being so pronounced and transiting asteroid karma three degrees before my natal square.

I am not familiar enough on Krishna's life as far as Kundalini is concerned. There are many teachers who believe Krishna is the Christ and there are many parallels between their lives and deaths and related prophecies and promises as well as with teachings concerning Christ and Krishna consciousness. Both have promised they would always be with us after their incarnation, a promise Rama (Krishna) had made to Hanuman(Shiva), who had asked him to stay as long as his name was still venerated. He did, however, reincarnate into Krishna. It is interesting to note that Jaya could not bear to be away from Krishna and was the gatekeeper of his abode, Vaikuntha (the ultimate destination of liberated souls), and Peter was given the keys to heaven, is said to be its gatekeeper, and could not bear to be separated from Christ. Both Krishna/Christ were crucified between two thieves. Kalli (Parvati) is more of a tantric jnana deity as opposed to Krishna who is bhakti. I have tended to be more fascinated with tantra and jnana, but the flute is all I have ever heard .

I have had a lot of powerful Christian eschatological type dreams alongside Hindu ones. I wouldn't be surprised if you had powerful past lives with the Essenes or as a tantric. Many sadhus would gladly die to have the experiences you are having with Parvati.

Normally, when I pick apart numbers, I look to see if the number has a meaning in and of itself, like 300 has a specific meaning. If it doesn't, I try to look at the meaning of the number as a multiple of 10 if possible such as 42x10 in your case, or other significant numbers 21(completion)x2. I would take the number 42 to be the most important, 10 secondarily, and then 21 and 2. I tend to use ridingthebeast.com for numerological meanings as it has a Christian emphasis, but Kabbalistic numerology or others would work. I wouldn't take that as literal. If the number is in a long line like 1591, I would see if that had some other significance with a year or add up the numbers to make a more whole meaning, in this case being 16 which I relate to the decreasing or increasing of karmic cycles. Sometimes the numbering of the major arcana in tarot can shed some light on their meanings. There are also a number of new age groups that place an emphasis on 313 or 3131 working as numbers, or even with zeros such as 303 or 3030. The 333 club is fairly well known, and given the meaning of the number and the people I know who have woken up at this hour, I think it means a choice between bondage (multiplied by 2 666) or 999 which is associated with the Christ. Sometimes just adding a zero in a number carries the same meaning, such as 36 and 306 being considered the same and used as such in architecture and ritual.

posted May 16, 2013 07:36 PM            

I’m amused (but also grateful) that mistaking Gopi Krishna for the Hindu God Krishna evoked an experience for me. I guess ignorance is definitely bliss in my case even though I feel a bit like a cauliflower, which, according to Mark Twain, is a cabbage with a college education, LOL.

“Kundalini can be activated by intense feelings of love and stress.” Thank you for pointing this out because it makes my mutually shared 15-month Kundalini response with my TF more plausible.

“I also found it valuable to look at asteroid kaali in my chart, and particularly transits to my natal kaali and saturn,” Yes. Natally, I have Kaali exactly trine Parvati trine Sita … all three in a grand trine. Parvati is in a 2 deg sextile to my Asc, and Kaali is in a 3 deg sextile to Asc. [Both are in a 1-1.5 deg sextile to Isis in the 1st hse, which is in a wide conjunction (4 deg) to my Asc.] Asteroid Raman (or Rama) is in a one deg conjunction (from the 1st hse) to Asc. So the kite with either the Asc/Raman or Isis is completed with Sita conjunct the Desc. … Raman/Asc (1 deg) is exactly opposite Sita/Desc (1deg).

My natal Moon/Rudra, Siva/Part of Karma, and Saturn are also in a grand trine … with Mahakala (or Shiva) forming the apex or focus of the kite.

The Parvati, Kaali, and Sita GT forms a loose Star of David with the Siva/Part of Karma, Rudra, and Saturn GT.

Also of note is that the kite with the feminine principle Parvati, Kaali, Sita, and Isis, points (or has its focal point) toward the Asc, while the kite with the masculine principle Shva/Part of Karma, Rudra, Saturn, and Mahakala points toward the Desc. To my novice brain this is kinda (maybe) like the two directions taken by Shakti and Shiva in order to meet or unite in each one of us (?).

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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted May 16, 2013 07:51 PM            

Sri RamaKrishna … Hindu mystic/saint, and widely accepted as the reincarnation of both Rama and Krishna … hence the name. Well, his natal shows his Asc at 29 Capricorn 47, with Kaali in his 1st house (at 8 Aqu 53), Neptune at 4 Aqu 24 conjunct Asc. He began having spiritual experiences at the age of 7 and spent his entire life devoted to the worship of Goddess Kaali. His Kaali aspects include—

Kaali square Saturn (chart ruler) at 5 sco 15, trine Siva at 11 Lib 58, square Hara (Shiva) at 9 Tau 45.

Saturn square Neptune (exact).

Saturn square Asc (widely).

Parvati conjunct Moon in Pisces, exactly sextile Hara in Taurus.

Uranus, Mercury, and Moon are all in Pisces.

Also of interest—asteroid Ramakrishna in his natal is at 0 Aqu 48, conjunct his Asc!!!!
His birth name was Gaddahar (meaning cowherd) but he was later given the name of Ramakrishna].

And North Node is on Algol!!

Interestingly, all the masculine principle asteroids in my natal—Siva, Rudra, Mahakala, and Saturn are all present in feminine signs, indicating a tendency for a shift in consciousness (perhaps) toward a balance of masculine and feminine. Natal asteroid Shankar (Shiva) is also in a feminine sign, though it is not part of the above mentioned GT or kite (too wide to count).

Here’s iQ’s interp. of all the trine aspects between the Vedic asteroids and Saturn in my natal (similar to your conclusion of my past life as a tantric)—

"These trines are pointing to Kundalini Energy Rise being fated for you by balancing Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine Energies, with the Asteroids showing "Sadhana" or Spiritual Practice done using specific Tantra Yoga under guidance of a Vedic Guru or during a Vedic Lifeline."

At the moment, Tr Neptune is square my Sun and more widely, my Mercury. Also Tr Pluto is square my Mars/Hara conjunction in 12th hse (Hara is another name for Shiva), while Tr. Uranus is conjunct my Mars/Hara. Still have to check Tr Kaali though. I think the hard Pluto, Neptune, and Uranus aspects are also responsible for triggering these Kundalini experiences.

In synastry however, I think that Kaali in aspect to Mercury can trigger Kundalini awakening. For example, my TF’s Kaali/Samadhi conjunction (1 deg) in his 7th hse trines my Mercury/Nada conjunction. In the Asteroids Forum Ceridwen has shown a couple of charts where she too has experienced Kundalini triggering with Kaali/Mercury in synastry.

“You can gauge the intensity and plan for it based off monitoring its transit. Shakti can accumulate rapidly if you don't ground it properly.” Yes, thank you for pointing this out.

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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted May 16, 2013 08:05 PM            

When I was about 6 yrs old, I had a dream about Lord Krishna. I didn’t know or understand why I had the dream, but I somehow knew it was an important one. In the dream I first saw Him in a photograph and then saw Him step out of the photograph and down to where I was sleeping. I woke up (in my dream) but continued to lie in bed. He sat on my bed by my side and spoke with me for a long time telling me many very important things (it felt like they were important). All the finery of His clothes enthralled me because He was dressed like a king (or at least that’s what I thought). The next morning I told my Mom that King Krishna told me many things in my dream. Once she understood whom I was referring to, she asked me what things. I said I couldn’t remember, LOL. I was so upset that I couldn’t remember what I’d been told. I felt like I had not been a good student because I couldn’t remember His teachings. Maybe all the things Lord Krishna told me as a child got steeped somewhere in my consciousness or memory bank, to be remembered later at different stages in my life. Dunno tho’.

Your comparison between Lord Krishna and Christ, as well as the info on numbers is awesomely amazing. Thank you!

“Many sadhus would gladly die to have the experiences you are having with Parvati.” I hope you won’t mind explaining why you say this. Is it because my experiences have so far been unaccompanied by the physical pain and mental anguish that I’ve read so much about? If so, then I want to mention that I’m still afraid of that happening.

I’ve recently become aware of having an inherently deep connection with Goddess Parvati as I’ve seen Her several times in my dreams, in which She has appeared both as a child and as an adult. In a later post I’ll write about a dream I had in which She appeared as an adult to calm my fears. Some of the child dreams I had about Her can be read in this thread—
http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum15/HTML/002851.html

Lord Shiva has also calmed me in some dreams.

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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted May 16, 2013 08:16 PM            

How or why I expected him, in particular, to do something about the situation is completely beyond my understanding … unless on some level I had some sort of personal knowledge that he was associated with Kashmir.

For a while now, I’ve also been outraged by the takeover of the most peaceful country in the world—Tibet. I just don’t understand how the world can allow this to happen without batting an eyelid. But I better not get started on that or I’ll begin to fume and splutter, and end up losing coherent thought. These types of injustices in the world (and there are so many of them) are very upsetting to me.

“Your experiences are beautiful and pleasant to read” You’re very kind. Thank you for this encouragement. I’ve been intermittently hesitant to document them because I’ve felt that my experiences are so basic and other members (including yourself and iQ) have experienced so much more. So I’ve doubted whether mine could help anyone. If it hadn’t been for iQ’s support (and now yours) I would have likely stopped. I know I’m definitely benefiting through you and iQ … but I hope my thread can also benefit others, as I’d like to pay it forward.

I want to add that recalling one of your statements a few days ago—“Many sadhus would gladly die to have the experiences you are having with Parvati.”—actually triggered another experience for me which I’ll write about in a bit. Not sure what it was about that statement … I think it was specifically the words “… the experiences you are having with Parvati” that did it. Reading your words made my heart melt toward the Goddess all over again. It was a reminder to me of the very personal relationship I have with Her (something I think each one of us manages to develop with God). Also, I felt like my relationship with Her was being appreciated by you as a third person … much like if I were to meet your husband for the first time and then say to you that you’re so lucky because he’s such a wonderful guy. Your heart would melt toward your husband because my appreciation would serve as a reminder to you. Hope this makes sense

Anyway, so far two of your comments have triggered two separate experiences in me. Amazing is all I can say … along with being very indebted too, of course. I think Shakti is very much a powerful psychological and neurological force.

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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted May 16, 2013 08:33 PM            

I lay down a few minutes before midnight feeling completely exhausted, even though I still had a half hour’s work left to do before turning in. Checking the clock, I told myself that I’d rest just for 5 minutes before finishing up for the night. I must have immediately slipped into some kind of light doze because the dream started right away. I kept waking up but … unable to fully orient and mobilize myself, I kept slipping back into the same dream. This happened 3 times before I was able to wake up fully.

Dream: I see myself at home with my family. We’re having a party and there are many people who are visiting. At one point I’m standing near the swing door of the kitchen with my back to the door and facing the guests who are standing in small groups talking among themselves. To my left I see Dad standing near the dinner table with one group laughing and talking.

Then I see a Lion standing close to and behind my Dad, touching the back of his legs … almost like a pet cat does when it moves up close to its owner’s legs. Actually this is a Lioness because it does not have the large mane of a male lion. With her snout close to the ground she is touching Dad’s legs with her body, but her eyes are fixed on me. No one else, including Dad, seems to be aware of her.

I feel afraid, wondering why no one else is freaking out. I think to myself that if I escape to the kitchen and try to hold the swing door closed, she could easily follow me and force the door open by throwing the sheer power and weight of her body against the door. My eyes open briefly from the dream for the first time. But I slip right back into it.

In the second sequence, I see myself mingling and talking with friends at the same party. Someone suggests that he’d like to give me a new haircut. I laugh and refuse at first, and then agree saying that perhaps I should get my hair styled differently. Again my eyes open, and again I slip back into the dream.

In the third sequence, from inside the house I see Dad outside … at the end of the walkway leading away from the house. The walkway is in the center of the front yard, flanked by grass on either side. Dad is saying goodbye to the last of the visitors. And right there, sitting on the grass, close to where Dad is standing is the Lioness. When Dad turns around to walk back to the house, the Lioness slowly hauls her huge body up to follow him indoors. I begin to whisper urgently to myself, “C’mon, Dad, hurry back inside and close the door before she can enter.” With a start my eyes open fully and I look at the clock … it is 12:08 a.m.

As I write this, I just realized that the numbers for both clock times … when I lay down that night and finally sat up in bed after the dream … add up to 11.

The next day, as I processed that dream, I remembered that a couple of years ago, when I had been going through a period of fear, I’d seen a Lioness in my dream. In that dream also she’d been in my home. I was alone at home and tried stealthily moving from one room to another, each time locking the door behind me, trying to escape the Lioness. But each time, when I would turn around from locking the door, thinking I’d left her outside, there she would be … standing quietly in the center of the room just looking at me.

At that time when I’d discussed the dream with my Indian friends, I was told that the Lion, the symbol of bravery, is the Vehicle of Goddess Parvati in Her more fierce form of Goddess Durga, who gives courage and protection by destroying fear and negativity. So my dream, I was told, is a sign that the Goddess was protecting me in my time of fear.

Assuming the same significance for the recent dream makes sense because of what had happened earlier that day.

Earlier that Sunday afternoon, I’d heard about a 5-year-old girl in India, having been brutally raped and tortured by an adult male neighbor. When I was told about the incident, I remember feeling an unfamiliar emotion … so powerful that it left me stunned. I tried to understand it but the best I could do was identify it as a fiery ball … of rage … in the pit of my stomach. The fiery ball was surrounded by an icy, frozen layer, presumably also of rage. I couldn’t remember the last time I’d felt such intense rage, and knew that I needed to get it out of me before it harmed me. The intensity of the feeling was so unfamiliar (I’m usually much, much more mentally disciplined), that I didn’t know what to do.

I finally went to my prayer room and broke down, crying and railing against Goddess Parvati. “Why were You not there to protect the child? How could You have allowed this to happen? How can so much evil abound in a Universe created by You? Why do You not answer? How can You be silent in the face of this? I speak with You all day long … why do You not answer? Am I nuts for believing that You exist? Give me a sign that You are real and not a figment of my imagination.”

All the range of my human emotions poured out. The Goddess is the One I’ve longed for, the One I’ve built a relationship with, the One I love beyond all others … yet now She frustrates me because She doesn’t respond. She is silent when I need Her to speak. Exhausted from crying and completely frustrated with the Goddess, I left the prayer room and busied myself with work, etc., for the rest of that Sunday.

The Lioness dream I had later on that night, revealed to me the extent of my own fear caused by doubts about my faith in Her. That She showed me Her Vehicle in my dream to reassure me of Her Divine Presence, helped restore my faith so that … through the murky haze of pain and anguish over the incident I’d heard about, I saw glimmers of hope and inspiration again.

The next day, feeling deeply remorseful, I apologized to the Goddess for my anger, rant, and mistrust. I felt like I’d temporarily slipped away from Her while She remained constant toward me. This brought home the reality that in distancing myself from Her the previous day, I’d lost the peace of mind, which I’m normally accustomed to … and which I could only regain by restoring my trust and confidence in Her. There seemed to be no other way to make the relationship work.

There are more lessons for me in relation to this incident, which I will write about later as I want to write the experiences in the sequence in which they occur.

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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted May 16, 2013 08:40 PM            

Dream: In the 1st sequence of the dream I see him flying an airplane. I’m the only other person in the plane with him. He tries to land the plane on a busy street but one of the wings nicks a car parked on the street. So he goes back to high level again. I say to him, “So lemme get this … you’re trying to land this plane on a busy street in rush hour with cars parked on either side … and you want to do this without the wings touching any of the cars?” He says, “Yes.”

In the 2nd sequence, he’s an astronaut, preparing to take off in a spaceship which looks like one of the current ones NASA has … the kind that launch like rockets (as opposed to the Star Trek kind, lol). He’s excited about the next day when they will take off. He’ll be traveling with 5 others … one woman and four other men. Using a paintbrush I see him writing the names of all 6 people on the space rocket. I read the names, but for the life of me cannot remember them when I wake up.

A couple of days after I had this dream I spoke to the man on the phone and told him about my interpretation of the dream. I said that the 1st sequence reveals that he sets very high … almost impossible standards … for his achievements in life, and that, no matter what, he’s not satisfied with his accomplishments. The 2nd sequence, I felt, reveals that his soul wants to take flight. I said that I intuitively felt he’d so far not allowed his heart chakra to open fully toward another person, even though I sensed his spiritual energy to be good or of high level. He agreed with my assessment saying that this was true in his life so far. I then told him that since the soul takes birth to learn lessons in love, and that his soul seems ready to take off in that direction, he would need to allow this to happen so that he can experience a fuller expression of himself through his love nature. He thanked me for sharing this with him.

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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted May 16, 2013 08:58 PM            

The weather prediction had called for a stormy night. Starting at about 4:30 a.m. the winds were supposed to begin gusting at 50-70 mph. I always worry when the weather gets like this because of the risk of trees falling on the home. The neighborhood where I live is filled with very old and therefore very tall poplar (tulip) trees (common all over N. America, Canada, and Europe), which are brittle in nature and tend to snap easily in winds of far less speed than 50-70 mph.

I went to bed worried and slept for a few hours. Right at about 4:30 am I woke up because of the noise the wind was making. Every few seconds it howled, sounding like a train barreling down its tracks at high speed as it met with the resistance of the trees.

Terrified, I lay in bed, my body curled in a fetal position, completely tightened with fear, anxiety, and worry. And then, in the midst of my fear I began to pray. Only it wasn’t my usual prayers that I started saying. I began to repeat Om Nameh Shivaya. Not sure why this happened, but I’d learned to enunciate these words correctly sometime back. I’d been told that if we pray to Lord Shiva, especially when afraid, He removes the source of the fear. So I involuntarily kept repeating the prayer nonstop.

At some point during the chanting, I must’ve drifted off into a light sleep, and that’s when I had the dream, which happened in real time, i.e., the same real-life storm situation was re-created in my dream.

Dream: The wind is howling outside in the early hours of the morning. Combined with the rain it is a perfectly scary storm. In the pre-dawn light I move from room to room worried and afraid. Then I hear a loud crash and see that one of the windowpane glasses has broken and the curtain is blowing inward. Rain water is beginning to wet the floor around the window.

Not sure why, but I step outside the house in the side yard, and am barely able to breathe due to the force of the wind. And then I see a woman come up the hill in the front of the house. She is walking effortlessly as she climbs the hill and is dressed in a sari. I’m surprised to see her at this time, and also because I live in a predominantly white neighborhood. The other thing that is mystifying to me is that her clothes and hair are immaculate and completely unruffled by the wind, whereas I can barely keep my balance.

Curious, I stay where I am standing (or trying to stand) and she walks toward me to the beginning of the side yard. As she draws closer, I see that she looks beautiful and serene … She’s tall, and slender, with dark hair and fair skin. Her beautiful sari is worn with perfect pleats. Her serenity has the effect of drawing me in so that I completely forget about the storm and move toward her. I want to ask if she needs help but before I can say, “Yes?” she communicates with me wordlessly.

Even though her lips don’t move I understand what she wants to convey to me. She wants me to hold out my hand and, when I do so, she places a round, light brown nut in it (I later found out that it was a betel nut, commonly used in prayers in India) and, pointing to the steps on the side of the house, she tells me to add the nut to my prayer plate. I look in the direction she’s pointing and I see a prayer plate made of steel on one of the steps. It has a few prayer items in it along with a small clay lamp, which was lit and, despite the ferocity of the storm, the flame of the lamp was steady with only a bit of flickering.

In real life I don’t possess a prayer plate, although I’ve seen it in Indian homes. It usually has a vertical edge to it all around so that nothing falls off. In the dream I know I didn’t bring the prayer plate outside with me, yet when the Goddess pointed to it, it was just there, along with the lighted lamp.

I seemed to accept what she wanted me to do because I intuitively understood that she was giving me a gift in the form of the nut. And understanding this, I felt a great sense of calm come over me. I wanted to know if she wished for me to do anything else, but she wordlessly said no, and turned and walked away.

When this dream sequence ended, I slipped into a deep dreamless sleep for a couple of hours while the storm continued to rage outside. When I woke up the winds were calmer, the rain had stopped, and there was no fallen tree or even a fallen branch.

I think that praying to Lord Shiva resulted in the Goddess Herself appearing to calm my fears, because the predominant feeling I had in Her presence was one of peace. So I guess it’s true that Lord Shiva can remove our worst fears. What is interesting is that praying to Lord Shiva invoked the presence of Goddess Parvati. In the past when I’ve prayed to the Goddess, Lord Shiva has appeared in my dreams. So I think that they are both the same as praying to One invokes the presence of the Other.

It’s only recently (before making this post) that I looked up the significance of the betel nut. It is supposed to represent the masculine principle while the betel leaf represents the feminine principle.

I don’t fully understand the gifting of the betel nut from my dream, unless it is an indication of the Goddess Shakti harmonizing the masculine and feminine energies within me, which resulted in the calm I felt.

I think that Perfect Love, which casts out all fear, is the result of a complete balance of Divine Masculine and Feminine Energies. So it is possible that the gifting of the betel nut, representing the masculine principle, was symbolic of this harmonizing within me by the Goddess, resulting in the banishment of all fear of the storm.

iQ and Baccha, please feel free to add your own insight or correct me if I’ve misunderstood something.

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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted May 17, 2013 12:26 PM            

During the course of my day, after running errands, I decided to stop at my local library for a bit … to do some work in peace and quiet. For about an hour and a half I worked on my laptop. Then the guy I was sharing the table with, and who’d been sitting across from me got up and left.

Soon after he left, I stretched my legs under the table, relaxed a bit and allowed my mind to wander. I thought about my Kundalini thread and Baccha’s latest post (on page 3). I recalled her words “…the experiences you are having with Parvati” I felt my heart melt toward Goddess Parvati, whom I now call Ma in my daily conversations with Her (Mama for my earthly Mother, and Ma for the Goddess).

While I was having these thoughts and emotions I noticed that there was a pretty strong floral fragrance in the air. I know it wasn’t there when I’d arrived and walked the length of the library to find a spot for myself (with a Venus dominant chart, all my physical senses are usually always on the alert). And neither was it there for the first 1.5 hrs. I’d begun to smell the fragrance only after the guy across from me had left and my mind had wandered to the Goddess (though I didn’t make this connection until much later that night).

While in the library, I didn’t think much about the smell, and assumed that the library intermittently adds something to the air they pump through the vent system. I did have one thought though … that perhaps the fragrance/air freshener or whatever they were adding was kinda strong, and that had my allergies not been under control, I would’ve begun to sneeze.

I worked for 2 more hours and left at the library’s closing time. Throughout the 2 hours, I smelled the fragrance. Later I remembered that when I walked the length of the library again, this time to walk out, the fragrance had stopped.

After returning home, the first thing I did was to wash my hands … it’s a habit I have … one can never be sure, what with all the super bugs we’re constantly creating, lol. Later, I made and ate supper.

Afterward I sat at the kitchen table and read for a bit. While I was reading and thinking, I touched my entire left hand to the left side of my head … like resting my head in my hand for a bit. Then I straightened my head and brushed my hair away from my face. It was then that I smelled the same strong fragrance (from the library) on my hand. My entire left palm and fingers smelled of it!!!! Yet I couldn’t understand how that was possible. Even if the library air had something mixed with it, how could my hand carry the smell so strongly when I’d already washed it several times? I touched my hair with my right hand and came away with the faintly pleasant smell of dish detergent! I was unsure whether my hair had a little bit of the library’s floral smell. I then sniffed at my clothes and picked up nothing. So how was it possible for my hands to still carry that smell?

As I tried to wrap my brain around this mystery, I decided to call the library. The next day I asked the Librarian if they normally add air fresheners to their vent system. She said she didn’t think so but if I could hold, she’d ask someone who would know definitely. She came back on the line and said, nope they don’t. And nothing had been added the previous day.

I then knew that for 2 hours in the library I’d had another kundalini experience. And because I hadn’t been aware of it while it was happening (I’d rationalized it away as an air freshener), Goddess Parvati decided to remind me later that evening by making my hand smell of the same fragrance … knowing that I would sit up and take notice of the experience after I’d washed my hands several times.

And get this! After I’d smelled the fragrance on my hand the previous day, and my brain began to link the possibility that this might be another kundalini experience (of course awaiting confirmation from the call to the library the next day), the smell then faded from my hand!!!!!!! It lasted only as long as it took for me to start thinking about it!!! I think the Goddess sure has a way of getting my attention. I wonder if She was chuckling while I was grappling at trying to understand the mystery. Who knew that God has a sense of humor, too?

One thing is very clear though. She’s VERY responsive. When I’m angry She soothes, when I’m frightened She protects and calms, when I ask questions She answers by revealing and teaching, and when my heart melts in love for Her, She plays a fragrance prank on me! It is this responsiveness from Her that continues to strengthen my confidence in Her.

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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted May 17, 2013 12:38 PM            

In a conversation with my Indian friend I learned that the 5-yr old Indian girl had passed away (I’d asked about her… my friend would not have brought it up otherwise). I was saddened. That night I told the Goddess that I trusted She would explain things to me in Her own way and time, so that I could understand why an incident like this one happened and why She allowed it to happen.

A couple of days later Shakti Ma did explain in a dream … a past life recall (on May 9, 2013). It is an experience that has changed me forever.

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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted May 17, 2013 02:33 PM            

For the past few months my stress level has been on the increase. As usual during such times, my hair begins to fall, which stresses me out even more. And since I tell Shakti Ma everything, I’d shared with Her my worry over my hair loss, asking her to please stop it.

Additionally, a couple of months ago, I began to have this thought of wanting to see Her in a dream. But at first I was afraid that I wouldn’t be able to handle it if I saw Her, so I would brush the thought aside.

However, in the last couple of weeks, the thought of wanting to see Her became more insistent. I examined my fear rationally, and decided that it had no basis if I trusted the Goddess. After all, so far She’s been nothing but kind, gentle, and steadfast with me, so why would that change now? I remembered how it was I who had distanced myself from Her because of my fear, while She had remained constant. So I worked my fear out of my mind and then boldly asked to see Her, completely convinced that I could handle it.

So for the 2 weeks prior to seeing the vision, in my daily conversations with Shakti Ma, I began the clamor of wanting to see Her. In the vision I had on May 7, She answered both my worry over my hair and my desire to see Her. The vision was brief but revealed so much.

Vision:

I saw the Sanskrit word Om or Aum written out from a single strand of my hair. In the vision I knew right away that it was my hair (don’t know how). And I gasped in wonder at the fact that there was no break in the strand. I had this "knowingness" within me that Shakti Ma had constructed the word out of my hair with no break in it! It was simply beautiful!

[If anyone’s ever seen the word Om in Sanskrit (it can be googled— http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Om), you’ll see that it includes a sort of a crescent with a dot. So it’s not humanly possible to write that word completely and correctly without lifting the pen.]

Also, in the vision the word glowed with a reddish hue … some of it because my hair is partly a deep auburn … and also because there was a light behind the word, making it luminescent. During the vision … when I peered at it closely, and for an extended period of time … it seemed to actually turn translucent.

When I awoke, I knew immediately that Ma had reassured me of the issue about my hair (the unbroken strand said it all). As well She had revealed Herself to me, because the word Om is said to encapsulate all the sounds of the Universe, i.e., God who is beyond shape or form. I’ll admit that my expectation was to see Her in human form as a woman, the way She’s shown in pictures. But She dispelled that myth in this vision.

CONTINUED (next post) ...

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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted May 17, 2013 02:58 PM            

“AUM is a word that represents to our ears that sound of the energy of the universe, of which all things are manifestations. You start in the back of the mouth, “ahh,” and then “oo,” you fill the mouth, and “mm” closes the mouth. When you pronounce this properly, all vowel sounds are included in the pronunciation. AUM. Consonants are here regarded simply as interruptions of the essential vowel sound. All words are thus fragments of Aum, just as all images are fragments of the Form of forms. AUM is a symbolic sound that puts you in touch with that resounding being that is the universe. If you heard some of the recordings of Tibetan monks chanting AUM, you would know what the word means, all right. That’s the AUM of being in the world. To be in touch with that and to get the sense of that, is the peak experience of all.

A-U-M. The birth, the coming into being, and the dissolution that cycles back. AUM is called the “four-element syllable.” A-U-M—and what is the fourth element? The silence out of which AUM arises, and back into which it goes, and which underlies it. My life is the A-U-M, but there is a silence underlying it, too. That is what we would call the immortal. This is the mortal and that’s the immortal, and there wouldn’t be the mortal if there weren’t the immortal. One must discriminate between the mortal aspect and the immortal aspect of one’s own existence.”

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From Wikipedia: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Om

“The syllable "om" is first described as all-encompassing mystical entity in the Upanishads. Hindus believe that as creation began, the divine, all-encompassing consciousness took the form of the first and original vibration manifesting as sound "OM". Before creation began it was "Shunyākāsha", the emptiness or the void. Shunyākāsha, meaning literally "no sky", is more than nothingness, because everything then existed in a latent state of potentiality. The vibration of "OM" symbolizes the manifestation of God in form ("sāguna brahman"). "OM" is the reflection of the absolute reality, it is said to be "Adi Anadi", without beginning or the end and embracing all that exists. The mantra "OM" is the name of God, the vibration of the Supreme. When taken letter by letter, A-U-M represents the divine energy (Shakti) united in its three elementary aspects: Bhrahma Shakti (creation), Vishnu Shakti (preservation) and Shiva Shakti (liberation, and/or destruction).

In Purānic Hinduism, om is the mystic name for the Hindu Trimurti (Trinity), and represents the union of the three gods, viz. a for Brahma, u for Vishnu and m for Mahadev which is another name of Shiva. The three sounds also symbolize the three Vedas, namely (Rigveda, Samaveda, Yajurveda).

According to Hindu philosophy (see Māndukya Upanishad), the letter A represents creation, when all existence issued forth from Brahma's golden nucleus; the letter U refers to Vishnu the God of the middle who preserves this world by balancing Brahma on a lotus above himself, and the letter M symbolizes the final part of the cycle of existence, when Brahma falls asleep and Shiva has to breathe in so that all existing things have to disintegrate and are reduced to their essence to him. More broadly, om is said to be the primordial sound that was present at the creation of the universe. It is said to be the original sound that contains all other sounds, all words, all languages and all mantras.”

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And here’s what’s really cool—In the easternmost region of the Himalayas in India, there’s actually a mountain peak called the Om Parvat (Om Peak) … its snow deposit is said to resemble the “Om” symbol! Check it out … it’s picture is in the wiki link I posted.

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From: http://om-healing.org/sanskrit-om

OM Healing: “OM is the perfect sound that encompasses all sounds that bring about the manifest world. Thus, all other words that are derived from OM are already deviated from wholeness and cannot bring the same orderliness to the physiology as OM itself. OM is the vibration that perfectly corresponds with its meaning. To be healthy means to be whole or holy. Thus, it is best to chant OM to achieve the vibration of perfect wholeness in each cell. We could say that chanting OM is one of the best ways to bring the vibration of unity into the diversity of creation. Each cell of the body should reverberate wholeness and all parts together should reverberate in wholeness. This can be achieved through chanting OM.”

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Based on the healing power of Om, it is possible that Shakti Ma could also be indicating to me to chant Om as a way to achieve complete physical healing, including my hair issue.

iQ, Baccha, what do you think?

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~ I have a DO NOT DISTURB sign on my imagination ... because I want to frustrate the twins ... Convention and Dogma

~ The moment I cease to seek the truth, or settle for the truth in the moment ... that is the moment I cease to be a seeker, and become a fundamentalist instead.

~ The truest acts of charity are never disclosed ... they remain a secret between Man, the doer and God.
Because Man knows that each charitable act is an opportunity for him to revel in God just as God avails of His chance to revel in Man through every act of charity.
For them both to continue to rejoice in each other, Man knows he cannot allow worldly accolades to distract him. So he continues to act in kindness ... secretly.

posted May 20, 2013 01:27 PM            

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Originally posted by Randall:
Is OM the sound the Universe makes?

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*hands in head*

holy frickin Christ....

what do we do with this guy?

Randall......really????

posted May 20, 2013 04:27 PM            

AUM

http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum17/HTML/001530.html

posted May 21, 2013 10:54 AM            

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Originally posted by Randall:
Is OM the sound the Universe makes?

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Yes. Its actually a humming sound like that of some machine but not exactly. Its out of the world. Its generally referred to as OM, AUM and many other words like AMEN, AMEEN are derived from the same in my belief.

An excerpt from this site www.beezone.com
"When the aspirant ascends to this region of Trikuti he hears a sublime melody that is very similar to a tonal expression of the word 0m. It is a lingering, roaring sound which is reminiscent of the thunder of storm clouds on earth, but it is full of an unworldly sweetness and harmony. This sound comes from the middle of the rolling sound of the Thunder of clouds. Here we have the four-petalled Lotus. The light is red like that of the early dawn."

I hope it throws some light. Btw Trikuti means trinity. Remember Matrix?

posted May 21, 2013 12:31 PM            

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Originally posted by Randall:
I never proclaim to be enlightened.

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No, you haven't unlike many hypocrites who run around making a point of reminding everyone how "Enlightened" they are. Yet an enlightened being doesn't need bragging rights or has to constantly tell people they are.

posted May 23, 2013 12:27 PM              

Siva itself is also an asteroid.

Having read all of that, I do believe that your hearing Siva's drum was to balance out your masculine and feminine which I recall being necessary for a safe kundalini. Too much of the lunar nadi is associated with lunacy, while the solar can conversely be quite detrimental. I was likely needing the lunar nadi to balance things out. The divine masculine is more associated with the path of wisdom and sacred geometry as a kind of organizing energetic flow to the devotion or love nadi. Yes, love is the most important thing in spirituality, and I am still working on it, but maybe this will help: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AGp5Faz01vs&list=PL9682F1AB0282BC42. He is supposedly an incarnate of one of the souls who works in the Akashic records. He speaks of the tantric star/star of david etc as being the perfect emanation of enlightened man, having balanced the creative/feminine (downward triangle) to the masculine (upward triangle). If you read the Gospel of Sri Ramakrishna, he is very balanced in his bhakti and jnana as is Swami Vivekananda. Rama is also just an earlier incarnation of Krishna/Vishnu. You are right, you are very bhakti. Don't lose that. It is very endearing.

Chanting AUM is a very valuable spiritual practice when done correctly, but you can only do it so much safely. Women cannot use it as long as men, unfortunately. I know it sounds sexist but there are energetic differences between men and women. Eventually, it should be able to heal everything.

I have had far less deity dreams than you have. Mine just tell me stuff I have a hard time believing

posted May 30, 2013 08:35 AM            

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