posted October 05, 2019 02:49 AM            

quote:

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Originally posted by ballerina:

Everyone was born exactly
the way they were suppose
to be, having everything
they needed to fulfill their
purpose! I see this gender
thing as self mutilation!

At this point, you are no
longer fulfilling your purpose,
maybe, they think they know
better than God what they need!
The World has surely gone mad!

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posted October 19, 2019 02:58 PM            

Turns out PixieJane was right!
Without warning they put out
over 100 people out on the
streets...in order to have
daytime services you must see
your case manager once a week
for an hour..there are only 4
case managers and over 140
people..it just doesn't add up!
The mayor is doing nothing..
We are talking about mentally
ill, handicap, and elderly, how
can this be okay!?

I'm at a standstill..
one person can only do
so much!

I need a break from this
shelter, it's just so sad...
No affordable housing to be
found!

Please appreciate all that
you have, and if you can help
someone, please just do it!

Thanks

posted October 20, 2019 10:18 AM            

What the shelter did is what happens in other places too.

And as the adage goes... the squeaky wheel can get greased, or be replaced. PLUS, you now risk being "black-balled" as a whistle-blower and trouble-maker. You could be politically affected, with a 'code' added to your social service record, saying such, and effectively "banning you" from further services? {I hope not, for your sake.}

Being TOO aggressive with demands that they themselves may have tried to solve before, and were overwhelmed with resistance in the {draconic?} budget so that they couldn't, had you appear not as their ally but as someone working against them? {backfired? .. I hope not, sooooo much!! I hope that the TV station can get you some housing-help!!! sincerely.}

You and your mates there got 'organized' and were becoming a force to be reckoned with??

IF you have a way to be in contact with the other shelter mates that were ousted, why don't you form your own "home"?

The other thing …
You must have relatives?-- even back in Canada.
IF it would serve you, why don't you reach out to them--
You have adult daughters who love too, right?

Anyways... I understand about the existence of families who refuse to give a flip about what happens to one of their own. I sincerely hope that your-own DNA members will take some social responsibility in their duty to care for their own.

If one of your daughters is taking you in right now?, then I'm glad.

You could still start your own 'house' for folks who are stranded, otherwise.

posted October 20, 2019 11:19 AM            

What I just did may cause
problems with the director..
and she would be the one to
have me thrown out...

Honestly, mirage29 I have a
problem with you..and I'd
appreciate you minding your
own business!

Thanks!

After my email sent to WMUR..
I went outside and ran into
an old friend who is going to
be interviewed by them on
homelessness..we are going to
combine our efforts!

posted October 20, 2019 02:12 PM            

quote:

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I am still at the shelter,

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Well good then.
Well wishes.

quote:

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Honestly, mirage29 I have a
problem with you..and I'd
appreciate you minding your
own business!

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posted November 04, 2019 11:18 AM            

The homeless shelter is a very
sad place, there are days that
really make you wonder about
life! So much pain and sorrow,
waiting for a brighter tomorrow!

I don't know how much more of
this place I can take. For every
apartment I look at, there's
always at least 10 people before
me that want it! Disgruntled
I am...
Need the Other half of me...

posted December 01, 2019 10:37 AM            

I'm waiting to hear from
3 different places, that
look very promising!

posted December 16, 2019 01:44 PM            

I haven't been on line much, because the
shelter took our wifi away. So, I am writing
everyday to our Mayor and Governor about it!

Positive Thoughts!!!

posted December 23, 2019 11:57 PM            

If my other half can hear me?
I'm close to death.

I'm okay with that....

posted December 26, 2019 08:22 AM            

Sent you an email..

I'm okay, well..
not really...

posted January 23, 2020 06:28 PM            

One darn wall after another..
Obstacles...

We have already found a cure
for cancer...

We have already achieved immortality...

Nano technology

Pharmaceutical companies
running the show?

It's all about money!

I want a11 of you to think
about the Truth, for it is
mighty and above a11 things!

I could of lied, instead I've
Written Truth..all you have ever
needed is you..born with our
gifts..higher consciousness..
to wisdom..to secreting ever-
Lasting life through your pineal
gland...

"Our Thoughts create Our
Reality!"

posted March 18, 2020 10:29 PM            

But, never, ever, shall I
become like them...

I'm hurt by experience..I have
lost some faith in Us...

posted March 18, 2020 10:45 PM            

I'm on my knees begging
you all to see the reality
you want..it's truly in
our hands...

posted March 21, 2020 06:03 PM            

One of those many moments: there was this feral cat. This was a bad neighborhood so perhaps that was for the best. We had a cat lady who took care of most cats, but he was not having it and even fought back when she tried to catch him. He chased off big dogs. He mainly lived somewhere across the street in a junk-filled empty lot (with lots of weeds), and I'd sometimes leave out food for him. Maybe because he was a black cat like Gink from a childhood series I loved, I don't know, but I did.

{Quick funny story: a close friend of me and my then partner's was leaving for another city, and to get married. We celebrated at a Thai food place, and I ordered mine hot because that's usually how I like food, being raised on a lot of Tex-Mex and love hot peppers. But the Thai take it to a new level. I was the only white woman in our group, and half our group was of Far Eastern Asian descent so they must've assumed--or maybe with a prankster's cackle--gave me what I ordered. Thankfully, I did order rice to help with the peppers, but that wasn't enough. I drank my free water, and then ordered Singha beers to go with it. This was SO good, especially while heated up, but the spices were so much, so I ended up drinking a lot of beer when I'm not used to drinking alcohol. This left me very buzzed, maybe even more than buzzed, as we left.

So before heading home we stop at the grocery store in the same parking lot as the restaurant and my partner uses the restroom there, and while waiting I see Fancy Feast on sale, 4 for a dollar. So I grabbed 4. My partner didn't even notice until we got home (speaking of which, my tongue was still burning so we got out the ice cream), and given that I'd complained of her frivolous spending she hit the roof that I bought Fancy Feast for the tom cat across the street.

I jokingly call that Fancy Feast-Gate. Because of the drinking (and we poured some cold brandy on the ice cream), she seemed to forget about it, and the cat lady let me use her recycling bin for the cat food cans to prevent her from seeing the cans again, and kept the unused cans hidden in my own personal room. So the tom cat got to experience Fancy Feast. Don't know how it compares to live prey, but it was just a dollar.}

One day I come home to see that cat in front of my door which was very strange, and unprecedented. When I opened the door he walked right in, and I could tell by his wobble that something was wrong, and quickly figured it to be antifreeze poisoning. He was dying (btw, normally cats hide when they're dying, they don't seek out others). The next day was Thanksgiving so I had to get a vet fast. I called every single vet and offered double and even triple to see him now or he was going to die (I'd deal with the fallout of that decision later), but everyone, wanting to get off for Thanksgiving, pretended to be stupid.

I finally figured out where I went wrong: in addition to to offering a bribe for the vet, I should've offered a bribe to the one taking the calls as well ("a hundred dollars if you can get the vet to see this cat today"). But as they didn't profit, they just made sure I didn't make them stay late. If it would've been me at the desk I'd have passed it along, and at least offered sympathy rather than playing stupid if there was nothing that could be done about it. But they weren't me.

Every. single. one. I lost a lot of faith in humanity that day. Not the first or the last time, but that one stands out the most. I share it in part because I did learn something from it, I'm sure if I'd offered bribes to the one screening the calls that it would've worked out differently (though that could've led to other problems, and may have been too late as it was).

I made the cat comfortable (gave him the name Gink as he died) and he died sleeping on a blanket in a box. The cat lady had a "cat graveyard" that we buried him in.

Ah well, I'm not up for sharing other lessons learned as well as when I lost faith in humanity, though I can also share stories of bright lights in humanity that keep me from losing all hope as well. Apathy is the easy way out, though, and I've generally been a fighter of one kind or another, not giving in to apathy, however seductive it seems at times (well there were moments, but I seem to crawl out of it even when I didn't want to, I just couldn't help it).

x

What bothers me now is that the homeless are vanishing. Though I no longer volunteer, I did continue to be friends with some I worked with and talked with them a lot when I was out and about. In February a case fell through (proving once again the system is better suited to criminals than honest citizens) and the police went after the homeless to make up for lost time. I didn't think too much of it at first (other than some of what they endured was infuriating) but sometime in early March many began vanishing. I asked those I knew what happened and they didn't know either. And now they're gone as well. That really bothers me.

(What I fear is that they're locked up together trying to get them sick so they either die or become immune--especially if a lot more people are expected to become homeless in the near future for not being able to keep up the payments, and fun fact, out here anyway many eviction notices are served by the homeless as cheap, expendable labor desperate for money who get hired over Craigslist, but of course it's not enough for them to get their own place, and people wonder why so many get disenchanted with capitalism. That is if the homeless population is about to explode, then trying to get rid of some now helps the wrong people.

posted March 21, 2020 06:03 PM            

A cure for breast cancer will likely be immediately followed with a cure for all sorts of other cancers, including prostate so focusing on breast cancer isn't about holding men down (as just one example). Finding ways to end self-hatred in men and women would also end Incels (not as in crushing them out of existence, but curing them, along with so many others experiencing the variant of their own "black pill" thinking).

*Peeks out window. Nope, same world.*

Okay, they make their own reality as well. So maybe I can envision a world where I don't need all of that. You know, I think I will try envisioning a portal to a better world, might be an interesting experience. I'm sure it would take a lot of inner-work to pull off, assuming something like that could be done. I've experienced enough weirdness in my life that I do think unexplained things do happen that are quite bizarre.

And a friend of mine has made an intriguing proposal in which 3 of us drop out of society. I won't do it until a boy I'm helping to raise is fully grown, but I might then. We can generate our own energy (with surplus to sell to the power companies which would hopefully cover the property taxes), produce our own food, and hopefully rescue the third friend from her crippling alcoholic depression. We have our own personal goals as well that we'd be freed up to do. We'd drop the internet, no more pony shows or bread & circuses for us, and no more news that isn't trustworthy anymore anyway. It would be a very simple life with almost no money (though also almost no expenses), but it would probably be a more rewarding, happy life than most people with credit cards have.

posted March 22, 2020 09:00 AM            

Thanks so much for sharing,
and I agree with you...

I'm not doing well at the
moment..I've made 100's of
calls in the past week..
there is no help for the
homeless in NH..211 and all
other organizations that are
getting paid to tell me, there
is nothing they can do..
Why are tbey answering the
phone? To give false hope..
I'm angry with this State...

The homeless are disappearing..
a few people I knew disappeared
into thin air...

O' and they cured cancer with
nanotechnology and nanabots..
I know someone working in this
research...They won't tell us!
How many die from cancer a day?
We have a cure, but aren't
being told...

Fentanyl and the corona virus
is man made genocide..
Getting rid of the weak and
unproductive..
What about the minority in there
that is not weak and unproductive?

posted July 03, 2020 03:31 AM            

The year is 2020

20/20

..the truth is right there in front
of our eyes! Can you see it? Do you
choose not to see it?

It's time to see clearly. It's time
to accept a lot of things that shall
make you uncomfortable.

..and the only way to do this, is
through higher consciouness, being
and doing positive...

Use our 3 Gifts

If you want to know Truth,
it is now there for you, seek it..
Be free...

posted July 16, 2020 12:13 PM            

We are all responsible for what is
happening currently...

Every thought, every action brings
a Re-action, a consequence..

All for One, and One for All

We are all connected...

If you want change, it begins with
You, each and every person on this
Earth is responsible for what is
happening!

Stop blaming the President..
He's dealing with the fall out
of everything we've ever done!
Yikes! Right!?

We are all in this together

Do Be Good!