posted July 27, 2024 12:01 PM            

I'm curious about what went down when transit Neptune squared your natal Venus.

I'll go first:

From around 2012-2015, when Neptune was in the first decan of Pisces, Neptune was squaring my natal Pluto, Venus, and Mars (3, 5, 9 deg Sag, respectfully) and also was conjuncting my Moon at 4 deg Pisces. So, it was a big one.

I was starting high school then, which in hindsight I think is a decent time to have this aspect, as the nature of the aspect is somewhat compatible with a young teenager figuring things out.

Anyways, this time was pure escapism for me. No other way about it.

I had a rough family life and during this time I coped by purely dissociating my way through life. I was in limerence for someone that barely knew I existed. He was in a few of my classes, but we barely talked. I pined for this guy for YEARS, and it was at its worst in the year 2013. I pined for him in a very delusional way, it wasn't based at all in reality. In all honesty I used him to project my ideals about what I wanted in a partner. I was fantasizing, dreaming, imagining about our perfect relationship... but I didn't talk to him!

Instead, I spent all of my time on Tumblr, lol. Instead of engaging with the real world, I spent this time with my headphones on, lost in music, lost in Tumblr.

It sounds sad, and it honestly was. I was very depressed during this time, and I felt my home life was so chaotic and bad that I just needed to escape into fantasy land where things were lovey and perfect.

This era was one big maladaptive daydream.

When the transit ended, so did my infatuation, and I was able to actually engage in the world. Now, ten years later, I feel so much more grown and REAL compared to then.

I wasn't into astrology then so I didn't know it was my Neptune transit. Yet, looking back, I definitely felt the impact of it.