posted May 09, 2014 07:54 PM            

This explains an array of SUCH extra 'crappy-feeling' symptoms I've been having, and getting more worried about! Tests show that my physical-emo depletion, exhaustion, sadness, brain fuzziness, extra crappy memory, headache, etc. can be "explained".... omg, relief at hand!

(Kudos for Aries Eagle who did a series of articles on thyroid in Health & Healing forum a few months ago. He worked really hard there.)

(For astrology buffs-- I have Taurus on the 6th House cusp! (known for tendency to thyroid problems... mine was dx'd May 1984 hypo thyroid (low) during my first Saturn-Scorpio return! how about that! NOW I am having my second Saturn return, and tSaturn holds still then turns direct in my degree for the first two weeks of July 2014 when the doctor wants to re-check the levels... just interesting!)

Because I KNOW there's a "rational" explanation and evidence-based measurements with a plan I can follow, I feel so much more encouraged about this.... I can *DO* this.... There's an ACTUAL Plan I can implement.

Doc is significantly raising UP my dose, then recheck level in two months. hey.... I can definitely apply patience now, knowing there's a reason, and a "solution," and a plan to apply in order to resolve all this! yes! (thank God for Saturn's slow and steady plan..... on the rise!)

posted May 09, 2014 08:12 PM            

Haven't seen you posting around much and was a bit worried, so thanks for checking in. No big news from my part of the world except I'm doing my usual "spring cleaning" on the inside of my body, eating mostly raw food, drinking wheat grass juice...I had been getting chronic headaches, I think from a glutamate allergy. I knew I was sensitive to MSG but it quickly grew to encompass even natural glutamates like those found in seaweed. No worries, I didn't like seaweed that much anyway.

And now that I'm being more careful, the headaches are less and less. Whew!

posted May 09, 2014 08:49 PM            

Thank you for the wishes and for 'perfect music'.... as I wish these also to you!

For Us!... Here's Lookin' UP!

posted June 20, 2014 10:49 PM            

My apologies for not trying to get in touch with you during your time of crises. yOu are always in my prayers.
While i was trying to address my last post to you and was frantically searching for a prayer to post, almost about to post The Prayer to the Lady of Perpetual Health, My laptop encountered a blue screen error after which it refused to start no matter what.
It supposedly encountered a chip level problem.(could be a sign?).
Anyhow, I am most glad to hear that you are on the road to recovery. Hope to hear from you soon.
May God Bless you!

I thank Randall with alll my heart for giving a few of US, a place here in LL, to speak up and let our voices be heard.
Let all glory be unto GOD.For from him and through him and for him are all things. To him be the glory forever! Amen.

posted August 04, 2014 12:44 AM            

Been running, and surviving 'on the edges' like this for years. Waiting, perched. I'm coming into a state of feeling the 'wait' with more detachment. The anticipation that was earthly is become a shared-space in this Moment with a silent-still unspoken perspective not in-need of words. Lone deep space and a Heavenly Star (bright like the moon, not overpowering)-- No audience in view... only an invisible night, Beautiful in its own Being. I stand in witness, but it doesn't need a witness... just "there" (and quite all right).

Communing. It's perpetual, filled, silent. I realize it's been there all my life. I return to the place. It's solitary, alone and Not-Alone at all. I recognize there's an effect of-and-to this... Inner focus hard to put into words.

Moon is in Scorpio right now, a couple degrees from conjunct with t-Saturn. T-Saturn Scorpio is still in the whole-degree of my Saturn-rx (16.22') as well as natal 1923 Osiris-rx 16.56' (sensitivity, effeminate-ness, shredded, 'torn apart'). tSaturn will make contact with natal 15230 Alona-rx 17.16' (being alone, loneliness, isolation) heading out of Scorpio for another 29 years. Progressed Moon-Scorpio crossed over 11156 Al-Khawarisimi-rx 21.22' (persecution, victim of prejudice, having one's talents or worth 'as a human being' disregarded) (bQ nChiron). My P'Moon-Scorpio has been tagging with both-Saturns (transiting and natal).
Astrology! still a deep Love!

I'm saying all this to you, and I'm really fine and okay. My neighborhood has calmed down extremely. Everyone here is pulling for me. They know that I've been wanting to make important move (out of the 'hood!) and they are cooperating-- It's win-win all the ways I look at it. I'm soooo down-deeply grateful. Had to 'fight' for my peace~~ Earlier last month I'd reached my breaking point and went out there and hollered at them all~~ as kindly and as FIRMLY as I could! You know what? they 'gave' it to me, expecting I'm due to leave. They are giving me "my chance".... We have a 'cease-loud-giant-woofers' season here. My nervous system and inner-organs are not being pelted and pummeled. (heh-heh, even the refrigerator and AC unit is resting and hushed right now... ahhhhhh)

I go to get doctor reports on Wednesday, from matters that came up (earlier in this thread). (Means I'll be on the road some-more, limited LL-- but looking forward to "quality" time this weekend here finally, I hope.) Will be spending a bundle of money in a few days on new glasses, which would be ready by two weeks later.

Loving you all, while....

posted August 04, 2014 01:10 AM            

When I sprinkle ginger* on my food (almost daily), I thank God for your Life and pray that all is right with you... (Thank you for responding earlier^. I hadn't seen it.)

*Ginger ref was a comment you'd made to me in another thread. I enjoy the flavor very much. (Stomach is mending marvelously, with that 'purple-pill' med added by doctor. Hasn't felt this comfortable in years.)

posted August 04, 2014 07:15 AM            

A dedication for you...

It occurred to me that this poem very beautifully and vividly captures the moonlit path of your life and all the difficulties that it entails along the way....

Searching for that moonlit path

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she wears her heart for all to see
its full of hurt and tears
maybe one day she will hold the key
and forget these painful years

although she is hurt and broken inside
her true beauty glows
she should never regret a single mistake
because she is pure and god knows

she is as fragile as butterfly wings
as precious as a single rose
through her dreams her soul sings
but her darkness keeps her enclosed

she dreams of love and a fufilled life
a smile and a friend
she hopes this pain is worth her strife
she knows one day this will end

years from now when she grows old
she will hold her memories close
she will tell her story and it will unfold
because she knows what matters most

tonight her tears no longer fall
for she has earned her keep
her moonlit path shines bright
and she can rest in peace

~ ~

By Br0kEn WiNgS .

posted August 05, 2014 03:03 AM            

quote:

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Currently there are so many things I want to do with my life, but it dawned on me that I can only choose one path. “Does the walker choose the path, or the path the walker?” It is not we who seek the Way, but the Way which seeks us. That is why you are faithful to it.

The path you are traveling may be the more challenging one but don’t lose faith. The path of peace is not a passive journey nor a weak one.

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posted August 06, 2014 12:29 PM            

And I find Planet Heart.

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However, in reference to the thread, now that I'm here:

I regard "born again" as any type of major rebirth of the mind - way of thinking, way of feeling, way of being.

Phoenix-moments.

posted August 08, 2014 09:06 PM            

Death is nothing at all.

I have only slipped away to the next room.
I am I and you are you.
Whatever we were to each other,
That, we still are.

Call me by my old familiar name.
Speak to me in the easy way
which you always used.
Put no difference into your tone.
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow.

Laugh as we always laughed
at the little jokes we enjoyed together.
Play, smile, think of me. Pray for me.
Let my name be ever the household word
that it always was.
Let it be spoken without effect.
Without the trace of a shadow on it.

Life means all that it ever meant.
It is the same that it ever was.
There is absolute unbroken continuity.
Why should I be out of mind
because I am out of sight?

I am but waiting for you. For an interval.
Somewhere. Very near.
Just around the corner.

All is well.

Nothing is past; nothing is lost.
One brief moment and all will be
as it was before only better,
infinitely happier and forever
we will all be one together with Christ.

posted August 08, 2014 09:53 PM            

LOVES FIRE BURNS

My heart is burning with love
All can see this flame
Igniting my passion, invoking desire
But its playing with my mind

loves fire burns

Can you feel the heat of this eternal love?
Its flames are rhythmically dancing
Extreme dizziness & completely mesmerizing
Into a drunken haze, its making me insane

Loves fire burns

Silently its flicking me into rapture
Until my spirit is aroused
Into this false euphoria
& then severe intoxification
Loves fire burns
Nothingness I’ve now lost all my senses
Drunk with the ecstacy of your love
Only a hangover & memories of our love

Loves fire burns.

posted August 09, 2014 04:26 AM            

quote:

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Originally posted by Randall:
Have you tried the numerology Forum?

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Good idea!

I had noticed that your post was either 1:11 or 11:11 - one of the two, so that was what I meant.