posted June 15, 2010 10:08 AM            

Make up your @$@#$#@#$% mind! I am sick and tired of your outlandish ideas!

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[I will call and see what they'll] offer me for you at the zoo! You need a shrink; your head is screwed on backward!"

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posted June 15, 2010 02:12 PM            

I wonder if it's just a kind of 'thinking out loud thing'?

Really, AG, I assume they stayed together? I mean for the simple fact that most of our grandparents didn't divorce, per the times.

posted June 15, 2010 03:38 PM            

My grandpa was the Sag. Always had a joke. Always ready to sing.

My grandma is the Pisces. She was firey. A lot of spunk, and god help you if you played your cards wrong. Literal cards. She'd shame you into playing well.

posted June 17, 2010 12:14 PM            

I had a weird childhood

posted June 17, 2010 12:19 PM            

I think if I wasn't working so much and had alot more time on my hands to stew, I would be more riled up about it than I am.

We had a good IM conversation the other night. He told me he was really scared to love somebody again, and he knows that if he saw me, he wouldn't want to let me go.

That sounds about right with his actions.
He pulls away then comes back.
Each time he comes back it's with more fire then the last time.

I guess it's something he has to come to in his own time, and I'm not really pressing the issue. To be honest, I don't really have alot of time to put into it, and having this LDR kind of suits me right now.

posted June 30, 2010 02:01 AM            

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I just keep repeating to myself that every single person has had a multitude of experiences which make them act the way they do, and none of those experience have anything to do with me.

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Huh? I'm like - "Hate every motherf#@ that's in your way" (Marilyn Manson's lyrics, my life's motto).

posted June 30, 2010 03:53 AM            

I love hearing about other cultures and their rituals though. Hmmm, I'm gonna have to reread that and try to get a mental picture.

*No worries, I just rattle these things off, I'm not looking to be morbid or find consolation either, I think of death differently then most people, but sometimes I have to wonder if I'm a magnet for it.!

On the 'mean girls', well, the one got fired and I got her hours, so that's what you get when you act like a trifling b*tch and run yer mouth.
The other one and I had a great talk, and cleared up alot of past misconceptions.
She is quitting in the not so distant future, she just got married last weekend.

I just found out, a bit of trivia here, that out of 6 bartenders at work, all female, 4 of us are Saggies, and so is our DJ. No wonder I feel comfie there.
Even the girl that got married is one, which is probably why we were able to iron things out so easily, I said my truth, she said hers, and we moved on. Gotta love that!

Oh, and I wasn't dissing Mars Scorps. Actually I was dissing a Mars virgo, sco sun, moon and venus sag. In other words, I was dissing my ex.
I think you might be the only person I know with a sco mars.
I have to check my son though, I think he has libra mars like myself...

Anyway, I understand what your saying, and I used to be QUITE the mean girl back in the day. A scorp merc can make you come across very cutting and sharp.
I learned with that combined with the sag foot in mouth thing, it really hurt people that I had no intentions of hurting most of the time.
If I had intentions of it, there was no confusion.
My modus operandi was let you get all your bitching out, and then I would open my mouth and verbally vomit back on you ALL your faults, which I probably assertained upon the first meeting.
That's some toxic sh it right there, and I changed all that business in my 30's.

Every now and then I lose my temper, but I have to be really careful, because I have a terrible tendancy to get violent, and I hate that aspect of myself as it accomplishes NOTHING, except for broken stuff that I have to clean up, and/or some kind of scuffle that might get me arrested.
So see.. that's why I choose this niceness thing.

You know my Saturn is in Pisces, and I think one of my great lessons in this life is to stop fighting EVERYTHING, and learn to go with the flow.
Whatever is going to happen will happen anyway, and me trying to control it only gives me headaches, and keeps me up at night.

I've been much happier since I've been doing this.

As far as the Pisces, well, he has his issues.
I have mine.
Nobody is perfect, so I guess we'll see what happens.

I'll dig you up a new Guppy pic from photobucket. I put one on FB the other day.
Are you still off FB??

posted June 30, 2010 07:27 PM            

Is this your summer recess now?
What have you been doing, just chilling at home? What is Korean night life like?
Do you find Korean men attractive
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I love structured conversations because I have so much to say usually that I don't know where to start or I just don't start at all! (Mercury in Sag ...)
So, first, in reply to your reply regarding being mean to the mean ... aaaaah, I see, OK in that case you can be nice. Actually maybe I was talking to myself because (and I know this is almost impossible to believe) actually I'm rather shy and accomodating. So I went through the opposite of finally in my 30's deciding, no way am I putting up with people taking advantage of me no more! OK so I guess I'll have to become the mean granny then. Can you be a granny without any children of your own? Because I don't think I'm gonna hear the pitter patter of tiny feet in this incarnation ... I have lots of imaginary babies .... well actually they're real ... the seem to be stuffed toys but actually they are my offspring! Anyway ... the point is, I think I CAN be a mean granny. That would suit me fine. I'll start working on it right away.
As for death ... I'm also usually seeing someone's death differently from others .. I'm like, OK well he or she is at least in a happier place now and they've finished their job down here so cool ... The only person I would be devestated by if they should die is my mom but maybe that's because she totally organizes my life for me and as long as she's alive I won't have to grow up. But my family has a history of extreme longevity so I'm not worried about that any time soon.
Anyways, now to your questions:
I'm sometimes on FB to play poker. I was up to 20 million last year and I want my chips back! I was depressed last year because I tried to contact "the" guy and he was like "get out of my life" and so I gambled away all my hard-earned chips in a fit of despair. So, when I can't stand my rural little Walt Disney world no more I go and play some hard core poker ... ha ha ha ... Would you like to add me as friend on FB? If so I'll give you my name and then we can be FB friends too.
Summer recess.... no. Sadly no. Still full steam ahead. I don't think there's a word for recess in Korean. Here you just work and your hobby is work and when you have free time you work and then after you've worked you work some more. Savages !!
What have I been doing? Just chilling at home. Nope, I've been living Groundhog Day ... Every day I get up at five, try to convince myself to work out, work out sometimes, talk to my mom on the phone, smoke as much as I can before going to school, take a shower, walk to the bus stop, get on the bus, arrive at school at 7:10, madly prep classes for the day, then the insane ones (the students) arrive and we have a lovely little war where they try their best not to learn anything at all and I try my best to instill some semblance of normal behaviour into them
(example .....
Me: OK today we're gonna ...
Them: Game Game Game Game Game (louder and louder)
Me: No actually we have to
Them: At the top of their lungs: Game Game Game Game Game
Me: At the top of my lungs: BEEEEEEEE QUUUIIEEEETT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Momentary silence.
Them: GAME GAME GAME GAME
Me: No! Today we'll learn how to describe people.
Them: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
Me: Sit down and be quiet or I will kill you!!!!!)
OK then I have a school lunch, and do the same thing in the afternoon ... I mean I pretend to teach and the students attempt suicide by provoking me to the point of total bloodshed. (You see I don't hit them and so I have to use psychological warfare ... very difficult, seriously ...)
Then I walk home ... it takes me 50 minutes ... I go past cows and rice paddies and then run into all my old students from last year's school who crowd around me like a fan club. I get home at 5:30, desperately smoke, phone my mom, rant about our days, and then I fall asleep right away ... Like at about seven. Repeat.
Korean night life: I do not participate on account of being all sober and celibate and so on, but from accounts I've heard that it's VERY alcoholic. There are no drugs in Korea but alcoholism is the national Noddy Badge Activity.
Do I find Korean men attractive ... Korean pop stars are devestatingly sexy ... male and female ... they're so sexy someone should lock them up ... Men over the age of forty are not hunky however. But everyone in Korea up to age forty is like scarily beautiful.
My Korean crush is a 21 year old popstar names G-Dragon. I know I know. I'm a cougar. I caint help myself! : D http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/G-Dragon

posted July 01, 2010 06:38 PM            

Yes, your life sounds quite like the movie Groundhog Day. I would imagine that to be very hard for a Sag sun, but maybe that is what you need, you mentioned non drinking and celebicy. I know I spelled that wrong, you can tell I've never done it! Anyway, what I mean is that doing the same thing over and over, is well, less surprising and therefore possibly no triggers to make one act out? Hmm, just a theory.

I DON'T KNOW HOW YOU DO IT <---- The teaching. Although, you have my utmost respect.
I had a short notion once to be an Art teacher, as my art teacher in high school was a huge influence on my life, and then I vividly remembered

adolescent boys forming penis' out of clay,
and
the bad boys, you know them, huffing paint thinner in the corner, and all kinds of throwing of charcoal and whatnot.
She had it rough, I didn't want that.
Maybe a college art teacher, though, I have no patience to get a Masters, and here in Ohio the art and english teaching positions are coveted.. long wait.

I was down at my old college not so long ago, and they STILL had this huge billboard sign up, saying something like..

Ohio is in desperate need of Math and Science instructors for all grades.
The state of Ohio will pay for your education if you will agree to become a math or science instructor.
Please see your councelor.

posted July 03, 2010 05:32 AM            

I am working tomorrow, the 3rd. usually I work every sunday as well, but the bosses decided to close on sunday, becos usually if the 4th falls on a sunday, the bars are very dead, too many people out grilling and so forth... I'm glad for that!! I'm sick right now..
It's my third day on antibiotics.
I haven't been sick like this since winter, so it's kind of p*ssing me off.

Anyway, on saturdays I work from 6pm to around 3:30/4:00 am, and then I have to turn around and be back to open by 9:30 a.m. So when you consider shower, breakfast, and travel time, I am basically getting no sleep on the weekends.. WHICH
is probably the reason I'm sick!

Aren't you glad you asked!

As for what I am doing..
I have houseguests right now, ugggg, not my idea.
Anyway, I bought a bottle of rum, and they bought a bottle of Jack Daniels, and I think we'll pack a lunch and go sit by the river and try to pretend this isn't awkward and that we are having a great time!
LOL!!
And then I'll be relieved as hell to get back to work Monday!
C'est La Vie!!

posted July 03, 2010 09:36 AM            

Don't give me any bull that you are not ready to erase that cr*p.

Just do it and feel better.

posted July 03, 2010 12:43 PM            

So your ex is a sun scorpio. It's hard to get over someone, some people just get to you...
And scorpio men can be intense. Like you've got burnt or something.
If you're sure this relationship is really over you must try to forget about him.
I guess time is your only friend here. And if this is your first 4th of july without him, it's not strange that you think about him. Just don't think to long about him.

Do you have any children from your ex-scorpio or are they all from you ex cap?

posted July 04, 2010 12:39 PM            

That's very freaky and a bith clairvoyant.

Just made myself a nice spaghetti bolognese...