posted February 17, 2021 01:02 PM            

Your last posts/videos made me get this idea, not sure though....

I put that black smiley there and I meant it.
I wanted to laugh together with you and create a loving athmosphere,
including our 'superpowers' 🐞🍀
That's by the way what I always wanted here,
since I made my first step into this forum.

posted February 17, 2021 07:17 PM            

I often imagine (happens by itself) hilarious situations very visually, like a comedy in my head and they also feel almost real emotionally.
(you said you were the class clown in school...?)
So the middle finger was part of a scene, in which you stuck it out, as a sign of being kinda naughty with a big grin, ready to jump in that dumpster with flying dreadlocks and diiiiig hard...😎🧟
...then hurting that finger because digging so gready...
(it's funnier in my visualisation ofcourse).

But your scene with you as accidental dumpster-diver was even better. 😁

Not sure what you were referring to about the false equivalencies.
That was always something that bothered me, when trying to discover the objectively best solution for or truth about something, together with others.

Some making only half valid statements and generalisations,
twisting my arguments, comparisions and examples around or filtering the uncomfortable part out..., jumping to conviniant conclusions...or just not listening, wanting to stick with their oppinion, which served their egos and selfish needs better.
Being not compassionate and couragous enough to face their real inner truth...
(just talking in general about the subject you brought up, no offense intended at all).
So 'secret sauce equals apocalyps' - that's what I'm talking about my whole life.
Although we don't have that saying.

But you are still not always very direct, when you are doubting about or not liking something..., why ? (no offense intended at all, you said you were happy about self awareness through others...).
Maybe this could help : 😉

https://www.heatsupply.nl/en/product/torchbearer-zombie-apocalypse-hot-sauce/

I am not at all sure, if I should even talk about all this here.
Maybe it's not the right place and time,
not sure...
But something in me wants to say this here, and something just wants to wave friendly and say good bye, and wait patiently and with love for a few incarnations
(really no offense intended again, in the contrary).

posted February 20, 2021 09:55 AM            

Hello Chanterelle,
I was just trying to do, what you expressed before, to want or not want.
Trying to be friendly.
Maybe you forgot what you had expressed,
and interpreted some things differently than I meant them.

But there are still a few things from before, that need some explanation.
I chose to believe you, that you didn't intend to be mean,
but I had explained in details what happened,
and neigther you or anybody else involved was asking or explaining anything about it,
except one little part (by you), which was easy to explain.
This was and still is (also in its consequences) not a minor little scratch
somewhere in the surface of a fassade of a store with windows full of plastic-mannequins.

This would have been a very easy matter to solve, if some people here have had some courage and compassion.
I asked for and offered open communication over and over again,
making it easy by expressing, that it was all just human...(might be too much Sag-optimism/generous view).

I know it's not absolutely easy and pleasant,
but not that difficult eigther,
and it is my right to demand it.

I fullfilled my task here now,
I will not say more, before somebody reacts,
the rest is your choice, all my beloved friends from eternity.

posted December 26, 2021 10:01 AM            

I deleted something here and in your thread and left a message there, please read.

Merry Christmas...

posted January 10, 2022 08:30 PM            

But today, when I was thinking about what had happened, I started to feel strong disbelief and disgust (felt it the last days already, but not that intense yet) about the unreal, unbelievable lack of morals and humanity in the behaviour of some, and indifference and coldness apparently in this whole forum.
No communication whatsoever about my specific accusations, refusal to even let me ask my few simple questions, only distractions, denial, distortions, lies or silence, yet some new occurances...