posted January 16, 2023 10:40 AM
I had transit south node over my 9H Sag Mars, Venus and Pluto (closely conjunct) From Late July to Early November 2021.In August I met a soulmate, from the moment I met him I felt like I had known him my entire life. SN was directly on his NN the day we met.
We immediately clicked and hit it off. He travelled a lot for work so I only saw him in person intermittently, but interacted with me on social media every chance he could. Eventually something happened which made me realize he could be playing me or stringing me along. He was gone for the month so I let him react to my Stories for the month, without much response, until he came home.
I kept feeling this FORCE, this deep voice that told me to confront him about it. I could have easily kept our interactions going, it was working out in my favor, I could have turned a blind eye-- but I could not ignore this FORCE saying, "Don't let this slide, talk to him."
So I gently told him to stop reacting with my stories, since I was told he already had a girl. He immediately became defensive, saying he broke it off with her already, but it was crystal clear he felt defeated, embarrassed, ashamed. I think he was ashamed of himself more than embarrassed he was caught. To be fair to him, he wasn't cheating, but it was clear he had a girl obsessed with him on the side, he probably felt it was okay to flirt since they weren't official or exclusive. Yet she came into our work and made it clear she wanted to be with him...
INTERESTINGLY, I rejected him when t. South Node conjuncted his natal 8H Scoprpio Pluto.
Almost immediately after, he met another girl, who is obsessed with him, right when transit t. Pluto conjuncted her natal SN. Her Scorpio moon conjuncts his Pluto in his 8H and her Pluto conjuncts his NN. She also has a Taurus stellium that was being transited by the NN.
We haven't talked much but it is sooooo obvious to me and everyone that there is unfinished business between us, that our story isn't over.
Pluto retrograded away from her SN, but is about to conjunct it again any day from now. Interestingly, I can tell their fizz is falling flat, and the universe keeps forcing him and I to interact. Lo and behold, he is now beginning to talk to me again. It is very, very obvious he feels a connection with me, he's really doing the most to get back on my good side. Yet I'm not amused.
It seems Pluto/SN brings in soulmates. With his in Scorpio 8H, I know his psyche is being transformed right now. I know this is a very transformational time for him. With her, I know obsession, desire, and control are a huge issue for her. He won't commit and she's obsessed with him.
I find it BIZARRE how impactful Pluto transits are. When Pluto squared my sun, it was truly my rock bottom. Now, it is very surreal to watch as Pluto works again. Especially since I felt like the universe was asking me to tell him to stop talking to me. It almost felt like it wasn't my choice... I knew it would be for the best, that it was needed and necessary, but I could have EASILY just waved it by and said well, lets see what will happen.
But something told me he needed to change, that being rejected by me would trigger a cold hard look into the mirror, that I needed to reject him. And I did, and I cried at the time. Even though his behavior was not attractive to me, at all, I know he's a soulmate and I know my SOUL loves him. So rejecting him hurt me.
But I know that FORCE was Pluto. Realizing that is relieving and beautiful, too... watching Fate and The Universe play out in real time, knowing I was an agent in that, knowing there is some larger plan.