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Topic: Spiritual Awakenings So Much Love for All my heart is overflowing my heart is breaki
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LEXX
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posted April 17, 2011 03:23 PM
  
Not sure where I should be posting thisSpiritual Awakenings So Much Love for All my heart is overflowing my heart is breaking. I feel so much love for ALL, and the more I feel for everyone and I mean everyone, and the love is coming back to me in waves so strong and it flows back out and returns and
omg omg omg
I am lost in its waves, its sweet beauty its ever flowing power like nothing that mere words can ever begin to convey the feeling the intensity.....
Who will I be?
What is my purpose?
Something bigger than I could ever have imagined before now is happening to me within me around me.
I am weeping wailing howling trembling quaking at the intensity,
great exquisite joy
great compassion
unlimited love
an overpowering wholeness I am not able to process logically
and I wonder
am I going mad?
So many things have become clear!
But me
myself
is in stunned shock and the transforming the
metamorphosis go on and on
can't sleep much, don't need to
so excited and happy yes so overwhelmed yet
my heart is breaking
sweet painful ecstasy
the voice tells me
continue
ride the waves
there is no going back
............
I made a statement to God.
I used to say whilst in my times of deepest darkest dismal despair lying bleeding and numb in that deepest abyss of Absolute Abysmal Apathy.....
I would scream at God;
"I NEED" answers
I DEMAND them or I am walking out on this life!"
The voice would ask;
are you ready?
I would reply yes.
It would say;
"you could die"
I would say I do not care.
Always a series of epiphanies and awakenings would come.
A few days ago I did the same except,
unlike all the times before,
no demand no threats to God about killing myself, no mention of need,
only want this time. I said;
"God
I WANT answers, hit me hard as hard as you can!
Give me everything!"
I heard
"Yes YOU ARE ready". Unlike before;
"are you ready? "
but instead;
"YOU ARE ready".
Sense of beatific soul smiling within my being and the waves lifted me suddenly and
I am beyond overwhelmed.....
Several years of memories lost for 38 years after been struck by a car and flat lining/dying
have returned!
I have walked without my cane
my gallbladder is not hurting
my energy is so high I cannot sleep hardly at all.
The terror and the ecstasy is carrying me
and I do not know what, who I will be, where I will be.........
Going now
I know I sound crazy as all get out. ------------------
~The present time is theirs, but the future is mine.~Nikola Tesla
~There is no box.~H♥
~Balance is not letting anyone love you less than you love yourself.~Felipe
~I remember, therefore I am immortal~LEXX
~It is far better to regret wrong paths taken than to regret the paths not tried~Giselle
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lechien
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From: in a giant room with 2 little furry friends
Registered: May 2009
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posted April 17, 2011 04:30 PM
oh my god, LEXX, i am gasping as i read your text! what can i say, this sounds like all love. cleansing and transcending, i am so happy!  IP: Logged |
SunChild
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posted April 17, 2011 05:25 PM
*smiles*I'm so happy that you are happy Lexx and feeling all this Joy. Memories have returned? That must be the most precious gift ever!!! you don't sound crazy at all, but perfectly sane. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted April 17, 2011 05:31 PM
I don't know if this is the same experience I have heard some Christians have,Lexx.
I know how you feel about Christians so I was reluctant to answer but I have heard 3 stories of what is called "Baptism in Gods love" where people felt an overwhelming sense of God's presence and his love.
Their lives were changed ,forever.
If the Christian reference offends you,please ignore this post  ------------------
Life is lived in the sand box.
He who controls his Spirit is greater than he who controls a city
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lechien
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posted April 17, 2011 05:51 PM
it can be the same thing, just different names people with different beliefs give.  IP: Logged |
LEXX
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From: Still out looking for Schrodinger's cat.......& LEXIGRAMMING.♥.. is my Passion!
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posted April 17, 2011 07:20 PM
lechien
SunChild
Ami Anne
 PS.not offended.  IP: Logged |
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posted April 17, 2011 08:19 PM
These are the best of times! IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted April 17, 2011 08:33 PM
I am SOOOO interested in this,Lexx.I want to pick your brain when it is a good time  ------------------
Life is lived in the sand box.
He who controls his Spirit is greater than he who controls a city
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charmainec
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posted April 18, 2011 04:26 AM
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abcd efg
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posted April 18, 2011 05:54 AM
LEXX, i have no words for this. Is it possible to let others borrow your heart for a couple of seconds so that they can exactly feel and know how this experience is? Please ask that voice if this is possible. Its so ecstatic and overwhelming. My heart reaches out to you in these moments. Congratulations! Blowing Lots of kisses for you. I wish there was an emoticon for this here.IP: Logged |
iQ
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posted April 18, 2011 07:57 AM
A direct form of Release as a Divine Blessing. Well done Lexx! You deserve a great life ahead.IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
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posted April 18, 2011 08:46 AM
I am so excited about this happening to Lexx.I want to learn all about it.
It is SO awesome ------------------
Life is lived in the sand box.
He who controls his Spirit is greater than he who controls a city
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teasel
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posted April 18, 2011 07:06 PM
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LEXX
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From: Still out looking for Schrodinger's cat.......& LEXIGRAMMING.♥.. is my Passion!
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posted April 18, 2011 08:20 PM
I will update as soon as I can!
Still reeling! 
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~The present time is theirs, but the future is mine.~Nikola Tesla
~There is no box.~H♥
~Balance is not letting anyone love you less than you love yourself.~Felipe
~I remember, therefore I am immortal~LEXX
~It is far better to regret wrong paths taken than to regret the paths not tried~Giselle
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Ami Anne
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posted April 18, 2011 08:38 PM
quote:
Originally posted by LEXX:
I will update as soon as I can!
Still reeling!
So awesome Lexx ------------------
Life is lived in the sand box.
He who controls his Spirit is greater than he who controls a city
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daisyduquay
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From: Houston, TX USA
Registered: Apr 2011
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posted April 19, 2011 05:48 PM
Wow, my life verbatim.IP: Logged |
AbsintheDragonfly
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posted April 19, 2011 06:09 PM
Sending out the LOVE fairies  ------------------
We justify ourselves each time we take a breath... Me IP: Logged |
LEXX
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posted April 23, 2011 09:39 PM
Each of us is here to discover our true Self…
that essentially we are spiritual beings
who have taken manifestation in physical form…
that we‘re not human beings that have occasional spiritual experiences…
that we’re spiritual beings that have occasional human experiences.
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~The present time is theirs, but the future is mine.~Nikola Tesla
~There is no box.~H♥
~Balance is not letting anyone love you less than you love yourself.~Felipe
~I remember, therefore I am immortal~LEXX
~It is far better to regret wrong paths taken than to regret the paths not tried~Giselle
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LEXX
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From: Still out looking for Schrodinger's cat.......& LEXIGRAMMING.♥.. is my Passion!
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posted July 28, 2011 10:29 AM
Despite some freakish new bodily woes on top of my usual and hardships not going away......
I am still experiencing epiphany after epiphany, things I cannot share here, but oh my yes! Wondrous indeed!  ------------------
~I remember, therefore I am immortal~LEXX
~Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other."
~ Dalai Lama
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Cancer/Scorpio729
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posted July 28, 2011 01:36 PM
Wow  That's awesome!IP: Logged |
Lexxigramer
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From: The Etheric Realms...Still out looking for Schrodinger's cat...& LEXIGRAMMING.♥.. is my Passion!
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posted February 04, 2013 09:27 PM
Bumping this because of the
I love my life
thread. http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum25/HTML/003958.html
And because of this post quote:
Originally posted by Ceridwen:
I loved reading the responses and been surprised at how many there were.I have been in dark places myself, actually in constant transformation, but thought I`d like to share the good, too. Not just the dark. My mom tells me that one of her fondest memories of me as a little kid was when I was maybe 3 years old, and I was wrapping my arms around her and looking around me and with a sigh said: "Oh mommy, life is beautiful."
Though I don`t remember that occasion, I like that memory.
And sometimes, and even more often now, I can feel it from the bottom of my heart again. The beauty that is in life. And I am so thankful for being able to see it that way, cause I also remember how it was to look at the world with eyes that could only see grey and dull. So I am just celebrating having reconnected with myself and the world in general I guess. And sometimes I am so full of love with life that I fear I might explode, if I dont´t share it now and then.
Oh yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
See my initial post on this thread.
Life even with new woes on top of my other ones;
is still full of wonders and feeling love and happiness.
Savor the good things;
appreciate them;
take no one and nothing for granted;
and ride out the bad things.
Love and blessings to All  ------------------
NumeroLexigrams
~I remember,
therefore I am immortal
~Lexxigramer
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turquoiseturtle
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posted February 05, 2013 12:19 AM
I'm so happy for you!! Your words are so wise and full of Love and Joy!! And Life IS Beautiful. Love and blessings to you too Lexx! Yayyyy! IP: Logged |
Ceridwen
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posted February 05, 2013 11:07 AM
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