posted September 29, 2010 09:33 AM            

I will repeat what I said, Wink.

You have a packed 9th house so 9th house issues such as religion/spirituality are important to you, crucial , really.

You HAVE to make sense of the whys and wherefores of life. You have a passion to know why you are here on earth and the purpose for your existence.

You have Sun conjunct Pluto. You are a very Plutonian person.
You are so closely allied with Pluto that you have to be careful that you go too deeply ,sometimes, under the surface of things to try to figure them out and get stuck there.
(I do not see this in you, is it true?You don't FEEL that Plutonian , to me.)

Sun conjunct Pluto makes you very insightful. You just know deep things with a keen insight.
You can be healing to other people cuz they can come to you as a counselor.

You have Mars conjunct Mercury . You are very insightful, brilliant in your ability to ***** the bottom line of situations.

You speak in a direct, forthright,blunt way. *I* love that ,in people.
You know where you stand. You know there IS a person there.
*I* love directness and bluntness. Some people don't and those people could become combative with you.

You can defend yourself very well. You are a natural debater.

posted September 29, 2010 09:53 AM            

I will just leave all of them.

Wink, I want to ask you some questions to determine which house is which parent.

You have Aries on the 4th house cusp and Chiron there.
This indicates pain in the home life. I think the 4th house is usually the mother but Sasportas says it can be either.
Was your home life combative, warlike, had fighting and contention?
Aries on the cusp could indicate that.
Does that seem right?
Did you feel like you were in the middle of a war lol?
I don't know how to do dispositors ,yet. That is my next step.
Mars is in the 9th ,as I said. I am not sure HOW to draw the conclusions ,here,but I know that Mars placement means something.

Perhaps, your home was strong in religious things or perhaps YOU had to find a meaning for your life cuz you needed to make sense of it.
Tell me what you think?

So, if the 4th is the mother, the 10th house would be the father.
You have Uranus there? Did you have a shake-up in your life with your father?
Was he absent? Was there a divorce?

The 10th house is career and society, too.

Is your career in flux? Do you feel up and down with it?

posted September 29, 2010 09:58 AM            

Do you feel strong fire or not? Do you have drive ,passion, boldness available for you to use?

Since the ASC is not a planet, I would be curious what you think about that?

A Sag ASC makes you like sports and be a sporty type of person.

Usually Sag ASC are graceful. I think of Princess Diana. She embodies the Sag ASC, to me.
If you see any of her pictures when she is doing ballet, she is beautiful in her grace and poise.

You have Neptune in the 12th. I do ,too.
I like this placement even though IQ said it can lead to depression lol

It gives you a window in to the other dimension.
You can develop psychic powers more easily .
The other dimension does not seem as scary as it might --if you did not have this placement.

I will be back later to look some more.

I am gonna meditate on your moon. I think it is a crucial thing, for you.

I wish I understood dispositors,better, but I am gonna take s stab at them.
If I am wrong, someone can correct me, lol

posted September 29, 2010 03:00 PM            

So YES I have always said that I'm very much like a detective. In a previous job I was called a Lockbox clerk where I researched checks they received where they didn't know where to post and to find the correct account. I LOVED this job and was very good at it. A job I would also love would be a forensic detective. No kidding, I actually looked into it at one time.

And YES I do hate superficial things! Especially superficial people. I don't have a lot of friends because I can't pretend to like people. I am very uncomfortable around people who I can just feel from their energy that they are fake. If I don't like you, I don't want to be around you and I won't pretend. It bugs the he11 out of me how people put on a fake smile then turn around when you're gone and talk smack about you...oooo! lol.

As for being blunt... I have a habit of speaking before I think first. But for the most part, I say what I think. May not be at the right moment or it may come out wrong...but I won't mince words. I have a policy where if I don't have something nice to say I won't say it...unless you step on my toes and squeeze it out lol.

I do defend my viewpoint, which I try not to push on people. Sometimes I see myself doing this and realize that I'm being pushy.

As for having to know the why's of it all...YES. When I was little I was the only one in my family who went to church. I had a bus come get me and drop me off. But having ADD, I couldn't focus on the bible. I wanted to know what it was all about but nobody EVER took the time to tell me...as much as I asked for it. So eventually I took this as a sign that maybe I wasn't meant to learn about the bible. Then one day I found Lindaland and my whole world changed... my thirst for knowledge is quenched...true dat!

posted September 29, 2010 03:35 PM            

And you were spot on with my father. Yes, there was a shake up. He was sexually abusive to my sister and I up till I was 9. Then my mom divorced him and remarried when I was 10. My father has been in jail since then, so for the past 30 years or so and he will probably die there as I heard his diabetes is getting worse and he's going blind. I haven't seen him in around 20 years.

I feel the Sag ASC strongly. Just from what I've read of Sag's I relate quite a bit. Not very sporty but if I was a smaller girl I probably would enjoy it more.

As for Neptune in the 12th.. I have battled with depression ever since I was pregnant with my twins. I had the "baby blues" very bad...but that's another story.

Moon? Bring it on lol.
Thank you for your time Ami it really means a lot to me. Very giving of you to share your talents

posted September 29, 2010 04:51 PM            

I am gonna leave the moon for later cuz I have a feeling there is a lot there. I want to think about it, quietly, and look up some things.
I loved to hear your feedback.
Keep it coming.

I will ask you questions as I go on.

I am surprised you are so Plutonian cuz I do not pick it up ,here.
I wonder why.
I wonder if the Virgo softens it.
Mblake is a Scorpio Sun and Virgo moon.
Virgo/Scorpio is an unlikely mix.

What do you think about how your Virgo Sun mixes with Pluto?

posted September 29, 2010 05:20 PM            

You have Neptune in the 12th so it is a good place for Neptune. The aspects to it are important cuz hard aspects to Neptune are very difficult
The Saturn/Neptune opposition is 6 degrees so not that close but perhaps you feel it.

This aspect seems like it is the about trying to find a way to deal with life's restrictions/hardships(Saturn) .
Neptune dilutes,according to one website.

So, Neptune is "pulling apart " your desire to find structure in your life.

You have expressed this in posts. You are trying to move out of your parents house.

You feel overwhelmed,if I am right, with what that entails.
Believe me ,*I* am not judging. Anyone who knows me,even on here, will know that

I have issues, Girlfriend.

Neptune in hard aspect to things is difficult cuz it blurs, distorts and makes it hard to grasp what it touches like mercury which balls up when you try to pick it up.

You have Neptune sextile the sun(1 degree). I have Neptune trine the Sun. This is a blessing cuz it gives you a door in to the next dimension whether it be with creative things or intuition.

posted September 29, 2010 05:46 PM            

Saturn is in the 5th house. This can out cold water on creativity, fun, that free spirit of play that the 5th house can bring.
You have some a really good Saturn aspect--- Saturn trine Pluto (5 degrees).
You have Saturn oppose Neptune which I wrote about.
Your other Saturn aspects are wider than most people on here accept so I did not mention them.

posted September 29, 2010 05:48 PM            

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So, Neptune is "pulling apart " your desire to find structure in your life

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Oh so that's in my chart? LOL

And yes, music is and always has been a huge part of my life. I played the trumpet and baritone horn. I was in marching band, wind ensemble, honor band, girls choir, varsity choir and honor choir and as involved as humanly possible lol.

Really I think a lot of people on LL get taken advantage of with their various gifts (raises hand)..I'm one of them, I'll admit.
But just so you know how very much I appreciate it. I'm sure it takes a lot of your time and energy. I've had a lot of bad events in my life so when I'm in a rut like now, I wonder if there's ever a light at the end of the tunnel... My sister is the huge success out of the two of us so it kind of hurts when my mom rants about how wonderful she is then turns around and points out my life failures.

posted September 29, 2010 06:26 PM            

Appreciation makes someone feel so good, Wink.
It has really uplifted me to share with you and feel that it matters to you

As far as Neptune oppose Saturn. Saturn is earth bound energy, bills, taxes, cleaning up your house, organizing etc.

Neptune dissolves, blurs, dilutes.

So, Neptune would dilute the impetus to be Saturn like in the world.
Hence,it would be harder to get up and take the earth bound responsibilities.

posted September 29, 2010 06:57 PM            

It is Pluto trine Saturn. This gives great resiliency and strength of character. The person can get on a path and stay on.
They have a focused mind,too.

They like to delve in to things with a profound depth.
You should have been a detective ,Wink lol

posted September 29, 2010 07:00 PM            

Thank you. I am sorry you went through that
I just read it. You did a good thing by writing about it, Wink.

You know what struck me, Wink, was how much you still cared for him even as you were becoming aware that he was not what he seemed.
That was poignant. I can see myself doing something like that, too, still loving someone despite the obvious evidence to the contrary.
I wonder if our backgrounds predispose us to that.

Do you have a picture of him, Wink?
It was no longer there.