posted October 06, 2016 09:22 PM            

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Originally posted by mereiposa:
Lucia,

I think the eclipse did bring something meaningful to you! You went to the party and realized what was lacking in your life, what you want and who you want it from. You realized you want more from your dad and you identified some real issues. This is so important, because knowing what the problem is allows you to address it!

And what is more, you saw that you are hanging on to your ex because he is the closest thing to providing that feeling of love you so desperately want. So you know and admitted to yourself it is not real, what you have from him or with him. You realized you are hanging on because it is a substitute.

That is huge! You know what you want! And you deserve it. Now focus on that, and you will manifest those loving relationships you deserve. You can do it by loving yourself and your daughter first and foremost. When you do this, you will find happiness and comfort. And then you will start attracting more of this in to your life.

Sometimes the most powerful events in our lives actually start from little triggers and realizations like this. I believe this is a very important turning point in your life.

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So a big part of the eclipse fallout/wrap-up for me as turned out to be that yesterday and today I really blew up at my dad, in a way I never had before. After my daughter's bday, my dad's wife (who I was never close to and was never a mother figure to me) initiated contact behind my back with my ex's parents. It's typical, but I got soooo furious about it. It's such a delicate and extreme situation. Anyone who "got" me would have asked first!!!
(Pls don't quote.)

I'm in a really regressive place and resentments I thought I had laid to rest or worked through all reared their ugly heads--this triggered it.