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Topic: silence rhymes with violence
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Ami Anne
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From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted January 17, 2011 03:15 AM
  
It is the middle of the night.I will be back tomorrow. I just wanted to say a few things.
One is that Randall has been so dear to me.
He role models life ,here,on LL.
I know he is gonna get all humble on me.
I could go on and on.
I am finally growing and healing.
Randall was one of the handful of people in my life to give me a hand up .
He could have easily squished me down and been "right"
I am ,finally, on the path to healing.
His support and mentoring have been one of the keys
I never forget when people show love to me.
I get RABIDLY loyal,if you have not noticed ( Hi PDF  )
I don't want to do that to an embarrassing degree so I will stop and just say 'Thank You" ,Randall.
You were right about what you said about forgiveness.
You can say anything to me and I will listen.
I hope I did not go on and on about you,Randall.
I prolly did .If so,forgive me,please.
Sometimes,it hits me to say what I need to say cuz maybe I won't be here to say it,tomorrow.
I don't mean that in a morbid way but just to tell people when you care cuz you don't want to leave things unsaid.
So, please allow my sentiments,Randall,with that thought in mind  ------------------
Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man.
You must face the dregs of Nessus to touch the love and beauty of Neptune.
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Ami Anne
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From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
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posted January 17, 2011 03:17 AM
Dear Fatinkerbel
Your writing is SO beautiful.
My Gemini is doing a dance.
Fatinkerbel, you were born to be a writer.
Is that your goal?
I LOVE it like I love "The Bell Jar"
I adore that book.
I could eat it up.
I could eat up your writing ,too.
Thank you for it.
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Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man.
You must face the dregs of Nessus to touch the love and beauty of Neptune.
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Ami Anne
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posted January 17, 2011 09:56 AM
I just want to tell you,Fatinkerbel,or anyone who is listening.
As you heal, the grief is HORRIBLE.It it the grief of throwing away your life for garbage reasons--all lies you believed.
I try to let the grief/sadness/depression just come and go as it wants.
I do Kundalini Yoga as a way to dispel it but it hurts so badly.
This will happen.
I just wanted you to know that ------------------
Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man.
You must face the dregs of Nessus to touch the love and beauty of Neptune.
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Randall
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From: From a galaxy, far, far away...
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posted January 17, 2011 10:33 AM
Thanks, Ami. You give me too much credit.IP: Logged |
fatinkerbel
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From: South Korea
Registered: Nov 2010
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posted January 17, 2011 05:33 PM
Ami I wanted to become a writer long ago but I'm not much good at writing fiction ... I've tried! But it comes out very silly ... I can't make up stories! Too Saggitarian (truthful) maybe. I actually prefer writing lyrics and poems and weird prose ... anyways I'm not focusing on that so much now but thank you for your kind words about my writing : ) Words are cool.------------------
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fatinkerbel
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posted January 17, 2011 05:36 PM
As for Randall I suspect he's one of those annoying people who is always right : ) I mean it! My mom is like that. I mean certain people just seem to be more attuned than others to their Higher S(Elf)!. So Randall, if you should ever consider giving me advice I swear upon my word of honour that I will seriously consider thinking about turning it over in my mind. And that's more than I can say for most people ... After all, you can't argue with infinity squared!
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Randall
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posted January 17, 2011 06:37 PM
I'm not always right. lol But I do try to always see the big picture and try to never be petty. I often see people who are so blind to things, but you have to let people learn on their own sometimes.  ------------------
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Ami Anne
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From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
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posted January 17, 2011 06:39 PM
Fatinkerbel
You MUST write your story ,some day,in a novel.
You MUST.
People must hear it.
I want to pray that God opens those doors for you.
Is that something YOU want??------------------
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fatinkerbel
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posted January 17, 2011 10:28 PM
Ami actually I have written the story and I DO want it to be published ... there are nine chapters alltogether, of which the extract on here is basically the core of the middle three chapters. I guess it could use some more work but it's basically ready to show to agents and publishers and I've sent it to some agents in the USA and to a publisher in South Africa and I got one rejection slip so far but I'll keep trying. Wait let me get the rejection slip out of its folder... (rejection slips are cool, at least they say someone read your stuff! : )------------------
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fatinkerbel
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posted January 17, 2011 10:29 PM
An Open Minded Girl: Dan=maged by Incest
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To: fatinkerbell@yahoo.co.uk Dear Christine, Thank you for sending your story through to Penguin. We have now had a chance to review the material you sent through, and it is with regret that I must tell you that we have decided not to pursue publication. The material is certainly interesting and your story and observations make absorbing reading. However, the book trade has been inundated with biographies and memoirs over the past 12 months or so, and there has been a noticeable slowing of sales in this genre, with the exception of really high profile political and sports figures. With the best will in the world, the investment required and the quantity that we could realistically sell just do not make commercial sense for us and it is with genuine regret that we¡¯re not able to make you an offer to publish. I suggest you contact the Publishers¡¯ Association of South Africa (PASA) on (021) 425-2721 (or go to www.publishsa.co.za) who will be able to give you the details of other publishing companies operating in the country. The following publications also contain much useful information for writers wanting to get published: The Writer¡¯s Handbook, edited by Barry Turner (Macmillan), and How To Get Your Book Published in 30 (relatively) Easy Steps by Basil van Rooyen (Penguin Books). I do wish you every success with your book and hope that you will find a comfortable home for it. Kind regards, Jamie Crowther Jamie Crowther Publishing Assistant Penguin Books South Africa Tel: +27 11 327 3550 Fax: +27 11 327 6574 or 086 570 7089 Email: jamie.crowther@za.penguingroup.com Website: http://www.penguinbooks.co.za Physical address: 24 Sturdee Avenue , Rosebank, 2196 Postal address: PO Box 9 , Parklands 2121 Follow us on
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fatinkerbel
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posted January 17, 2011 10:32 PM
Cool huh? To be honest I don't know exactly what to do next ... my feeling is I should let a little time go by and maybe get another new perspective ... after all it's only a short time ago that I began therapy so I feel as if there is something yet to come and I can't write what hasn't happened yet ... With "what happened yet" I mean to refer to stuff inside me ... You know like it's like I don't have closure so my 'novel' lacks a (haha) climax, you know?------------------
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fatinkerbel
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posted January 17, 2011 10:38 PM
So ... Randall ... when was the last time you were wrong? As for me, I once thought I was wrong, but I was mistaken. Hahaha again. Sorry I think I've got to wait until my brain is clearer because I'm making silly jokes that might not be funny ... mmm ... My brain is tired after watching The Hunchback of Notre Dame in Korean for the second time this morning, followed by Karate Kid the new version for the third time, and Karate Kid the original ... and then on to an Interview between Mick Jagger and Larry King. Why am I listening to all these weird disparate things? Well, because I'm an English teacher in Korea at the end of my energy and I'm kinda scraping the bottom of the barrel in terms of what I dish up to the students. But I mean, EVERYBODY has to see the Karate Kid. I try to model myself on the peculiar teacher that gets students to do stuff before explaining to them WHY ... mmm sneaky. Wax on. Wax off. Who's your role model in terms of mentors Randall, besides Linda Goodman herself of course?------------------
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NickiG
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From: Pluto, next to Ami Ann
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posted January 17, 2011 10:38 PM
wow...its pretty cool that they referred you to another company so that you dont loose hope totallyedit: OMFG!!! i love the karate kid, i have all 4 of the original movies...cant wait to get the new one!! ------------------
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fatinkerbel
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posted January 17, 2011 11:06 PM
The new one is soooo cool. Even though many changes have been made it's still in a way exactly the same story and its very faithful to the spirit of the original!------------------
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NickiG
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posted January 17, 2011 11:08 PM
yes it was...its also a lot more serious than the original...i'v never seen Jackie Chan so dramatic before, crazy------------------
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Randall
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posted January 17, 2011 11:21 PM
I once thought I wasn't awesome...but I was wrong.IP: Logged |
NickiG
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posted January 17, 2011 11:24 PM
i once thought that about myself too...but then i began to notice how quickly i made friends and how often they told me i'm "colorful"...i began to rethink what i thought about myself, lol------------------
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fatinkerbel
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posted January 18, 2011 01:12 AM
lol
Randall, how could you possibly ever have doubted your awesomeness?? It mystifies me but also gives me hope for myself!!
Nicki ... Ja, I totally know what you mean Jackie Chan was really reaching down deep inside ... It's weird how seldom it happens that an actor is given a chance to show a different side of themselves you know? Anyway, I didn't see ALL the first movies ... I think only 1 and 2 ? I had SUCH a crush on Ralph Macchio as a kid. Have you ever seen him in the film Crossroads where he plays blues guitar ... ah man! Anyway that movie also stars my heart-throb and perfect man prototype, guitar-avatar, Steve Vai ... leeeet's see if I can find a clip on YouTube (you can tell I've got nothing to do and am bored ay work cantcha?) : )------------------
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fatinkerbel
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posted January 18, 2011 01:13 AM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NPB2qbxuiLM ------------------
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NickiG
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posted January 18, 2011 01:16 AM
quote:
Originally posted by fatinkerbel:
lol
Randall, how could you possibly ever have doubted your awesomeness?? It mystifies me but also gives me hope for myself!!
Nicki ... Ja, I totally know what you mean Jackie Chan was really reaching down deep inside ... It's weird how seldom it happens that an actor is given a chance to show a different side of themselves you know? Anyway, I didn't see ALL the first movies ... I think only 1 and 2 ? I had SUCH a crush on Ralph Macchio as a kid. Have you ever seen him in the film Crossroads where he plays blues guitar ... ah man! Anyway that movie also stars my heart-throb and perfect man prototype, guitar-avatar, Steve Vai ... leeeet's see if I can find a clip on YouTube (you can tell I've got nothing to do and am bored ay work cantcha?) : )
yes, i saw crossroads..really good movie...the 4th movie didnt have ralph in it...instead miyagi has a female student...in the third daniel and miyagi open a bansai store...i havent got much else to do too, LOL edit: DANG, when steve fell to the floor and looked up at ralph through his hair it was the coolest/creepiest look ever, lol ------------------
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fatinkerbel
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posted January 18, 2011 02:09 AM
Wow ... I'll look out for Karate Kid 3 and 4 then ... now that you mention the female student that rings a bell. Yup, Steve Vai is a real looker, hahaha ... Well he's actually a Very Bad Actor because he is unbeatable on the guitar and would NEVER mess up like that. As for cool and creepy ... uhm ... is there a difference? : D Anyway in the movie Steve Vai plays the devil ... there's a blues legend that if you wanna play guitar real good you go to a crossroads at night and call the devil and then offer your soul in exchange for the usual, fame, fortune, but most importantly, the ability to play REAL blues. So in this scene the devil (creepy cool Mr. Vai) is battling "Daniel-san" for his soul, because the only way you can get out of the deal is to beat the devil of course. But don't you hate it when someone can do EVERYTHING like do karate AND play guitar!!!!!!!!!!! OK I know it's just a movie but Ralph Macchio is quite convincing as a guitar virtuouso! ------------------
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fatinkerbel
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posted January 18, 2011 02:24 AM
Anyway finally it's quittin' time so till laters alligators.------------------
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Ami Anne
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posted January 18, 2011 10:18 AM
If Randall comes to our corner of the world,we are gonna be kissing his face  ------------------
Jesus never put his trust in man cuz he knew what was in man.
You must face,touch and feel the dregs of Nessus before you can grasp the pristine beauty of Neptune.
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Ami Anne
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posted January 18, 2011 10:28 AM
Dear Fatinkerbel
I AGREE about the story not finished enough to write although with the Bell Jar it was not finished either.
However,I do see how you have gaps you will fill in as you heal.
Perhaps, the book is waiting for THIS birth in you before you can birth it.
I bet this is the case. WHEN you do publish it,I would like to be involved,somehow,if only for support.
I can't see the practicalities of it but I want to be part of it ,if you will allow me.
Your story has already freed ME in some deep,non tangible way.
The Bell Jar did that. Every time I read it,it gave me back to myself. *I* think you were born to write.
Do you feel that ,Fatinkerbel?
Do you feel that your purposeis to be a writer?
I,recently, found my purpose when I started doing psychic readings.
I never really fit in anything I did.
I tried to fit and I fit,partially,but never wholly.
When I do psychic readings,I fit ,totally.
Now,I know what it means when someone says that you have found your purpose ------------------
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posted January 18, 2011 11:50 AM
It's so strange finding this thread on here today of all days.My father is a sick pervert. He's horrible. Behaves like a haughty, spoiled, heartless child. Seeks revenge when I so much as win an intellectual argument against him. Stands about and gloats at me after his "revenge" has been implemented. He has been terribly abusive physically and psychologically since I was a small child, and sexually since I was 11. Last night, he showed a marked interest in my five year old niece, after my sister protested picking her up and swinging her around because her underwear would show. Well, my father made a point of looking directly at my niece's crotch, and then directly in to my eyes and making this "Ooooh ooooh oooh" facial expression. Like this five year old girl exposing her underwear was quite an interesting little treat for him and he wanted to make sure I saw that. So I went on a rampage last night, threatening to kill him of he did anything to her, and he behaved arrogantly, sooo arrogantly. It was disgusting. I can't even begin to describe. My mother is unbelievable as well. Words can not even begin to describe. I don't know where to begin. Apparently, my mother finds her personal comfort far more important than the safety or well-being of her children or grandchildren. I am seriously at the point of killing him. I have a friend that has offered his help. IP: Logged |
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