posted September 01, 2024 01:39 PM            

Throughout my childhood,I have always felt alone and "other". Even from my family. Like someone on the outside looking in. And this perspective has not helped me find a sense of home anywhere.

I have been looking for a place to feel connected to. My Moon is in the 3rd house in Placidus. Moon rules the Ic. So people with Moon in the 12th house from their 4th, tend to feel disconnected from roots. And struggle to establish them anywhere.

I often think that if I was to be on the road constantly and fulfilling the Moon in 3rd house position, would that be the answer?

I have long ignored my Sun in 9th house "travel" aspect. Thinking that mental travel was enough. And that conversing with foreigners would suffice.

But perhaps I should make it literal? North node (Rahu) being in house 2 of stability would suggest no matter how much I accumulate. I will never feel "secure". I will always want more.

I haven't accumulated much in this life. I would have loved to. But I don't have a lot of things that (at this age) I should have. And sometimes when I think of that, I get really sad about it. Like a life that is wasted.

Without a sense of home and without anything I own, what is holding me back really? Fear?

Moon in Leo is in 4th but will progress to my 5th house by tomorrow. With these thoughts is the internal interrogation of why I never wanted to have children.
And I think that the pain from my childhood informed that decision.

I don't feel like I have anything to give someone else. When I feel empty myself. I will just damage them. And I don't want to continue that cycle.

posted September 02, 2024 10:06 AM            

I thought I would share some of the witching I’ve been up to:

*I just happened to do two things yesterday that needed to be done on a waning moon one was an onion ritual
*I also started making an uncrossing bath salt that said to pour salt in the bowl on the waning moon.
*I have two white candles burning in my room. One has a very personal meaning to me with a lot of personal touches and intentions to it. And the other is a “Home Linen” candle. My bedroom seriously smells like the laundry mat! It’s New Moon in my Virgo 4th house AF!
*I’m also doing a free spiritual coaching that usually costs 200 dollars today at 4pm
*I’ve been eating my apples that I washed in my full moon water.
*Ive been preparing multiple ritual baths. I think I’ll take one today. I couldn’t do it yesterday because my nieces and nephews came over. We had a kid friendly feast. Also finished the apple cake I made, that I also burned an intention candle on before sharing.
*At the RenFest I bought cornflowers dried to add to my ritual baths.
*I also bought a candle that is shaped like a ghost!

posted September 03, 2024 04:14 PM            

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Originally posted by Aries23Degrees:
Mars is currently applying to tightly oppose my Neptune/Sun conj. I am feeling a little tender. Issues stemming from my childhood are coming up. I thought i had addressed them. But perhaps not❤🙆🏿‍♂️

Throughout my childhood,I have always felt alone and "other". Even from my family. Like someone on the outside looking in. And this perspective has not helped me find a sense of home anywhere.

I have been looking for a place to feel connected to. My Moon is in the 3rd house in Placidus. Moon rules the Ic. So people with Moon in the 12th house from their 4th, tend to feel disconnected from roots. And struggle to establish them anywhere.

I often think that if I was to be on the road constantly and fulfilling the Moon in 3rd house position, would that be the answer?

I have long ignored my Sun in 9th house "travel" aspect. Thinking that mental travel was enough. And that conversing with foreigners would suffice.

But perhaps I should make it literal? North node (Rahu) being in house 2 of stability would suggest no matter how much I accumulate. I will never feel "secure". I will always want more.

I haven't accumulated much in this life. I would have loved to. But I don't have a lot of things that (at this age) I should have. And sometimes when I think of that, I get really sad about it. Like a life that is wasted.

Without a sense of home and without anything I own, what is holding me back really? Fear?

Moon in Leo is in 4th but will progress to my 5th house by tomorrow. With these thoughts is the internal interrogation of why I never wanted to have children.
And I think that the pain from my childhood informed that decision.

I don't feel like I have anything to give someone else. When I feel empty myself. I will just damage them. And I don't want to continue that cycle.

It a sad post.I know. I just had to put it out there because it's been bothering me to keep it in.❤

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posted September 03, 2024 05:20 PM            

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Originally posted by frida:
Second or third week of Uranus at 27*13 to 27*15 Taurus, stationary, just turned retrograde. My Asc at 27*14 Leo. I wouldn't even know where to start - I'm so overwhelmed. I am finishing up some extremely important things so it's all good. But man, it feels like a lot.

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WTF I have a Leo Ascendant at the same exact degree, tracking your replies to see what I am up for now.

posted September 03, 2024 05:20 PM            

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Originally posted by frida:
Second or third week of Uranus at 27*13 to 27*15 Taurus, stationary, just turned retrograde. My Asc at 27*14 Leo. I wouldn't even know where to start - I'm so overwhelmed. I am finishing up some extremely important things so it's all good. But man, it feels like a lot.

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posted September 03, 2024 05:36 PM            

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Originally posted by frida:
I am sure you have a lot to give. You are always giving, generous, kind and thoughtful here on the forum! And a deep thinker. The world needs deep thinkers.

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posted September 04, 2024 10:42 AM            

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Originally posted by plutonianmenace:
WTF I have a Leo Ascendant at the same exact degree, tracking your replies to see what I am up for now.
http://imgur.com/rrW7MY9

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posted September 08, 2024 07:57 AM            

I won't be hasty. I will see what occurs when trans Mars hits my Natal Moon/ Merc/Mars T-square in Oct.It will do that 2 more times next year April 2025.

The first hit in Oct this year, will coincide with prog Moon Cap @21Deg around the 11th of Oct. I hope that that is a job.🙏🏿 I need money coming in. Coz the hits are CRAZY.

Trans Sun in 18Lib
Trans Moon in 20Cap
Trans Merc in 23Cap
Trans Mars in 18Can

My placements are;
Natal Moon in 17Can
Natal Merc in 16 Cap
Natal Mars in 18 Lib
Natal Asc in 20 Ari
Natal Mc/Ic in 22 Cap/Can

And then around April 2025, trans Mars 29 Can(direct) will be on my prog Moon 28Cap by opp and squaring natal Plu 1Sco and trans Plu 3Aqu.

Natally Merc sits in my 10th, Mars in 7th ,Moon in 4th. Mercury rules 3rd, Mars rules 7th and Moon rules 4th(whole sign).

Trans Jup Gem21 will oppose natal Jup 23Sag. And trans retro Sat Pis 13 will be trine natal Saturn 13Sco and square natal Ura 10Sag. Venus will be conj Venus in house 8.

Will I be learning something new at this new place? Natally, Jupiter is in 9th, Saturn in 8th, Venus in 8th and Ura in 9th.

Jup rules 9th & 12th, Saturn rules 10th & 11th, Venus rules 7th and 2nd,Ura co-rules 11th.

posted September 08, 2024 12:49 PM            

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Originally posted by frida:
Nice, so there’s 3 of us so far here that I know of with Asc at 27* Leo I saw your other post about some of the challenges you are facing right now. I hope things start getting resolved soon! This is a major transit, ultimately it should be for the best. I have Uranus square Asc natally so this transit doesn’t feel like something new. It feels very familiar but sped up.

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posted September 09, 2024 07:24 AM            

Too many things happening in my chart.

Uranus is squaring my Ascendant, Saturn, opposing Pluto, IC. Chiron squaring my stellia in the 5h.

posted September 10, 2024 11:04 AM            

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Originally posted by angryant2021:
Gonna find out tomorrow if my tumor is cancerous or not... Super overwhelmed at the moment and totally unexpected. Really not happy to do surgery twice within 6 months. I blame Pluto transiting my 6h!!

Too many things happening in my chart.

Uranus is squaring my Ascendant, Saturn, opposing Pluto, IC. Chiron squaring my stellia in the 5h.

Neptune is sesq. Jupiter which rules my 5h. Curious..

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I'm so sorry you're going through his. Saturn/Pluto in hard aspect is a tough one. I noticed t-Saturn in a conj/square/opp to natal Pluto in a very obvious pattern of life altering events such as the passing of a parent (in my case opp and conj with mom & dad both and the square with grandma) etc. You have the aspect natally and with the hard corner of t-Uranus coming in you would expect altering events with abruption and unexpectedness.

Truly hope the result of your surgery will be fine

@ I should've added my natal Pluto is exact conjunct my natal Sun/Moon midpoint so you might say it's all very amplified personally. When t-Saturn squared this point I heard I had cancer (about 22 years ago now, it was all fine after surgery but changed life for good).

posted September 11, 2024 12:51 AM            

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Originally posted by angryant2021:
Gonna find out tomorrow if my tumor is cancerous or not... Super overwhelmed at the moment and totally unexpected. Really not happy to do surgery twice within 6 months. I blame Pluto transiting my 6h!!

Too many things happening in my chart.

Uranus is squaring my Ascendant, Saturn, opposing Pluto, IC. Chiron squaring my stellia in the 5h.

Neptune is sesq. Jupiter which rules my 5h. Curious..

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posted September 13, 2024 01:39 AM            

I woke up really upset. Angry. This often happens with Mars interacting with planets by natal or transits.

I am p***d off about situations from the past. Things that happened to me that at the time, I didn't realize were really unfair.

Online sites see this aspect as positive -a time for relationship build-ups and romantic leanings etc.

I don't experience it that way. Mars transits or transit of planets in aspect to natal Mars, typically bring tension and even severance of ties . Sometimes even an tense bottleneck situations ime.

I woke up ready to tell people off. That is not exactly "relationship building". I am familiar with this state. Moon-Mercury-Mars square is similar. Mars doesn't like dealing with people (romantic or otherwise). Period.

Natal Mars in 7th.So the Venus transit on there will just encourage the severance of ties or increased irritability with them.

Injuries sustained during this transit could be head related I.e Butting heads, heated exchanges with people or even physical altercations etc. If I am not the heated one. Someone else will be.

posted September 14, 2024 09:16 AM            

1. THE ECLISPES
Last years eclipse made me super disregulated. I even experienced feeling super emotional and overwhelmed and started freaking out at a party. I ended changing jobs around that time too.
I don’t know why but this eclipse is trigging the one that happened in March. Some astrologer said so and it’s like “damn it’s true” It’s squares my Jupiter Cancer house 2: feeling at home, travel, spirituality, optimism, self esteem, possessions, feelings. The turning point of that was working on my self esteem in a spiritual way. But also shopping more than I am comfortable with. Well being at almost at the 6 months later/half way point. I had an issue with my money over the summer and now I can’t really do that. Also I started working back at the school on August 26th AND for some reason I won’t get my first paycheck for this school year until the 20th. There is also this spiritual blog group that I am involved with that has been super helpful and there have free services but also some stuff that is decently priced and some particular things that will have me dropping a wad. I am really thinking about doing the thing that has me dropping a wad.
I notice the solar eclipses I cope with better…I think. I’m sort of paying better attention now.
This upcoming lunar is in Pisces so yes themes of spirituality, letting go. GUYS Saturn in Pisces has helped me quit vapping, smoking cigs, weed….and I haven’t had alcohol in about 3 weeks. I’ve cut down on caffeine. This theme isn’t going anywhere I tell you. This eclipse is sextile MY SATURN. Positive aspect to Saturn. So my Saturn is Capricorn. I did get a message that another job change is coming. 9th house travel, spirituality, higher education. And Pisces in the later degrees is my 11th house. I am starting to have a lot of friends who don’t drink. This seems to be a huge millennial trend.

2.Chiron has been conjunct my Sun this week. I’ve been feeling hella overwhelmed. Very selective who I give my social time to. This is my 11th house. I do not like Chiron retro. I don’t get the amount of space I need to unmask and process my feelings. I feel very stuck and blocked with my independence. And I think cutting caffeine has made me more blunt and I think that’s okay.

3. Sun is in the 4th house. Highlighting home life. I need more stay home days. I need to be alone and not living alone has been impacting my mental health too much. I have been facing the music lately that I grew up in an environment where I don’t feel safe to express my feelings, and how it’s impacted my social, romantic, and professional relationships. Being around emotionally dismissive people is actually worse than being alone. And being alone is one of the only times I ever feel at peace. It feels safe. I’d rather be in a haunted house than around people most of the time since people are kind of the real monsters.

posted September 15, 2024 03:13 AM            

It's a very strange thing to suddenly feel angry emotions for yourself/others. Being irritated and offensive in interactions with others😶