posted July 02, 2010 10:23 AM            

As mentioned in another thread, I recently got out of a relationship in which i was abused, everyone. It was a very short lived affair btw and this came very VERY unexpectedly.

So, Valus. I generally dont attract abusers or abuse. I have my own thoughts on my situation - which i happen to know much more about than you do. Dont try to turn it into something it's not, make me feel bad about it or act like you know what it's all about.

You do like to give people pain not to mention push people's buttons. This i know.

posted July 02, 2010 10:24 AM              

quote:

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if we can not give we can not recieve
if we can not recieve we can not give
the ability to do one relies solely on the ability to do the other.

i am quite amazing.

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Actually, that is pretty good.

posted July 02, 2010 10:26 AM              

I know more about my situation than you do, too.
More than anybody here does, though you all enjoy
judging me and my life and whatever you think you know.

It's really as simple as that.

posted July 02, 2010 10:27 AM              

You're right;
T is a superior painter.
Superior to me, at least.

I have no problem admitting that.

Sometimes,
when she shares her work,
I feel like I'm getting gold.

Or silver, maybe.
She never blew my mind.

And I don't sell copies
of every one of my insights
for a hundred dollars a pop.

Or make people wait three months
to receive a copy that was promised
to come within two weeks.

(T knows what I'm talking about.)

I give my work for free.

That's why I use the analogy
of somebody throwing gold, or
scattering it on the roadside.

I don't sell one illustrated insight,
or metaphor, for a hundred dollars.

With words,
I spin brilliant metaphors every day.

I shake them out of my sleeve,
and you can take or leave them.

No charge.

But maybe I'm being unfair.

I never could fully appreciate visual arts.

Nature always seems so much more beautiful,
and all you have to do is open your eyes.

As for peasants..

Peasants are the salt of the earth.

Nothing wrong with that.

We need lots of them,
and we have lots of them.

But there aren't many great kings left.

Valus

posted July 02, 2010 10:34 AM            

quote:

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And I don't sell copies
of every one of my insights
for a hundred dollars a pop.

Or make people wait three months
to receive a copy that was promised
to come within two weeks.

I give my work for free.

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I know youve been waiting so long to bring this up. I saw it almost come out onoce before.

Valus, I told Yin to name whatever price she thought it worth. I wouldve given it too her for five dollars.

Yes, i wasnt able to mail the print out right away it took way longer than I thought for many reasons. It was not three months though. This is VERY unlike me to not be right on top of. Unfortunately it had to happen to Yin. and it did cross my mind that-- oh Valus will LOVE to use this piece of info at some point. To try and make me feel like a horrible piece of **** .

And I was right.

I hope it makes you feel awesome now.

Yin didnt seem to have a problem with and understood I felt terrible and said it was okay and she forgave me. But that is Yin for you.

I also had it framed and matted which is very expensive. Part of the hold up was I had to wait extra long for the mat to be cut.

And because i felt so bad i sent her a pair of earrings I made for her. To try and somehow make up for the mistake I made.

I am not perfect like you Valus. At least I can admit it.

posted July 02, 2010 10:35 AM              

Don't worry about T

She's a rock.

posted July 02, 2010 10:37 AM            

You dont have to buy all kinds of supplies to write or type something out Valus.

Do you know how much money it costs to make prints of paintings? It's outrageous I learned and that's when I understood why some artists charge so much for their prints. It's not that they are being greedy, it's that they broke their bank making prints of their work.

posted July 02, 2010 10:39 AM            

Nobody can hurt her
unless she chooses it."

But you can have fun trying Valus.

posted July 02, 2010 10:40 AM              

quote:

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I am not perfect like you Valus. At least I can admit it.

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This is what I'm talking about. How many times do I have to admit and count my faults before people like you stop telling me I think I'm perfect and never admit things? You are so wrong. I always admit when somebody makes a good point against me. You never do.

Yin sent extra money to pay for
what you did to dress-up that copy.

Don't talk about me,
I won't talk about you.

And, btw, Yin thinks you're a flake.

She's just doesn't respect you enough
to bother with you the way I do.

posted July 02, 2010 10:42 AM              

yin - do you think t is a flake?

posted July 02, 2010 10:43 AM              

smiling to your face.
all the time they want to take your place.
backstabbers.

of course i think pillow talk should stay in the bedroom and things we say and trust our lovers with, should be kept between lovers.

posted July 02, 2010 10:46 AM              

But, you're right,
that's how value is defined in our society.

Well said.

Now, go further.

Define it for yourself.

Define it for real.

posted July 02, 2010 10:47 AM            

I ended up spending my own money and profited nothing off of that Valus. But that was fine by me becuase unfortunately circumstances made it so she had to wait for it. I felt terribly, but what could I do?

She said, after sending me fifty dollars, and asking if i'd have it matted too
that maybe she didnt send enough and sent more to my PayPal. I said no, it was fine.

PayPal takes awhile to make transfer into your bank account and at that time, if i remember correctly was when I didnt have any money for food and was living off of rice.

Anyway, the point is is that yeah, I'm a sh!tbag for all of this. Any time i have sent soemthing out to someone it has always been on time or early.

Unfortunately this didnt happen with Yin. I think she forgives me and doesnt think I should burn in hell for it

posted July 02, 2010 10:50 AM              

quote:

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i doubt yin would have said that
if she knew you were going to use it to hurt t.

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I used it make a point.

To correct a misjudgment.

And Yin won't be happy with me, lol.

So let's leave her out of it now.

My bad.

I'm too quick to tell the truth.

posted July 02, 2010 10:51 AM            

I knew he was just waiting for the perfect opportunity to let what he thought was a most horrendous thing out, cpn. That's how he operates and I was expecting it.

posted July 02, 2010 10:53 AM              

Hey, wait --

I'm a person, too!

"The poet stands among partial men
for the complete man." ~ Emerson