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Topic: Ending it
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Radium Knowflake Posts: 278 From: Registered: Jul 2016
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posted March 10, 2017 12:03 PM
great, now my phone isn't charging anymore.......Am I cursed. IP: Logged |
Sulkyarcher Knowflake Posts: 1133 From: Registered: Dec 2013
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posted March 10, 2017 05:33 PM
Radium, it seems that your Sun conjunct Saturn really is harsh. Saturn doesn't make things light and easy! Trust me, I know it too much. If you can't relate to me, that's fine. I believe that it's Saturn in Sagittarius and Neptune in Pisces that is driving your life so topsy turvy right now. Saturn in Sagittarius is squaring your Pisces Sun and Saturn. And then Neptune is transiting your Sun and Saturn too. Sounds like what you're going through is a long term outer planet transit (Neptune in Pisces transit). Just look to astrology for faith and trust. But outer planet transits can suck lollipops! Just realize that you're going through rough transits right now. Astrology is a great tool for faith and trust, but that's just me. IP: Logged |
Radium Knowflake Posts: 278 From: Registered: Jul 2016
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posted March 10, 2017 05:47 PM
Oh don't worry. I don't give a rat's ass about anything anymore. Expectations for life is now at zero. Tired of the pain and false optimism. I am done trying. Whatever happens - happens. The skies ain't showing me any love right now. Maybe it's time for me to just go with the flow and just "be". IP: Logged |
hypatia238 Moderator Posts: 6448 From: Registered: Sep 2014
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posted March 10, 2017 06:05 PM
Saturn is conjuncting my neptune and squaring my sun and it sucksss and hurts specially when you realize that transit dejanira is opposing saturn right now.. Dejanira is in Gemini @26d.Check out my mutable placement at late degrees thread, I talk about how transit saturn opposite tr dejanira the victim asteroid feels like to me. Radium, tr saturn opposite tr dejanira is forming a tsquare with your sun at the apex!!
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mirage29 Knowflake Posts: 7188 From: us Registered: May 2012
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posted March 10, 2017 06:22 PM
quote: Originally posted by Radium: ......Am I cursed.
Only if you continue with that kind of self-talk???! {{ }} You need to think about changing your speech, and re-arranging your attitude. Reframe. Your phone problem will be temporary, and good for you to wake up to your responsibilities! Accept that you have a new job and BRAND NEW opportunity to Build a Life for yourself. You've been HOMELESS for at LEAST half a year now????? What have you been DOING with your Time? Your Resources?? STILL spending whatever money Getting HIGH???? I've seen a few of the older 'Radium' posts you've done. I didn't know that you are the resurrected McFly. You did a similar *suicide-drama* thing earlier than this episode here at Lindaland. You've had people worried SICK about you. ........ Don't manipulate and abuse people like that here EVER again. DO your recovery work. Work really really really HARD this time. The people here are GENUINELY Sensitive Supportive and CARING individuals. People SHOWED you Kindness and Mercy, and BENT OVER BACKWARDS to actually HELP you here. Some EVEN Trusted you, and sent you Money!!! *big giant Believing and MEGA-GIVING Hearts!!!!* Don't Abuse that!!!! And you'd better not be turning around and using THESE GOOD PEOPLE'S money on DRUGS! Time that you begin to show 'sincere' efforts at Change. I *care* about you, and soooo many people came to your Rescue Call. Now, Time to show some respect .. Straighten your attitude, and BE GRATEFUL that you have people here that have CARED sooo much. You are 21 YEARS old! And I actually suspect that your mom must have thrown you out because you were wasted on DRUGS, and being 'arrogant' with her, and disrespectful-- .... (from what I gathered from a post I saw that you did in Hearth&Home Forum). You may have just brought this whole event to a HEAD where you have been homeless for MONTHS!!!!!, all by yourself. And actually, there IS a Blessing in it? This period of your life COULD turn out to be the BEST THING that ever happened to you, for really REAL. YOU Decide. And I say that with Tremendous Wide SUPPORT and Deep Kindness in my Heart towards you. *Alien* **Extreme-Homework ASSIGNMENT** {{j/kidding}} okay, it's silly but!!!!! Watch inspirational 1960's Walt Disney gurl-movie Pollyanna, with Haley Mills. She had HER community surround and give back to HER too, when adversity hit her hard. (topic) Pollyanna (1960) Disney Home Video Australia Trailer [1:26] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XVtLP5tfpCA And! (big humor here)... There's a side-effect to watching. You might start to LOOK like this!!! (clip) Wednesday Addams' creepy smile (after watching syrupy inspirational movie classics) [0:20] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=buZZyUBwymA Be ENCOURAGED. We are FOR you! {{{Hug!!!}} Take Good Care of Yourself. IP: Logged |
Radium Knowflake Posts: 278 From: Registered: Jul 2016
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posted March 10, 2017 07:28 PM
Ok, mirage.I say a lot of things out of emotions but I am NO manipulator! What in the **** have you gotten from all of my posts? You don't KNOW me or my mom. I have been homeless for a couple of months. Not half a ******* year. My situation is a lot of my SELF-DOING. I really WANT to be a star. I really WANT to be an entertainer, and I HAVE put in the work. I lived with my mom for a damn MONTH. I have been away from family since I was EIGHTEEN, but I have always had some sort of SHELTER. Now that I've gotten in a CAR WRECK, lost jobs due to STABILITY, lost my OWN apartment cross country at TWENTY, and bought a crappy phone DOES NOT mean I ASKED to be in THIS situation. I WILL not CHANGE my mind on the things I hold dear to me, and because my FAITH and VISIONS are not ALIGNED with the AMERICAN agenda does NOT mean I thought it would EVER be this difficult. I am a MAN and I won't go back to what's comfortable so I can be CONTENT. I am on a MISSION and if I have to lose EVERYTHING and DO IT MYSELF from the GROUND UP, I will. I don't even have money to GET where I need to be for my orientation so Dollar General is out the window. Although I tend to complain about my unpleasantries it does not DEFINE me. If you REALLY want to get to know me how about you CONTINUE to support me and not judge my ass. Yes, I did put myself in this position but just because someone is going through it does not mean it is entirely their fault. I am NOT a VICTIM and have never claimed to be, I have just CLAIMED to be tired of my BAD luck. Don't ever come at me like that again that is the last thing I need and this is EXACTLY why I DIDN'T want to ask for help. Out of the kindness out of some users hearts they OFFERED. I didn't get anything from anyone here but emotional support which is what I've wanted. You TRY to be in my shoes and see if it's easy to see the light every waking moment. Have a good night in your cozy bed and I hope you have a great day at work tomorrow. IP: Logged |
Sulkyarcher Knowflake Posts: 1133 From: Registered: Dec 2013
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posted March 10, 2017 07:32 PM
quote: Originally posted by mirage29: Only if you continue with that kind of self-talk???! {{ }} You need to think about changing your speech, and re-arranging your attitude. Reframe. Your phone problem will be temporary, and good for you to wake up to your responsibilities! Accept that you have a new job and BRAND NEW opportunity to Build a Life for yourself. You've been HOMELESS for at LEAST half a year now????? What have you been DOING with your Time? Your Resources?? STILL spending whatever money Getting HIGH???? I've seen a few of the older 'Radium' posts you've done. I didn't know that you are the resurrected McFly. You did a similar *suicide-drama* thing earlier than this episode here at Lindaland. You've had people worried SICK about you. ........ Don't manipulate and abuse people like that here EVER again. DO your recovery work. Work really really really HARD this time. The people here are GENUINELY Sensitive Supportive and CARING individuals. People SHOWED you Kindness and Mercy, and BENT OVER BACKWARDS to actually HELP you here. Some EVEN Trusted you, and sent you Money!!! *big giant Believing and MEGA-GIVING Hearts!!!!* Don't Abuse that!!!! And you'd better not be turning around and using THESE GOOD PEOPLE'S money on DRUGS! Time that you begin to show 'sincere' efforts at Change. [b]I *care* about you, and soooo many people came to your Rescue Call. Now, Time to show some respect .. Straighten your attitude, and BE GRATEFUL that you have people here that have CARED sooo much. You are 21 YEARS old! And I actually suspect that your mom must have thrown you out because you were wasted on DRUGS, and being 'arrogant' with her, and disrespectful-- .... (from what I gathered from a post I saw that you did in Hearth&Home Forum). You may have just brought this whole event to a HEAD where you have been homeless for MONTHS!!!!!, all by yourself. And actually, there IS a Blessing in it? This period of your life COULD turn out to be the BEST THING that ever happened to you, for really REAL. YOU Decide. And I say that with Tremendous Wide SUPPORT and Deep Kindness in my Heart towards you. *Alien* **Extreme-Homework ASSIGNMENT** {{j/kidding}} okay, it's silly but!!!!! Watch inspirational 1960's Walt Disney gurl-movie Pollyanna, with Haley Mills. She had HER community surround and give back to HER too, when adversity hit her hard. (topic) Pollyanna (1960) Disney Home Video Australia Trailer [1:26] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XVtLP5tfpCA And! (big humor here)... There's a side-effect to watching. You might start to LOOK like this!!! (clip) Wednesday Addams' creepy smile (after watching syrupy inspirational movie classics) [0:20] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=buZZyUBwymA Be ENCOURAGED. We are FOR you! {{{Hug!!!}} Take Good Care of Yourself.[/B]
I don't believe he was being manipulative, just at a very low emotional place, needed help badly. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 71147 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted March 10, 2017 08:08 PM
I don't believe he was being manipulative, just at a very low emotional place, needed help badly. of course not! ------------------ Want to Read Simple, Fun,Sexy Articles on Astrology? Check Me Out, DUDE. http://www.mychristianpsychic.com/
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Sulkyarcher Knowflake Posts: 1133 From: Registered: Dec 2013
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posted March 10, 2017 08:40 PM
quote: Originally posted by Ami Anne: [b]I don't believe he was being manipulative, just at a very low emotional place, needed help badly. of course not! [/B]
Some stars struggle before they hit it big, maybe Radium will be on TV one day! IP: Logged |
mirage29 Knowflake Posts: 7188 From: us Registered: May 2012
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posted March 10, 2017 09:09 PM
quote: Originally posted by Sulkyarcher: I don't believe he was being manipulative, just at a very low emotional place, needed help badly.
Thank you for your kind comment, Sulky. I don't doubt at all that he was in a low emotional place. And, he is not alone. Radium... Quietly. I got the info through using the LL search engine.
If you search the internet for 'Radium', and for 'Paul McFly' you'll find a surprising 'journal' of all your experiences here at LL. Might be valuable some day if you DO get famous for 'good' and right reasons. Maybe you'll need a bio when you take your show on the road, and you'll have a few stories already written for you to borrow from. Some stepping stones that you will be able to gain insights as you see your progress. I've also seen you compare yourself and your life to a chart of a man who burned out, and died from drug overdose. The things you Listen to, and Hold as an Image in your head, can work FOR you, and, against if you haven't yet-understood the power of the words you repeat to yourself, over and over again. You'll always be presented with forks in the road, with choices to make. Choose the Higher Road. It's HARDER, but you'll build yourself up in character and integrity. You're not the only one with a 'hard' chart. I'll be 62 at the end of May. I've endured things that you have NO idea about.... (including my present home life).
And if you pray, remember to thank God that you are an Able-bodied Man, capable of working, and a future ahead of you of supporting your own self. I know you have a passion for music? But seriously, establish your foundations first by having a steady job. Learn a trade and become skilled in something other than music, so that you can always have something to fall back on in lean times, or in-between times. I have a brother who gained a bit of renown as a Musician. But our Dad had also taught him basic carpentry skills. It was THAT side-skill he acquired that 'supported' him in the off-times when he was traveling and negotiating performance contracts. He even went overseas to live and work, and his carpentry skills supported him there too.
Find a hardskill you can do. Get trained and skillful in some kind of trade (with your hands, etc). Get some of you aptitude tests done. Find out what you are actually good at doing, (non-musical). It's okay to dream dream dream about your music career. But to think you can be an instant success?.... Gently, please. Work on getting an audition for The Voice--- if you think you're ready? Look up previous episodes and LISTEN to their stories about 'how' some (who were homeless themselves) survived and supported themselves until they passed auditions, etc. Have you tried to access work programs, where they even give you a place to stay? The times we live in right now are VERY serious. This administration has promised good jobs? (Unless you have an interest in retail?, your handsome charm will only get you so far... Some people make fabulous money being a waiter? (I say this because of your attractiveness?) ... Find a job in a restaurant where they also have 'open-mic' nights? ... Establish a GOOD reputation, and it can open doors for you. PROVE yourself as faithful and steady and Honest, and not afraid of hard work. You'll be noticed, and your name WILL be mentioned throughout whatever community you are a part of. A Good Reputation has Value. Sending you GOOD vibes, and very Good Wishes.
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Radium Knowflake Posts: 278 From: Registered: Jul 2016
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posted March 11, 2017 09:33 AM
Dude just leave me alone mirage. IP: Logged |
CapriciousCapricorn Knowflake Posts: 1089 From: Registered: Sep 2015
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posted March 11, 2017 10:31 AM
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teasel Knowflake Posts: 9721 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted March 11, 2017 11:12 AM
quote: Originally posted by Radium: Dude just leave me alone mirage.
I'm going through this, too. I would have been upset if mirage had written the previous post to me too, BUT - but you really don't know what she has been through. And she still came back, and was lovely to you. IP: Logged |
soren Knowflake Posts: 3594 From: where are atoms from Registered: Sep 2012
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posted March 11, 2017 12:37 PM
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CapriciousCapricorn Knowflake Posts: 1089 From: Registered: Sep 2015
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posted March 11, 2017 12:44 PM
'another old guy'?? SmhIP: Logged |
soren Knowflake Posts: 3594 From: where are atoms from Registered: Sep 2012
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posted March 11, 2017 12:46 PM
why did you say "mirage29" two posts aboveIP: Logged |
hypatia238 Moderator Posts: 6448 From: Registered: Sep 2014
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posted March 11, 2017 01:37 PM
Ok lets move on. Mirage was trying to give good advice, Radium is free to not accept it or welcome it, she is free to give it. They can agree to disagree. Lets move on. Thanks. IP: Logged |
soren Knowflake Posts: 3594 From: where are atoms from Registered: Sep 2012
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posted March 11, 2017 01:41 PM
already did. IP: Logged |
hypatia238 Moderator Posts: 6448 From: Registered: Sep 2014
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posted March 11, 2017 02:23 PM
quote: Originally posted by soren: already did.
That was a general comment directed at everyone. IP: Logged |
soren Knowflake Posts: 3594 From: where are atoms from Registered: Sep 2012
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posted March 11, 2017 02:24 PM
i could tell i was the only one who held it up. after my post mirage moved on, so did radium. cause i said what they already both were thinking. after that i was the only hostile one. but i already moved on. 10 hours ago. IP: Logged |
soren Knowflake Posts: 3594 From: where are atoms from Registered: Sep 2012
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posted March 11, 2017 02:29 PM
i didnt know the mods had private forums. tell me, what do you do in your secret meetings? do you talk about users? interesting. i did not know i was being left out of something. not that i want to join. i just didnt know that existed. kind of like the illuminati, the higher ups. converging in laughter IP: Logged |
hypatia238 Moderator Posts: 6448 From: Registered: Sep 2014
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posted March 11, 2017 03:15 PM
quote: Originally posted by soren: i didnt know the mods had private forums. tell me, what do you do in your secret meetings? do you talk about users? interesting. i did not know i was being left out of something. not that i want to join. i just didnt know that existed. kind of like the illuminati, the higher ups. converging in laughter
What are you talking about sweetie?? Mods dont have private forums. You should know by now I am very fond of you. Like I said that comment was a general comment as an attempt to keep things peaceful and prevent things from escalating. IP: Logged |
soren Knowflake Posts: 3594 From: where are atoms from Registered: Sep 2012
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posted March 11, 2017 03:23 PM
i didnt say they said anything mean. i saw it on the questions and answers page for LL. i accidently got directed to it, and found that users can delete their own posts, it suggests that you can. haha. IP: Logged |
hypatia238 Moderator Posts: 6448 From: Registered: Sep 2014
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posted March 11, 2017 03:26 PM
quote: Originally posted by soren: i didnt say they said anything mean. i saw it on the questions and answers page for LL. i accidently got directed to it, and found that users can delete their own posts, it suggests that you can. haha.
Interesting, I have never been able to delete my own posts and I have been here since 2011, I use to be amelia28.... IP: Logged |
soren Knowflake Posts: 3594 From: where are atoms from Registered: Sep 2012
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posted March 11, 2017 03:28 PM
what.. you were amelia??? i think i liked her i will search her name and see if its who i thought it was. i think she might have been in a hygiea post i made. and nah those were made when the site first got started. things have changed since the beginning. IP: Logged |