posted September 25, 2021 08:50 AM            

Thoughts of why do I put up with the BS I do at my job, when I could just quit and travel around with husband? Why do I want to wait 2 years to do it when I could do it next year? Why don’t I just rage quit now?

posted November 12, 2021 10:07 PM            

But Neptune is dreams and its backwards. I see this playing out in my life.

Neptune goes direct on December 1st. That makes sense. I'll be quite refreshed from visiting husband.

posted December 11, 2021 09:17 PM            

I can't believe how much life has thrown at me since towards the end of summer. I feel like life is still throwing **** my way, but still different. I'm not saying I am feeling great either.

I also realize I don't feel a difference with Pluto now being 25 degrees my Sun is 22.23 degrees. And Pluto is 25.20 degrees. I know how ridiculous that sounds but it crazy that I feel a real difference once it's past the decimal point too.

posted December 28, 2021 10:17 AM            

Hopefully I’ve developed better coping mechanisms since then. I hope so and think so.

posted January 21, 2022 11:15 AM            

Chiron will square my Jupiter for a few more days. It's been squaring my Jupiter since at least 2018. Can't I just have my own place with out any issues?! It's been real intense for me since August 2020. I am insanely fed up. Even though I know I'm almost done. I do this thing where I still have to have a break down. Because I'm impatient and still going though it, and it's taking a toll on me.

The only thing is that when it is done squaring my Jupiter, it will start squaring my Neptune. I do not like Neptune square transits. Neptune square transits are actual real life nightmares.

But it is sextile to my rising. It will also start sextiling n. node soon. So while I have this **** luck...people feel compelled to support me, so that kind of makes up for it.

posted October 06, 2022 02:18 PM            

Today
Saturn rx Aquarius is 18.49
Uranus rx Taurus 18.12

Even being over the hump, I feel tortured.

posted November 19, 2022 02:02 PM            

Saturn is transitioning to a more positive place in my chart. But still squaring my dark feminine energy of Moon(18.56) Pluto(17.04) Lilith(17.46) Scorpio house 6. My physical, mental, emotional health is in hell.

Saturn is opposing my 16.03 Leo IC and Aquarius MC. I am so deeply hurt. My family has been mixed with support and hurting me and cutting me deep. My reputation and my public image is a lie. And I want to change that, no matter what anyone thinks. A fraction of why I am leaving my husband is that he does not support my interests, and my career goals. He even lied about supporting my career, and told me he actually never supported my career goals. He would not admit it until after we got married. It was so obvious. I confronted him so many times. He confessed that he lied because he knew I would not be with him if he told the truth. Any big even that I put together for family or other...he would make rude comments to me on my big day or a big day for someone else. I can't take being put down any more.

Saturn is still opposing my S. node Leo. I don't know how to interpret this one. Oh wait...I have to go back to my roots and find myself again. Relying on my family for support. Being the center of attention in a messed up way. My sibling has been supportive but has also been unsupportive and has really hurt my feelings. Saturn conjunct NN Aquarius house 9. I need to change my destiny. And TRAVEL 11 hours back home away from the life I built with my husband.

posted November 20, 2022 03:20 AM            

I am so over the Scorpio stuff.

Edit: It looks like I'll be sleeping when Libra moon squares my Saturn. Or maybe not with this migraine. With Pluto also conjunct my Saturn moon square Saturn transit hits really hard.

posted November 20, 2022 11:09 PM            

My Aries Sun is in the 11th house. I use to feel socially isolated in the peak of it because I was teaching, taking my work home, and working on my bachelors online. And a friend kind of became a stalker emotional vampire.

I am eager for this to keep moving. Come on faster! faster! Uranus is not going to be nice in my chart until it's at 28 degrees. It's backtracking 16 degrees right now.