posted August 06, 2021 06:29 AM            

I found this to be so uncanny and ironic, like how crazy that I have gravitated to this country that happens to be right on these lines?

What Ive heard about these lines so far seems to be good. However I still dont want to get my hopes up.
Just recently I decided to apply for a government scholarship they offer to foreign students. I seem to meet the qualifications.
Im nervous, but so far good things seemed to be happening to the point where I expect a downfall lol I dont want to get ahead of myself. Im nervous about being accepted for this scholarship.

It has been my dream for so long now, to go to this place. Ive cried so many times because I wanted to be there, and because how difficult it is to leave my mom behind.

My mom for the longest time did not accept my plan to go at all. Just lately she has decided to hear me out and actually listen and learn about the country. It's still very hard on her. She has a hard time letting me go. But for years now my mom was the reason I held back from going.
It's such a hard decision seeing my mom being down these past few days. She overthinks everything, she's acting like Ive already been accepted when I haven't! lol Im not counting on it just yet.

So much has been happening lately with my family that it honestly all feels so surreal on top of this all. My birth mom (I call my grandma mom since she raised me) and sister are finally moving out which we never though could happen. After over 20 years living in the same house (the house I lived my whole life in) my mom and grandpa are going to have to move soon, as my grandpas work is closing down soon and our rent keeps going up. My uncle is moving to Vegas. So much all at once. If I were to get accepted for the scholarship wed all move around the same time. Life has been repetition in our family with nothing exciting going on for any of us that this is all happening at once.

Im not sure if this is a good sign. People around seem to think I won't like it in the other country. I dont know, Im worried about that but Im not going to overthink all of it to where I lose out on an opportunity. Even though it pains me to leave my mom. I feel like I have nothing going for me. I feel sad a lot, to where I feel like an empty shell of a human.

I only wish my leaving wouldn't affect anyone. Ive almost thought about not going because of my mom, but ultimately I know being unhappy isn't good for me either. If my grandparents move to Vegas with my uncle then Id feel a bit better about leaving my family behind, because we have even more family in Vegas, and my moms nephew whose like a son to her lives there. She might have more fun there. I hope everything works out for everyone.

When anyways sorry about the long vent. I guess my actual question is what would having a moon and Jupiter IC line through this country represent? Could I possibly plant my roots here? Does it look good long term or is there a catch?

posted August 07, 2021 02:36 PM            

Super auspicious!

The main country that seems to benefit me loads according to chartography regarding Jupiter is India. But I have no desire to go there at all :\

And according to the same, where I live, there is failure and misery... which is true... **sigh**