posted August 26, 2016 05:08 AM            

For a few days, or while reading your comments here, I've thought about my own journey. How I've been given SO much (8th house SN) and now I am being asked to create my own- security, foundation, vision and dream, even follow my own guidance (I thought one of my greatest advantages was "who I know". The only thing that matters is knowing myself).

Kannon McAfee put the words to my feelings on creating your own with this article on Neptune and practical ideals (this is also a Neptune transit). It's interesting that with a Pisces SN the hardest thing I've had to learn to do is dream my own dream.

posted August 26, 2016 03:33 PM            

LindaLand... Shines with Greatness of Being and Soul

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posted August 26, 2016 03:41 PM            

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Originally posted by mirage29:
In tears here today, and soooo proud of the Generosity demonstrated-- The CARE of Human Beings on a tangible, hands on, practical way. You are AWESOME BEINGS here... I'm so proud to be part of a Community that Cares that much.... for another of its members.

LindaLand... Shines with Greatness of Being and Soul

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(music) When sHe Shines, she shines so bright! (Sheena Easton) [3:53] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dYrZ8I4NrdI

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posted August 26, 2016 03:52 PM            

Paying It Forward, Makes A Difference

I hope you take Courage, and use this act of generosity towards you as a tremendous sign that The Universe has your back, Lucia.

posted August 26, 2016 04:03 PM            

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Originally posted by mirage29:
The Universe has your back

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Though the past, the unwanted memories, are holding onto you
All the power in the universe conspires to carry you
Truths you find through your adversities will defend you
As your powers and all your energies conspire to carry you

posted August 26, 2016 04:08 PM            

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Originally posted by mirage29:
You Are Loved ... and LL Members Make A Difference.

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Indeed. I am grateful for the time I've spent here, and all I've learned here. The doors that have been opened, and the encouragement I've received. Thank you all for being my other- my reflection.

posted August 26, 2016 04:24 PM            

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Originally posted by Lucia23:
Today I've had bad anxiety all day. I think I prefer depression. I'm (over)sensitive to the energy and I just have to ride it out like Mirage said, stay as chill as possible. One problem with mental/emotional health problems is that they make people, me at least, more self centered. I was looking around today trying to remember that this energy is hitting lots of people, not just me and my family.

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Something just nutty happened last night. Like somehow this kind if drama I do not entertain found its way to me..I was so shocked I didn't know what to do. I cried, and then I blamed myself for crying. Then I blamed myself for blaming myself. Now when I think about it, I don't think I was wrong to cry. The thing we want to achieve is balance. We want to be able to trust our feelings, that they are responding to the reality of the situation and ourselves and not other kinds of mind and heart confusions. If you search around (here in other LL forums) Lucia, you'll find that LL members have a variety of interests and a wealth of knowledge, and something someone has found or practices might help you with balance- so you can be free and confident to feel what you feel.

posted August 26, 2016 04:33 PM            

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Originally posted by venus2tinkerbell:
Something just nutty happened last night. Like somehow this kind if drama I do not entertain found its way to me..I was so shocked I didn't know what to do. I cried, and then I blamed myself for crying. Then I blamed myself for blaming myself. Now when I think about it, I don't think I was wrong to cry. The thing we want to achieve is balance. We want to be able to trust our feelings, that they are responding to the reality of the situation and ourselves and not other kinds of mind and heart confusions. If you search around (here at LL) Lucia, you'll find that LL members have a variety of interests and a wealth of knowledge, and something someone has found or practices might help you with balance- so you can be free and confident to feel what you feel.

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I'm sorry to hear that.

posted August 26, 2016 04:54 PM            

You gotta fight for your right to cry

I hope you're well. This song you posted a while ago, is one of my favorites! I listened to it all day one day with a Kunzite healing stone tucked under my head scarf. I had an absolutely wonderful and connected day that day. I mean love multiplied by love with random strangers. Thank you Teasel.

sleeping at last

You taught me the courage of stars before you left.
How light carries on endlessly, even after death.
With shortness of breath, you explained the infinite.
How rare and beautiful it is to even exist.

I couldn’t help but ask
For you to say it all again.
I tried to write it down
But I could never find a pen.
I’d give anything to hear
You say it one more time,
That the universe was made
Just to be seen by my eyes.

I couldn’t help but ask
For you to say it all again.
I tried to write it down
But I could never find a pen.
I’d give anything to hear
You say it one more time,
That the universe was made
Just to be seen by my eyes.

posted August 26, 2016 05:51 PM            

Cry if you need to cry... We are Human with human reactions. When bad things hit sometimes, whether only in the thought-realms or in reality, it can feel like a catastrophic suspended STINGing 'in' the totality of that moment.

When we feel Pain, whether physical or emotional, that pain is REAL. The energy of it NEEDS to be processed, breathed through, cried through, and eventually laughed through...

Sometimes when I (personally) look at things without faith that I am supported, I can feel encapsulated in a coffin of fear and hyperaware of the absolute dangers impregnated into every future second of time.

Long range, I face threats of a future without connections to a caring loving family or tribe as I enter into the most vulnerable years of my life. This can play cruel~cruel painful moments within my psyche and vexations of panic to my soul.

That's when it's good to entertain the notion that I DO and will have friends... waiting to receive.

Hopefully, for ALL of us, help will be there for us, still incarnated in human form and physicality.

God help my Unbelief to Believe it will ALL work out for the Good!

Love and Cheer to All

posted August 26, 2016 06:05 PM            

*jawdrop* reposting your song. So Beautiful.

posted August 27, 2016 07:39 PM            

V2T and Lucia, you both are very affected by the eclipse. And you both have had some ups and downs. I think this is the eclipse. I have Venus at 8'54 virgo, and I have experienced the same. I had a really rough week last week. Already I am feeling the upswing.

Ride it out, things get bumpy and sometimes they get rough. But I have learned that they always get rough right before I grow! This is good for you two. Something very good will come of this.

Lucia, I don't know why, but I just am drawn to your story. You are so strong, and it's evident in what you communicate. This situation will only serve to make you stronger. Your love for your daughter is so clear, and I hope you know that you are a wonderful mother, simply because of that. You have put your own needs aside to meet hers, and honestly there is no better way to be a mom than to consider her like that. She is a lucky girl to have you as a mom.

I think if you feel you need to pull away for a bit to process your thoughts and take some time for you, that it would be ok. Your daughter is young and she will be ok.

When I first separated from my ex, he disappeared for weeks at a time from our children. They were 8 and 6, and neither one remembers it. Children only know normal as how we define it for them. By that, treat it like it's just a regular old day like any other. Virgolet will not remember a short period of time without him. But she will definitely benefit from her Mama being more emotionally secure.

posted August 28, 2016 02:41 AM            

I was thinking, as much as I post here, it's important to me to keep my "real" identity separate/secret from Lindaland--not because of you guys, but the reverse---because this place is such a sanctuary and refuge and safe spot for me. so there are details of my life and work and situation that are too distinctive to talk about on here...because they stick out too much that way.

That said, I want to post MOST of what I'll be asking Yungang about on this thread. i have so many thoughts I want to write about right now, but it's been an intense day (Virgolet's early-birthday party was today), and I have to make myself sleep.

Much love and gratitude to all of you.

posted August 30, 2016 09:23 PM            

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I'm going on a short trip the next day. The eclipse is also happening in my 3rd house... of SHORT TRIPS. Now you want to talk about scared... I'm worried about what might happen. Plus this Mercury retrograde.

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posted August 31, 2016 02:55 PM            

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Originally posted by Lucia23:
Definitely having a hard time with the energy. I'vebeen having a hard time for such a long time, this is the time when maybe it will come to a head and burst. But I just wish I had lots and lots of time alone to do nothing.

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posted August 31, 2016 03:40 PM            

Also, all this energy in Virgo also can make hyper-awareness, and feeling it through your physical nervous system? Virgo has to do with the body, and care of. Also the 'sense' and 'feeling' of crisis.

The eclipse is very close to Fixed Star Zosma, meaning hard work and suffering; victimized or pressured in some manner; "working with people in situations where victims are present and need assistance..." There are a lot of crises in the world right now with earthquakes, tornadoes, floods, hurricanes. Much humanitarian action is occurring around the world, too. ---- Be Joyful, that we have Beautiful people, and groups of people READY to (Virgo) Serve, all over the World!!! {Thank you to those Human Angels of Compassion.}

This Too Shall Pass!

Stay very calm as you can. Slow things down... Think of nice things... It will add to helping calm down ripples in your self, home, community, and the cosmic collective?

Not to deny that things in this world feel dangerous. Again, we can only prepare so much (Virgo worry) and plan for the worse as best we can (batteries, etc), and hope and pray that the Best happens in all and every situation.

People "ACT" on what they are 'imagining' sometimes... and it might not be the case? ... Some people do the wrong behavior, and it lands them in a hospital or jail, or some wrong place they wouldn't have consciously chosen. Stay away from 'drugs' and things that alter clear-thinking TOO much. Wine can help some, I guess?, but IN Moderation. You want to be able to react in your best interest if you needed too?? (Can't do that laying in the middle of a field somewhere, staring at the sky, on horse-tranquilizer, PCP, etc....? sheesh! Take CARE of yourself... Love yourself and don't do **** like that! haha)

Remember to keep Balance by allowing Positive to radiate through you body and nervous system (BY safely relieving stress-- stay away from drugs, or harming behaviors), the BEST you can.

It's like having and needing to keep your inner and outer Child protected.

Be WITH the (outer and inner)child, informing that child 'what' is going on (age-appropriately). Make sure they have everything they need--- the right food, etc.

Put on Strength and Being POSITIVE (not feigning, but genuinely) ~is called having faith. Be Positive that you and child WILL get through whatever happens.

If you stay gathered with loved ones or friends to support you, then we ALL have a companion (even LL), and increase the general amount of helpfulness and hopefulness in the atmosphere.

When people are terrified, results are that they can freeze or escape (bad way). When people are intellectually informed, and stay led by Possibilities, then, we get through it, ALL of us, together.

A lot of heads, hearts, hands, and talents coming together, make for more resources available to everyone....

Sure, sometimes you can feel not-so-strong... I go through that. But again, you HAVE to reason with yourself.... Saying, you've been through it (and things like it) before, and chances are that you 'learned' a few things (that maybe you aren't even AWARE that you know NOW??? *yay*), that will come into play AT the moment it is needed.

Astrologers right now can add to the fear-factor. Let it go!

Stay grounded, find a crayon book and pencils instead of charts??? hahaha

Put some positive films on, and encourage yourself. FEED on them. Calm the fears as you watch them resolve things. (yeah, I know, it's not 'reality'?, but when reality bites you too hard, it can make you feel sick, or just sick with fears that interfere with your eating and sleeping?).

BE sooooo very very very nice to yourself. GENTLEness, folks, Gentle Gentle. Like patting your doggy or stroking a kitten. Gentle Gentle Soft. Soothed....

Lucia... Hey, maybe you can play 'Sound of Music Barbies' with your little girl?? How lucky! Be Happy. Put on Happy-musicals.

{oh, uh, TIP: avoid Benji the dog things (older films, 70s and 80s).... I remember watching a few of those with my little girls?, and it's my strong opinion that these cause emotional lacerations and woundings, with negative consequences. Ugh, I wouldn't let my girls (or ME, haha) watch those anymore.... Be cautious about what you FEED your child's inspiration bank with. These tend to be what they access, inwardly, in response to events?}

Blessings on Everyone!

*putting on her Maria outfit*

posted August 31, 2016 04:12 PM            

We can DO this!

posted August 31, 2016 04:37 PM            

@Teasel. You know the five stages of grief, or however many stages there are? I found that following my mom's death, I experienced a lot of feelings not included among the stages....lots of a particular kind of anxiety. It's a really hard journey. I hope the eclipse energy will be really good in the end? Like, clearing everything out and turning a corner. Wishing you all the good things the universe can dish out--some of them overdue!