posted March 05, 2025 04:01 AM            

I am in my 40s, and I definitely feel I worked a lot on my North node by now. It's in Leo in 12th house, conjunct Moon. Sure, there's always more work do be done, but I am quite comfortable with it. And I somehow feel the pull to work on South Node themes again at this point in life - it conjuncts Venus. Specifically, focus more on art and creativity. I feel that I had a lifetime where I was a successful singer and I miss it - play, performance, music, all of it. This life is so dull without it. If money was not a concern, I'd quit my job and change careers.

Maybe that's normal, to revisit the old and integrate with the new? I understand that going back to South Node sabotage us and prevent us from growing. Is there a point when it's OK and it's not really a sabotage? We still have to express that planet that conjuncts the South Node.

posted March 05, 2025 11:09 PM            

@SleepyDiary, duh, thank you for pointing that out! Yes, of course, it makes sense that Leo NN in 12th house is very creative. I get things mixed up sometimes because Venus rules my Taurus MC, so I associate it with my career. And Venus is beauty, voice/singing among other things. I'm definitely not bringing enough of it into my career currently.

Hm, when reading a chart with a planet conjunct SN, do we need to separate the pitfalls of that planet from the manifestation of it's strengths in our lives? E.g. Saturn is restriction and inhibition, and maybe there's karmic debt in that regard if it conjuncts SN, but it also represents good qualities such as discipline and hard work and we need to embrace those. In my case, Venus rules my Taurus MC so I have to embrace it despite it being conjunct SN.

I don't know if it makes sense what I'm saying... I'm trying to clarify how we separate what we need to leave behind when it comes to the planet conjunct SN, from what we need to develop further.

But I think I'm starting to understand it based my personal experience... learning to not rely on my looks, charm and relationships has been a big theme in this lifetime (my mother played a big role - Moon conj. NN?). She taught me to always put my intellect and skills first. So I am more in science & engineering, and it's depressing a lot of times haha. It's been a good choice though considering all life circumstances. I had visions of some previous lives, but it's more based on various clues and feedback from people in this life, some of which I'm sure I knew before, that I think I was a good female singer once. But maybe I felt I didn't express my own creativity and personality. I don't know, there was something, I feel it based on interaction with someone who probably knew me well. Maybe my own creativity was in somebody's shadow and I used Venusian qualities to compensate.

And that's maybe the point of Leo NN in 12th - to use one's own creative voice. Without relying on anything external. Including relationships if Venus is involved. I don't know if I can catch up with training at this age (raw talent is there), but at this point, if I do anything creative, it will be only for the sake of it. Not for validation, money, attention etc.

@teasel, both Moon and Venus conjunct your SN? How do you feel that is playing out in your life?

posted March 06, 2025 08:41 AM            

Your life path really resonated.I wish I had a mother like that ( some sort of practical guidance) but mine was very supportive in many other ways. We were told that we were pretty and to search for husbands who would provide( it's my generation and culture).EDIT: Somehow, I always felt more of a significant connection to Jo March in Little Women.Tomboy and fledgling author.

Those links you provided are amazing.Thank you.

posted March 06, 2025 10:20 PM            

@odalix, I hear you, it can be tricky for a woman to navigate relationships and career, and parents at young age have a significant influence. We get something, lose something though. I had a difficult relationship with my mother otherwise. Regarding looks, I asked her once as a kid why everybody tells me I'm pretty, and she never does. She said because she didn't want me to think that matters much. And she told me to never depend on a man in any way. So she created an independent but single woman
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EDIT: Interesting examples. Your Moon (mother) conjuncts your SN and Saturn, and your mother was more conservative and traditional. I think this is a challenging combination. How is your relationship with her? My Moon conjuncts my NN, so my mother pushed me in the direction of the NN.
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I'll have Uranus opposite natal Uranus this year! So yes, there's this feeling of "it's now or never to make changes!". Also Uranus square Asc, Sun and Mercury. There's a lot going on. I started several somewhat creative projects. Science & engineering made sense, they enabled me to become completely independent, but they also caused me a lot of sadness and grief over time (also Chiron square this nodal axis, Moon and Venus). I was blessed with great physical appearance but I kept grinding behind a computer in a male dominated world. I kept wondering what the beauty is really for. Especially seeing other young women benefiting from it. It got me handsome men and some fun, almost like a parallel life, but ultimately, none of that was really fulfilling. It does feel satisfying to know I achieved everything by myself though. Looks fade. If I die tomorrow, I'd only regret I didn't dance and sing more, and created more joy for others. So, it's now or never hah! Working on it - some visual stuff, choir, I want to take more classes, try to produce some music etc (I already have some background in music).

In that sense I can relate to what you said about being creative and free spirited, dying to manifest but feeling blocked. You also have Leo NN, which is all about creative expression and doing it independently. But yours is 11th house so I'm not sure how to interpret that. There's still something collective about it.

@charlie, do you feel like it's really easy for you to be successful and expansive in your career, and people see you as a wise person? But you feel that's at the expense of your home life, and you need to devote time to your family? Does this resonate?
http://www.astrodetoks.com/en/nodes-and-karmic-astrology/
Jupiter conjunct South Node
describes someone who had acquired great knowledge and wisdom. He is leading a very spiritual life. Still he had not learned how to gain abundance in material terms. It is also possible that the person had acquired material wealth, but he loses it if he is too inclined to neglect his spiritual life. In both versions it is necessary to learn to integrate all knowledge and feel gratitude. This position teaches us to give to others, through money, knowledge or wisdom. Challenge in life arises if a person refuses to do so. We may come in contact with some ancient teaching, but now it brings us problems. This will be clearly reflected in low immunity. Now we need to find another teaching contrary to the last one we had so eagerly followed.

posted March 09, 2025 06:59 AM            

I do know about my past life. It was done for me in 2008 by a Reiki master. I took it with a grain of salt.
But also I had a vision of a last name a few years ago. It was my last name from that life with the information that lady gave me I was able to look myself up on Ancestry.com.
I found her and I have an appointment on Tuesday.

The Twin Flame spiritual awakening also triggered me having the past life confirmed.

posted March 09, 2025 11:40 AM            

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Originally posted by frida:

@SleepyDiary, duh, thank you for pointing that out! Yes, of course, it makes sense that Leo NN in 12th house is very creative. I get things mixed up sometimes because Venus rules my Taurus MC, so I associate it with my career. And Venus is beauty, voice/singing among other things. I'm definitely not bringing enough of it into my career currently.

Hm, when reading a chart with a planet conjunct SN, do we need to separate the pitfalls of that planet from the manifestation of it's strengths in our lives? E.g. Saturn is restriction and inhibition, and maybe there's karmic debt in that regard if it conjuncts SN, but it also represents good qualities such as discipline and hard work and we need to embrace those. In my case, Venus rules my Taurus MC so I have to embrace it despite it being conjunct SN.

I don't know if it makes sense what I'm saying... I'm trying to clarify how we separate what we need to leave behind when it comes to the planet conjunct SN, from what we need to develop further.

But I think I'm starting to understand it based my personal experience... learning to not rely on my looks, charm and relationships has been a big theme in this lifetime (my mother played a big role - Moon conj. NN?). She taught me to always put my intellect and skills first. So I am more in science & engineering, and it's depressing a lot of times haha. It's been a good choice though considering all life circumstances. I had visions of some previous lives, but it's more based on various clues and feedback from people in this life, some of which I'm sure I knew before, that I think I was a good female singer once. But maybe I felt I didn't express my own creativity and personality. I don't know, there was something, I feel it based on interaction with someone who probably knew me well. Maybe my own creativity was in somebody's shadow and I used Venusian qualities to compensate.

And that's maybe the point of Leo NN in 12th - to use one's own creative voice. Without relying on anything external. Including relationships if Venus is involved. I don't know if I can catch up with training at this age (raw talent is there), but at this point, if I do anything creative, it will be only for the sake of it. Not for validation, money, attention etc.

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posted March 11, 2025 01:20 AM            

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Originally posted by teasel:
I'm still trying to figure out how to respond. I'm still kind of out of it, after being sick.

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posted March 11, 2025 01:28 AM            

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Originally posted by frida:
[b]@teasel, I'm curious about past-life hypnosis sessions. I really don't know much about it. I was told some things about past lives by a shaman - I don't know how true they are, but they do align with my personality. I'm a lot more confident in the visions I had myself. I think knowing can be helpful to understand our current life and the path we are on.
In one vision, I was a child in a high status family, where both parents were busy and influential. I think that actually aligns with having Venus conjunct South Node now - being used to luxuries and having status thanks to relationships (saying it because you also have Venus on SN). In this life I was born in a poor family and did things myself. But I'm very good with people, so I created good relationships. I think you are very good with people too, based on your posts here.

@odalix, I hear you, it can be tricky for a woman to navigate relationships and career, and parents at young age have a significant influence. We get something, lose something though. I had a difficult relationship with my mother otherwise. Regarding looks, I asked her once as a kid why everybody tells me I'm pretty, and she never does. She said because she didn't want me to think that matters much. And she told me to never depend on a man in any way. So she created an independent but single woman
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EDIT: Interesting examples. Your Moon (mother) conjuncts your SN and Saturn, and your mother was more conservative and traditional. I think this is a challenging combination. How is your relationship with her? My Moon conjuncts my NN, so my mother pushed me in the direction of the NN.
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I'll have Uranus opposite natal Uranus this year! So yes, there's this feeling of "it's now or never to make changes!". Also Uranus square Asc, Sun and Mercury. There's a lot going on. I started several somewhat creative projects. Science & engineering made sense, they enabled me to become completely independent, but they also caused me a lot of sadness and grief over time (also Chiron square this nodal axis, Moon and Venus). I was blessed with great physical appearance but I kept grinding behind a computer in a male dominated world. I kept wondering what the beauty is really for. Especially seeing other young women benefiting from it. It got me handsome men and some fun, almost like a parallel life, but ultimately, none of that was really fulfilling. It does feel satisfying to know I achieved everything by myself though. Looks fade. If I die tomorrow, I'd only regret I didn't dance and sing more, and created more joy for others. So, it's now or never hah! Working on it - some visual stuff, choir, I want to take more classes, try to produce some music etc (I already have some background in music).

In that sense I can relate to what you said about being creative and free spirited, dying to manifest but feeling blocked. You also have Leo NN, which is all about creative expression and doing it independently. But yours is 11th house so I'm not sure how to interpret that. There's still something collective about it.

@charlie, do you feel like it's really easy for you to be successful and expansive in your career, and people see you as a wise person? But you feel that's at the expense of your home life, and you need to devote time to your family? Does this resonate?
http://www.astrodetoks.com/en/nodes-and-karmic-astrology/
Jupiter conjunct South Node
describes someone who had acquired great knowledge and wisdom. He is leading a very spiritual life. Still he had not learned how to gain abundance in material terms. It is also possible that the person had acquired material wealth, but he loses it if he is too inclined to neglect his spiritual life. In both versions it is necessary to learn to integrate all knowledge and feel gratitude. This position teaches us to give to others, through money, knowledge or wisdom. Challenge in life arises if a person refuses to do so. We may come in contact with some ancient teaching, but now it brings us problems. This will be clearly reflected in low immunity. Now we need to find another teaching contrary to the last one we had so eagerly followed.

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for what its worth in my experience past lives definitely have a lot of value and truth to them though i can't say in terms of charts just... i met a witch who did this ritual that made me remember **** . since then not only have i learned things i shouldn't know but i've met multiple people who have shared the memories along with them being historically accurate. i've been bitched at for things i've done well over 1000 years ago before 😁 i can say one life remembered there was wealth yeah, fair bit of it. born with it but it was earned too. nearly all of my lives have been military, and in that one i was in a very high position and i was good at it. so the wealth was earned too ultimately.

posted March 11, 2025 01:34 AM            

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Originally posted by teasel:
I'll try to reply in the next few days. I have ideas, like I used to be really creative, but I'm not anymore. I was told by a hypnotist/therapist, that I'm really analytical. I went to see her for a past-life hypnosis session, actually, in 2010. I couldn't relax enough, and can't remember what I did tell her, from the little I saw.

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posted March 11, 2025 01:39 AM            

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Originally posted by Dumuzi:
i can't imagine hypnosis working on me, the second someone expects me to focus on anything that's just not happening doesn't matter how relaxed i am. this guy i met (again? i spoke to him for a bit a year ago but forgot about him because i was probably too high to remember and i talk to a lot of people i don't necessarily pay attention to) back in january was able to pull some of his own memories up focusing on them and trying to like remote view them. for me the memories are more invasive but that's because of whatever was done to me. very effective, shame i don't have the details.

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Hi! And I'm the same way.

I did have a tiny bit of success with hypnosis CDs, back around 2003-2005, but for the most part, I got nothing. I would either fall asleep, or I'd be aware of everything around me. If I was feeling antsy, it would be even worse.

With the hypnotherapist, I felt like I was trying to get a result for her benefit, instead of saying I wasn't relaxed enough, or I wasn't getting much. I'd heard about people having these miraculous experiences, but I've never had one of those. The one thing I can remember, was my location being "Babylonia" one of the first times I tried. That jolted me awake.

And thanks. I'm a lot better than I was, a week ago.

posted March 11, 2025 01:54 AM            

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Originally posted by teasel:
Hi! And I'm the same way.

I did have a tiny bit of success with hypnosis CD, back around 2003-2005, but for the most part, I got nothing. I would either fall asleep, or I'd be aware of everything around me. If I was feeling antsy, it would be even worse.

With the hypnotherapist, I felt like I was trying to get a result for her benefit, instead of saying I wasn't relaxed enough, or I wasn't getting much. I'd heard about people having these miraculous experiences, but I've never had one of those. The one thing I can remember, was my location being "Babylonia" one of the first times I tried. That jolted me awake.

And thanks. I'm a lot better than I was, a week ago.

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i can't pay attention and listen like that unless i'm doing something with my hands which makes it difficult, i just tune **** out or my mind wanders. i do it during conversations even which is terrible but i can't help it. it's so bad sometimes i just default to pretending to not have to deal with it.

interesting i'm being plagued by rome (around late 3rd-early 4th century) and ww1 stuff currently.

that witch who did the thing to me taught me a meditation that ive had success with but it wasnt for anything specific more just multipurpose. i never had a deep desire to remember, but i haven't had a choice in it.

posted March 13, 2025 01:48 AM            

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Does anyone have planets conjunct their south node? How do you feel it plays out in your life? If anyone has any awareness of their past lives, do you see a connection?

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...I understand that going back to South Node sabotage us and prevent us from growing. Is there a point when it's OK and it's not really a sabotage?...

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well, I'd say that "negative" events trigger when you DEAL with the same people that were unfaithful to you before (in this life), why would you trust someone who defamed you? why would you believe the words of a fake friend? why would you simply... go to a place in which you feel absolutely uncomfortable? makes no sense at all.

If you repeat the pattern, meaning that... if you make those mistakes again, (reviving old unnecessary boundaries) bad events will trigger. Example: even more betrayal, even more "bad health", etc, and then... (only after then) you'll realize that people with CERTAIN FACES (meaning certain bone structures, same body-type, same genetic features, yeah... "same old faces" are, reappearing and reappearing again. THAT'S THE PROOF OF NEGATIVE PEOPLE (FOR YOU) in previous life times.

This is so interesting, that sometimes I believe that all the bad people are like a team... and they are always "bad" with proactive, cheerful, sparkling, lively people.

posted March 13, 2025 02:06 AM            

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Your Moon (mother)

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well, I don't know... saying the moon means "your mother" should be considered a brave opinion imo. Why? mothers/wives have always been represented by queens in tarot (empress) and in other symbolic cards (queen of clubs, queen of spades, etc).
All those queens (women such as mother/wives, etc) are related to the EMPRESS tarot card... and she has a big VENUS symbol paainted on it.

It looks like mr arthur waite and pamela colman wanted to make it clear.

MOON, moon is the unknown.
Moon is the opposite to the sun, it could be a severe bad illness, it could be anger in the environment, enemies...

posted March 13, 2025 08:13 AM            

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Originally posted by qonyofwands:
well, I don't know... saying the moon means "your mother" should be considered a brave opinion imo. Why? mothers/wives have always been represented by queens in tarot (empress) and in other symbolic cards (queen of clubs, queen of spades, etc).
All those queens (women such as mother/wives, etc) are related to the EMPRESS tarot card... and she has a big VENUS symbol paainted on it.

It looks like mr arthur waite and pamela colman wanted to make it clear.

MOON, moon is the unknown.
Moon is the opposite to the sun, it could be a severe bad illness, it could be anger in the environment, enemies...

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I was trying to extract part of a post addressed to me from Damuzi-in other words, it wasn't my take.sorry for the misunderstanding. Lots going on for me at the moment with this eclipse.

posted March 13, 2025 10:55 AM            

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Originally posted by odalix:
@Damuzi "EDIT: Interesting examples. Your Moon (mother) conjuncts your SN and Saturn, and your mother was more conservative and traditional. I think this is a challenging combination. How is your relationship with her? My Moon conjuncts my NN, so my mother pushed me in the direction of the NN."

It was a very confusing relationship-she came from a old school strict military background( no communication-children are seen and not heard) so what she said went and if it didn't,well..However, she supported me greatly in other ways later on in her life.

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posted March 13, 2025 04:49 PM            

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Originally posted by Dumuzi:
think you have me mistaken with someone else i have ketu/venus on my ascendant (in libra if we're using tropical) and my moon is actually with rahu (north node, accustomed to using rahu/ketu for them) in aries (if we're sticking to tropical) that's all squared by mars which is near my ic (might be conjunct i can't remember) so it's a t-square and then i have uranus-sextile/trine the nodes/planets, and mercury doing the same forming a kite. saturn just squares my sun

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