posted May 22, 2014 02:25 PM
It's become a tragic and all-too-common refrain: boy meets girl, they fall in crazy, spellbinding love. Phenomenal things start happening. But before the ink in 'happily ever after' dries, the foundation of the faerie-tale castle has become shaky; Prince Charming or Mr Right suddenly becomes Mr Wrong, and you don't know how this beautiful love story became a psychological thriller. It was PERFECT.
... Right?
So, you follow your healing regimen of choice and, miraculously, piece yourself back together - at least enough to be functional.
Then it happens. JUST when you least expected it.
Your head spins.
But THAT was Mr Right - even if he became Mr Estranged or The Great Loss of Your Life.
But this one's different somehow. You've had dreams of him, too. He feels familiar. You're cut from the same cloth.
Moreover, he loves you. No games. Things are civil rather than crazy. Drama is addressed from a place of genuine caring and sympathy. Nobody throws dishes or has to call the police.
It's a quieter kind of love. But no less deep. No less powerful. No less passionate.
Immediately, you start recharacterising things. THIS is the right one, you say. HE is The One. THIS is IT.
Well intentioned friends point out certain inconsistencies; you're starting to seem fickle. Or maybe just in denial.
You insist you were wrong.
... But were you?
Once things have settled a little, you reexamine the situation with a cool head. Now you can at least view the photos of him. You can re-read the emails you exchanged. You can review your love through a cleaner lens for a better understanding.
Now that the emotions have waned, and you've fallen in love anew (something, by the way, you could never have fathomed possible after him), you have to face a very hard, inconvenient truth.
It was all true. You probably weren't wrong.
You feel anxious. Confused. You're desperate for answers and seek any and all remotely related to the subject.
And, oh, the Internet isn't hurting for them. Upon that further review, you can't help but realise that everything you initially knew to be points to one thing:
You're Twin Flames.
This isn't good. This isn't what you wanted to hear. He's gone; you're over. Done. Out of each other's lives. You moved on - and it was HARD.
But this man ... not only does he love you the way you SHOULD be loved, you're two peas in a pod. Your similarities can't be discounted. Your lives have a sense of mimicry; you can feel him near. He's in your dreams. You're sure you've had recalls of previous incarnations. He's more spiritually evolved than your ex, too.
THIS, you tell yourself in no uncertain terms, is what a Twin Flame SHOULD BE!
And you're not wrong.
But you also have to decide: which one is it? Perhaps, neither?
That was me in 2010. I met him one month prior to the first time I'd ever physically lay eyes upon my Twin Flame. While having suspected for a few years that my Twin was, in fact, my Twin, I was in shambles, nursing myself back to sanity, accepting the reality of what would never be.
That's when I met him.
I'd also recently become engaged; to a man whom I love deeply, but whose beliefs had begun to run counter to mine. Since my Twin set me upon a winding path to Awakening, I was slowly, hesitantly returning to the metaphysical background on which I was raised. My husband, on the other hand, is an atheist with an interest in philosophy; a scientist like my Twin, but, unlike my Twin, no patience for or acceptance of a metaphysical reality.
Troubling.
Meeting this man put me front and centre on the path to reintegrating my initial spiritual background. His casual and easy acceptance of intangible realities felt like sliding into a warm rosewater bath; as sensually tempting as it was familiar. A sort of comfort I'd denied myself for many years, preferring the hard facts and cold portrait of the universe as presented by conventional science.
I don't regret becoming a scientist myself. But I could no longer deny the sense that I was missing something in my life. Something very important and crucial to my destiny. (Something besides my Twin, of course. But at this point, I'd denied anything regarding him completely.)
(I also turned away from astrology, despite my early exposure and precocious grasp of it. It doesn't fit with the picture of the scientist or the debunker's lifestyle.)
Now, how did this man assist with my return to the foundations I once had? And, more importantly, if not my Twin Flame, what did that make him?
The question obsessed me; I did all of the research I could. Fitting, though, the answer was right there in front of me - care of my Twin. (Well, the term was.)
It made him my Guardian.
... The air just got a little more still, didn't it? Like some great pronouncement. Something of potency and worth. No laughing matter. No simple thing.
Not the sort of thing about which you can just be wrong. You know it - but you may not know you do. Not yet.
For starters, the way I realised it was a complex tracking of events occurring in my life.
Imagine going through a photo album and noticing the same person appearing over and over.
It's rather like that.
The means which he and I have had to connect, what I coined as Fate Points, for my own simplicity (or perhaps mild amusement) are numerous. We could have met and become acquainted in several locations, in many ways, across decades.
His soul also appeared to me in the form of a multidimensional entity which, like many things, inspired a story. I was barely twenty then.
You might say his astral fingerprint is upon more pages of my life than not.
I just didn't know it. Yet.
So, how DO I know which is my Twin Flame and which is my Guardian? Or if either are at all?
I can attest the Twin Flame Connexion is a unique, completely distinctive experience which fails basic articulation. It goes beyond logic, sense, space, and time. Period.
But so does a Guardian Soulship.
It's in their nature that we find that distinction.
The relations between Guardians and Old Souls nearing ascension has fascinated humanity far longer than the Aquarian Age.
Its place is firmly carved in the literature of antiquity, beginning with Bram Stoker's first glimpses of a particularly potent force that would change the face of Victorian entertainment - and keep future generations in its thrall.
The wisdom, power, and hold exhibited by Stoker's Dracula is none other than attunement to a complex entity dimensionally displaced. That was the only piece of the tale he would receive, however. Mina Harker and her husband Jonathan would survive the 'monstrous enthrallment' of the 'most terrible creature'.
Sadly, the greater lesson would not be explored until generations later; a film of its loose adaptation would reveal a powerful, karmic relationship between Mina and the hopeless, tormented Count who's been awaiting her reincarnation, recognising her immediately for his long-lost love.
It would then hold a place as one of the darkest, most passionate, visceral love stories of all time. And the vampire as tortured literary romantic 'villain' would be born.
Many along the same vein would follow. (Prime example: Leroux's work, La Fantome de L'Opera in the early 20th century.)
So the question is: why?
Outside of a fictional or dramatic context, I believe the Guardian Soulship is a vital component of the Graduate journey.
Now, these are some intense archetypes with which we're dealing here. Oh, definitely. Foundation-shaking, crisis-inducing, total-rerouting stuff.
No wonder they become confused with Twin Flames. The difference, again, is in the nature of the relationship or connexion.
As it sounds, the Guardian compromises a sense of 'ownership'. We feel strangely beholden. An inescapability. Almost as if we belong to them in some fashion.
Our Twin is, for lack of better, 'projected' from the same essence as we are. Using the quantum principle of nonlocality, we could even say our souls are occupying the same space in different locations and originating from a single point.
We are expressing complementary elements of the same essence. We do not possess, nor belong TO the other. We simply BELONG in a state of togetherness.
Not so with a Guardian.
I was treated, you might say, to several vivid recollections or 'recalls' regarding this man and our origins throughout time. I've gradually been able to construct a more general scenario and subsequent theory which can be of (hopeful) use to others.
We have karma with our Guardian; its nature depends entirely upon our previous dealings with each other. If there's something of magnitude to resolve, this soul becomes a far more likely candidate for the role they're now playing.
Think of it this way:
Coming here to be a voice of spirit of unconditional love and universal evolution is a hefty task. There are safeguards.
The first line of defence is your soul-family. They surround you along with karmic relations in order to aid you in your objectives - at times challenging you as they support and grow with you.
Some of us can prove rather stubborn, however. Despite our many soulmates, we can lose our way, becoming detached from our true purpose and even the Universe.
That's when it's time to bring in the big guns - AKA, our Guardian.
I have reason to believe, though I can't declare its veracity, that a Guardian is not only older than we are (in terms of sheer existence) but has become stuck here. It very well may be by offering to devote their next incarnation to assisting a Twin Flame Reunion that they themselves become 'unstuck'. (Again, I have strong reason to assert this, but the theory is infant and should be treated as such.)
I feel then that the majority of Guardians are formerly 'lost' souls themselves, who, despite wisdom and great experience, have become mired in the third-dimensional realm. It may be a sort of punishment for some, or the result of too much martyrdom in others.
I sense a bit of the haunted on a soul-level. A strange, inexplicable and silent torment. This may very well be my own experience - but I don't think so.
I believe that those Guardians who are nearest to ascension themselves will express the most light. This has nothing to do with personality, mind. This is merely a psychic orientation.
I feel they all, to a great extent, have suffered. Some will have overcome these personal tragedies to the extent of becoming forces of love and forgiveness. Spiritual leaders. Healers. Gurus. They're evolved and enlightened, and want little more than to guide their Graduate Soul towards Awakening and to reunite them with the Twin Flame.
I theorise you're likely to find this type well-steeped in metaphysics, even actively leading and guiding many individuals, as well as Graduates.
But make no mistake: they're looking for their 'charge', so to speak - the ward they've been afforded by Divine design.
You may ask, 'why aren't they seeking their Twin Flame in their own right?' Surely, such Awakened beings, on their way to ascension, are going to reunite with their own?
That's an interesting inconsistency. Perhaps they're not ascending at this time, in this lifetime. After all, you're the main focus here and now. Maybe it's just too complicated - managing all of your soul business - and their own. Who can say?
One thing remains clear: they're here for you.
Do they say things like, 'you're the one I've been looking for,' and are quick to make serious commitments regarding your relationship?
I'll surmise that's why.
It's a complicated sort of thing, this 'soulship'. On the whole, they're here to find and guide you - towards your ultimate Reunion with your Twin Flame.
That's well and good, except there seems to be a rather powerful love attached from the get-go. Perhaps, as with our Twins, romantic love is deemed the most potent binding force here on Earth - and we DO need to stay with our Guardians - despite a strange, overwhelming sense the whole thing might consume us.
That's the other thing.
What should seem light, wonderful, and peaceful has a darker, forceful undercurrent which can realise itself in many ways. It's such an encompassing experience that we'll quickly try and make sense of it in whatever way we can.
What it is, truly, is such a deep sense of recognition, of karmic knowledge and being bound to one another (despite the direction or balance of power!) regardless of the circumstances in which we find each other presently.
I believe the way it manifests will be dependent upon the lessons presented, the karma shared, and the obstacles preventing your Reunion.
In our case, certain flexibilities would have to be afforded, compromises made, and issues resolved. They mostly deal with romantic entanglements, commitment, societal objections, social mores, fears of intimacy, and healing from emotional detachment.
Unsurprising, we were confronted with some of the most intense sexual chemistry and feeling of 'needing to merge' with one another that it forced these changes - and approaching and learning these lessons.
And, as expected, the astrology indicates this, too. But we'll get into that a bit later.
These are the broad strokes, of what I am coming to believe is the missing link between the Graduate and the Twin Flame Reunion.
The Guardian is then not a Twin Flame, but a Graduate as well, and dedicated to a singular spiritual purpose.
We can see this in the astrology as well, presenting synastrically, in multiple composites and through the lenses of different systems.
Next, we'll be exploring that in greater depth.
Namely:
• what the energetic bond of a Guardian Soulship yields, and how it differs from that of Soulmates and your Twin Flame.
• what personal markers might define a Guardian Soul.
• why the connexion feels overwhelming in its intensity.
• probable outcome or purpose of the Soulship.
• 'Soulship' defined, and why I prefer this term.
What are your experiences?
We'll also analyse other case studies as well as evaluate what current theory has to say about the prospect.
Thanks for your patience. As you can see, this is in its infancy, but I feel could prove very illuminating in terms of the Graduate purpose and the Twin Flame journey.