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mirage29
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posted March 07, 2017 10:38 PM
  
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Sulkyarcher
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posted March 07, 2017 10:54 PM
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Sylven
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posted March 08, 2017 12:57 AM
I can also send you some money. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted March 08, 2017 07:54 AM
That is wonderful Sylvan. I think we can, maybe, give him a little hope if we cab send him some money
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Radium
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posted March 08, 2017 10:13 AM
Well I found out I don't need a valid ID to work at most places. Since Valvoline is an oil changing car service I believe this is why I needed a valid ID.I believe most restaurants do not care, I have been hired under the table before, twice. But I am in shock at the amount of love I've received from you all. It has helped. I do desperately need a bit of cash and if you guys are seriously willing to do it my Paypal email is: jettcod@hotmail.com I feel very uneasy having to accept help. But I know I need it. I don't know what to say. I feel so ashamed. But anything helps y'all. I'm just trying to survive. I initially thought having an expired license would kill all chances of my getting employment again, but I believe this is just the fact its an automotive corporation. I am going job hunting all day today to test my luck. Thank you everyone...I am speechless. God Bless you all, seriously. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted March 08, 2017 02:43 PM
I am doing it right now! People love you. God loves you and we are all part of your journey now!------------------
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Voix_de_la_Mer
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posted March 08, 2017 02:48 PM
I am glad you have found more information Radium that makes the situation a little less bleak.Yes, you are not alone. And you are BRAVE for asking for help, please don't entertain shame, it takes so much strength to reach out to others. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted March 08, 2017 02:49 PM
Pay pal is not allowing me to send it, Radium. I'll see what I can do xxx------------------
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colorful butterfly
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posted March 08, 2017 06:14 PM
I have put this on here before but I wanted to share it again:Anything that annoys you is teaching you patience. Anyone who abandons you is teaching you how to stand own your own two feet. Anything that angers you is teaching you forgiveness and compassion. Anything that has power over you is teaching you how to take your power back. Anything you hate is teaching you unconditional love. Anything you fear is teaching you courage to overcome your fear. Anything you can not control is teaching you how to let go. The reason I wanted to share this is because I know how hard it can be to go threw life blow after blow feeling like it is too hard to get up and fight another fight. Please understand NO MATTER the circustances life hands you what goes down will eventually have to come back up. Radium, you are brave for asking for help here and anywhere you can find it. There is nothing wrong in doing so and although some people in life will be heartless not everyone is that way. Please remember life is about learning, life is about lessons, life is about making a way even when there is not one, it's problem solving and hard work. When one thing does not work , find another option or outlet. Eventually something will happen and no matter what never give up hope. When people can not give you satisfaction then , life seems cruel and punishing finding enjoyment in the little things can help you start to look up. I always find whenever I stop looking down and start looking up things work out for the better, when I do something about life vs allowing life to do me. I hope all this makes sense and I hope things start moving in your way positively. The music industry is very hard, I have an aunt who has been in it for years doing demo after demo and hasn't made it big although she was able to play music at some gigs. IP: Logged |
Sulkyarcher
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posted March 08, 2017 07:17 PM
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Originally posted by colorful butterfly:
I have put this on here before but I wanted to share it again:Anything that annoys you is teaching you patience. Anyone who abandons you is teaching you how to stand own your own two feet. Anything that angers you is teaching you forgiveness and compassion. Anything that has power over you is teaching you how to take your power back. Anything you hate is teaching you unconditional love. Anything you fear is teaching you courage to overcome your fear. Anything you can not control is teaching you how to let go. The reason I wanted to share this is because I know how hard it can be to go threw life blow after blow feeling like it is too hard to get up and fight another fight. Please understand NO MATTER the circustances life hands you what goes down will eventually have to come back up. Radium, you are brave for asking for help here and anywhere you can find it. There is nothing wrong in doing so and although some people in life will be heartless not everyone is that way. Please remember life is about learning, life is about lessons, life is about making a way even when there is not one, it's problem solving and hard work. When one thing does not work , find another option or outlet. Eventually something will happen and no matter what never give up hope. When people can not give you satisfaction then , life seems cruel and punishing finding enjoyment in the little things can help you start to look up. I always find whenever I stop looking down and start looking up things work out for the better, when I do something about life vs allowing life to do me. I hope all this makes sense and I hope things start moving in your way positively. The music industry is very hard, I have an aunt who has been in it for years doing demo after demo and hasn't made it big although she was able to play music at some gigs.
This is so beautiful. And I never thought of life as this way before! I'm still working on letting go, though. My South Node in Virgo still wants to over-analyze things.
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mirage29
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posted March 08, 2017 08:23 PM
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Originally posted by colorful butterfly:Anything that annoys you - is teaching you patience.
Anyone who abandons you - is teaching you how to stand own your own two feet.
Anything that angers you - is teaching you forgiveness and compassion.
Anything that has power over you - is teaching you how to take your power back. Anything you hate - is teaching you unconditional love.
Anything you fear - is teaching you courage to overcome your fear.
Anything you can not control - is teaching you how to let go.
{wow}...
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Radium
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posted March 08, 2017 08:25 PM
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Originally posted by colorful butterfly:
Anything you can not control is teaching you how to let go.
This stood out to me. I am so used to controlling every aspect of my life. From finding a drummer on my own to form a band, to having a successful Youtube channel run, from finding agents and auditioning successfully. I have done some really cool and talented things so far in my life and to be honest I am used to getting my way out of sheer passion. I have been a lead in a music video, been extra in some films, and managed to teach myself guitar on my own. My point is, looking back I am used to getting something when I want it, because I am a doer. But now that I have lost most of the resources (Just noticed my Saturn in 2nd transit) being evicted from my old apartment, wrecking my car, and now having to depend on others is something very hard for me to grasp. This has never happened before, and after a long talk with God this is the path I have to walk on. My life for the most part has been a straight-shot, and I've never had trouble. I am now in a position in life where I HAVE to let go. I NEED to be patient. And the good news is, I managed to get my license renewed today! I had to post up with a sign all day but I managed to get a bus ticket and find a DMV that allowed me to get it renewed. At first they stated I needed a birth certificate, but after pleading with them about my situation and finding a copy of my old college ID, I got it for $37.68. The only reason I had this money was after waiting all day on a busy street and being patient. I didn't think anyone would ever help me, because if you were to see me you wouldn't think I was homeless. I had a few people question my situation. But I kept a smile on my face and waited and got $41 bucks in three hours. My new license is on the way to my mom's house and she will send it when it arrives. I called Valvoline and they told me once I receive it, to notify them and they will get me going. I am so far in the process now I'm basically in the system. I just need to do orientation. I learned a lot today. While I'm waiting I am going to schedule an interview for Dollar General while I wait for my new ID. I already talked to the manager and he really liked me, and already gave me his good graces. So now I just have to - like you said - wait, and keep my attitude in check. I go to music stores all the time to keep my guitar skills sharp. I am able to stay on my path this way. For once in my life i don't know what will happen next, and this feeling is a double-edged sword. I am literally free, and following your dreams comes with a cost. I have to sacrifice a lot in order to be the best, cause that is what I am shooting for. I will have to sever relationships, people will not understand, but God does. I lost my mind after I thought I wouldn't be able to get another job without a valid ID. But the very next day God showed why he is so great. I have cried myself to sleep, I have given him my soul. I follow music because it's the best way I know how to serve him. I have always wanted to be a legend - yes, legend - and have said this since I was a teenager. If being great was easy, everyone would do it, but most people are scared of the unknown, hence - this is why are world is so ****** up. People don't want to struggle, people want to be comfortable. My Pisces Sun thrives on self-undoing, and my Pisces Saturn is teaching me the only way it knows how. The only way I will listen. My birth chart is becoming clearer and clearer. This is a path a must follow, and if things get sour again I guess I will have to stick it out. I hope my emotions (Moon conjunct mercury) don't take over me like they do, but this is a part of me and I hope i don't end up hurting myself because of this. I want to be a star. As bad as that sounds, it is because this is the best way for me to satisfy my ego and to help get my message across. The Lord knows when I get there I will have a lot to say. I will change the world in some type of way. I refuse to be another statistic laid out by the government. Humanity deserves more heroes and legends again. I will do this. I can't turn this off, I'd rather die right now than let the system control my life. People are too great, people are too unique to be this way, and we need more artists to bring it out of them. IP: Logged |
colorful butterfly
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posted March 08, 2017 10:04 PM
I am so glad people loved this!!! I am glad others can use it to see the world differently. Radium, I am so glad things are looking up and positive things are happening for you!!! You make the world different because you are here and was born!! I hope that you make it big in life and find the stardom that you desire but no matter the outcome, the star in you already exist because you exist. You never know the impact that you have on others, how your music ( or just you) can help to create the next president or world activist. Stardom sometimes has so many meanings vs being known by everyone. Sometimes just being a local hero is stardom in itself, sometimes showing the people around you , threw here , everywhere you go , helping others, is stardom in its own self. Sometimes just being the guy that smiles at everyone who works at the general dollar can make all the difference in how another persons day will go. A smile can really have that big of an impact, kinda like pay it forward. I could go into a big long spill about mirror neurons in the brain and let out my inner nerd but I will save you the whhhaaattt and huhs? lol ( I get that a lot) Nothing in life determines who you are, it only defines it. My aunt has made several sacrifices for her music and she has had to rely on being resourceful to make it to where she is today. ( like I say, she never has made it really big) Yet, she plays her music.
My southern node is in Pisces and northern node in Virgo.
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Ayelet
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posted March 08, 2017 10:15 PM
You are already a hero. I'm glad things are starting to work for you. Make a difference. Make someone happy with your music, if that is your intention in bringing something to this world. I see you don't wish to compromise. I'm sure you'll do the best you can. Don't worry about becoming a star. You are one. Remember that.IP: Logged |
hypatia238
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posted March 08, 2017 10:33 PM
Beautiful words colorful butterfly, it came from your heart, very moving. "You make the world different because you are here and was born!! I hope that you make it big in life and find the stardom that you desire but no matter the outcome, the star in you already exist because you exist. You never know the impact that you have on others, how your music ( or just you) can help to create the next president or world activist. Stardom sometimes has so many meanings vs being known by everyone. Sometimes just being a local hero is stardom in itself, sometimes showing the people around you , threw here , everywhere you go , helping others, is stardom in its own self. Sometimes just being the guy that smiles at everyone who works at the general dollar can make all the difference in how another persons day will go. A smile can really have that big of an impact, kinda like pay it forward." I love reading about "mirror neurons" too! IP: Logged |
mirage29
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posted March 09, 2017 12:00 AM
That's the first time I heard the term.(topic) Mirror Neurons (NOVA scienceNOW) [13:50] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xmx1qPyo8Ks  IP: Logged |
colorful butterfly
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posted March 09, 2017 12:42 AM
LOL, there are others?? I am not alone in my mirror neuron fascination??? ( sarcasm) Thank you for that, it's funny but I really enjoyed knowing someone else loves them too!!! I am a funny person so it can be hard for others to know when I am serious or being funny, I am serious though, thank you for letting me know you love them too!!! I love science and I am such a nerd. IP: Logged |
colorful butterfly
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posted March 09, 2017 12:45 AM
[QUOTE]Originally posted by mirage29:
[B]That's the first time I heard the term.
There is a book called social intelligence, it explains a lot about the biology of the brain and social interactions.
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Sylven
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posted March 09, 2017 01:18 AM
We are in this shizz together, looking out for each other. Connecting all hearts!! So happy Radium to hear there was a move inside of you! Indeed so brave to show your feelings and be vulnerable like this!! It was global womensday yesterday and I was part of a womans circle. Meditating with others. You came to me and the light in our hearts was becoming brighter and brighter. Through you I can shine my light and yours is becoming brighter and stronger. And to everyone here who's is so sweet and loving with everyone in their unique way!! Bless ya all!! Brothers and sisters!! And to anyone on here who feels similar, this is also for you!! No one is left out! IP: Logged |
kewf1988
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posted March 09, 2017 01:43 AM
I felt like this a couple weeks ago, and if it weren't for my blogging I could have actually done it... and no revolution? I'm trying to change that:
http://www.starsoverwashington.com/2017/02/a-stars-over-washington-guest-post.html http://www.starsoverwashington.com/2017/02/pluto-in-capricorn-neptune-in-pisces.html http://www.starsoverwashington.com/2017/03/liberal-media-and-conservative-media.html Pluto is in Capricorn and the US will undergo its Pluto return in 2022 before going into Aquarius, the sign of freedom, in 2023. Things basically HAVE to change with all that coming up. The elite WANT you to think that way, rather than initiate change in your own way. My blogging and connection I established with the owner of that blog (after analyzing the political ideology in her chart) is likely part of my Saturn return. I understand how you feel, especially as an Indigo adult, but everybody is special in their own way, and the controllers WANT you to feel like that, especially if you have awakened to the reality of the nature of our current system. My blogging and knowledge of the agenda have allowed me to carry on. Hang in there, and remember that there are a LOT more of us "average" (I don't know how "average" I really am, as I have pretty much all the indigo characteristics) people than there are of them. quote:
Originally posted by Radium:
I hate everyone. My family, my "friends", and this world is not welcoming to a man like me.I'm all alone. No help. I have no stability. I am at the end of my rope, I am at wit's end. This vindictive and broken heart of mine wants nothing to do with this planet anymore. It kills me to say these things because I love humanity and I seem to be much too complex for this stupid place. It wouldn't appreciate my talents, passions or progressive ideals. YOU CAN KEEP THIS ******* PLANET. AND KEEP THIS BOGUS ASS WORLD BECAUSE NONE OF YOU CARE. THE PEOPLE WHO DESERVE POWER THE MOST ARE THE ONES THAT GO THROUGH THE MOST **** . In the grand scheme of things everything is pointless. There is no hope for another revolution anymore. Everything is manufactured and programmed. I despise everything, and now everyone. IT WILL NEVER GET BETTER AND I'M TIRED OF HEARING IT WILL. Thank you for giving me a place for me to unleash my neurotic, self-sabotaging, depressive and manic tendencies. This ******* world doesn't deserve anyone like me, or anyone great anymore. Keep all your **** . Keep ******* everything. It's worthless and the universe is boring. I want to blow my brains out with a .45 I want to hang myself by the neck 10x over
I wish I could jump off a bridge
I want money so I can end my life and pain
I am lonely and unwanted
If your not making a lot of money you are nothing I am nothing
I am a blissful bag of bloody thorns **** everything and **** my legacy
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Radium
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posted March 09, 2017 09:16 AM
You guys rock.Here's a little something I made at a guitar shop! https://soundcloud.com/paul-mcfly-3/mixup IP: Logged |
Sulkyarcher
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posted March 09, 2017 10:32 AM
Radium is Sun and Saturn in Pisces! Music (Pisces) is his soul, his destiny!IP: Logged |
girlwiththerainysoul
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posted March 09, 2017 10:51 AM
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You guys rock.Here's a little something I made at a guitar shop! https://soundcloud.com/paul-mcfly-3/mixup
good job buddy! never lose hope and celebrate this new birth! 
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mirage29
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posted March 09, 2017 12:41 PM
nmthe music is not very 'edifying' to the soul, but I applaud your effort I wish some day you could produce music and lyrics that will Lift humanity. Let's get you through this time period. And I'm GLAD you have persons of Faith influencing your life? The things you feed yourself, that you steep your self in, will Grow. Think about what you want for your future, and PLEASE Plant Wisely.
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posted March 09, 2017 01:22 PM
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nmthe music is not very 'edifying' to the soul, but I applaud your effort I wish some day you could produce music and lyrics that will Lift humanity. Let's get you through this time period. And I'm GLAD you have persons of Faith influencing your life? The things you feed yourself, that you steep your self in, will Grow. Think about what you want for your future, and PLEASE Plant Wisely.
beautiful words life is found in following our heart, and the light within us calling us to our passions IP: Logged |
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