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PixieMG
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posted August 31, 2016 04:46 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for PixieMG     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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I'm going on a short trip the next day. The eclipse is also happening in my 3rd house... of SHORT TRIPS. Now you want to talk about scared... I'm worried about what might happen. Plus this Mercury retrograde.

I'm in the same boat, the eclipse will conjunct my natal Venus in the 3rd house, and I'm going on a short trip tomorrow morning (a much-needed pleasure trip to heal my soul). I'm trying not to think too much about it, but I couldn't find too much info about the eclipse/venus conjunction. Will try to stay positive and think that this is good for me.

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posted August 31, 2016 05:23 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Lucia23     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I thought I was starting to finally get real clarity about my ex and that I was finally ready to just MOVE ON. But at my daughter's early-birthday party, I realized that just wasn't true. I feel so uncomfortable around my dad and his family, my adoring mother is dead, I just felt so alone in the world at that nice party and the most love I felt coming from me OR to me (other than for my daughter and her little friend, Virgolet 2) was from my ex.

Even though he doesn't love me and he brought my worst fears to life--abandoning me when I was in a vulnerable place. But at the lonely party I just felt some kind of soft love from him that I wish I could feel from my dad. I know my dad wants to help, but instead of taking care of me and helping with Virgolet, his priority was social niceties with my ex's parents.

I felt so sad I almost couldn't make it through the party.

I miss feeling happy!!

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posted August 31, 2016 08:57 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for venus2tinkerbell     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Think of your deepest love. Not the person. The feeling. Your softest moment. The Yield. Then with that precious feeling, bend your head toward your own heart, the seat of your soul, and speak gently, saying, I love you.

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posted September 01, 2016 03:28 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for mirage29     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote

{The video of this music has animation of an annular eclipse happening behind this embracing couple. Ring of Fire shown.. }

(music) Don’t Give Up (Peter Gabriel, w Kate Bush, lyrics) [6:29] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VjEq-r2agqc

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posted September 01, 2016 04:56 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for mirage29     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by hypatia238:
My birthday is 9 21 so the eclipse has to affect me since it's at the degree of my birthday lol...


Happy Birthday, Hypatia!

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posted September 01, 2016 05:47 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for GeminiKarat     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by mirage29:

Don’t Give Up http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VjEq-r2agqc

A beautiful song. Thank you very much!

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posted September 05, 2016 10:09 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Lucia23     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
For a little bit as the energy was building, I thought the eclipse would bring truth and clarity and revelations. But it really hasn't. (Yet?). I guess it kind of brought truth and clarity about the fact that I really don't have truth or clarity.

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posted September 08, 2016 10:17 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
^ Oops, that was me. Helped someone to register, but it stayed in my cookies.

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posted September 08, 2016 10:36 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Lucia23     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
it's funny, the universe has always, always had my back before this. If I took some knocks, things would go right afterwards. If there was something I wanted that I didn't get, I would get it the next time around.

So at my ex's family wedding, which was beautiful and perfect for all of them, watching him stand up there talking about loyalty and trust after the ways he betrayed me, I was just STILL in shock.

I keep having this unhealthy fantasy that every moment of sweet, undisturbed sleeping in....every pat on the back from his adoring family...every carefree night out drinking or hooking up that my ex has enjoyed since ditching me with our one-year-old the year after my mother died would be just TAKEN AWAY from him, all of it---and he could have all the misery and hassles and exhaustion and loneliness. And all that smug comfort and those pats on the back and all that financial and emotional help and support he's had, all that freedom and sleep and smug complacency-----I wouldn't keep it for myself or even my beautiful, stressed little Virgolet....I wish it would ALL go to some other mother somewhere, in some poor country, who's lost her family and has to work and care for children on her own while she's bone tired. There are millions of people on the planet who are really badly-off and really taking a lot of hard knocks---but the universe decides that my ex deserves all that smug complacency, all that financial and emotional support, all that leisure and rest, and he NEVER has to look at himself or work on himself or be remorseful, and he has no negative consequences for what he did to me.

My dad was saying the other day that I've had a string of (unusual for me) bad luck--I really haven't. My mother dying, for example, that just happens to everyone on the planet. A person is so lucky if they ever had a nice mother and if she dies when they're grown, rather than when they're three. I haven't had bad luck--I've been mistreated by some crappy person, with the reasons for his deceitfulness still a mystery, and my spot-on powers of intuition failed me (because I trusted him), and I haven't (yet?) triumphed in this situation.

The good news is that (knock-on-wood) nothing REALLY happened during the eclipse. Virgolet and I are okay. I hope that will stay true!!! With the eclipse touching our charts in such profound places, I expected something huge.

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posted September 08, 2016 07:47 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for mirage29     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
{{{{Lucia }}}}

Jupiter changes signs tomorrow morning just past 7:18 a.m. (east coast USA), Will leave Virgo to enter Libra, for the next 13 years... Venus is almost halfway through Libra. The Sun will finish Virgo and enter Libra on Thursday September 22, at 10:21 a.m. EDT. Mercury goes Direct the night before on Wed Sep 21. It's the U.N. International Day of Peace. ... After Equinox (Sun enter Libra), Venus enters Scorpio 10:51 a.m. Friday 23rd of September.

Today Venus squared Pluto... and The Moon just now finished conjunction to Saturn.

But before all that happens.... We've got ONE more Eclipse to go.

FULL MOON, Friday September 16, 2016 24.12 Pisces, at 2:54 P.M. EDT. Lunar Eclipse.

The Moon will be conjunct Chiron-rx Pisces for that Eclipse... May feel extra emotional? ...

We're All In This Together! ~~ So Grateful for Friends.

Keep crying, its okay to feel what your feeling. Just ~argh, I hurt for you! I recall those kinds of captured moments from my OWN past. Soooooo incredibly tough feeling, and legitimately soooo unfair. It's true... Keep staying with things.

And when the crying is on, then off, then anger, then off? ... Breathe in the In-Betweens. Stay Positive as you can muster IN those moments. SEED your 'nows' with Room for Possibility. Hold-Space with it...

((Aside: I still don't know what faith-system you're familiar with? .... ))
.... Energetically from me (in my Expression of Faith), from within my soul I want you to know that Angels are close and ministering to you, and that "God Sees" it ALL. The WHOLE Situation. God is Able to Provide you with what you need (internal fortitude, and within the presence of your human friends, and your dad), to bear this, and get through-- no matter how long it takes. You Will Survive... And Become a Greater Version of Yourself, with each layer and every step you take.

Think Positively, as often as you can muster. It Plants Seeds for your Future... It's real. Be Patient, Practice, Wait.

BELIEVE. Stay Strong.... You Can Do This *thumbsup*

(music) Ooh Child (The Five Stairsteps, lyrics) [3:18] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_DHRGrIqmb0

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posted September 08, 2016 08:34 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for HelixID     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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The good news is that (knock-on-wood) nothing REALLY happened during the eclipse. Virgolet and I are okay. I hope that will stay true!!! With the eclipse touching our charts in such profound places, I expected something huge.

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I don't think that eclipses work that way. They need to be triggered by transits. Watch out for the New Moon on 29 November and the New Moon on 26 February 2017. Those are dates where you can expect something to happen and not necessarily something bad. Those New Moons will square and oppose the Solar Eclipse of 1 September respectively.

That's why they probably say that eclipses have their effect on us even 6 months later. It's because they offset the plan laid out in the eclipse chart by forming a hard aspect to it.

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posted September 09, 2016 03:46 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Lucia23     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
@Mirage, I would describe myself as religiously open--raised by seeker parents, I have NN and Neptune (not conjunct) in Sag in 12h, Pluto and Uranus (not conjunct) in Libra in Placidus 9h, and a beautiful pitcher chart with Pisces Jupiter as the spout. I am hugely blessed in Pisces Jupiter areas.

The night Virgolet and I got involved with this thread, we encountered an angel in human form--this thread attracted some POWERHOUSE women who are powerful at manifesting things.

Usually something big and noticeable happens to me in the days leading up to or just following an eclipse, then that story further unfolds when the eclipse point is triggered. ed

The 9/16 eclipse doesn't hit me anywhere too directly....a bunch of weird MINOR hits (my Sun at 21 Leo, Uranus/Chiron at 24 Libra/Aries....super-loose trine/sextile to my Venus af 29 Cancer).....

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posted September 09, 2016 06:08 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Kannon McAfee     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Glad to hear it, Lucia. 95% of the time our worries and anticipations of the negative don`t reflect reality. They never happen.

Yet with the psychological energy we spent on it we could have created something positive instead. That is what I am having to face about myself - how worry slips in - it can be quite sophisticated, because it will use whatever terms we provide for it to use ... astrological, religious, etc. During the transit of Pluto conjunct my natal Moon I`ve had to deal with this more than ever.

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posted September 09, 2016 08:22 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for mirage29     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I like what you say, Kannon...

Lucia , so, what you're saying reminds me of a great undertow or toe, ~whatever (lol, spelling), that was operating FOR you during that time of such terrible peak of despairs for you. There was something else flowing in the tidal new beginnings, to Bless you and your Virgolet .

How wonderful about the news of collaboration opportunity. ... Truly Happy for you. Something to look forward to.

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posted September 09, 2016 09:11 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for mirage29     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
^ ...
Kannon.. The general message of your 2nd paragraph, reminds me of a song.

(And sheesh, what doesn't with me, right??? LOL. It's my source of inspiration! Muse comes out.)

I had a coworker in early 1980s who followed the same guru that Carly Simon wrote about. (Good memories. She was sooo devoted, and very evangelistic around the financial firm we both worked for.)

Words' abstracted meaning, "Not since I knew you...." could be applied to a simple relationship with a guru or teacher; to finding relationship with Love, InnerPeace, and the Source of ALL Lights; to discovering your own Core sense of Self and sorting, and acting-upon 'who' you are in the meanings of the relationships to others around you, then at same time, simultaneously to the Divinity Within Yourself.

(music) Haven't Got Time For The Pain (Carly Simon, 1974) [3:54] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T1suuV3MFGs


"Many ways to say..." The Song Way?

Song for the adults here, and for the inner and outer Virgolets that grace our Life every day.

My Progressed Ascendant (Aquarius 14+) moved into the natal degree of my Misterrogers asteroid...

He communicates it to all of you, FOR and from me, right now....
*omg.... bawling my eyes out*

(I think it's gonna be a watery Pisces Eclipse for me?... Waterworks starting already!! LOL)

(music) There Are Many Ways To Say I Love You (Mr. Rogers, daily children's TV show in times-passed, PBS) [2:01] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9_YHy5yhoyU

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posted September 10, 2016 10:33 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for mereiposa     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Lucia,

I think the eclipse did bring something meaningful to you! You went to the party and realized what was lacking in your life, what you want and who you want it from. You realized you want more from your dad and you identified some real issues. This is so important, because knowing what the problem is allows you to address it!

And what is more, you saw that you are hanging on to your ex because he is the closest thing to providing that feeling of love you so desperately want. So you know and admitted to yourself it is not real, what you have from him or with him. You realized you are hanging on because it is a substitute.

That is huge! You know what you want! And you deserve it. Now focus on that, and you will manifest those loving relationships you deserve. You can do it by loving yourself and your daughter first and foremost. When you do this, you will find happiness and comfort. And then you will start attracting more of this in to your life.

Sometimes the most powerful events in our lives actually start from little triggers and realizations like this. I believe this is a very important turning point in your life.

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posted September 10, 2016 02:55 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Lucia23     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Well, it's complicated/--I've known about my dad issues for many years--although having a baby and having my mom die has made me bring my dad more into my life. But four years ago, I had friends I adored and a lover I adored and a life I mostly liked....and before that, I had a long term relationship. I feel like this situation--having a baby with a man who chooses not to honor and cherish me--has made me regress, hurt me and pushed me back into some feelings and situations that I had outgrown.

Also complicated that when I first met my ex is 2010, I loved and trusted him (and he flat out lied to me when we met.). Being with a liar and being not-cherished were not a pattern for me. I fell in love with him at a time I had a very low-stress and not isolated life--lots of friends, suitors, leisure time, victory.

I've known for a couple of years that the shame and heartbreak with my ex reminded me of other times in my life that I was very unhappy....and that it's made me regress. Since my parents split up when I was two, I'm especially enraged that my ex gets to unilaterally decide to do that to our child, and I can't stop it.....but when I started things with my ex, I wasn't isolated or miserable....a combination of factors has led to that since 2013, with him being the worst factor.

I've been very clear for years about what I want. For an eclipse revelation, I think I was hoping some filthy family secret of my ex's to come out so that I'll understand why he grew up to be a liar

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posted September 10, 2016 03:08 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Lucia23     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Well, it's complicated/--I've known about my dad issues for many years--although having a baby and having my mom die has made me bring my dad more into my life. But four years ago, I had friends I adored and a lover I adored and a life I mostly liked....and before that, I had a long term relationship. I feel like this situation--having a baby with a man who chooses not to honor and cherish me--has made me regress, hurt me and pushed me back into some feelings and situations that I had outgrown.

Also complicated that when I first met my ex is 2010, I loved and trusted him (and he flat out lied to me when we met.). Being with a liar and being not-cherished were not a pattern for me. I fell in love with him at a time I had a very low-stress and not isolated life--lots of friends, suitors, leisure time, victory.

I've known for a couple of years that the shame and heartbreak with my ex reminded me of other times in my life that I was very unhappy....and that it's made me regress. Since my parents split up when I was two, I'm especially enraged that my ex gets to unilaterally decide to do that to our child, and I can't stop it.....but when I started things with my ex, I wasn't isolated or miserable....a combination of factors has led to that since 2013, with him being the worst factor.

I've been very clear for years about what I want. For an eclipse revelation, I think I was hoping some filthy family secret of my ex's to come out so that I'll understand why he grew up to be a liar

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posted September 10, 2016 07:44 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for mirage29     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
{{ Lucia}} You write so well, and so succinctly... You made me smile at the revelation wish you're making.

My last sorta ended quietly, betrayed behind my back, in September of 1997.

He was NOT a good person for me. Actually (stupidly), (would you believe?), I married him for my young daughters' (?~6 and 8yo?) sakes, thinking that this could provide them with the presence of a father-figure in their lives... (I wanted them to bond with some good male energies, to nurture. Their own dad had completely cut-off and abandoned them at 1 and 3 yo.)

And, I figured that he and I were older people (late30s/40), and it would provide him and me some practical companionship for the later years of life.

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<edit> Thanks for reading and for your comments, Lucia (and V2T).

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And, What a privilege it is being here, with you.

There is POWER in Community.... There is benefit in Sharing our life and stories.

I can 'feel' some of your kinds of wounds in my own soul through similar experiences and situations.

Been here typing for hours, bawling my eyes out, going over things from the past, memories, very close to your own, Lucia .

You're going to make it.... Keep on swimming, Keep on swimming.

Pisces... for the fish, and To The Fishers.

You Are Beautiful.

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e/9-12 (with thanks)

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posted September 11, 2016 12:59 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Lucia23     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
here is what I want:

-for my daughter's biological father to cherish and honor me above all others and ALWAYS to be available to me to have an exclusive, committed family with, whatever I think of him and whatever I decide *I* want

-AND whatever I decide I want and whether or not we are together, for him to have real remorse about how he treated me and how that affected our daughter, the kind of remorse that makes him seek forgiveness and find the courage to work on himself, including committing to YEARS of therapy where he digs beneath the surface and looks closely at his family of origin issues (the way all my other friends/lovers have--he's the only person I know who's just like, "my childhood was perfect", and I bet it wasn't)

-for me to have the courage to do my best work rawly and purely and uncompromisingly, and to always keep putting pure work out there and fighting for my dream--to show my daughter a mother who is happy, fulfilled and a successful and celebrated artist

-to find the financial and emotional resources to provide beautifully (and HAPPILY) for myself and my daughter, doing what I love most, without needing financial support or help from anyone but myself

-to become a happy, healthy, patient, delighted and fulfilled mother

-to only ever attract and be attracted to men who are happy, healthy, honest, brave, successful, fulfilled and are able to parent my daughter with love and maturity, and are excited to have (and fully available to have) an exclusive, loyal, happy, healthy and honest relationship with me

I want a lot more things than that, but those are definites.

@Mirage, my mother said one of the reasons she married my stepfather was to give me a father figure/family. He was way too damaged to be a healthy father figure or partner. So this is one of the things that scares me.

Also just, even the most inspiring and badass and amazing women I know seem to get involved with these very unhealthy relationships post-35----ranging from full-on abusers like my stepfather or your 2nd ex to just garden variety a-holes with control and anger management issues who can't really commit emotionally. The only women I know in okay relationships locked them in when they were younger--and those relationships are only OKAY, not wonderful.

I know I might find love again, but I REALLY want to be happy and fulfilled on my own--and especially financially fulfilled and independent---fulfilled in my work. I think that's a Uranus opposition lesson for me (it hits my whole sign 4th and 10th houses)----I do kind of want to be my own ideal partner, ion terms of the practical and emotional resources I have for my little family.

@Mereiposa, when you wrote on another thread that your daughters have a happy and healthy mother, THAT is what I want. I want my daughter to have that. Happy AND healthy is more than enough. I love myself very much and I love her very much--but raising her is so often exhausting and I feel harried and can't really do much of the things that really fulfill me.

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posted September 11, 2016 01:09 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Lucia23     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Of course I can't always have the things I want that are about controlling other people!!! But in the list in my post above, I notice that three of those items are things that are just about me--so maybe I CAN have those.

I don't know how to put hearts and angels into my posts---but I am sending those, and music, and my best wishes to all of my amazing friends on this thread---WELCOME to Jupiter in Libra....and Mirage, I hope tPluto in your 2nd and then third will be amazing for you.

TJupiter in Libra will square my 7h Cancer stellium and sextile my 8h Leo planets. I hope maybe it will bring me wonderful partnerships---like partners/supporters in my work, partners/supporters in my parenting.

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posted September 11, 2016 03:10 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for mirage29     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Lucia???!!! YOU ARE Awesome!

For heart --- colonheartcolon " : heart : " no spaces between colon and word.

For angel --- same thing

For some, like peace, you must Capitalize P
For peeping, you must Capitalize the P also.

If you capitalize H in heart, it won't give you the pic :Heart: but that's what it would look like, only use lower-case "h".

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posted September 11, 2016 04:55 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for mirage29     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Hi Lucia
I read over your posts in deeper detail, and I admire you sooo much. You GO!

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