posted January 04, 2010 09:06 AM         

Im unsettled, i go overseas every year and spend half my year there and come back for 6 months to make money only to leave again, yet im after a stable home. I cant seem to do it even when i set it up and enjoy it, not long later i get bored wanting more out of that home. I want to add to it by putting a husband in that HOME i built and then i want to put babies in there and i want to put friends in there and i want to put family in there.

IM A MESS

I am somehow the luckiest person i know. I can make anything i want happen. But not when other peoples wills are involved.

I grew up with a mum on drugs and who spent $250,000.00 on poker machines in 2 days.

My father on the other hand is a very successful business man who makes thousands but i dont see any of his money because he wants me to learn to be independant and not be a girl who lives off her husband and is a housewife. Saturn is my dad whos harsh on me. Moon is my weak mother opposed by neptune.

I experimented with drugs when i was 13 and grew out of it by 14. I dont smoke and i didnt even drink wine till maybe 3 months ago.

Venus at 29 degrees at a critical degree ruins my nice sextile aspects and trines to it. WHERES THE LOVE OF MY LIFE???

1st marriage ruler is on IC married for stability and home life.

2nd marriage ruler is in 9th married overseas

3rd marriage is in 3rd ill probably meet him through relatives.

Noone fights for freedom as much as i do in this life. I love my cat I dont know if that shows but she is the most important thing in my life. shes my motivation my drive, my goals, my heart, my everything!

Other than that im very average. I have lots of friends and i spend my time with them all the time.

posted January 05, 2010 06:19 AM         

Threesome sounds good to me. Poor melanie she would kill herself!

All last night i read about this 29th degree stuff and apparently it means your kind of stuck between 2 signs, and it doesnt make it that great. I guess antonio has it made because his wife loves him to death, it doesnt seem to show any issues regarding love with him.

However mine is in the 12th house!

posted January 05, 2010 06:22 AM         

This is an article by celeste teal...

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Highly respected astrologer Ivy Jacobson says that, "Any planet or angle in the same degree as the Nodes points to a catastrophe, casualty, fatality or tragedy in a horary or natal chart, the more far-reaching when a malefic is involved." In The Way of Astrology, she further notes that during the year that a progressed angle lines up with a natal or progressed node, there will be some tragedy in the life. I have likewise found this to be quite a reliable prediction tool, however in my experience the term “tragic” is something of an overstatement unless there is substantial back up from other indicators that also points to a tragedy. More commonly, the unpleasant experiences in the life during these years are along the lines of accidents, health problems or surgeries, loosing a job, bad credit, divorce and various “catastrophes” and regrettable situations that often occur as a result of previous poor judgment

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posted January 05, 2010 06:29 AM         

We have that NN/Moon cnj in common & I agree 100%.

Bringer of pain I like to call it.

posted January 05, 2010 06:31 AM         

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I don't understand why men aren't falling at your feet

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They all want one thing!! And quite frankly id rather fu** myself than give the time of day ever again.

I realised after we broke up that i missed having sex with him, NOTHING ELSE!

Makes you wonder whether love really exists or is it just attraction which makes you go back for more. It's like a drug..

Its been 6 weeks now and he msgs me but I wont even go back to have a casual night with him. Ive never held a grudge like this one before in my life.

I know its the end and im very excited about a new beginning but yet im hesitant to step out into the real world without knowing he will be there to guide me. I have to take my training wheels off and learn to be more grounded and stable without his help.

posted January 05, 2010 06:36 AM         

You now have a lot of wisdom in regards to what needs changing in your life. Have some faith in yourself because great things await.

You can do it.

posted January 05, 2010 06:42 AM         

When a planet conjuncts the MC or AC it becomes very important.

Since i was 15 I have been travelling backwards and forwards going overseas, trying to live there, start a new life blah blah. I live 6 months there and then 6 months in Australia. Im over this gemini moon. Its tiring me!

I hate travelling now but yet i still do it every time i get angry i go buy a ticket overseas somewhere.. I think moon conjunct the node in 9th is contributing to my emotional rollercoaster.

Spanky,

Every female in my life other than my girlfriends are psychotic, and the queen of psychos is my mum.

posted January 05, 2010 06:45 AM         

I didnt get approved for the house

posted January 05, 2010 07:00 AM         

I know how much you wanted it.

All I can say is you are very aware of yourself & your impulses/reactions & I think you can fight those urges now.

Problems always follow us no matter where we try to hide & Lord knows I have run far.

posted January 05, 2010 07:03 AM         

Change is as good as a holiday.

posted January 05, 2010 07:12 AM         

His AC and saturn is exactly conjunct my sun and mercury in cancer. All his Sag planets are conjunct my south node and opposite my moon.

posted January 05, 2010 07:20 AM         

I just had a thought, why not try professional house sitting. Some old friends of mine do it & they have stayed in some beautiful places.

posted January 05, 2010 07:38 AM         

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Im unsettled, i go overseas every year

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i figured maybe im not meant to live here.

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