posted April 10, 2014 03:24 AM            

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Originally posted by MsPrism:
May I ask why you avoid the Kabbalah?

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Primarily for two reasons. The first primary reason is that my magic was more rooted in creativity, learning formulas as was often the case in WMT (for simplicity sake, the kabbalah, Dion Fortune was of the WMT and I read a book of hers, I think on psychic self-defense) it didn't work for me. And my mysticism was more poetic and experimental, and having already experienced Freya I didn't consider the kabbalah particularly relevant to me, it was "another paradigm" that wasn't suited to me. Nothing wrong with it, just not my style, nor how I liked to approach things.

Yet I did get some use out of the WMT and so I began to experiment with it under the encouragement of others, and that led to my 2nd primary reason.
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On December 3, 2001, after spending a few months working with the kabbalah and further along the WMT, I had this very odd dream. I was in a city of free & fun folk but I was pushed through a doorway into another world, and found myself in a city "like Jerusalem."

I stared up into the Moon and saw Yesod and the other sephira above that. My consciousness changed and I felt "something" exploring my spirit. I asked to be returned where I'd been as I loved it there. It didn't like this question and asked me, "Why?"

I explained, using more spiritual emphatic communications as much as words, of the spirit crushing feel in this city I was now in ("Jerusalem"), the prevention of purpose, in contrast to the sheer freedom over there--and proportionally lesser risk.

A snotty amusement surrounded me and the voice told me in a past life I had killed my children and so must stay on this world. I had no memories of this, and I sensed it was lying....the same feeling I got with some hardened criminals I picked up when I was living on the streets. I pointed out the absurdity of making me into someone else to punish me for deeds I did as another person instead of being THAT person, and also where did they get their Author-ity so that it was a crime when I did it, but not when THEY did it (in this case abduction and slavery).

Then a wind and something like water rustled the shirt and panties I was wearing (for real) and I sensed it trying to find a vulnerable spot to invade my spirit. It was mildly interesting to feel my spirit touched liked that, but also scary and maddening to feel this attempted violation of my being by He/It/They. The attempted lies, domination, and violation made me mad and I stuck up my middle finger and said, "Get the **** away from me!"

Then I started to get up to go through the door myself back into that alternate world on my own power.

I sensed palpable Fear from the Kabbalistic entitities. They shoved me down and I felt cold fingers grasp around my throat slowly squeezing harder and harder. It was terrified of me, but the terror passed into me as I thought I was literally being murdered....This was so real I thought someone must be strangling me for real as I slept! ...As I struggled to move my real arm against any such attacker while forcing myself awake, my real arm moved which woke me up....and I felt pain on my throat where I had been touched. No bruises, but it felt so real!

I was angry and frightened. I got up, walked in the sun, and did many pagan protections. Then I got on-line and found an email of someone I never heard of before called DarkSun 666 that said this:

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look I Know JESUS. AND LOVE HIM AND HE LOVES YOU. AND YOU WILL LOSE
IN THE END BATTLE, HE WILL FORGIVE YOU FOR ALL YOUR SINS JUST ASK FOR FORGIVENESS.

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I told those who were trying to get me more into the kabbalah that I wasn't interested. They insisted I had "tried to go too fast" and got attacked by a dybbuk. As it turned out, I moved to another city shortly after anyway due to other circumstances, but it made an impression on me and I've avoided the kabbalah since.

posted April 10, 2014 03:39 AM            

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Originally posted by MsPrism:
I listened to the song, it gave me major chills.

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I thought I'd share the song with the Goddess chant I'll listen to today when I'm in the mood to hear it (and I love the goddess chant at the end). They're actually a more generic pagan band (with strong Wicca overtones) and not Dianic.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B2D6C2IC1U0

posted April 10, 2014 03:40 AM            

Do you think it was trying to make you stay there or make you submissive to possibly attach to you?

I'm trying to figure out what all of the creatures are that I have seen. Not really define them but to try to understand their way of existence, why they push themselves into our lives. I have known someone that wants an otherworldly being to teach him all the secrets of the world but that seems very dangerous to me. I just want to get a little more insight into that side of life.

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posted April 10, 2014 03:55 AM            

On top of that I'd generally learned to distrust the churches and monotheism, so perhaps I "subconsciously accessed" the bad part of the Tree (which includes the dark side of God/dess, or put in mundane terms includes the realms of demons as well as that of angels).

posted April 10, 2014 04:03 AM            

I'm glad you didn't surrender.

posted April 10, 2014 10:14 AM            

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Originally posted by Ellynlvx:
Yarfee!

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Isn't that the tetragrammaton? If so, then why the thumbs down? No, I guess not.

posted April 11, 2014 04:35 AM            

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Originally posted by PixieJane:
Isn't that the tetragrammaton? If so, then why the thumbs down? No, I guess not.

Maybe it's just because I still haven't had breakfast yet but whatever you're trying to express isn't making sense to me.

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First I put the thumbs down, because your experience sucked.

Then I came back with the Name.

Good Gravy; PixieJane, you must eat and sleep words, cause you're always late for both!

Here is a Visual:

posted April 11, 2014 07:16 PM            

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Originally posted by Ellynlvx:
Good Gravy; PixieJane, you must eat and sleep words, cause you're always late for both!

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My last post above, where I said I hadn't had breakfast yet, was at 7:14 AM. THIS post is at 4:16 PM. Different timezones and all.

posted May 07, 2014 01:00 AM            

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We Are the Night (German: Wir sind die Nacht)

is a 2010 German vampire horror film directed by Dennis Gansel, starring Karoline Herfurth and Nina Hoss. The film deals with a young woman who gets bitten by a female vampire and drawn into her world. She falls in love with a young police officer who investigates a murder case involving the vampires.

The film explores themes of depression, self-harm, the consequences of immortality, suicide, and explores Valerie Solanas' idea of an all-female society.

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posted June 01, 2014 01:23 PM            

If you go to Genesis, and you look at the seven day creation series, you will see the Word used for Spirit.

If you are familiar with Hebrew, you will find that that Word is both Male and Female Conjoined.

posted June 01, 2014 07:12 PM            

Let "Us" create.

If you prefer to create only with a man, that is your decision.

Certainly not mine.