posted December 28, 2015 11:45 AM            

I've been looking back at the last time Saturn hit my T-square, and the odd thing is that I had a really hard time after it was well past, but not really much during the actual transit.

Saturn square Moon is always hard for me, as I tend to get stuck around really horrid women during that transit, but Saturn conjunct Neptune didn't really seem to do much last time.

I think I'm going to start a thread about what I'm beginning to view as the "aftershocks" of transits.

posted December 31, 2015 03:56 PM            

Hello to my fellow Rabbits

I've already said on another thread that I feel bad because of solar flares and other transits. It's hard for me to isolate this, and maybe I should wait until next month when the conjunction is more exact (January 9-19.)

But Saturn and Neptune rule my sun and moon respectively, so it does feel momentous, and maybe one of the reasons I'm "coming undone." (Thank you Pluto for being almost exactly on my sun at this time...really helps me get extra real, even if that means extra pathetic. )

From what I understand, theoretically with this conjunction, Saturn grounds Neptune more directly and Neptune tries to absolve/cleanse Saturn of its load of regret.

posted December 31, 2015 04:17 PM            

n Mars 5°10 Sag
n ASC 7°03 Sag
n Neptune 9°56 Sagittarius
n NN 10°09 Sagittarius
Tr Saturn 11°07 Sagittarius

I am not completely sure to be honest. Sure I have been through some crap-time in november, emotionally mostly. But there has also been such wonderful things happening, actually pretty much when Tr Saturn was EXACT on my NN (as my brother announcing him and his girlfriend are expecting a child, and we, as a family, are completely over the moon happy about these news).

Plus, while I always dreaded doing my taxes (well the documentation you send in and might or might not get something back) for years, my Dad was pushing me to finally sit down and do that, which means HE sat down and did this and I had to just sign the papers.
So we did the tax-documentation for the last 4 years, and I just yesterday received the response from the tax authority, and was more than surprised to see that they even accepted the document for 2011, even though they would not have needed that (as it is out of the 3 years range), and well it`s much more positive for me than I could have expected.
So in this instance, it feels like I was actually reaping a little Saturnian reward, which I had not expected.
But then again Saturn rules my 2nd house and sits in my 8th house natally, so somehow the tax-thing seems rather fitting. But with Tr Pluto opposing my n Saturn (2° applying), I would not have expected that (though who knows what calamity might follow ).

But on the other hand, as Faith can attest to, I´ve been through the emotional wringer all through november and beginning of december. But then THAT I expected, as one of the worst times I`ve ever faced was Tr Saturn on my SN and opposing my Neptune 14 years ago.
The conjunction to NN however seems to be not only bad and harsh, though it DOES come with some harsh experiences and thoughts and insights and decisions, but at least it also gives the feeling of having somewhere to go, even though it will be a lot of work and take a lot of time, oh and getting clear about what I really want, and how much I want it and if I want it enough to take that path, the whole stuff like that.

posted December 31, 2015 09:33 PM            

I'm also aware, as usual, of everything I have to be grateful for. I'm tired of feeling this way. The loss of my aunt marred everything, as well. There has been so much death in this family, it kickstarted my anxiety around all of that again, in relation to my parents, myself, my pets, etc.

And I've had arguments here and there with both parents, even though I've been trying to not let that happen, because I know that Saturn just crossed my mother's Sun (when her sister died, they were conjunct), and I think it's in my dad's 12th house. He had a **** year last year, and this one was better in ways, but it seems like everything is tainted by what happened, and that we're always just going to be stuck and sinking, no matter what we do.

A couple of weeks ago, I managed to feel happy and normal for a few days. Why can't I get THAT feeling back????